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2004 29 March :: 10.10pm
:: Music: Coutney Love
whats up? Well I had an ok day, Last night was pretty bad because I kept waking up in the middle of the night and having wierd almost like panick attack things. I would just like freak out and stuff and I got really scared and thought people were there when they werent and stuff.......ya it sounds like the things I had before. Somethings fucked up with me and its probably because i havent taken my pills in forever but w/e well ya anyways today was a typical monday go to math flunk a test, whatch a boring science video, have a double block of socials doing nothing, go to strings, go to my first day of cooking and it was really boring then english and it was pretty cool, we played a game thing and we got fortune cookies. I went to Rachaels today after school and we didnt really do much but it was fun...........ya
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2004 29 March :: 12.20am
:: Mood: bitchy
Hey, I spent Saturday afternoon with my sister and we went to mc donalds and i bought her a happy meal it was fun. Then I had a very very boring night at my dads, we ordered chinese food and then i talked on the phone with Tommy for 2 hours while his rabbit humped a ballon and then the ballon poped. Today I had to go to my grandmas 75th birthday party it was ok, it was at a restaraunt and ya i had cake. Tonight i had mc donalds again with tianna......god i must be getting fat, meh thats all for now
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2004 26 March :: 11.02pm
There's a shadow just behind me
shrouding every step I take
making every promise empty
pointing every finger at me.
Waiting like a stalking butler
who upon the finger rests.
Murder now the path called "must we"
just because the son has come.
Jesus won't you fucking whistle
something but the past and done?
Jesus won't you fucking whistle
something but the past and done?
Why can't we not be sober?
I just want to start this over.
Why can't we drink forever.
I just want to start things over.
I am just a worthless liar.
I am just an imbecile.
I will only complicate you.
Trust in me and fall as well.
I will find a center in you.
I will chew it up and leave,
I will work to elevate you
just enough to bring you down.
Mother Mary won't you whisper
something but what's past and done.
Mother Mary won't you whisper
something but what's past and done.
Why can't we not be sober?
I just want to start this over.
Why can't we drink forever.
I just want to start things over.
I am just a worthless liar.
I am just an imbecile.
I will only complicate you.
Trust in me and fall as well.
I will find a center in you.
I will chew it up and leave,
Trust me.
Trust me.
Trust me.
Trudt me.
Why can't we not be sober?
I just want to start this over.
Why can't we drink forever.
I just want to start things over.
I want what I want.
- Tool, Sober
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2004 21 March :: 1.48pm
Hey, Im bored and confused Its my last day of spring break and I have no idea what to do. I know I have homework and shit but I can do it later........ya this entry was pointless
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2004 20 March :: 6.14pm
Woah! I hadnt relized that it had been 8 days since i updated I thought i updated when i got home from my dads but i guess not lol. Ok so on Friday night (FIRST NIGHT OF SPRING BREAK:D) I spent the night at my dads it was really incredibly boring. On satruday me and Jodi hung out and went to the mall and stuff it was also boring and I spent Sunday and Monday night at my dads to and it was really boring so my first weekend of spring break was insanly boring and ya. Then on monday i had to go to the psychiatrist and the lady person who is my psychiatrist is a bitch! shes so gah i really dont like her so I was really rude to her and it was fun. and ya thats about all I have to say soooooooooooo byezzzzzzz
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2004 20 March :: 6.03pm
:: Mood: gloomy
:: Music: Tool
ugh, Hey sorry i havent updated in awhile its just like spring break and ive been out alot. I went downtown on wednesday with my mom and sister it was fun we went to alot of cool shops and i got my hoodie and a nirvana patch and some pants and stuff. Then we met my brother, his g/f and my nefew for lunch it was pretty cool. Then we just hung out and stuff. On wednesday night i had a sleepover at Tiannas and it was fun, then on thursday we went downtown and hung out i bought not much lol. I slept over at my brothers thursday night and stayed there friday and i beat him at monopoly!! ehehe i didnt get to bed until really late and them my nefew woke up at 6:30 and woke me up because he was crying and stuff. Last night i had to babysit from 6 until 2:30 it sucked sooo much! Kyla whos 9 wouldnt go to sleep and was really really annoying Blake whos 8 was pretty good but he was kinda hyper and Cole whos almost 2 cried and cried, I felt bad because hes sick but he went to bed at 8 but kept waking up crying so i just rubbed his back and then he would go back to sleep. I was well wasted by the time i finally got in to bed (I spent the night there) It was about 3 when i finally crashed and then Cole woke up repetedly during the night crying for long periods of time then I got woken up at 10 so today is just a really lazy day. I have to babysit them again tonight but not for as long thank god. So ya thats about all thats been happening latly and stuff. Well im off cya
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2004 11 March :: 10.29am
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: Divinyls
Andy likes to mutilate cute and fluffy objects or living animals. Obviously he's a pretty sane kid
lol Andy stick is so cool! I love him
I made pie last night and it didnt really turn out, it was more like a custard which sucked but it was still pretty good. hmmmm well theres not to much new thats going on with me except umm nothing, I did pick my electives for highschool on yesterday and im going to take spanish 9, french 9 and art 9 yup thoese are my electives once i get in to them i will probably regret taking them especailly french and spanish, art I probably wont mind cause i like art and ya.
I paint a rainbow on wood yesterday:D It looks pretty well im gonna go do something that isnt constructive as usual byez
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2004 7 March :: 1.43pm
:: Mood: weird
:: Music: Bright eyes
Hey, Im home!! thank god:D I hated that fucking place it sucked so much. The best part was the ferry rides there and back, I got motion sickness both times on the school bus which really sucked. Ok so I will tell you about it. We went to school and the bus came around 8:00 then we loaded our stuff on and drove for 2 hours to Nanimo thats where we took the first ferry and it was a 1 hour and 35 minute ride it was pretty fun Jade, Erin, Tianna, Rachel and I all hung out. Then after that we arrived at horseshoe bay and had to wait awhile until the next ferry came and it was only a 45 minute ferry ride to langdale. Then we got on these school buses and drove for another 2 hours to Egmont. Then we got off and all went in to the dinning hall and stuff and talked about rules and shit then we got to go to are cabins and put are stuff away. Then the bell rang and we all went down to the lodge and played a game after that we went back to our cabins to sleep but Jade, Erin, Rachel and me couldnt sleep so we were running around being loud and stuff that night we didnt have an adult in our cabin but since we were noisy and stuff we had an adult the next night so we were all pissed off about that and we still talked all night so the next morning we all got woken up at 7:30 and had to run down to the dock in 90 seconds and back which isnt easy then we got in trouble. anyhoo on tuesday we got split in to groups and my only friend in my group was Jade:( But tuesday we had kayaking all morning and it was so fucking cold and in the afternoon we went on a 2 hour hike and it was really boring. Then on wednesday we had archery and the ropes course and it was pretty fun. On Thursday we did orientiring and me Jade and Nadine all got lost and stuck in some thick bushes and it really sucked. Thrusday afternoon was sooooo boring cause we did drama and it was really boring. Thursday night we all had to do drama skits and most of them were pretty good but some of them sucked. O and every night we had to play a stupid game in the dark and it was boring, It was also freezing the whole time and i was soooooo fricken cold the whole trip. gah im bored of typing so I will tell you the rest later byez
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2004 29 February :: 9.19pm
:: Mood: giddy
HEY! I go to WCWL tommorow! so this will be my last entry for five days:( But I will have fun............i hope. Im in a cabin with Jade, Erin, Tianna, Cara, Tisley and Danika. I will probably have a big entry to write when i get back and im going to take loadsa pics. Jades dog Lala died yesterday it was really sad and shocking. I feel so bad because I loved Lala and It was sad. It all happend so unexpectedly because one minute she was fine then she was sick and so they took her to the vet at night and he said she had cancer and something in her stomach burst and her stomach was filled with blood. Jades really upset so she will be bumed out which sucks cause it will make me feel bad. anyways i will write later, I will miss everyone! *hugz* ha i sound so stupid meheheh! byeeeeeeeeeeeee
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2004 27 February :: 5.26pm
:: Mood: sore
:: Music: black eyed peas
Hey, Im still sick:( Ive been coughing so much and i pulled a muscle in my back from it and it hurts. I have the rest of the weekend to get better because im going on my trip on Monday. I have to go to my dads on Satuday and spend the night there and i really dont want to but meh. Since I didnt go to school today i missed are toga partie:( lol im not totally sad about it but i wish i could have gone. anywhoo I slept alot today and I watched soap operas on tv and they made me cry, ya I know im pretty sad but meh. well i guess thats all for now byez
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2004 22 February :: 4.10pm
:: Mood: shocked
Hey, I just got home from the hospital I saw Jeff and it just shocked me. I was almost crying. Debbie was crying and it made me feel soooooooo bad, Hes really messed up and hes waiting to get in to sergery but it will take awhile and they have to transfer him to another hospital. Im kind of just really really shocked/worried/sad. I also read the artical in the paper and saw there car and it was horrible. hmmm ya *sigh*
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2004 22 February :: 1.20am
:: Mood: worried
:: Music: Blink 182
Hey, My moms best friends son got in a car accident last night at 3am. There was five people in the car, he wasnt driving but they are all really hurt. There all in emergency waiting for surgery and my mom was at the hospital most of today. Jeff (the dude) broke his back, arm and leg and the car is totally messed. I hate car accidents there so scary I feel really bad for Debbie and Keith (my moms friends) anywhoo today i went to Kylas and we hung out most of the afternoon it was pretty fun then I came home and i think my sister was sniffing something again cause her pupils were dialated and she was acting like she was the last time she had sniffed something. She was throwing stuff around and getting mad and swearing and her friend came over and so I left because it was starting to piss me off cause I hate it when she does shit like that, I went to a movie with Jade we saw 50 first dates and it was pretty good It was really funny. Then we went to timmys and had hot chocolate and then I came home and whatever Jodi took had worn off and so she was just sitting on the computer looking really tired. My mom got home from the hospital about 5 minutes ago and ya so I had a busy and eventful day. Well Im gonna crash cause Im way tired I'll update soon cya
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2004 21 February :: 1.43am
:: Mood: tired
Hey im just updating cause im bored. My sister has been cutting again this time its alot worse shes engraving stuff in her wrist like fuck and its not good. Plus shes dressing really trashy and she looks like a crack whore, my mom cant handle her much anymore because shes rude and doesnt listen and shes very self centered and concieted. So my moms sending her to a psychiatrist and Jodi doesnt want to go so shes not going to talk and my mom says if the psychiatrist doesnt help she will send her to my dads but my dad hates us and we all fight alot with him so he wouldnt take her because he also thinks she dresses trasy but hes a fuckface and anywhoo he most likly wont take her so she will prolly get put in foster care:( Or she will run away if my mom sends her to dads and not to mention shes going to start getting in to drugs. Christ my life consists of one problem after another.
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2004 16 February :: 8.43pm
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: Our lady peace
Sup bitches!!!!!!! ha im really hmmish cause idk i was dancing and me and rachel and tianna made up a dance and its hella trippy. I made a block of wood in woodwork today it was cool all i did was cut out a block of wood and sadly it took me like half an hour. My friend has anorexia:( its scares me because im afraid something bad will happen because it has been going on for awhile, her parents dont seem to care though. She told me and Erin today and we promised we wouldnt tell but we went to someone for advice and they told:( I will write about it later though because i dont feel up to writing much right now. so ya ill write later
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2004 15 February :: 9.40pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: afi
Hey, Valentines day sucked. I hung out with Jodi and Natalie and we didnt do much but we did go to the old abondond christine center and went in to one of the back closed off places and hung out. it was boring I hate going to my dads. And ya today we did nothing at my dads as usual anywhoo im gonna go write later byez
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