my mom comes in 3 and a half hours.

im going to go insane because all i have heard in the past 10 minutes it my little cousin talking to herself, and pretending she can read in spanish. and asking me math problems.

i wish i was as nice as everyone thought i was.

lol stirke that, i wonder if anyone thinks im nice anymore, and if they do, i wish i could be as nice as they think.

lol my grandmother has this present hidden for me right. she told me to go in my room while she put it in her closet. and today i was searching for wrapping paper and i went in there and saw the big bag with the gift in it. she was like scolding me but she smiled anyway. its funny though that shes trying to keep it a secret.
zack already told me what i was getting :D.
my family makes the horrible mistake of telling everone else what they got you for christmas.
hehehehe.

O MY GOD IF MY LITTLE COUSIN SLEEPS HERE TONIGHT I WILL SHOOT MYSELF.

she is such a brat. AHHHHHHH.
i just listened in on her phone with my uncle. its true little girls have thier daddys wrapped around thier finger.

lol she just asked me if my dad was dead yet. LMAO.

god kids say the darnest things

this is the most un christmas-y christmas ever.

i finished my gifts today. i made candels for my aunts. i hope they like them, cause im in trouble for getting wax everywhere.

my mom is comming tomorrow. i almost dont want her to come cause i know that zack is leaving.

im so gay. i keep saying i want to get out of my house, but whenever i get the chance to leave, i stay in. i could have gone to the movies today and slept at charlenes. im so retarded.

im tired too. and it is really early.

god this sucks.

i think i would almost rather be in school.

strike that school's retarded.

gah.

my mom comes down on monday for christmas.

zack packed some of his stuff today for when he leaves.

its weird when you younger and you wish you were an only child and that whish basically comes true. its really scary that were not going to live together anymore.

im going to smell bleach for the next week because i cleaned my bathroom. it was dirty, it made me feel nasty just looking in it.

i am sick, my head felt like in was in a vice today.

haha the biology exam was hard, i guessed on every question. no lie. i think i knew about 10 questions from memory, out of 200. i finished it in like the first 45 minutes and then went to sleep, i think i pissed the teacher off cause she forced the school newspaper on me.

it was funny i had a good laugh inside my head.

oh what was great though was before the exam kim turns around and says to me: "i wish kristie was in this class"

i nearly peed.

i want to see new lord of the rings. i am sad for myself. i will con my mom into taking me to see it when she is here ;).

i have candels to make for christmas gifts, yikes.

eck, on the bus benecia stuck her finger up my nose. she scratched it with her nail, it hurt, and it was very odd.

wow, i am so glad we are on vacation. holy shit. it feels like it has been years since i have had a break.

i cant WAIT until this is finally over.

*Ana

every thing feels like bull shit.

hey i got a 90 on my french exam how kick ass is that?

god i feel like shit, my nose has been running all day. And i have beed sneezing all day too.

tomorrow i have biology and english. those exams should be wayyy fun!

not.


erghrer i just want to sleep.

*Ana

the loss of your innocence
my weekend.

friday:
went to school
went out to eat with my uncle
went to my aunts house.

saturday:
woke up
wrapped presents
made candels
went to chruch
went to charlene/shaunna's
slept for 2 hours 10-12

sunday:
i got charlene and she came over to shaunna's and we called hey b/f dennie. he was supposed to come get us and take us to billy's. he didnt pick up his phone and his truck is broken. so we started walking to billys at like 2:30am. it takes 2 hours to walk there. at like 3 or 3:30 this spainish looking guy picked us up and gave us a ride. he was really nice, charlene was asking all kinds of questions to make sure we were safe and shit. dont worry everyone, were not just dumb kids. so we are at billys and charlene knocks on the wrong window. his mother's and she gets so angry, but lets us in anyway. charlene left after like 2 minutes to see dennie and shaunna and i stayed at billy's. i had fun. i hope i can go and see him next saturday to. but i dont know. any way. his mom had to take us back to shaunna's at like 6 in the morning. she was asking us all these questions and shes like if you cant get a ride, just ask and i will come and get you. it was crazy. when we were leaving billy was like ma let this one sit in front and he was signaling to me, so i had to sit up front with her. it was so embarassing. i went to bet at like 7 and then i got up at noon when charlene told me that they got saddam.

hahaha i have to go to confession this week. what fun.

i'd rather to be with my finger - house, 2nd period
oh double score.
today was GREAT.
someone must love me ALOT.
I didn't have to present my little Mayan essay in World History. :D. I hate presenting anything, it is so unbelieveably embarassing.
and on top of it my grandmother said i can sleep at Charlene's house saturday. i hope it is alright with her, because it was supposed to be friday but that is my unlce's last day.
Man i am so sleepy. I need some coffee.
I actually hate coffee, i have to put way to much sugar and shit in it to make it taste good, so i just don't bother.
oh score guess what everyone, i drove last night, in my uncle rental car. I only went 20 mph and I i kept going to the wrong side of the road but hey, my uncle said I did pretty well for my first time.
oh man, i have math homework to do. and i should read the chapter in bio cause i have no idea what i am learning.
Second period was unusually funny today. it rocked the hizzouse for sure. i think i just peed a little just thinking about it.
well im off.
*Ana

i am the fly that dreams of the spider

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i wonder what i would be like if Courney Love was my mom.

Does anyone know who the guy who is my dad is? I don't. How ironic.

my mom left yesterday :(

its ok though, she will be back in about three weeks.

woah, on this very day in 7 months i will be 16.

wow. cant wait for that man. holy crap. :D.

i went to the panther showcase with my mom, and all the teachers she met thought she was my sister. haha. how lame.

i get to see billy tonight, score.

hmmmmmm

i gotta go, i should do my world history h/w.

love you!
*Ana

what are the symtoms of mono??
its going around, and im feeling sick, and i hope i dont have it.

im bored

2 DAYS UNTIL MY MOM IS HERE.

ahhh yay.

haha did you know when guys go to jail, they put stuff in thier food so they cant get hard?!

thats hilarious, and sad at the same time.

went out with my billy last night. had mucho fun ;).

my grandmother told my aunt i was pregnant this morning. and my aunt was all mad and shes like that not even funny. and my uncle was all like no annies a good kid.

way to make you feel guilty man. lol.

then my aunt was walking with me and shes like no boys, no drugs, no music with bad language, no this no that. i couldnt listen so i just nodded.

they are so paranoid. it makes me sad.

cya
*Ana

we will always be true
holy crap.

today sucked so hard.
but i am so freekin happy right now cause i might be going out to see billy, if they can come and get me and crap. holy crap you have no idea how happy/ relieved i am right now.

im just like typing crap right now cause im nervous and i need something to do with my hands.

i got so mad at my grandmother last night. i have this painting im working on and i brought it home for some extra attention and mem goes i wouldnt waste my money on a painting like that. angry doesnt even compare to how mad i was. then she goes, why dont they teach you how to paint something nice like trees and leaves. and im liek maybe i dont want to fucking paint trees mem! but i didnt say that i just went, mem you dont know what your talking about, so dont talk to me about art anymore.

i bet she did that just to piss me off. gr.

AHHH SCORE MY MOM IS COMING DOWN IN 4 DAYS!!!

i could cry i am so happy right now. shes going to come to school and meet my art teachers and see the art show. and i think karen and aaron are going to meet her then too. but kristie like can i go to the airport with you!! hahaha.

my brother is definately leaving. did i tell you this already? im not sure. but mom and floyd dont have enough money for three tickets back to seattle so my grandparent's christmas present to zack is his plane ticket to seattle. wow im going to miss him like woah.

gah its only like 8 what crap! ahh i am so bored now. gr.

im gunna go and call someone now.

adios!
*Ana

remember ana, no boyfriends until your 16! -memere
im going to dance around because i am so happy right now.

ahahaha. i might get to see billy this weekend :).

ahhhhh :::realizes time::: fuck!!!!!!! it is totally time for me to go and write more of my essay!!! gah.
more later kids

*Ana

where does it hurt?
ahh i am so tired, i got home at like 1 30 this morning.
i was at the fair from like 6 to 1. holy crap.
i was doing face painting for 3 hours though, until jesenia and shayla got there.

i met billy last night :). it was fun. i only got to spend like a half an hour with him though. we couldnt stay at the actual fair grounds because of some people.

so we were all hanging out at bradley's car, in the wal mart parking lot. and charlene kept talking about the cops and giving me a heart attact because my grandma was working in wal mart. they had to leave cause brad's godfather called. it was odd.

charlene called me this moring asking me what i thought of him and everything. it was funny. then she was like if you guys date its going to be hard for you to see him, there wont always be a fair in town.
that really sucks.
i dont think it will be like that because charlene doesnt have to be with us all the time, and its not like i can never go out.

last night was freezing. omg i think im getting a cold now, good job ana.

gotta go
*Ana

oh man, i am so happy i could cry!!
i am going to the fair tonight.
going to meet billy!!! i feel bad for making him come out :( he crashed his bike and right side is a screwed up.
hes sooo sweet. so far anyway. oh and you know that amanda girl i wrote about in my last entry? billy is friends with her b/f...bradley is his name. the world is so small and that is FUCKING HILARIOUS!

ah i have to write some of my essay before i leave so i must dash.

xoxo
*Ana

ahh tonight was so lame it was funny.
i had to paint little kids faces for like 3 hours cause Benecia didnt want to do it alone. Jesenia is doing it tomorrow night, hahahaha.

the stupidest thing happened too, this girl Amanda she is going out with the UGLIEST guy. i mean he looks like his mom is his aunt too, or some cray shit. i asked Amanda why she is dating him if he is so hideous and shes goes well look at it this way, i have kissed over 30 guys, and hes the best one so far....
i am still laughing at her for even thinking something that reatrded.

ahh im soo glad tomorrow is friday!!!! :)

later
*Ana

i am soo happy right now.
i was talking to my mom last night, and over spring break i get to go to seattle. :). that is going to kick sooo much ass!!! and only about two weeks until my mom comes down.

and yesterdayon the bus i was talking to my friend and im like i need a boyfriend and my friend charlene was talking to her friend, and shes like i know who to hook you up with, my friend ana.
his name is billy and he is 16 and he gets home schooled, he is supposed to call later today.
wow i am so happy. lol.

well thats all the news for now

chaio
*Ana

your so lovely when you smile
woah
i just got some weird childhood flash backs from my friends journal.

every year at the highschool in my hometown they would have this big indian pow wow by the river to teach kids about indian culture. they would have people dressed as indians and there would be wig wams and fires and all this really interesting stuff.

we went on field trips to it almost every time it was open. and we would get to talk to the highschoolers. which was totally exciting to a 4th grader.

this year was the last time they are doing it. how depressing.

my brother is really moving after christmas, my mom was telling me how they have to fix thier house so it will be warm for zack when he gets there, and how they have to fix up his room. and stuff like that.
and today he like pissed off the whole family by saying that he cant wait to leave.
i dont blame him, our family is one big giant ass hole to him.

ahhh i have an essay to write. and a sketchbook assignment to do.

*Ana

sitting in the bell jar, stewing in my own sour air
Deep as you go I'll follow
Deep as the water goes
All the world is hollow and dry
But you and I go down
You and I go down

Far as you want to take me
Far as your eyes can see
Leave the world alone in the sky
You and I go free
You and I are free

Don't save me
Don't lose me
Don't wake me now
You let me
You release me
Let me drown
Take me down

Promise to take me with you
Promise to let me go
All the world is waiting to see
As you and I go down
You and are free

Don't save me
Don't lose me
Don't wake me now
You let me
You release me
Let me drown
Take me down

I want to be completed
I want to disappear
I want to be uncovered
Take me down
Take me down
Let me drown

Somehow I need to love you
More than I need to breathe
I can feel you leaving the ground
I will follow down
You and I will drown


i love that song, it is so amazing.
art show tomorrow 5:30 - 7. ah the joy.
i think i may be getting sick. you know how you can feel it, like your body is temporarily slowing down so it can focus on removing whatevers ailing you.
i hate e v e r y t h i n g right now. i must be pms-ing, thats always fun.

i left my math book in french so i cant do my math homework. oops. hopefully no one take all the papers out of my binder and steals it. that would be gay.

my grandmother didnt come to the bus stop on time and i forgot my umbrella so i had to walk halfway home with my fresh piece of mat board for my next art assignment. im really happy about this assignment. i have to sketch out my ideas though.

i have to remember my camera tomorrow! maybe i will finally finish my roll of film, gah.

adios
*Ana

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it is your sorrow that has made a slave of me
i am so tired.
i almost fell asleep in biology, which isnt good b/c scholes was sitting right next to me during the video we were watching.
sam came back today. i have her in geometry and english, and she has lunch with us. so thats pretty cool.
halloween was fun. karen and i stayed at kristies house and we dressed up and walked around her neighborhood. i was a witch and i i made this litle boy cry just by walking by him. it was sad. we bought a water gun to shoot the kids with, but none of them were old enough.
today was good and im in a better mood than most days

im gunna go
*Ana

dont lose me
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i am so scared!
omg omg. the judging for the art show is tomorrow, every 10th grader need 2 pieces or you dont get a grade, which is bad. i have one which is bad, and i have my self portrait, which isnt dont, but is neary and im just wasting time because im so nervous im screwing the whole thing up. so i am break taking while i try to calm myself.

on the brighter side of things.
my brother got his report card yesterday. 1 a 2 b's 3 c's and and f.
an f in fucking computers no less!!! two of the teachers even commented that he doenst do his homework. which is the big thing in my house.
my grandmother took one look at it and said
im sending you to your mother, let her deal with you.
if he leaves, so do i. it would be sooo retarded to be in this house by myself all the time. i wasnt meant to be an only child.
gah, i hope she was bull shitting.

im happy about my report card though, straight a's. that won't last long most likely. but hey, its good while it lasts. to bad i dont get paid for good reports cards anymore, i could be making some serious cash.

later
*Ana

to say i love you, you must learn first how to say i
this weekend was cool.
i had to babysit saturday, then i got to go to halloween horror nights!
with kristie. it was fun. what sucked was we got home really late and i had to go to chruch this morning. poo.
then i missed my mom's call, again. grr. next weekend im not doing anything, i am determined not to miss her call again! ah.
oh it was hilarious, karen was going to bush gardens yesterday when we were on our way to orlando and we stopped at the same rest stop and saw eachother, it was creepy.

i know what im getting for christmas, my brother and i are lame, we tell eachother who is giving us what. our family is dumb enough to tell everyone what they are getting for someone else.
so far i am only getting stuff for france, and possibly the books im asking for from my mother.

the smithsonian magazine kicks ass, it had an article on sylvia plath in it this month. her book the Bell Jar was really good. i read it this summer.

im bored so im going to watch tv.

ciao
*Ana

i think therefor i am...right?
ahh
PSATs were mad. i was sooo cold in the auditorium i bet i did really bad. eh. ill try again next year. i have nothing to update, im so boring.
i lost all of my friends screen names from up north, i only remember 6 out of all the ones i had. i feel bad, even though it doesn't matter, i never talk to them anyway.
blah i hate short entries.

*Ana

hey
i have been babysitting almost all weekend. i am so glad my little cousins bed time is 9 :). today we sent her and zack to the movies...they saw good boy i think. zack said it was gay, i feel bad for him. i was with my grandmothers at my aunts because she just had foot surgery and it's hard for her to move around.
i was dusting and my aunt was talking to me and she told me my grantmother told my mom she was thinking of sending us to live with her next summer.
there are no words to express how pissed off i was when she told me that...except those. so my aunt told me that if my grandmother wants us to move out then we could just live with her. that would suck they only have 2 bedrooms.
i told her if zack fails and mem kicks him out im leaving too. she told me that was stupid cause of my oppertunity here. o well.
this is so lame, i should just go to seattle and get it over with.
today was fun though. my aunt was showing me the gifts shes getting for my cousins baby, and my little got all upset and cried because she thought no one cared about her anymore. when she gets like that she sits in her room and cries and talks to herself. its pretty funny to listen to.
im gunna go
*Ana