Crimson Vengeance
Slipping. I could sense it today.
Must be because I'm overwhelmed. So much happens at once.


The Great Neopian Depression.
Disaster.
..you know the login page? Well if you forget your password they have a page to click on where you enter your username. Well.. this time.. if you entered your username it displayed your email and password on the page instead of emailing it to you personally. Glitch. If it wasn't your username you looked up? Hacking. Hacking with the glitch... Thrilling.
Over 500 accounts totalled. Mass chaos. Clips from Borovan/Adam.. he semi-cursed. Macho.
Many left.
Hrobi and featheralley frozen for their protection.
I'm on the down low. Absolutely no posting anywhere.


So pissed. Nature and Deb tried to suspend the guild for safety. Bit reckless. Kicked out a few players. Guess who's lucky? -.-


Now guess who is back!
Post on the diary and she'll post back. I knew she would. Took me 76 days to do it.

>> Fourth!?! Yes, yes there is a fourth. Kris! ;.; *hugs really tight* Oh my GOD you scared me so much! I only got this hug and a big ^_^ and and and I looked for you, I did! I looked for you on AIM but you weren't there! I thought you did something bad ;.;.. T_T *clings*

That email I sent long ago. Though if her connection was down I guess she just recently looked for me. Not hard enough I'll say. And without a reply to the email.
That's Kai-chan by the way.


My military friend... God how I worry. He sent me an email like.. a month ago....... and I didn't reply to it. Couldn't.... But... he hasn't written me any others... no jokes or random emails without a message either..
I want to email him.. I do... but... mmmmm.
Snapping.


My stalker friend. He's so sweet and always makes me feel better. Been away often lately though. Last night he came to me with some relationship trouble. I think I could finally actually offer some advice on the subject..

Kyo's changed. It's in the way he responds to me. After I told him he was different but didn't say why... I think he figured it out. So we tried again. But he did the world famous: put the away message saying you've gone out or what not without telling me so that after like a half hour I have to check and see his status manually. Daggers. Push me further.


What else?

I have random, sudden, major bouts of being really tired. Like all of a sudden I'll just be at the point of if I close my eyes I'll be asleep. It's freaky and really aggravating.

State Solo/Ensemble is.. tomorrow. TOMORROW! Have we practiced? No. Is Leah really sick? Yes. Should we play? Dunno but I'm not staying in school.

States for Math are in less than 2 weeks. Missing school for that.

Other things like that.. trips and concerts and performances and going out on weekends and something.. there's something...

It gets hungry.
But it's never full.
Feed it?
Don't get near it!
It'll never leave you alone then.
Sacrifice for a friend?
Why get near it?
It'll haunt you now.
Be afraid.


I'm trying to write... I need to write... need to...

Fears.

..help......

2 glances | Never look back.