i want to be free
there isnt a digruntled word long enough to express my digruntled-ness at the moment.
sometimes i wish i could be someone else for just a little while.
the way i see it is when im sick of my self, i go any be someone else for a couple days, then come back. like a little vacation.
it would be perfect for when i get sick of myself.
like now.
i wish i could get away from myself. it is as if there is this awful voice in the back at my head that never leaves.
e gad

im off
*Ana

you and i will drown
Finish each sentence.

Let's walk in the: rain
Let's run through: the puddles
Let's look at the: the painting
Who are those: people
What a nice: day
Where did all these: days go?
When will they: stop?
How are your: parents?
Why can't you: love me?
So where did you find: that ass kicking song.
Sing the: sorrow ( haha im lame)
Easier than: baking a cake.
Closer than: this.
Look at my: picture
I'll stay if: you talk.
Silly little: child.
Show me some: skin
The sky is: black
Tell me a: secret
Hide me: under the covers
Love me: like you should.
Grab the: keys.
My mom thinks you're: cute.
He's not: alright
Are you that: lonely?
I missed: him.
Can't you: just stop?
Lovely little: diddy.

i should have a crwon lol.
bye all
*Ana

id die in your arms if you were dead too
hah.
totally failed my bio exam. did scholes even teach about the parts of a microscope? didnt think so. o well. this week has been so boring and crappy, i cant wait for the weekend.
totally awesome: kristie can come to france w. me this summer.
the down side, its a church trip so we'll be with a bunch of old ladies.
creepy.
having her there will make it like a million times better. being somewhere totally new with old women by myself would be so boring. my grandmother doesnt really want her to come. haha.
my mood just got 110x better. lol.
woah. had this freaky dream that i was pregnant, and i was living in my old rhode island house, and i had to jump out my old window to catch a bus to school. and i was in ceramics class my teacher told me my baby was going to be a girl.
that was sooo crazy.
i think its cause this girl i know is pregnant, and i was thinking about it.
gotta go :)

*Ana

i shouldnt tell you, but i love you
there's this blue-eyed boy i know
i see him maybe twice a year
he's an angel in disguise
when he smiles from ear to ear.
everyone's got a gripping stranger
someone that you adore
could be your closest friend
or someone you've never spoken to before.
but this stranger is special
unlike anyone you know
if they asked you to run away with them
you'd most certainly go.
you don't know why, you don't know how
this person is so dear
but who needs explanations?
when the obvious is quite clear.
blue-eyed boy, my darling
tell me, why the delay?
all you have to do is say the words
and then we can run away.
it doesn't have to be forever
just for a little while
i'll promise you perfection
if you promise me a smile.

got this off a website, i cant remember the name, but the girl who runs it kicks ass.
too bad i dont know any guys with blue eyes...

*Ana

im so fucking good i should have a cherry on top
this weekend has been so boring. all i did was my art assignment and go to church. gah. oh to people who have ball and need some help on your novel analysis go to sparknotes.com, they might have your book, and they have good notes on them. the one for my book helped me out alot. i dont usually analyze books when i read them so. yeah.
my aunt cut my hair yesterday. it is now the shortest it has just about ever been. she gave me bangs. my aunt was like i think ill make these shorter and i was about to say no and she cut them! i almost had a heart attack. but i think they look really good so its alright. i have to keep pins with me now because i cant work with hair in my face.
im still not done my art assignment. and it is due tomorrow. it will get done though.
i want to do an extra good job this year, because im going to try out for major track. im really nervous about it and its not for awhile.
my brother might be trying out for band this year. im really excited for him. :). i hope he cant get in and whatnot. that would kick ass.

*Ana

whats gotten into me? i cant believe my self, i must be someone else
ahh im so happy its the weekend.
this week went by really fast too, which i like a lot, maybe the next 3 years will go by the same way.
the pep rally was lame, but at least we didnt have to go out and do all that pep rally crap.
i have ceramics second, it was great, our teacher brought us snacks and we watched a bunch of cartoons on homestar runner.
i was in roeders rooms for the pep rally though, which was actually a big mistake, because now karens pissed at me.
i really have to start on my novel analysis for mrs ball this weekend, so i think i will do that sometime. im reading the scarlet letter. i think the juniors are reading it too. i encountered two today who were reading it.
mrs miller told me i got an 88 on my math test, which im happy about. biology scares me, since everyone tells me how hard the class is and shit i automatically think im going to do bad. it feels like i am already. scholes isnt even here, we have mr gordon for a sub...hes creepy.
my aunt is cutting my hair this weekend. its already really short...for me anyway and its still all gross and dry and dead so just a few more inches, it will grow back. hehh
im gunna go

*Ana

i think i made you up inside my head
lol this weekend was fun. minus today lol.
friday kristie slept over and saturday karen joined us in going to the beach where i got thier christmas presents and myself some ear rings. we ate a subway and when we left it rained on us. it was madd i tell you. we were soaked.
i bought an ear cuff for my ear (totally!) and my grandmother saw it and thought i got it pierced. im like ahhh its fake calm down and it was all good.
and i baby sat and got paid. score.
my aunt told me yesterday that my grandma is scared for me to turn 16 because "im so excited to be able to have a b/f" and shes scared i will get pregnant. wow i love her.
lol i told my mom and she told me not to worry, grandmas old.
haha i told my mom about our flip flop rule so she is sending me some wooden asian flip flops. totally fun. and haaa i get to go to seattle this summer! and my mom said shes getting me a washington permit and teaching me to drive! im sooo happy. i cant wait.
im soo dirty right now, were outside cleaning and planting and weeding and shit, and im all covered in dirt and ant bites and crap, not fun. poo.

*Ana

i have had my journal for a year now.
i think im going to stop writing in it, no one reads it anyway.

but if they do here is my schedule

1. art - roeder
2. ceramics - mr smith
3. biology - scholes
4. math- miller
5. french - van netta
6. english - ball
7. world history - little

let me know if you have a class with me

you can have the best of me
YOUR NAME
(1) The singular boring question: Ana
(2) If you had been born a member of the opposite sex, what would you name have been: not sure
(3) Would you name a child of yours after you? No thats lame
(4) If you had to switch first names with a friend of yours, who would you switch with: no one
(5) What's the way people most often mispronounce any part of your name? they always say Anna
(6) If you were to become famous, would you drop your last name (like Madonna, Cher, Roseanne)? no i would use my first and last name, they sound "famous"

DEEP THEOLOGICAL QUESTIONS
(7) Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell? sorta
(8) Do you think God has a gender? not sure
(9) Do you think science counteracts religion? uh maybe
(10) Do you believe in organized religion? yea
(11) Where do you think we go when we die? i guess it just depends what you believe in
(12) Do you feel a little funny thinking about the questions in this section? no sirree

HUMOR
(13) How easy is it to make you laugh? very very easy
(14) What person you know makes you laugh the most? uhm i dont know in school its jenna casue she always says something so lame its funny
(15) Do you laugh at jokes you know you shouldn't? lol yea
(16) Do you tell jokes you know you shouldn't? yea
(17) What words instantly make you laugh or at least smile? there are many
(18) What do you think is the funniest thing you've ever said or written? AHHH VAGINA maybe, but its not that funny

MUSIC
(19) Do you ever dance to music when nobody's watching? yes but only when im sure no one is there
(20) What is/are the worst song(s) you have ever heard? i dont know
(21) What song(s) do you wish you could understand a little better? i dunno
(22) What song(s) are constantly in your head? it usually always different
(23) What song(s) do you think describe your personality best? none
(24) If you were to serenade the object of your affections, which song(s) would you use? i havent heard it yet
(25) If the object of your affections were to serenade you, what song(s) would you hope he or she used? i dont know i guess it doesnt matter

MOVIES
(26) What movie(s) do you love that nobody else seems to? baby movies
(27) Do you agree with the idea that sequels are always worse than the original? not always/
(28) Who's your favorite Star Wars character? jar jar binks
(29) What kind of movie do you think there should be more of? ones that make no sense, but you can never stop thinking about then
(30) What movie(s) do you simply not understand the appeal of? the hulk

FOOD
(31) When eating, are you more concerned with taste or healthiness? taste mostly
(32) What's your favorite kind of cheese? mozzarella
(33) What do you think your answer to the previous question reveals about your personality? i am a chees genius
(34) If you knew exactly what went into Chinese food, hamburger meat, etc., would you still eat it? not sure
(35) Do you ever feel guilty eating meat? sometimes

COMPUTERS
(36) Mac or PC? PC.
(37) How much do you actually care about the inner workings of your computer? sometimes i want to so ill know what to do when something goes wrong
(38) Do you ever begin preferring IMs to other forms of conversation? not really but i do talk alot when iming
(39) Do you find you're different talking through IMs than face-to-face or on the telephone? yes my typing styly is different they my actual speech
(40) Have you ever ended bid on something on eBay and regretted it later? no

THE BATTLE OF THE SEXES
(41) Have you ever wished you could experience being the other gender? yea
(42) What do you love most about the other gender? i dont know
(43) What do you dislike most about the other gender? how they all have to act macho you know?
(44) What do you understand least about the other gender? eyerything almost

CELEBRITIES
(45) Do you sometimes see a movie or watch a show just because a good-looking celebrity is in it? lol yes! kristie and i watched this movie only because the main character wassooo hot
(46) What celebrity's autograph do you want most? hrm none
(47) Have people ever said you looked like a celebrity, and if so, who? yes everyone i have ever met tell me i look like someone, someone told me once i look like kate winslet (yea right) and then i have gotted rouge from x men, the list just goes on
(48) If there was to be a movie about you, who do you think should play you (in personality, looks or both)? i dont know
(49) Does it ever annoy you when you know someone is a celebrity but you can't remember why? yes!
(50) If you could enter any celebrity's mind like in "Being John Malkovich", whose would you enter? no clue
(51) Do you want to be John Malkovich? yes, badly

NUMBERS
(52) Do you laugh when you hear or read the number 69? nope
(53) Were you lying about your answer to the previous question? yes...hahaha not
(54) Do you actually know your Social Security Number? no
(55) Do you actually know your IP address? nope
(56) Do you know what an IP address is? non
(57) Do you know the four-character extension on your ZIP code? i used too
(58) Ever thought there were too many numbers floating around in our lives? not really
(59) Does your head begin to hurt when you think of infinity, imaginary numbers, irrational numbers, etc.? not really
(60) What do you think of pi? its a number

LOVE, SEX AND ALL THAT
(61) Did you get a little frightened or uncomfortable seeing this as a section title? yes im a pansy
(62) If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel? flattered...then guilty
(63) Do you prefer getting to know someone first before dating them or going in "blind"? getting to know someone first
(64) Could you carry on a relationship with someone with the same first name as a family member? yea
(65) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out? who said it is not acceptable, it doesnt matter to me much
(66) What's your opinion on sex without emotional commitment?its not my problem
(67) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive? no comment
(68) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good-looking? obviously not
(69) Would you be willing to give up sex in exchange for an emotional commitment you knew would last? not sure
(70) Do you think the number of the last question was a coincidence? if you made a question asking that then, yes fag

POSSESSIONS
(71) What is your favorite possession? my camera
(72) What physical, tangible possession do you want most? a house
(73) How badly do you want it? badly
(74) Have you ever seen 'The Exorcist'? i think
(75) How long did it take you to understand why the last question is in this section? i still dont get it, if you do tell me what it means

HOLIDAYS
(76) Does Christmas music too far away from Christmas annoy you? nope christmas music makes me feel good
(77) How old do you think you will be before you stop liking getting older? i dont like getting older now
(78) What was the best Halloween costume you ever had? a devil, last year i went as halloween
(79) What was the worst Halloween costume you ever had? hobo
(80) What holiday do you think has still managed to retain its original meaning? um maby veterans day? not sure
(81) There are currently no federal holidays during August- what should be put there? really? surely some deceased person who did something great was born in august

MEMORIES
(82) How good is your short-term memory? not very
(83) How good is your long-term memory? good enough
(84) What is your earliest memory? being weighed on a baby scale that was printed with litte lambs a stuff
(85) What is your happiest memory (other than recieving this survey)? io dont know
(86) What is your strangest memory? hard to choose
(87) What song, movie, etc. do you wish you could memorize? i wish i could memorize my life


TEARS
(88) What movie makes/made you cry? i dont know, i can cry on a lot of stuff
(89) What book makes/made you cry? none yet
(90) What song makes/made you cry? lots
(91) What makes/made you laugh so hard you cried? conversations about farts

THREE TRULY RANDOM QUESTIONS
(92) Would you like to be cloned? no ew
(93) Do you wish you could be alive when the world was ending, just to experience it? uh no
(94) Scaramouche, scaramouche, will you do the fandango? no

THIS SURVEY
(95) Do you think that one hundred and one questions is too long? why yes
(96) Do you think the one hundred interesting questions actually were interesting? no im bad at answering questions i dont know why i bother filling these things out
(97) Are you sorry you began filling it out? sorta
(98) What question do you wish it had asked? what is the velocity of a falling bowling ball
(99) How would you have answered it? syrup

THE TWO MOST IMPORTANT QUESTIONS
(100) When was the last time you let the people you love know you love them? um cant remember
(101) What do you want the people who are reading this survey to know? thank you for reading this

i wish i were special

1. what's the third letter in your name? a... surprise

2. what's the worst band you ever heard? i cdont know

3. what's the name of a good chinese place in your area? china star...the names of those places are soo diverse....


4. what's on your feet right now? nail polish


1. Brady Bunch or Patridge Family? neither


2. Johnny Rotten or Sid Viscous? i dont know, i like them both


3. Batman or Superman? neither


4. Elvis or James Brown? if i had to choose...elvis


5. Beatles or Rolling Stones? neither!!!


1. How tall are you? 5'5"


2. How many times did you sneeze today? like 20 at least


3. How do you do? the question is: how do you do?


4. How does the last book you read end? i read artemis fowl, his mom was better, and the fairy went back underground with most of the gold.


1. Will you have kids? im not sure


2. Will this be your last journal entry for some odd weeks? probably


3. Will you enjoy the company of someone much older than you? depends

PART ONE: Getting to know the real YOU.

1. What was your screen name in: hrm, good question.

2. What is your favorite journal to read? this boy from like south dakota or something


3. Surveys are the best tool for procrastination! What should YOU be doing right now? cooking or writing a poem for tomorrow

PART TWO: Entertainment and fashion

1. I saw a commercial about "guilty pleasure TV". What is the shitty show that you watch alone in your room, secretly pleasured, but if you're at a friends house you just suffer in silence as they channel surf right by it?: yea im really going to tell you that.

2. Name an item of clothing/accessory that you really regret wearing: i dont know


3. If you were a cartoon character, what would be your never-changing outfit?: a black shirt and some tan corduroys

4. Whose clothing/style do you admire most? no one really


PART THREE: Sex

1. What is the subject line of the best porn e-mail you've ever recieved? Do you have a blocked septic tank?

2. Describe your fantasy sex partner.: good in bed


3. Leave your computer to go masturbate. Tell us what went through your mind.: why leave when i can film it and be an obnoxious internet cam whore.

4. Name a non-sexual activity that turns you on.: making toast, definately


5. Best CD to make sweet love to: havent thought about it


PART FOUR: Your nonexistent social life

1. Hypothetically, you are at a party. Drunken uglies heft you up onto a table and start chanting "TURN A TRICK! TURN A TRICK!" What do you do?: leave


2. A girl comes up to you. She has huge eyes and a very small nose and is wearing a dress that poofs out at the bottom, like the little girls in Disney movies. Her eyes are very shiny. She's fifteen. Are you attracted to her?: no she actually sounds really creepy


3. A boy with a face so that you can see the details of his skull through his skin is standing on the street. He is wearing tight 60sish jeans and has short hair that he cut himself. He is smoking a cigarette and has very green eyes. Are you attracted to him?: maybe

4. You are sitting in class one day when your teacher announces that there is a new student. Your perfect fantasy person walks in and is assigned to the seat right next to you. What's going on in your head?: hot...

5. You are at a place full of people and you don't know anyone. What do you do to keep from being bored/awkward?: grab something to drink and leave


6. Preferred method of suicide? uhm probably by overdose

PART FIVE: The past

1. The best part of fifth grade was: when it was hot out and we had to have recess in this shady spot and had a huge water fight


2. The worst part of seventh grade was: moving to Fl.


3. The best part of sixth grade was: the dances and being in a new school


4. The worst part of eighth grade was: leaving


PART SIX: Murder

1. Name a person that annoys you. no thanks


2. Describe their brutal murder. Describe it so at the end I say, "Damn! That's hardcore!": i would but it would scare you

3. Name a person you like: um i like my friends


4.Think about THEIR brutal murder. Picture it vividly in your head. Then write a few words about it.: i didnt know people had that much blood


5. Favorite serial killer? i think her name was mary fahl. im not sure, but her name was mary and she killed two little boys when she was really young.

6. Someone is kicking a kitten in an alleyway. You hear its pained meows. The person kicking the kitten looks kind of scary. What do you do? Oh and the kitten is really fluffy and small. With a little pink nose.: cry

do you yahoo?
First Ten...All About You:

#1) What do you wish was your name? i think ana fits me

#2) What song seems to reflect you the most?: "shimmer" by VS

#3) What thing always makes your day when it happens/ you see it?: hearing an awesome song or someone making you feel really important/special

#4) If you could change one of your qualitites, what would it be and why?: how i cant word any of my real feelings and how im obnoxious

#5) What in your life influences you the most?: my friends and stuff i read from books

#6) What has been your wildest/best/most interesting fantasy? uhm i dunno

#7) Which feature of yours do you love? Which do you hate?: i love my eyes and i hate my stomach

#8) If you had to have a picture be your symbol, what would it be and why?: a cresent moon, because they are mysterious

#9) What would you title the movie or soundtrack of your life?: ill get back to you on that

#10) What are you most dissapointed with so far?: my life

Next Five...About Others:

#1) What one quality makes a person worth being around?: humor, and understanding

#2) What one thing about a friend always pisses you off?: when someone makes something small and gay into something critical

#3) Ok, now vent your worst people experience: i dont know

#4) What is a major turn on?: voice

#5) If you could create the perfect guy/gurl, what three qualities would they have and what would they look like?: they would be...smart and funny (surprise) and they would be understanding and patient, and they would be taller than me with dark hair and light eyes

Last Five...About Life:

#1) What confuses you the most about life?: im not articulated well enough to answer that
#2) What's one thing that goes on that makes you wanna scream?: ignorance and belittlement

#3) Which matters more, people's words or actions? Why?: people words, because they stay, scars and cuts can fade away

#4) Does love really make the world go round? Is love present in today's world?: no love doesnt make the world go round, it just makes the trip worth taking. i think love does esist, but not in our generation

#5) What one issue is most important to you?: i dont know


thats all for now
hope everyone is having an awesome summer.
-Ana

now you dont know who you are
hey
im so glad there are only less than 3 weeks of school left ( dances) i am so happy. holy crap. i have to go to school early tomorrow for panther force. joy. i have to wake up at like 6 30 if i want my uncle to pick me up. blah. thats fine though, ill be waking up at about that time next year. im so excited ofr summer. ill probably be over like three weeks in though :(. o yes i had my assesments today in art and i got a 7.5 :). i am sooo happy, its better than last time, which was a 7.1 and im not a probation or anything, so its all good. well im gunna go,
catch ya later,
Ana

oh to lick your love like tears
yo yo yo,
whats going on? not much here, im in my science class at school, class gets out in like 10 minutes. blah i gotta go ill write more laaater, love ya
*Ana

there is nothing i could ever say that would really take the pain away
yo
spring break sucks, im bored, and sick, and all ive done so far is help plant a garden.
ah the joy.
blah, i had to go to the doctor today.
i think doctors are child molesters, they dont get caught though, cause its thier job. creepy.
lol my brother and i were not meant to go to seattle, his next eye doctor appointment is three days after the day we leave for seattle. my mom is going to be so pisssed off. o well, its her fault not mine, i dont care anymore.
cya
*Ana

Found how fast he could take it away
hey all!
yesterday and today were fun. kristie and i slept at karen's house. it was hilarious cause today i was swinging on her swing, and i fell off head first. then we went back outside and i fell off again on my kness.
last night we went to the senior art show, all the work was really awesome, each senior had their own wall and such. it was really sad that they are gratuating this year.
my favorite room in the show was cicile and lexi's room, they have done some really kick ass stuff. well thats about all
love
Ana

you found hope, you found faith
[. 001. ] first name: Ana
[ .002. ] middle name: Milena
[ .004. ] nickname(s): annie, ana banana, aye-na..
[ .005. ] gender: female
[ .006. ] age: 14
[ .007. ] birthday: July 3rd
[ .008. ] height: 5'4"-ish
[ .009. ] hair color: Brown
[ .010. ] eye color: brown
[ .011. ] race: hispanic/white
[ .012. ] do you wear glasses or contacts: glasses, contacts hurt
[ .013. ] do you have braces: nope
[ .014. ] is your hair long or short: lomgish
[ .015. ] where were you born: rhode island
[ .016. ] current location: florida
[ .017. ] zodiac sign: cancer
[ .018. ] how many languages do you know: mainly one, but im learing french
[ .019. ] nationality: colombian, french, and polish
[ .020. ] bad habits: nail biting
[ .021. ] piercings you have: ears
[ .022. ] piercings you want: navel, and some more in my ears
[ .023. ] tattoos you have: none
[ .024. ] tattoos you want: on my back
[ .025. ] today's date: march 1 2003
[ .026. ] the time: 5:37pm eastern time

: family :
[ .028. ] mother's name: Lise Ann
[ .029. ] father's name: Javier
[ .032. ] sister(s)'s name(s): Zachary
[ .038. ] do you get along with your parents: you could say that
[ .040. ] do you get along with your sister(s): not very well

: pets :
[ .040. ] do you have a pet: nope
[ .041. ] what is its name: n/a
[ .042. ] what kind of animal is it: n/a

: school :
[ .043. ] are you still in school: yes
[ .044. ] did you drop out: obviously not
[ .046. ] grade: 9th.
[ .051. ] least favorite subject: science and math
[ .053. ] play any sports on the school's team: nope
[ .060. ] most humiliating moment: lol, lets not go there..

: favorites :
[ .061. ] number: 3 or 2
[ .063. ] shoes: sandals
[ .064. ] saying: erm i dunnp
[ .065. ] tv show: i dunno
[ .066. ] sport: none
[ .067. ] vegetable: baby peas
[ .068. ] fruit: apples
[ .073. ] candy: green apple starbursts
[ .074. ] gum: winterfresh
[ .075. ] scent: apples, or vanilla incense
[ .076. ] candy bar: kit kat
[ .077. ] ice cream flavor: phish food
[ .078. ] color: blues, reds, blacks
[ .079. ] season: winter
[ .080. ] holiday: halloween
[ .085. ] type of music: all kinds
[ .086. ] thing in your room: hrm, my little boom box
[ .087. ] place to be: i dunno
[ .089. ] tv channel: fox, comedy central
[ .091. ] overall food: chicken
[ .092. ] store: none
[ .094. ] fast food: wendy's
[ .095. ] restaurant: the british open, they have the best deserts
[ .096. ] shape: circles
[ .097. ] time of day: midday
[ .098. ] country: this one, or france
[ .102. ] mall: emerald mall
[ .105. ] board game: backgammon, or spinner
[ .107. ] car: i dunno
[ .109. ] swear word: ass
[ .110. ] word: akimbo
[ .111. ] month: december and july
[ .114. ] team: none
[ .115. ] possession: i dunno

: what's the first thing that comes to mind when you hear :
[ .116. ] eminem: candy
[ .117. ] dog: awww
[ .118. ] sexy: beds & lace
[ .119. ] britney spears: argh
[ .120. ] nsync: justin timberlake
[ .121. ] real world: gay
[ .122. ] orange: juice
[ .123. ] choice: life
[ .124. ] fuck: me
[ .125. ] bisexual: poeple
[ .126. ] black: green
[ .127. ] icq: yum
[ .128. ] insane clown posse: scary
[ .129. ] linkin park:swings
[ .130. ] jack: nightmare before christmas
[ .131. ] rainbow: toto
[ .132. ] cherry: bomb
[ .133. ] cucumber: yum
[ .134. ] shark: attack
[ .135. ] lifehouse: music
[ .136. ] bat: man
[ .137. ] leather: starps
[ .138. ] whip: ed
[ .139. ] america: blank
[ .140. ] water: ocean
[ .141. ] volcano: erruption

: this or that :
[ .152. ] linkin park or limp bizkit: linkin park
[ .153. ] tool or korn: tool
[ .154. ] selena or jennifer lopez: jennifer lopez
[ .155. ] hot or cold: col
[ .156. ] winter or summer: winter
[ .157. ] spring or fall: fall
[ .158. ] shakira or britney: shakira
[ .159. ] icp or eminem: non
[ .160. ] marilyn manson or rob zombie: rob zombie
[ .161. ] kittie or garbage: garbage
[ .162. ] mtv or vh1: i dunno, they + the same thing
[ .163. ] buffy or angel: gay
[ .164. ] dawson's creek or gilmore girls: neither
[ .165. ] football or basketball: Football
[ .167. ] skiing or snowboarding: Snowboarding.
[ .168. ] rollerblading or skateboarding: Rollerblading.
[ .169. ] black or white: Black.
[ .170. ] orange or red: Red
[ .171. ] yellow or green: yellow
[ .172. ] purple or pink: purple
[ .173. ] slipknot or mudvayne: none
[ .174. ] hot topic or pac sun: neither really
[ .175. ] inside or outside: inside.
[ .176. ] weed or alcohol: alcohol
[ .177. ] cell phone or pager: neither.
[ .178. ] pen or pencil: Pencil.
[ .183. ] tattoos or piercings: cell phone
[ .184. ] prep or punk: doesnt matter
[ .185. ] slut or whore: whats the difference?

: private life :
[ .186. ] do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend: No.
[ .187. ] do you have a crush: nope
[ .188. ] do you love anyone right now: non
[ .189. ] have you ever been in love: maybe, maybe not
[ .190. ] how many people of you kissed: not many
[ .191. ] who was your first kiss: blahh
[ .192. ] how many hearts of have you broken: none
[ .193. ] how many people broke your heart: i dont knowe
[ .195. ] so what is your bf/gf/crush like: he doesnt exist
[ .196. ] do you have a picture of him/her: no
[ .198. ] do you have a picture of yourself: yes
[ .200. ] do you go by looks or personality: both
[ .201. ] ever kiss a friend: not really
[ .202. ] are you still friends: sort of
[ .203. ] do you smoke: non
[ .204. ] do you smoke weed: nope
[ .205. ] ever trip on acid: no
[ .206. ] how about a little x: nope
[ .207. ] crack, heroin, anything else: No.
[ .208. ] beer good or beer bad: beer is gross
[ .209. ] are you the sissy who drinks wine coolers: yes, darn me
[ .210. ] do you like smirnoff ice: yea
[ .211. ] prefer beer or liquor: liquor
[ .212. ] what kind of cigarettes do you smoke: none
[ .213. ] are you a virgin: indeed

: would you ever :
[ .215. ] bungee jump: noooo
[ .216. ] sky dive: nooooo
[ .217. ] swim with dolphins: maybe
[ .218. ] scuba dive: yea
[ .219. ] go rock climbing: not really its not appealing
[ .220. ] eat shit for $1,000,000: beck no
[ .221. ] turn your back on your friends for personal gain: no
[ .222. ] steal a friend's boyfriend/girlfriend: nope
[ .223. ] cross-dress: why not
[ .224. ] lie to the police: yea, but i would probably get caught
[ .225. ] run from the police: if i had to
[ .226. ] lie to your parents: depends
[ .227. ] walk up to a stranger and kiss them: no
[ .229. ] walk out of a restaurant without paying: no, i walked out paying half of the bill once though, i felt horrible

: have you ever :
[ .258. ] flashed someone: i dont kno
[ .259. ] told the person you liked how you felt: yes.
[ .260. ] been to michigan: nope
[ .261. ] gotten really REALLY wasted: nope
[ .262. ] gone to jail or juvi: non
[ .263. ] skateboarded: tried
[ .264. ] skinny dipped: no
[ .265. ] stolen anything: when i was little
[ .267. ] kicked someone's ass: my brothers but that doesnt count.
[ .268. ] pegged someone in the head with a snowball: ahh yes what fun
[ .269. ] broke a beer bottle: yea
[ .272. ] flipped someone off: yum
[ .273. ] gone on a road trip: nope
[ .274. ] gone on vacation without adult supervision: yea sorta.
[ .275. ] been to a concert: Yes
[ .276. ] been to another country: oui
[ .277. ] talked back to an adult: yes all the time :(
[ .278. ] got pulled over: nope
[ .279. ] go in a car accident: yes :::shivers:::
[ .280. ] broke a law: ...no....
[ .281. ] given money to a homeless person: yea
[ .282. ] tried to kill yourself: no.
[ .283. ] cried to get out of trouble: when i was small
[ .284. ] kissed a friend's brother or sister: no
[ .285. ] kissed a brother or sister's friend: no! they are all too young
[ .286. ] dropped something on the floor that you were cooking and let someone eat it neways: lol yes

. : opinions : .
[ .287. ] what do you think...about pop music: its music
[ .288. ] about boy bands: they make me laugh
[ .289. ] about flag burning: its dumb
[ .290. ] of the war on terrorists: it sucks
[ .291. ] about suicide: i hate it
[ .292. ] about people who try to force their opinions on you: annoying
[ .293. ] about abortion: its sad, but i guess some people have to do what they have to do
[ .294. ] about rock/metal music: its cool
[ .295. ] where do you think you'll be in 10 years: ill be 25, i will be most likely fresh out of college
[ .296. ] who do you think you'll still be friends with in 5 years: karen and kristie

: what did you do :
[ .297. ] last birthday: i cant remember
[ .298. ] yesterday: went to school
[ .299. ] last weekend: nothing
[ .300. ] christmas: went to my aunts
[ .301. ] thanksgiving: went to my other aunts
[ .302. ] new year's eve: i think i was on the phone, im not sure
[ .303. ] halloween: went trick or treating with my little cousin
[ .304. ] easter: went to my aunt madelin's house
[ .305. ] valentine's day: nothing

: the last :
[ .306. ] thing you ate: a sub
[ .307. ] thing you drank: orange juice
[ .308. ] thing you wore: Black. jimjams
[ .309. ] place you went: kitched for OJ
[ .310. ] thing you got pierced/tattooed: ears when i was a baby
[ .311. ] person you saw: zack
[ .312. ] person you kissed: my aunt.
[ .313. ] person you hugged: my other aunt
[ .314. ] person you talked to: zack
[ .315. ] song you heard: morning glory - oasis

.: now :
[ .316. ] what are you eating: Nothing
[ .317. ] what are you drinking: OJ
[ .318. ] what are you wearing: jeans and a tee shirt
[ .319. ] any shoes on: no
[ .320. ] hair: Braided
[ .321. ] listening to: nothing
[ .322. ] talking to anyone: nope

: yes or no :
[ .324. ] are you a vegetarian: no
[ .325. ] do you like cows: yes
[ .326. ] are you a bitch: yea )c:
[ .327. ] are you artistic: i guess
[ .328. ] do you write poetry: really crappy poetry
[ .329. ] are you a fast runner: when i want to be
[ .330. ] can you ski: nope
[ .331. ] are you british: yes, all the time baby
[ .334. ] did you ever give barbie a haircut: yes
[ .335. ] would you eat mac & cheese with hot dogs in it: only if i had to
[ .337. ] are you straight: as a ruler
[ .339. ] are you fat: mmm i dunno
[ .340. ] are you skinny: no
[ .341. ] are you short: no im average
[ .342. ] are you tall: nope
[ .349. ] are you a typical teenage: i typical teenage what?
[ .351. ] do you like marilyn manson: not really
[ .354. ] do you shop at hot topic: nope

.: random questions :
[ .355. ] if you could be any animal, what would you be: a bird
[ .356. ] if you had to eat one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be: chinese food
[ .357. ] do you remember any of your dreams: yes
[ .358. ] do you dream in color or black and white: both
[ .359. ] do you admit when you need help with a problem: sometimes
[ .360. ] can people read you like a book: i dont know
[ .361. ] what's your biggest fear: bieng abandoned
[ .362. ] do you talk a lot: when im with the right ppl
[ .363. ] are you afraid of clowns: they are creepy, not scary
[ .364. ] do you like spiders: not really
[ .365. ] how about grape kool-aid: nope
[ .366. ] do you drive: Not yet
[ .367. ] are you spoiled: not really
[ .368. ] are you anti-social: i dont know
[ .371. ] any last words: :)
[ .372. ] now that this is over, what are you going to do: 'watch tv maybe?
[ .373. ] what is the time now: 6:16

hehe thats all for now
*Ana

hehehe
hey all im in school, :) i jusr wanted to say that and be like hahahahahahaa im in school, and on a pc doing this, tee he, well im off im done being queer
love from
Ana

it feels like heaven is so far away
kick ass
hahahahaa
no ok,
hey how is everyone?
i feel pretty good(c:

urg, you know was doesnt kick ass?
my humanities project ): gooosh, it soooo not the right time to be giving us a HUUUUGE project. grrr. o well, were almost done anyways. today my grandfather got a really cool edition of national geographic, its has a kick ass picture of space on it, lol im such a loser, but the ones in the article are even better, one is like a pictire of all the galaxies from far away, i think its fake but its still pretty cool looking.

lol today luch was sooo funny, maria and i were talking about middle school, and...such...it was great.

yesterday we ate luch with this senior girl who i have math with, she is soo funny, yesterday she came late to school, and when they asked her her reason, she just said hippo, and i asked her the story about it and she told me today that yesterday a hippo sat on her moms car and it made it like sink down and it squished her cats tail, and that, that scared the mailman so he ran inter her house, he hit her room and she had to wait for the carpenter to come so she could her her clothes. and i believed her for like five seconds, i was all like there are hippos in fl? i didnt know that! then im just thinking no ana dumbass ITS NOT REAL. lol it was quite funny.

lol well im off!
catch ya later
Ana

my reflection wants me dead
hey,
hows it going.
im pretty good, man. my cousins were here last week, they are sooo cool. it must really suck for them, because they dont live close to the rest of the family.:( i want my mom to move down here. that would be cool. woooah im bored ill cya layter

-Ana

i can't live without my life
hey
hows it going.
thurday i slept over karens and had a major allergy attack from her cats :( it was horrible! and i felt like crap on out field trip yesterday, even though it was awesome! it was soo exhausting, i went to bed early last night. blah. i feel like crap.
i gotta go, love from
Ana

does a dance
i hope everyone has a merry christmas!! i just finished making sugar pie for desert at my aunts house. my grandma is in the kitchen making head cheese and pinochii (SP?) fudge. head cheese sounds soooooooo grose but it smells good. its a shoulder of pork boiled so much the meat falls off the bone and you put it throught the belnder and its like a meat spread for sandwhiches, ive never had it before, so i cant tell you wether to steer clear of it or not. the fudge smells sooooooo good, it tastes like vinilla :). im so happy i love christmas. it doesnt feel like christmas at my house cause we dont have any decorations up or anything :(. o well, my tia's house it prolly gunna be totally decked out with christmas sprit. the only good thing about not having christmas here is that we dont have to clean obsesivley for days, then clean up after everyone leaves. well im gunna go :D
Merry Christmas!
-Ana

at the heart of everything, there are tears
hey!
havent updated in awhile sorry :). i cant wait until christmas! it goung to be soooo much fun, it at my tia's house this year, and im going to make a pie to bring over. it sucks that my mom and her b/f cant be here though, but thats ok cause zack and i might be going to seattle for spring break :D. that would be soooo cool!!!
thats all for now
Ana

[ x ] Spell your first name backwards - ana...woah you know thats awesome!
[ x ] The story behind your dj user name - i dunno it gos with my s/n
[ x ] Are you a lesbian - no
[ x ] Where do you live - florida
[ x ] 4 words that sum you up - complicated, odd, crazy,....eeerrrr dunno

DESCRIBE YOUR
[ x ] Wallet - green
[ x ] Hairbrush - its black and round
[ x ] Toothbrush - see through pink
[ x ] Jewelry worn daily - a charm bracelet and turtle bracelet a watch and a necklace
[ x ] Pillow cover - leopard print
[ x ] Blanket - different animal prints
[ x ] Coffee cup - i dont drink coffee
[ x ] Sunglasses - regualr ones :)
[ x ] Underwear - right now, they are blue
[ x ] Shoes - my flip flops.....i need new shoes badly
[ x ] Handbag - i have a purse....
[ x ] Favorite top - cant remember
[ x ] Cologne/Perfume - passionate kiss from voctorias secret
[ x ] CD in stereo right now - its sme crazy christmas cd...only half the songs have words..the oter half is all in bells pretty sad
[ x ] Tattoos - none
[ x ] Piercings - my ears
[ x ] What you are wearing now - a shirt and some jeans
[ x ] Hair - tied back
[ x ] Makeup - none

WHO or WHAT (was/is/are)
[ x ] In my mouth - my tounge
[ x ] In my head - thoughts
[ x ] Wishing - i dunno
[ x ] After this - talk to ppl maybe...then bed
[ x ] Talking to - carly and karen
[ x ] Eating -nothing
[ x ] Fetishes - cant think of any
[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now - my mother
[ x ] Is next to you - the modem, the phone, tape, a screwdriver
[ x ] Some of your favorite movies - i bought the movie ghost busters today...i cant watch it until after christmas though :(
[ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month - christmas vacation
[ x ] The last thing you ate - i had some cranberry soda and uhhh a cookie i think
[ x ] Something that you are deathly afraid of - death, heights, sometimes- the dark.
[ x ] Do you like candles - yup
[ x ] Do you like hot wax - yea
[ x ] Do you like incense - mhm
[ x ] Do you like the taste of blood - it tastes like metal makes me sick
[ x ] Do you believe in love - sometimes
[ x ] Do you believe in soul mates - yea
[ x ] Do you believe in love at first sight - not really
[ x ] Do you believe in Heaven - yes
[ x ] Do you believe in forgiveness - yea
[ x ] Do you believe in God - yes i do indeed
[ x ] What do you want done with your body when you die - i havent really thought about that yet
[ x ] Who is your worst enemy - i dont think i have one, unless i gont know about it
[ x ] If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be - a cat
[ x ] What is the latest you've ever stayed up -all night
[ x ] Ever been to Belgium - nope
[ x ] Can you eat with chopsticks - yea, this chinese boy taught us how in 3rd grade, his name was ben chen...
[ x ] What's your favorite coin - japenese coins,you can carry them on necklaces :)
[ x ] What are 5 cities you wouldn't mind relocating to - seattle, providence, paris, london, or maybe boston
[ x ] What are some of your favorite pig out foods - chips and cookies
[ x ] What's something that you wish people would understand - i dont know how to say it in words
[ x ] What's something you wish you could understand better - everything
[ x ] Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time - my mom, my friends from up north, my family from up north, my dad
[ x ] What's one thing you want to make happen for tomorrow - study for my exams next week


thats all
ill cya later
-Ana

not even a smile could make her look happy...
hey!
how is everyone?
:::waits for answer:::

im really bored so i decided to update this and youre glad cause you havent read this in awhile right? thought so...

im talking to my mom...she is showing me this work by daryll...her boyfriend has met him.

i hope they can come down so he can meet our family and such...that would be pretty cool :)...

thats about it for today...ill update more soon.

cya!

let me go...
hey lo

whats up?

not much here....i took a lot of quizes yesterday...enjoy them...you know you want to...

Which Kind of Driver Are You?
by Don's Windshield Replacement

What is your Alter-Ego
Personality?

Which "Saved By The Bell" Character Are You?

What Pattern Are You?

0% - 10% (Britney) Oh dear, oh dear. Far from being a world destroying DeathKiddy, you appear to enjoy kittens, bunnies and boybands. Not a cloud enters your sky and all is sweetness and light for you. Fucker. Take the DeathKiddy Test!

i am never enough
heylooo

whats uppp?

im boooored....and in some really demented mood. :)!

hey i took quizees!!!

pont at them and laugh with me!

take the virgin-whore dichotomy quiz.


and go to mewing.net. where we're all studs.

take the HIV test.


and go to mewing.net. HEEEEEEEE.

ill take all my medicine...i promise
Name: Ana
Sex: girl
Age: 14
Screen Name: clouddreamz9
Meaning: i dunno i like clouds...its really gay actually
Birthday: july 3rd
Place of Birth: RI
Siblings: a brother
Parents: Lise Ann and Javier
Pets: none
Height: 5"4'
Hair Color: brown
Hair Color of Choice: Brown
Eye Color: Brown
Eye Color of Choice: i dunno id look funny with anything else
Writing Hand: right


BODY ILLS AND SKILLS
Nervous Habits: nail biting and this weird laugh....
Do you bite your nails?  yea
Are you double jointed? no
Can you roll your tongue? yea
Can you raise one eyebrow at a time? if im not trying i think...but im not sure
Can you blow spit bubbles? not blow them but make them
Can you flare your nostrils? yes lol
Can you cross your eyes? yea
Tattoos?no but i want one
Piercings and where? my ears
Do you make your bed daily? yes

CLOTHES
What goes on first, bra or underwear? under wear
Which shoe goes on first? i think my right
Speaking of shoes, have you ever thrown one at anyone? yes
On the average, how much money do you carry in your purse/wallet? like $5
What jewelry do you wear 24/7? rings and a necklace
What's sexiest on a guy?  smile
Would you rather be on time and look OK or 10 minutes late and look great?not sure
Favorite Piece of Clothing:  shirts

FOOD
Do you wind your spaghetti or cut it? wind....cutting is for losers
Have you ever eaten Spam?  yes sadly
Favorite Ice Cream Flavor: phish food
How many cereals in your cabinet? 2 or 3
What's your favorite beverage? juice
What's your favorite restaurant? i dunno
What utensils do you use to eat pizza? none....who uses a utensil to eat pizza
Do you cook? sometimes

GROOMING
How often do you brush your teeth? everday...at least 2 times
How often do you shower/bathe? Every day
How long does your shower last? about 15 minutes
hair drying method: air dry
Have you ever colored/highlighted your hair? yea but it screwed up...
If that fountain of youth existed, would you drink it? not sure
Do you paint your nails? toenails
Would you rather have genital herpes or be 50 lbs. overweight? lol neither

MANNERS
Do you swear? yup
Do you ever spit? sometimes

WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE...
Actor/Actress: sandra bullock
Animal: turtles
Food: none right now
Month: december
Day: none
Cartoon: south park
Flower: a rose or a lily
Shoe Brand: i dunno last ones i bought were vans

Subject in school: english
Color: blues and reds
Person to talk to: i dunno depends
Sport: none
Body part on/in you: my eyes i guess
Body part on the opposite sex: eyes
TV show: friends, real world, will and grace
Movie: drive me crazy
Holiday: Halloween
Book: i dunno ive read to many to choose
Vacationing Spot: the mountains
Thing to do in Spring: turn the clocks foward
Thing To Do In The Summer: hang out
Thing To Do In The Fall: turn the clocks back
Perfume or Cologne: not sure as long as it smells good
TV Station: mtv fox or nbc
Model (Male or Female): i dont know any
Game: i dunno 

IN AND AROUND
The CD Player: something burned
Person you talk most on the phone with: kristie karen and linsey
Ever taken a cab? no
Do you regularly check yourself out in store windows and mirrors? no
What color is your bedroom? white
Do you use an alarm clock? yup
Name one thing you are obsessed with: i dont really obsess
Have you ever skinny-dipped with the opposite sex? nope
Ever sunbathed nude? no
Window seat or aisle? window

LA LA LAND
What's your sleeping position? on my side
What kind of bed do you like? big ones
Even in hot weather do you use a blanket? yea
Do you snore? not that i know of
Do you sleepwalk? no
Do you talk in your sleep? i dont know
Do you sleep with a stuffed animals? yes a teddy bear
How about with the light on? no
Do you fall asleep with the TV or radio on? only if the quiet is defaning

GIRL QUESTIONS (if your a guy, switch the guy things to girl.. unless your al)
What is the nicest thing a guy could do for you? i dunno really
What do you look for in a guy? first i notice looks then i get to know thier personality
What is the first thing you notice when you look at a guy? eyes
What do you think of cheating? noooooo
Makeup. Should we have to wear it or not? i use it but some poeple dont have to
Female presidents: Should we have them or not? why not?
What do you think of Pamela Anderson? i dont think of her
Tell the truth: Did you ever wish you could look like Barbie? no if i did id be walking on all fours

WHICH IS BETTER...
Coke or Pepsi? coke
Oranges or apples? apples
One pillow or two? 1
Deaf or blind? blind
Pools or hot tubs? Hot tubs
Blondes or brunettes? Brunettes
Tall or short? ...normal?
TV or radio? tv
Beach or pool? i like both
Tic-Tacs or Certs? certs
Snooze button or jump out of bed? Snooze button
Sunrise or Sunset? Sunset
Hamburger or Cheeseburger? cheeseburger
Morning or night? Night
Sports or news? news
Bikini or one-piece? Bikini
Indoors or outdoors? both
Christmas Eve or Christmas Day? christmas
Cake or ice cream? ice cream cake is better....
Bert or Ernie? Ernie
Spicy or Mild? i could care less
Spearmint or Peppermint? spearmint
Call or Write? call
Peanut Butter or Jelly? Jelly
Hamburger or Hot Dog? cheeseburger
Dog or Cat? cat
Bath or shower? shower
Book or Movie? book
Green or Red apples? red
Rain or Snow? snow
Nike or Adidas? i dont really care

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU...
Took a shower? last night
Watched Bambi: loooong time ago
Cried?: i dunno
Talked on the phone? just got off
Read a book? im reading one now
Punched someone? cant remember

THE FUTURE
Where do you see yourself in ten years? college most likely...or just gratuating

Who are you going to be married to? someone who i love and loves me back
How many kids? 1 or 2
Your profession: ive had some thoughs but im still not sure what ill be

golly gee.....thats was pretty long huh?well im gunna go

cya!
Ana