There is a wound that's always bleeding.
There is a road I'm always walking.
And I know you'll never return to this place .

Been dealing with a lot lately.

Trying to move forward with my life, trying to change things, make things happen. New year, new me right? Maybe it was the new year or maybe it was the signifigance I put on turning 20? Whatever the reason... in most ways I've been doing really well.. working on my fitness, got a new job in September that I love, quit the overnight job that I had been working since October (that I hated!) took up yoga again, and pole dancing again :) Been making more of an effort to establish myself, figure myself out and discover more about myself. All in all those things are going fairly well.

I have realized a lot in the past two months, and I have changed a lot. I'm trying to let go of a lot of agression and sadness that i've harboured. I'm trying to see things in a new light, and making an honest effort to look at the positive aspects of things... its definately not an easy thing for me but I am trying. I'm also realizing to appreciate and accept myself. I realize these changes don't just happen over night, and that there will be setbacks along the way.
This isn't all coming out the way I want, it seems sort of scatterbrained in a sense... could be because its almost 3am and I'm pretty tired or that im just so eager to write that everything is just kinda pouring out.

The only way to end this, that best describes where I am currently at and completely contradicts half of what I said... but for all the right reasons, is this...
A memory that could hold me back.

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