try me...

try me...

:: 2004 2 March :: 10.17pm
:: Mood: rah.
:: Music: david letterman - ghost of the robots

shatter my reverie upon your jagged thoughts
fcat today. fcat tomorrow. concert thursday. :)

i hate it when people think that they dont mean anything to anyone. it bothers me. because everyone has someone. even if it is your tear-smudged teddy bear. and if you are my friend, then you have me. and i will be there when you need a shoulder to cry on. and i dont plan on changing either.

i dont understand. sometimes a person can be totally unreachable. they dont want to be reached. but they also want comfort.

cold comfort cant lead to anything good.

ive had very vivid dreams recently. except i forget them when i wake up. so the feeling of a vivid dream gets left in my head for a large part of the day and little things just make me jump and realize that it mustve been related to my dream in some way. sometimes it can be quite frustrating.

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Rina

:: 2004 1 March :: 8.34pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: Vehicles Shock Me - Ghost of the Robot

your blinding concerto brings me to my knees
ok. healthy obsession. day one. ilyssa wants to make bracelets.
im so happy. i have all the ghost of the robot songs :) now i have to burn 4 copies hahaahaha.

i started thinking today. i was in math looking at my purple worksheet. and.. the world didnt feel right. if you look at it, how society, economy, and.. technology just goes past us. how everything seems so important, but when you compare it to life itself, it looks pathetically lame. and i wondered if anything was after this. here. life. i mean, everyone talks about heaven and it being a residual fact of.. existence, and i know it is there. but i cant help feeling what i would actually feel if (here it comes again) society hadnt made it so important and planted into my brain so early on. and really. considering how huge we've figured out that the universe really is.. just earth being here seems like an awful big waste of space.

sigh...

that was my conflit for the day. but. hey. whatever. i would really just like to make it through one day at a time. especially since we have fcat tomorrow. i would like to shoot myself.

i also realized that i use 'wankers' and 'pansy' more than i thought i have been. it usually gives a nice sarcastic bite. but now? who knows. carrie says it is just james. damn his hotness, right carrie? hahaha.

canyoustandonyourhead?

Rina

:: 2004 28 February :: 10.22pm
:: Mood: sleepy

your silence chokes the doorway like cobwebs
i went to the symphony tonight. it was awesome. i forgot what it was like to be in an audience, instead of looking at one. there was a hot guy. woo. that makes it a double thumbs up :)

today was fba band contest. straight excellences on stage and a superior in sightreading.

lisa's friends = loud.
her chums are here. it is not particularly joyous on my part, of course. i kinda just wanna hit the sack.

hm. i seem to come up with all these different lyrical sentences (i guess thats what you'd call them). but they dont piece together. for example, my subject. i dont know where i got it from. i basically just looked at my door.

oh. bollocks. i might have to go to church tomorrow. id much rather stay and sleep in (;

canyoustandonyourhead?

Rina	:: 2004 26 February :: 10.51pm :: Mood: curious search the stars can you find me even if im lost? or will i have to search through the sea of fog? ever get that feeling when you dont exactly know if you're dreaming or not? 6 stood \| canyoustandonyourhead?

Rina

:: 2004 26 February :: 8.08pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: You're So Last Summer - Taking Back Sunday

her eyes doth linger

today was blah.

i got a 50 on my math test.

yesterday i went to japocu after school. we watched monty python and the holy grail. i heart the black knight.

flute lessons = pain.

me, car, carrie, ilyssa and sydney have a healthy obsession.

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Rina

:: 2004 24 February :: 7.25pm
:: Mood: happy! :)
:: Music: white flag - dido

i know i left too much mess and destruction to come back again

LMFAO woooooooooooow.

great weekend.
i went bowling with lindsay and andrea at galaxy lanes on friday night. :) we could only bowl one game though because there were a bunch of leagues. and oh man. andrea. it is called a strike!!! hahahaha dude. and she is the reigning champion of the altoids. 11 PEPPERMINT ALTOIDS IN HER MOUTH AT ONCE! that kicks your ass so bad you will be crying. anyways, that was way fun. too bad about her punk leaving her hahahahah! bowler's arthritis!

saturday. movie night at lissa's!! we rented house of the dead, dickie roberts, the visitors, and sleepy hollow. we watched dickie roberts first. chelsea and sydney were laughing the entire time!!!! man that is great. we ate candy and we each had a glowstick around our neck. mine was pinkish-purple. wooot :D

sunday. church and then amanda's birthday. there were like 6 of us and we went to the movies to see lotr 3. man, me and car were in the back and we were yelling!! you know when those ghost soldiers come out of the ships and start attacking? we were like 'WHAT NOW, BITCH?!!'
it was grand.

monday wasnt too bad. i think ms freis likes to give out homework that is literally impossible to do. seriously. it is impossible. its not you say? well then, why do you tell me how the evolution of african and floridian land over time could affect the theories of darwin, lamarck, and that one guy about disneyland's animal kingdom.
yea.

today. i felt like crap this morning. so i stayed home. but then i felt better mid-afternoon. woot. it felt like i was getting away with playing hookie!! hahaha.
GQ SKIP DAY! wooooo andrea.
tomorrow i have two quizzes.
bugger.

well, i guess i should brush up on animal kingdom. (why the hell am i in that damn class anyways???!) oh well.
nevermind. i have to go do dishes instead.
ta :)

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Rina

:: 2004 18 February :: 7.43pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: the penis song! hahahaha ana!

size doesnt matter..
today was ok
it was fun first and second. but thats about it. didnt get to talk much in seventh :(

lisa bit my fucking head off in the car on the way home.
and since she was yelling at mom on the phone, she came home early and took MY tv priveleges away.
AHHHHH.
that is not fair. to the max.

i need to go draw a duck now. *sigh*

but hey.. things rock. i get sleepy hollow in exchange for the very song im listening to! and that is awesome. because.. everyone needs to hear this song and piss themselves laughing.

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Rina

:: 2004 17 February :: 7.05pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: Happy Holidays, You Bastard - Blink 182

Its labor day and my grandpa just ate seven fucking hotdogs..
God, i love this song. its so hilarious.

alot has gone on since my last update.
i had a killer sleepover. it was so much fun! and then we went to see 50 first dates. that movie is really good. but you leave the theatre with this really akward feeling because you didnt think it would end that way. hmmm

well school was ok
mentally, i went through a whole week
in a single day
oh, go me, go me
first period was monday. yea, shut up i know its tuesday. third period was like wednesday.
i had no feeling what-so-ever fifth period (well obviously, its biology.) oh! but we had a sub. and did fcat work. *dies*
anyways, i swear to god it felt exactly like a friday in sixth period. ahhhh.
seventh period. ah, this is when the magic happened. you see, reality tried to hit me upside the head, but it must have missed or something. because ever since then it has felt like wednesday.
i feel like if i turn on the tv in 20 minutes i will be watching the oc.
that is way not cool. this is going to be the longest week of my life.
but its ok. because i get sleepy hollow in exchange for the penis cd. well, its just one penis song but the other songs are really funny too.
woot go ana :)
got out to the parking lot after school. i closed the door and vroooooommm we were OUTTA THERE! mad traffic on the way home though. old people need to be shot. and tourists should just.. go to hell or something because they are really starting to piss me off. i mean, majorly piss me off.

jesus. what is wrong with me?

canyoustandonyourhead?

Rina

:: 2004 14 February :: 11.22pm
:: Mood: happy

chocolate anyone?

We're all on death's door repeatedly ringing the doorbell like maniacal girl scouts trying to make quota.

Im sorry. but that is like the best thing ive heard in.. ages. i laughed really hard.
..you wouldnt get it.

ok. happy valentine's day! i got chocolate. and i will most likely never eat it again. it just sat there calling my name alllll day. torture with capital T, man.

anyways..
woot. sleepover tomorrow! and then movies on monday. (kick-ass day lmao nola!!)
we will be kicking ass. fon ass.
friday i had a million things like a math test, biology homework, and some really big english thing was due.
hahahaha. i got a 100 on my math quiz. boo-ya. ms freis didnt exactly check the homework, and the english assignment was postponed. aaahhhhh. happiness. and i gave out all my v-day presents. i got sam the best card in the world:
on the front-
Roses are Red, but really thorny
without you, i get very..
inside-
CORNY! what were you thinking?!
yes. that card just kicked you.

thursday i had flute lessons. then i went to target. it was crawling with preps. i was trying to hide.
and oh man, i saw alexis barkis who i haven't seen since forever and a half. ewww.

today was grand. i had chocolate. i babysat my brother. and i updated my website. oohh, that is just waayy too much excitement to be contained in one day.

luckily, i have church tomorrow. *sighs*
i have homework this weekend. and ms greene liked my short story that i wrote a really long time ago and wants me to make all these changes so she can put it in some school magazine.
can we say no? obviously not because i just nodded at her when she said to retype it.

ciao.

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Rina

:: 2004 12 February :: 9.44pm

*pokes eye* ... ouch.
well. i hate my eye.
this morning it just started hurting really bad before school and it was watering. and whatever was in my eye, i couldnt get out.. because it kept going behind my eyeball. ewww.
anyways.. i found out what was going on second period. carrie noticed this clearish thing on it. i thought everything was blurry because my eye was acting funky. but there was this clear thing covering half of my pupil.
i had to use my nails to get it out. there was like three pieces of it too. nasty.
it just so happens that in the corner of my eye, i have a small chunk of the outer lens missing. you can see the lens, and then you can see a part of my eye without the lens on it. eww eww eww.
mr. daniels spazzed in third period. he threw the music on the floor, grabbed his coat, and left.

i tried to throw another pot today. i really suck at it. maybe i should just stick to drawing, eh? yea.. flute lessons today. they weren't as retarded as usual. which is a nice change. :)

lots of homework. math test tomorrow. ahhhh. i hope i dont bomb the quiz. linds explained some of it to me. i dont remember what else was on the test. grrrr. i need a stroke of ingenious luck or something. that would be the pink socks of chrismukkah (haha andrea).

i found out that i get back from sweden really late on august 8th.
august 9th is school.
i am eternally screwed. i mean, really.

-fucked like a duck in springtime, ladies and gents.

speaking of ducks.. i have to do that damn duckstamp contest thing. for the seventh year in my life!!! good lord i hate ducks now.

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Rina

:: 2004 11 February :: 7.15pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: The boy who blocked his own shot - Brand New

call me a safe bet, im betting im not
ah.
haven't updated. well not much going on. today we had sectionals. talk about adding insult to injury. oh well. it actually wasn't as bad as the other ones, but hey.. sectionals are sectionals.
hmm. i realized that i have one of the most screwed up famliy trees around. how many people can say that their 3rd cousin-once-removed goes to their school? or that youre related to someone but dont know their last name?
... strange
um.. im making a website. its not any good yet, but here it is - wow.
moving along.. here are the classes im taking next year.
chemistry 1 honors
world history honors
pre-calculus
english 2 honors
drawing/painting 2
ceramics 2
band. *sigh*
fun. woo.
i want to take photography. or at least a language for god's sake. but no. i cant. because i have.. i have *kicks flute case* this. *looks at it*
piece of crap.

um. hmmm well nothing else real major is going on. oh yes, the oc is on tonight! but so is angel. and it looks good too!
lets see.. marissa almost getting shot and seth being nemo (l m a o), or spike being a nazi from 1943? ah, decisions decisions. america's recreational activity leads me to constantly take apart plots by the thread yet again.

i want to go somewhere. just.. to go. and do something crazy and unusual and spontanious. just because.

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Rina

:: 2004 7 February :: 9.16pm
:: Mood: happy!
:: Music: Girls not grey - AFI

excuse me sir, but i believe victoria's secret is meant for women.

today was a good day :)
i woke up at 7 for solo contest. i was really nervous. drove to lehigh and i practiced at the cafeteria while mom looked for my room.
ahh. i could not get any of the runs right. and my mouth was dry.
i went to the room and waited outside the door. there were other people before me waiting in the hall too. jake was there. i heard him play. it was beautiful. so then i started getting nervous again. i went in after he was done and played it.
he told me i was very good at the technical parts of it and had a wonderful technique. but i needed more dynamic contrast. what else is new?

well, he wrote down the comments for a really really long time. i was standing there, holding my flute and smiling forever. my jaw started to hurt. but then he was done and i left. i drank the rest of the water that my mom had bought me.
back at the cafeteria i ran into little 8th graders i knew from middle school. maybe you've heard of them. sam dawson - extrememly talented with oboe and piano. he made all-state last year. this year too. mark barron - is taking algebra 2 at the highschool. with ms. grabowski. give me more reasons to hate him. and.. some girl. and another girl.
mark is a dork and sam is cool. and they are both taller than me which is really sad. *sigh*
the results got posted, and.. i got nothing. because mine weren't up yet. by this point i had been waiting for 40 minutes. another half hour. more results. with mine, thank god. i got a superior. and i was totally just standing there not believing it because i had messed up so many times on the 32nd runs. ahhh. i was really happy and then had to go pee.

mom went to linen 'n things for some sheets. then we went home. alas, i finalized mall plans.

went to the mall with sydney and chelsea. it was grand :)
i went to Journey's and got some black converse shoes!! yayayay.
then we went to hot topic. i got an afi shirt, a short sleeved hoodie thing with this skull in a pink star. oh man its so cool. and i got three pins. two of them are happy bunny ones and the other is about sarcasm.
We saw Alex and Emily there. haha me and alex just pointed at eachother. i was like 'you! you're here.. in this store!' i was incredibly lame but thats beside the point. the cash register guy was awesome. headed to barnies. syd and chels talked me out of getting a white mocha so i got a caramel coffee cooler. it was really good. ah, we looked around and went into gadzooks. the clothes are questionable but the accessories rock. sydney tried on these tan boots that had fuzzy stuff inside. hahahaa she looked like she was wearing eskimo boots. they were huge.

we got french fries. and then sat in this pizza buffet italian restaurant place. and we just talked. it was time to leave so we walked back to barnies. fun. we talked more. mostly about... guys? cant quite remember. thats when it happened. i saw this old guy carrying a victoria's secret bag and the pink paper was all nice and frilly at the top. i showed chelsea and we started cracking up. people these days... sydney didnt get it until 5 minutes later. because we were laughing.

dropped syd and chels off. went to publix. bought food. made my mom buy lots of fruit. i like fruit.

i have to go burn some cd's now. woot.

canyoustandonyourhead?

Rina

:: 2004 7 February :: 7.53am
:: Mood: nervous
:: Music: Jaws Theme Swimming - Brand New

*dies*

Your wings are BROKEN and tattered. You are an angelic spirit who has fallen from grace for one reason or another - possibly, you made one tragic mistake that cost you everything. Or maybe you were blamed for a crime you didn't commit. In any case, you are faithless and joyless. You find no happiness, love, or acceptance in your love or in yourself. Most days are a burden and you wonder when the hurting will end. Sweet, beautiful and sorrowful, you paint a tragic and touching picture. You are the one that few understand. Those that do know you are likely to love you deeply and wish that they could do something to ease your pain. You are constantly living in memories of better times and a better world. You are hard on yourself and self-critical or self-loathing. Feeling rejected and unloved, you are sensitive, caring, deep, and despite your tainted nature, your soul is breathtakingly beautiful.

i am still very very scared about solo contest. i have to leave in half hour. *dies*

canyoustandonyourhead?

Rina

:: 2004 6 February :: 7.03pm
:: Mood: hyper
:: Music: Good to know that if i ever need attention all i have to do is die - Brand New

*twitch* coffee coffee coffee
ahh
i went to the art show tonight. nice. there were some really good pieces.

my mom took me to starbucks to get coffee afterwards. for those of you who know me, too much coffee = psycho-carina.
well, this is one deadly combination. i ordered a mocha with some whipped cream (you cant forget the whipped cream) and i guess the lady didnt put enough milk in it.

i am drinking espresso with chocolate. oh man oh man.

today was ok. me and carrie have a healthy obsession now. and i have a friend named humphrey the duck. he is british.

now, i have a decision in bio to make. Im not sure if i should take Chemistry Honors or Anatomy Physiology honors next year. the scary thing is.. i could take physics if i wanted. but i am staying waaayyy clear of that until im like a senior or something. *sigh*

well, tomorrow is solo & ensemble. i am not ready at all. my sixteenth notes sound awful. and i hate how it always slows down and then BAM! it goes super fast. roar. but i am secretly scared shitless to go. oh man. im afraid i'll just stop in the middle of it and.. do something retarded. i sound so lame.

yesterday was really slow. i was so tired you would not believe. and it took forever for the day to get through. err.

... oh yea. i saw 2 acts of our school's ballet. they're doing sleeping beauty. on point shoes. ouch. but lindsay and lisa were awesome. woo.

*drinks more coffee*
i think i might have to go pee now...

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Rina	:: 2004 4 February :: 6.29pm :: Mood: distressed crying never drowns the sorrows why cant it all just go away? i want it to go away so bad. i just need it to leave me alone. 4 stood \| canyoustandonyourhead?

Rina

:: 2004 3 February :: 2.47pm
:: Mood: majorly pissed. back off.
:: Music: the quiet things that no one ever knows - brand new woot. i got my cd back.

sarcasm - anger's ugly cousin

i have experienced a feeling i have never felt before today. its this really moving emotion that makes me want to jump in front of a car. jesus. i hate this.

school started out good enough i guess. me and carrie had fun. she named my flute james. third period wasnt terrible. neither was fourth.
bio was a drag. again. lots of crap to study though. yay.

sixth period ticked me off. me and collin hate eachother, i guess. according to him i have an attitude problem. he is a dumbass. really, i dont know exactly what i did. the fact that i was in english had pissed me a little. especially since sabrina wasnt there. but hey, i was pissed, ok? if you look at me wrong i will tear your head off and feed to the manifestations of wrath. i guess i was the one who looked at him strangely. no need to get on my case, mills. fuck. go to hell collin.

forgot my disk in business systems. had to type the assignment over. it was a long assignment.
lisa yelled her damn head off at me in the car. way to go. i knew i should have jumped at that green car.

heres my homework list.
flute. i have to get my moderato piece up to allegro in 2 hours. joy.
biology. read everything on bacteria and make it stay lodged in my brain.
english. finish a script and type it on a chapter from the most dull, boring book.
art. find three landscapes. do two large ass sketchbook assignments. make pins.
extra? help a friend with a speech, go shopping, find my disk.

go away.
-carina

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Rina

:: 2004 2 February :: 2.37pm
:: Mood: relieved
:: Music: Silver and Cold - AFI

ha.

monday is over. woot.

yesterday was all homework. and i didnt watch the superbowl. i was busy drooling at shane west. yea. you saw it right. shane west. not the patriots. not the panthers. shane west. woo.

well, i got my hair cut on saturday. and it looks mighty spiffy. and now i have plans to go spend all my money at the mall this weekend. at hot topic. oh yes, bring in the good stuff :)

i had a bunch of homework over the weekend. crazy mad stuff. i had to do a huge math project on conic sections, practice my solo, do my sketchbook, read alot of english, study for biology, and clean my room.
i did alllll my math. sweet, eh?
ms bode loved it. i did it in one day. so did linds. go me. go linds. yay to us.

bio was a drag. again. we got to watch a movie on microbes. woo. much fun, as you can well imagine..
now i have to do all that english. and bio. and flute. and art. oh man. i didnt make it in the gallery (i knew i wouldnt) but sydney did and im so proud of her!! lets give a big 'woot!' to sydney! its her second time too. she paints really good :)
ahh, well, im off to stop my stomach from eating itself. yum.
-rina

canyoustandonyourhead?

Rina

:: 2004 28 January :: 5.52pm
:: Mood: saucy
:: Music: I Miss You - Blink 182

the mystery of the tiki
hello there
the angel from my nightmare
the shadow in the background of the morgue
the unsuspecting victim
of darkness in the valley
we can live jack and sally if we want
where you can always find me
and we'll have halloween on christmas
and in the night we'll wish this never ends
we'll wish this never ends

well it sure has been a while.
saturdsay= sleepover at amanda's. major movie watching. we saw practical magic, anger management, corky romano, and kate & leopold (twice).
sunday= spontaneous kid swapping. my mom came to pick me up with my little brother. amanda has a brother about the same age. so.. my brother stayed, and amanda came to my house.
another spontaneous moment- we told jake to come over too.
it was FUN.
we played ps2, talked [alot], and played pictionary.
monday was school. lots of homework, as expected. tuesday was more homework. as expected.
today is wednesday. school was fun. very surprising. i had sectionals after school. not fun. then i had to wait a half hour after sectionals so i could play my solo for mr. daniels. theenn, i waited outside in the cold for my mom. i was freezing. literally.
my hands were white. well, they were really pale and had red blotches. cold cold cold.
i couldve used a bit of cocoa.
ah, now i am home. and have biology. fun.
but i got to see hotness all over my television so im fine. that hotness' name is james marsters. carrie knows what im talking about ;)

bwahahaha.

nevermind. i'll update later to tell you about.. stuff. visit my livejournal! because.. it is cool now. alot better than it was.. and.. yea.

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Rina

:: 2004 22 January :: 2.23pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: people talking on phones

i take a look at my enormous...
oh man.
today started out really crappy. first was ok and second was better than i thought it would be, but third, fourth and fifth really did me in. in third period the flute choir had to go down to the black box theatre at the center to play our song. i dont even know why. anyways, we went back to the band room and i hate mr. daniels. you know, i think he doesnt have the mental capacity that allows him to give someone a compliment. its beyond impossible for him. if he had a choice of saying 'you played nicely' or burning in the deep depths of hell, i think he'd just jump in the hell hole to make things easier for himself. people are strange.
moving on..
fourth period was ooberboring. i couldve screamed. we were going over this worksheet and i reaallly didnt understand why we were. half the class didnt bother to even touch it. ah, such is the mystery of ms. bode. well, i decided to do my biology. there wasnt anything else i could do. except maybe carve into one of the desks. thank pink socks that i dont have an army knife.
oh well. in biology i was bored again. and i was feeling really crappy. because nola isnt there and i have to listen to guys. and i think i have a cold again.
i. h a t e. c o l d s.
but lunch really brought my spirits up. i had a good meal.mmm who wouldnt want to have a school made chicken sandwich? with tater tots?
not you? crazy!
but sam spilled red hawaiian punch on his khaki pants. red! and we are all laughing hysterically.i felt sorry for him though because sabrina was like 'well, you know sam,there is a time in every girl's life when she hits puberty. wait. you're a guy.' it was hilarious. i almost pissed myself. it was beautiful.
me and sabrina were still laughing in sixth period. mostly because she asked me if we should give him a tampon. hahaha. i seriously felt bad for him though. i offered my jacket. :)
seventh period i was crazy with anger. mad-crazy if you must.
I. H A T E. M A V I S. B E A C O N.
i already got to the advanced level for the ten-key. and i passed my goals. twice. but no, since i dont want a certificate, there must be more work for me to do!! i was going mad. absolutly mad.
mavis beacon will end up haunting me to the rest of my days. i will be in a computer store one day, and some clerk will come up to me and say 'excuse me, would you like to try the new version of mavis beacon in 10-key?'
ooorrrr, my mom will say 'we got the new mavis beacon! would you like to try some practice in 10-key?'
do you see how this is affecting me? mavis fucking beacon will be the end of me. grrrr
anyways, i am here at my mothers office for another 45 minutes. oh joyous days. but i did get a pepsi. im only here because i have a doctor's appointment. maybe she'll give me some more amoxicillan. *shudders* i hope not. those things were huge!
this next part of my entry shall be the compliment of ana's recent journal entry entitled 'i have a detachable penis.'

Whenever life gets you down
keeps you wearing a frown
and the gravy train has left you behind
and when you're all out of hope
down at the end of your rope
and nobody's there to throw you a line
did you ever get so low, that you dont know which way to go?
c'mon and take a walk in my shoes
never worry 'bout a thing
got the world on a string cause i
got the cure for all of my blues..
i take a look at my enormous penis
and the trouble starts melting away
i take a look at my enormous penis
and the happy times are comin' to stay
i got a sing and a dance
when i glance in my pants
and the feeling's like a sunshinny day
i take a look at my enormous penis,
and everything is going my way..

well, thats all i want to write. mostly because i cant exactly remember how the middle part of it goes. :D
im going to mess up this laptop im on. (its my mom's boss' son's laptop) ha. ha. ha. *grins evilly*
well, must be off to do my 'homework' haha yea right.
*Rina

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Rina

:: 2004 20 January :: 10.18pm
:: Mood: confused

We can live like Jack and Sally if we want, and have Halloween on Christmas..
Dont get involved in politics.
Its all rather confusing, really. Here's the deal. i just got done watching the last 10 minutes of Bush talking. this is an overview that i have summed up to the best of my ability...
Ok, Bush wants to spend lots of money to help these prisoners that are being released to have a home. and be mentored by some faith, which basically means that the churches will probably get a bunch of tax money if they hire these guys. well, i think thats majorly bright... *shakes head*
hmm.. i am very confused because of my parents' differing political views. you see, my father is republican. although he wont tell me why. not that its a bad thing, really. i just want a better understanding of the stance of both parties, so he wasnt that much help. now my mother, on the other hand, is an alien, so she cant vote. (from sweden) but, she said if she wanted to choose, she'd most likely be democratic. do you see my situation here? *sigh* well, she tried to explain some of the major democratic views. and i kinda get it. im just a bit unclear about republicans. my sister said the following: "The republicans are more interested in building up the military and stuff. the democratic are more for the people. the republicans are retards. dad, you're a retard." yea, so.. the only thing my dad said (except to not talk so loud) was that the democrats are dumb. basically. not quite sure. maybe i should be a liberal. except there aren't many in the senate/congress and im not sure about their views either.
politics are scary and i want to hide from them.
besides that, if anyone can clear the air id be most grateful. well, on to bed i guess. i actually did my english, which is a start. but i didnt do bio. big suprise there. and nola is switching out of that class. :(
did i mention that i had one of the shittiest days of my life today?
except for lunch (strange, isnt it?) because i had some.. strange.. conversations with sabrina. all i will say is that it involved pretzels. thats all... really..
*runs away from politics*

...

*Rina

p.s. oh man, we are doing coil pots in ceramics and i had the most brilliant idea for mine. Jack Skellington from the Nightmare before Christmas! i am truly a genius.

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Rina

:: 2004 18 January :: 10.35pm
:: Mood: dark

No one can run from the shadows of dreams
It seems that i haven't updated for a while. well, my life is just so gosh darn exciting i guess i dont have the time. Here is a run through of what most people call "life." I will be excluding details.

The Hell Tower that is called Thursday
maybe not an actual tower. more like one of the lower depths of hell that is not yet understood. note my amazing sarcasm. ha. ha.
well, i'll pick out the interesting parts. mostly because i dont really remember the first part of the day. *shrugs*
Lunch is amazing. I got to eat, and feel like crap at the same time. It appears as if one of my friends believes that i waste too much of my time on computer/tv/playstation. tv dominating. this friend thinks that because i have wasted my time on these petty excuses for entertainment, it has resulted in the drop of my grades. sorry. it has not. just because i have 2 c's, doesnt mean i am a complete dumbass. really, it doesnt. and im sorry if i have my own life, in which i sometimes like to sit and watch some television. oh yes, and im terribly sorry if i have offended you in any way by making lively conversation about television with other friends. and i do use 'other' as you believe i would. i would like to congratulate you on making me feel like shit.
everyone, please applaud this wonderful act of utmost crappiness.

so sorry.

What Dante could call 'The Friday of Hell'
The Friday of hell. it is most brilliantly named, if i do say so myself. well, the morning was good.
plans of a sleepover were made with 2 of my friends and second period was fun. amazing, isnt it? its one of those once in a lifetime experiences. thanks, ana. :)
Now then. there was a pizza party at the center at lunch. for the art people who painted stuff for the children's benefit. or something like that. who knows. Indeed, i went to this aptly named 'pizza party.' Of course, since i have freis it was most enjoyable being late. and having no pepperoni/cheese pizza left. just supreme.
I ate one piece after taking off the onions, mushrooms, peppers, and olives. it was delightful.
went to sixth period. my other friend (ah yes, so the term is again used.. fancy that.) told me about this 'friend' who controlled the pure shittiness of the day named thursday. more mean things. what fun i have in my social life, as you can quite imagine.
The day of disappointment
Saturday. also brilliantly named.
the day of the 'sleepover.' No calls, no plans.
no friends decided to come. fair enough, since it was such short notice.
More bloodsucking went on through the day. (i use the term 'bloodsucking' loosely and in the meaning of 'life-draining.' almost the same meaning. crazy, eh?)
Although it is quite tragic, i had no sleep. i just couldnt sleep. maybe it was my thoughts of friends that kept me awake. or perhaps it was the next day's comings that kept me from dreams. the main point is that i couldnt slip off into my favorite place where everything is either perfect, or cunningly nightmarish. no in-betweens or mixes of the two. but that could never affect our reality, could it?

pity.

Fell asleep at 5:30 a.m.

Today, the day of broken dreams
I am truly broken. im broken into thousands of bits and tiny halves of bits, and the millions of particles within them. such is expected from nature i guess.
plans were made for the same 2 friends to sleepover after we terrorized the little ones at the medieval fair held at lakes park. crushed. no one calls.
i woke at 8:30 to be dragged to church. i literally mean dragged. rain came. it was so soothing. and calming. and i tried with all my might to stay awake in church. really, i did.
Mom took me to Starbucks. got a frappuchino and a cookie. i wished i could have stayed there. i love bookstores.
came home and glued myself to this lovely machine. i dare say, that paint shop pro is addictive. dinner. then more broken-ness. explained to mother my failure of buds. cocoa should be a medical solution. i will look forward to ana's cocoa pot.
so ends my days. but i must say, with all honesty, that i have 1 or 2 good friends. one of them is andrea. i love you andrea, because you make me like this ----> :)

stay tuned for the next thrilling episode.

-me.

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Rina	:: 2004 14 January :: 5.50pm :: Mood: pulls out hair :: Music: Disturbed GO FUCK YOURSELF LOSER stabs madly at computer screen ... throws monitor out window [eye twitches] knocks over bookshelf and kicks wall Feel my fucking wrath and die. 9 stood \| canyoustandonyourhead?

Rina

:: 2004 10 January :: 9.51pm
:: Mood: creative? maybe.
:: Music: American Hi-Fi

[insert maniacal laughter]
Ok, first of all--

:)

Now i can tell you about tonight. It was way fun.
I went over to chelsea's house and syd was already there, so we talked and stuff until we went to meet melissa. We met her and went to Friday's. I think we might've mentally abused our waitress, but thats ok. It was all fun :D. Me and mel had a chicken blt and syd and chels both had a cheeseburger. yumm.. anyways, while syd was in the bathroom we were talkin in some funky accent and chelsea said that she was an australian-southern-chinese bitch. and somethin went on before that about her head being air or something, but i ended up saying 'if you're a chinese southern bitch with a booger blocking the air to your brain, then im the bloody easter bunny.' except i said it as if i was british and it all seemed fairly hilarious at the time. :D Sydney is Jesus.

Well, after dinner we went to the theatre and we got tickets. to peter pan. hahahahahahahahahahahahaha.
We were crazy in the theatre before the film started and chelsea ended up sitting on the floor between me and sydney. it was hilarious. Well, the movie went on, and near the end when wendy and peter kiss, and he smiles real big and the light thing is in the sky, yadda yadda; We all start cracking up. We were all laughing so hard. and i, personally, knew that i should stop, but couldnt. and then we laughed at the end when the freaky aunt lady gets to keep Slightly (one of the lost boys).

the end.

but i feel like writing so i think im going to do that. yay.

*Rina

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Rina

:: 2004 9 January :: 4.09pm
:: Mood: ECSTATIC
:: Music: In Keeping Secrets of Silent Earth:3 - Coheed & Cambria

Yawns are contagious. So is my overwhelming happiness.
I AM TOTALLY STOKED.
i, carina, shall be going to the AFI, Thursday, and Coheed & Cambria concert.
ahhhhhhh!!! HAPPINESS!!!

This makes me grin very much.

Ok.. Yesterday i went to the doctor. and it only took about 10 minutes. yay. and that included the time we had to wait. so.. yay. :)
I got a prescription for Amoxicillan. If you dont know what that is, its just a fancy word for extremely large pills. But they make me feel better. :)

*grins* i cant wait until March 4th.

Anyways, school was ok. I completly forgot that it was DEAR today. (haha ana) i felt kinda dumb because i thought it was wednesday. it is friday. wow i am incredibly retarded. but that is ok, because i can go to a kick-ass concert. Well, in second period we watched slides of Mr. Smith's life. what fun. i could tell that it was really great because ana, jesenia, and tiffany were trying to sleep. Poor Mr. Smith. no one really cares.
Third period was a free day. and i had brought my flute. The retardedness of me continued... ah well. Kelly was talking to me all period about Yuu Yuu Hakusho. I cant wait to see the Dark Tournament. :)
Fourth period i couldnt find my math book. someone stole it or something. i just took notes. fun.
Fifth period we went over the exam still. we spend about 10-15 minutes on some questions. i screamed 'Why dont you just give us our test grades? its much easier than us listening to the nonsesne that comes out of your mouth!' well, i was screaming it in my head. since i value my health, i didnt actually say it aloud. :)
Lunch.. i am loved! everyone missed me! :D
Sixth period.. more on 'To kill a mokingbird.' i honestly dont know why we're reading it.
Seventh period we got new computers! they are very sweet black gateways. yay :)
Im going to teach chelsea html. hahahaha fun.
Speakin of chelsea, we are most likely going to go to the movies tomorrow haha. and she is going to the concert too! fun,fun friends. much fun.
but i cant go anywhere unless my room is up to mother's expectations.
Gots to clean me room, mate.
*Rina [themonkeyinthemiddleator who is extremely excited about the concert. really.]

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Rina

:: 2004 8 January :: 12.35pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: 100 hottest hotties on VH1 :)

Just wonderful
Im home and im sick. It cant get anymore lovely. My fever went down a bit, and my eyes aren't watering anymore. But, my throat is worse, i have a constant headache, and my ears hurt. Beautiful.
Well Mom woke me up at 5:45 in case i was well enough to go to school. I wasn't. i had a fever so i hobbled back to my room and slept more.
I woke up 10:30. Then, I was too numb to do anything so i sat in front of the tube. kind of. I was almost awake watching I Dream of Jeannie. and then i saw that Vh1's 100 hottest hotties was on. now im watching it. I saw the first segment and Orlando Bloom was 76. I could have stabbed the tv. but this is the second segment, and we're on 54 i think. *shrugs* More later if my headache goes away.
*Rina

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Rina

:: 2004 7 January :: 6.35pm
:: Mood: sick :(

Where's my medication?
I'm sick :(
My throat is sore, my nose is stuffed, and i have a fever. not to mention i just feel like crap. and my eyes are really warm and keep on watering. and it hurts :( but, lets get on to better things, shall we?

Today was the first day of school since winter break. i'd like to tell you that it was really fun and amazing.. but it was school.

Woke up early, took a shower, ate breakfast yadda yadda, and left for school. it was really cold outside and i was wearing a skirt. im so dumb. Anyways, me and lisa went up to our alpha-home room which is ms. burbank. a biology teacher. yay. We went to our first period. yay. ms. roeder just talked the whole time and i died.
second period sucked. it sucked monkey. We had a substitute named ms. stebbins (or 'man-woman' as we used to refer to her in middle school.. yuck). We had to watch a movie on impressionism and had to answer questions. I died. i seriously think i would have cried of boredom if i didnt remember that this is school. you're not supposed to cry in school, silly. yea, i died. i just wanted to start screaming and crying,"Damn you, Impressionism!!!" :(
Third period was a little better. i just sat there. what fun. i was kept sane by darbie. thank you darbie.
Fourth period, i was on the brink of dying again. We had 11 projects to choose from and had to get into groups of 3. think again. none of the people in there are my 'friends.' Yes, we talk every blue moon but i dont think that is enough to have a friendship. *shrugs*
Fifth period was ok i guess. We had new seating arrangements and i thank the good lord that i sit by nola. Thank you thank you thank you. we got our exam questions back (not the answer sheet. i was going to strangle ms. freis.) we went over some questions and out of 19 i think i only got 5 wrong. i tried really hard to stay awake. but her voice is monotone so i just thought of me being at home in the next 2 or 3 hours.
hold on, my eyes are watering again.

alright thats better.

I didnt want to look bored to tears at lunch so i tried to be really happy and pretend that i didnt have to make up 3 pages of questions for biology since i didnt get them before break like everyone else. Well, i looked like i was high. i didnt shut up. really i didnt. i kept talking until 6th period. but i was kinda happy at lunch because Sabrina and Sam are in 3rd lunch with me.
*feels forehead*
lets get a move on. i have a headache. and im typing with my eyes closed so excuse any spelling/grammar errors.
sixth period i died too. i was a little cheery because sabrina was there, and i didnt finish some cookies at lunch, so i accidently talked with my mouth open and i sounded like a retard. More great news. we have to read 'to kill a mockingbird'. we listened to half the first chapter on audio and it was really hard to stay awake. really hard. i hate the book already. i understood it fine, but im not a fan of slow books.

No. you havent read a slow book until you've attempted to read the first few pages of this so called 'novel.'

anyways, i was really excited in seventh period because melissa got contacts and cut her hair. she looks good. and, she told me about the concert with Coheed & Cambria, AFI, and Thursday. I want to go sooooooooo bad!!! Maybe if i clean my room...
Got home, gave myself a headache from an unknown cause (my biology book) and felt extremely crappy. I had a slightly sore throat this morning. it became more painful at lunch. i had a huge ass headache that added to my suffering and now i am full blown with this cold. roar. i would scream but im too tired and it would probably hurt my throat.
I scanned my Orlando Bloom picture that took me forever. maybe i'll put the link up. *sigh*
Maybe Johnny and Orlando will keep me happy until the O.C. comes on. i swear that the show was one of the more powerful reasons i kept my sanity. Now i must try and get up ( i took the comforter from my bed and wrapped it around me because i was freezing. im still freezing and my fan isnt even on. )

I wish i get better by tomorrow so i can do something this weekend. I wanted to see another movie with speedy :)
*grabs cough drop bag*
this is my friend feelbetter the cough drop bag. we have bonded much since i first met him when my mother came home with him in a grocery bag. yay.
*Rina

crawlie! is there something wrong? you didnt seem that happy today. i wish i could give you a hug :(

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Rina

:: 2004 4 January :: 11.44pm
:: Mood: hyper
:: Music: I believe in a thing called love - The Darkness

Whatever spikes your altoids
ok here's the deal..
Me and Andrea met at the Bell Tower tonight. We decided to go see a movie and ended up watching peter pan hahaha. the ticket lady was a real bitch.. we'd beat her down with sticks if there wasnt plexiglass seperating her from me and andrea!
Anyways, we missed the Deluxe coca-cola commercial they always play. 'brian, its time for dinner!' 'its Deluxe, son! Deluxe!' haha
hmm... well, we are in the movie, and its playing and im like 'whoa.. tone it down a bit.. this isnt pg-13' it was funny.
There was one part where peter pan whistles and all these fairies come from this huge, -erm- fairy tree and everyone's quiet. At that moment andrea says 'fairies!' i tried so hard not to laugh. really hard. i almost died. hmm. most of the scenes were really fake so i kinda coughed out 'computer' a few times. it was really funny at the time. We were eating Andrea's altoids (they're addictive little buggers) and there must have been something in them because we were kinda crazy lmao. after the movie was done we went back to the tower to find a payphone. we called home. then we stood outside of bed bath & beyond. While we were waiting there some guy hit a sign really hard and andrea jumped back kinda far and it was hilarious because she was like ' i thought we were getting shot at.' :D We saw two UGLY cars. Andrea yelled 'you have an ugly car!!' and i said 'um, the windows are rolled down' pretty hilarious.
O! and this one guy in a black pickup truck went from the parking lot onto the street by going through this place where there are three concrete bar things on the road and there is a side walk. so, he basically just kinda drove on the sidewalk. redneck! hahahaha yea.. i had my disposable camera so i could waste film so i took two pictures of a tree and one of a stop sign. w h o a. it was kinda funny.
Well, i really must be going.. i have to play flute at 10:30 in the morning. i dont want to wake up at 9! *pouts* ah well. thats the way it goes.
*Rina

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Rina

:: 2004 4 January :: 2.30pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Thursday

whoa buddy
Hmm.. i haven't updated for a while.
Well, Ninni and Richard left. I was sad :( but we're seeing them in another 5-6 months so its cool :) I went to church today. It was kinda boring.. I went to target afterwards and got some powder and a bag of coffee. did you know that they want $7 for some starbucks?? thats really dumb. *shoots economic factors* o well.
I went to tgifridays with lisa yesterday. it was amazingly crowded because it was some arts and crafts fair. arg. well, we ate lunch and went over to the theater to see a movie. We saw Stuck on You. it was funny on some parts and kinda lame in some other scenes. thats just my opinion though.. *shrug*
lets see.. nothing much to really say. oh yes, i forgot. i made a livejournal. it is slightly complicated but really cool if you get the hang of it. of course, i like woohu better, and thats why it is my main journal. my livejournal one is just a place to put all my icons. i mean, you just tell me you want it and Ill be like, uh, yea sure. no big deal. you dont even have to credit me. just say, hey this is cool can i have it?
easy as pie. and pie is really good.
i actually just finished some pumpkin pie like half an hour ago. I think i forgot to say that the day before Richard left, we went mini-golfing. or did i? psshh bad memory.
*Rina

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Rina

:: 2004 1 January :: 11.10pm
:: Mood: happy :D
:: Music: New Found Glory

beware.. dolphins taunt
Today we went to the beach! (except for dad and sven). We thought it would be nice to visit the Sanibel Lighthouse beach again :)
We took the volvo. ouch. me lisa and richard were cramped in the backseat. ouch. we got there and i immediately went to feel the water. it was really fucking cold. i sunbathed. for a while. but then i decided i would at least try to go in the water. i got to my waist. cold as a bitch. Lisa tried too. My legs were numb. im dead serious. Richard swam. crazy.
There were dolphins swimming really close to the shore and i was like 'whoa!' but so was everyone else. there was a line of people down the beach tryin to take pictures. i would have made fun of them, but i was taking pictures too.
the rest of it.. lets see.. more sunbathing. i went out into the ocean to see if i would swim, and richard went with me. lisa came after 2 minutes. after 7-10 minutes of 'letting my legs get used to the water' (which felt much more like dying of hypothermia), i swam. i was freezing. some 10 minutes later, lisa got in with much stalling on her part lmao. me and richard were like 'chicken! chicken!' fun.
more sunbathing.
the dolphins came back (like 3 of them i think) and they were close to the shore and went by slowly. thats just way too much. I could tell that they were taunting us. and if we could hear them.. laughing hysterically at our lack of brain capacity.
i swam again.. and went in after 2 minutes! i was happy about that.
When we were done, we crammed back into the car, sandy and more uncomfortable, and drove home. Me and lisa were loons. we were singing to the theme song from drew carey and were dancin. i think we mortally embarassed richard. hahahaha. what fun.
we had a good dinner today. and i found that my brother, in his own words, calls himself an embarassment to nature. i truly believe it.
We played cards. (me lisa and richard) um.. my ship sails, b.s., and.. thats it. i won b.s. the second time hahaha. it was hilarious.
Now, me and andrea just stopped changing our fonts and font color while talking to eachother (out of pure boredom, mind you.. ) and think i should join potca. nicely done :)
hmm.. here are some of my better icons that i made. but no stealing. my page is right-click protected anyways :P
here we go:

and one that i made for Andrea.. that she cant use for anything lmao! :D

well, i should probably go. Ninni and richard leave tomorrow :( but we are going to sweden this summer, so no fret.
*Rina (themonkeyinthemiddleator)

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Rina

:: 2004 1 January :: 12.22am
:: Mood: eh...
:: Music: A popping/whistling sound outside my window

New Year's
I kinda forgot it was New Year's Today..
Wow im pretty lame.
Well.. We just did some small fireworks because my dad is afraid that the others are too big and will set someone's house on fire. it wouldnt be our fault. its theirs. they left their house in our way. hmph. Wow. Not many days til school. dont send me back. i dont want to go back. it gets so boring... you do the same thing every day. fun in a bottle.

one of my favorite movies of all time (no not potc) is on. Edward Scissorhands. that movie rocks. and im not allowed to watch it on the tv in the tv room because the living room is by the tv room and my aunt sleeps in the living room. and lisa wont let me watch it in her room either. :( i want to see johnny.
-->Can you imagine? the second.. no.. third thing i did this year is to write in this. my life is so overwhelmingly exciting. ack- more whistling. go away fireworks!
Well, since everyone creates a useless list of goals that they will never reach.. i decided to make one too.
New Year's Resolutions:
First on my list - to stop, or try to stop, being so sarcastic. my mouth gets me in a lot of trouble these days. next, do homework when i come home and then watch tv.. not the other way around. umm.. save my money? im not exactly great with not spending, but i might last for a few days with that one.. I almost forgot.. i need to buy a new cd player and messenger bag. both of them are now shit. nice, eh? totally.
Um.. before fireworks we rented movies. Monty Python and the Holy Grail, Shanghai Knights, and Hunted.. i think.. well we watched the first two, and I think Richard liked Monty Python :P that movie makes me want to pee on some parts.
"Have at you! C'mon you pansy! Chicken! Chicken!"
"What're ya gonna do? Bleed on me?!"
hahaha good stuff. and for Shanghai Knights:
"Would you like some Spotted Dick?"
"Can you believe this? I've been here for 5 seconds and this guy is already asking me if ive got the clap!"
Hmm.. now to put my memory into biology, instead of movie quotes..
nope. it'll never happen.
im sad about bio. Nola might be leaving :( dont leave me nola! i'll be alone! with [mumble] no one *cough* to cheat [mumble mumble] off of...
AHHHH!!! *clicks mouse madly* I hate pop-ups! i have that popup blocker google thing.. but since ive blocked 1140 ads already, i think its getting tired of shooting them into oblivion. anyways..
I hope everyone has a great new year :)
*Rina

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