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Waaah! You're so LOVABLE! Everybody likes you,
because you're a great person to have around
and it's always happy about everything ^^.
congrats! and...can I hug you?? plz! ^///^


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You are...definitely not over him.


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well...whatever, i know how i feel & i don't need a test to tell me that right?...right...

Sad... You use the darkness to hide yourself from
the world. Something has really hurted you,
which made you turn dark. Darkness makes you
feel save and that is why you stay there.

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you are beautiful in my arms...
well i haven't been around for a while, mainly cuz i was in the process of finishing my fafsa shit...which is done *yay*...so yeah...i ended up being such a romantic geek (or tried to at least)...i made joey a wannabe version of denisse's & mine "puttin' on the ritz cassarole"....so yeah...& then i took him to the park in ec to eat it...it would've been great, had it not been so cold, the food been better, & had we not worried so much bout that stupid dude who escaped the prision lastnight...*oi*...that's another story...

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this is the story from the valley press bout the inmate who escaped...it was scary cuz i was there, but it was like round 7 or a bit before then...but it's creepy how you think nothing in the world can go wrong, & then life hits & shit like this happens...*tsk tsk*...*oi*...so yeah we were there...which was why we were kinda paranoid tonight...

well i've got track in the morning...that sux...but the fair is here...so that'll be coo i guess...talk later...

everything hurts...damn track...
so i came back from track in so much pain...i think i'm gonna improve, i just hope i have a good head on my shoulders bout it this year...i'm afraid of turning out to be a quiter like my sophomore year...*crosses fingers*...so yeah...

school was ok...kinda got in a fight w/ joey, which surprised me cuz i didn't even talk to him & he was already upset w/ me...i kinda wish we both went to a different school together so we wouldn't have to deal w/ the stuff we fight bout anymore, cuz it gets really old w/ eachother & frustrating when we go over & over & over it all the time...so yeah...but we're good now...& i'm planning on taking him out...i know that sounds funny, but he takes me out, so i should take him out...lol...*thinking*->(so where am i taking him anyways?...lol)<-*thinking*...

if anyone has a suggestion, comment please...or in my case...cry for me :) ...(if you don't get it, don't worry bout it)...talk later...

so yeah...

You are the Teletubbie who gets high.


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i'm bored...so yeah...i'm talking to danny right now bout track...i'm trying to make him understand that i'm not googoogaga over the fact that he joined...so yeah...

well i've been working on stuff for scholarships & i'm pooped...talk later...

it may take all these road ahead just to leave it all behind...
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so anywho, i went out today...it was coo...i love the rain...it's grand isn't it?...

i went w/ danny to big 5 to look for track stuff, then to calex just to go...we had a hard time figuring out what to eat, so that was funny...lol...we were gonna walk in the rain like we did last time, but i was in pain from yesterday's practice, & my back has been hurting...i did however still go out...

i went & visited joey today...it was grand...i like to spend time w/ him a lot lately...i bet it gets on ppl's nerves though...lol...ni modo eh?...anywho, i came back carefully cuz it was really raining hard & i've never driven in rain...i had my crash-course today...i got tips from danny, my dad, joey, & his mommy...thanx everyone :) ...so i got home safely...

i had been working on my fafsa & i think i'm close to being done...so yeah...

well i'll write later i think if i have energy & something to say...talk later...

kick ass weekend...& i want more!
well the weekend has been coo...here's what went on...

friday:...we double dated w/ cass & fabs...we went to the china buffet in calexico & then went to the hot springs...that sucked ass ladies & gentlemen...it was so less than i expected...it kinda pist me off cuz (& i don't mean this in a bad way, but it was how i was feeling) i didn't even want to go out w/ them in the first place...so to go out there i kinda got my hopes up thinking it'd be some kick ass hang out, which it so was not...bunch of old hippie ppl out in the hot tub & shit...*oi*...fabi & cass kept trying to pressure us into going, & that was the other thing that had pist me off some...
not many ppl understand that i do not like water very much...i'm lucky i can take showers & drink it...i had a bad experience when i was a child & to be honest i do not want to have to learn, cuz that's just me...i think i'm fine w/out it...anyways so joey & i stayed in the car while fabs & cass did whatever in the tub w/ old ppl...*eww*...anyways, we hung out...drank some beer too (bud light sux ass man, & don't mix it w/ chinese food :S )...we used the straps from my jacket to tie joey up...*heh heh*...yeah anywho...that freaked out cass & fabi...lol...so we left them there for luke to pick their asses up & left home...i went home sick but it's all good...

sat:...i had a long day today...i had track, tristan's birthday party, & the concert...

track went ok...i got a ride from danny & we picked up lu...i ran at least a mile w/out stoping so that was coo...it was just kinda boring...i hope i stick w/ it this year & not make any excuses as to why i can't be there...*sigh*...yeah...

after track danny & i went to get breakfast @ taco shop...it was coo...i still have some downstairs now that i think bout it...lol...

i came home & took a shower & left to tristan's party...it was ok...we calmed down marisela cuz she was smoking & thought her mom caught her or something, so i told her to breathe & not get stressed bout it...she's fucking stupid...i'm gonna say shit to her @ school when we get back :) ...(i'm evil, i know)...so we hung out...kinda problems w/ danny, but as joey would say, what's new?...anywho...i dunno why but i seriously did feel uncomfortable @ his party...ni modo...joey & i had mixed kaluah w/ milk & drank some...it was coo...i wanted to make a shirly temple w/ alcohol, but we didn't have enough time :( ...

from there i went home to get my "hardware" as joey would say & change my contacts...we picked up lina @ left to their house to hang for a few...then went to the concert...it was @ a house, which was kinda different for me...we hung out there & it was supposed to start @ 5, we got there round 6:15, & they didin't start til like almost 7...lol...everyone & their grandma who was punk was there i guess...it was a lot of ppl...it was coo...beer & reds & cloves & weed everywhere...lol...so yeah joey & i drank some...no smokes... :( ...lol...but it's all good...there were some good bands...i had a feeling that joey & them wouldn't like it cuz it was punk, but i know joey had a good time...though everyone else just kinda seemed to have backed off from it, but whatever...i had joey there & that was all that mattered...we saw pancho & lloyd there...& jeremy w/ a friend whom i cannot name...lol...dude, that person was so funny...since he's not used to being around smoke & beer & stuff, he pretty much got really high off the fumes that were so new to him...it was so fucking grand...YOU ROCK DUDE!...so anyways that was coo...i had to piss really badly tonight & i finally got myself to go outdoors...*yay*...it was grand...it's been raining & it's so cool...i want to go walking but i'm tired as hell...lol...we went & bought fabreez before we came home so we didn't smell like beer & cigarettes...lol it worked i'll tell you that much...so yeah i came back home & joey called bout 20 mins ago to let me know he got home too...

well it's kinda late...& i'm kinda lightheaded...& it's cold...so i'm gonna get some rest...g'night world...talk later...

leave me alone, please?!
well i have the filming crew over...*oi*...i just wanted to be alone today, but whatever...i'll get over it...anyways today was ok i guess...i started my period last night & i've been in so much pain it sucked so much...i'm having danny help me w/ my fafsa right now, so i better get going on that...talk later...b4 i have to go out... :S

a new experience tonight...


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yeah i'm a whus when it comes to traveling...well i got some sleep lastnight...i'm gonna prepare myself all day for tonight's outting...double date w/ fabs & casshole...*sigh*...they're cute...but something bout it irks me...

i dunno...talk later...

i just realized something...*fuck*...
i hate to say it, but he's just the same as the other... :(

life officially has gone back to sucking the big one...talk later...

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well yeah i went to the basketball game tonight...it was the girls game...yeah we lost but it was a good game nonetheless...i'm kinda upset w/ joey right now cuz of a comment made, & i'm trying to get over it right now...i'm actually drinking water...lol...so yeah maybe i need to get to sleep or play guitar or do something to get my mind off of things, cuz i'm gonna be frustrated easily w/ my period this week...*oi*...well yeah...talk later...

let the rain fall down & wake my dreams let it wash away my sanity...
well it's a morning...i still have to get ready...got some sleep finally...so hopefully all goes good today...hopefully joey gets to take me to school today cuz my dad said i need to get a ride off someone...*yay*...so yeah that's coo...well i need to call him & take a shower...talk later...

a boring wednesday nonetheless...
well it was an ok day today...not much that i can remember to talk bout...i hung out w/ joey after school so that was coo...he looked very cute today...i felt ignored today, but i got over it...i'm thinking of going outside to play my guitar, but it's windy & i'm tired...lol...i finally fixed the msn problem...customer service is really good w/ them...they actually answer the phone :D ...so yeah that was neato...i'm having nothing to look forward to for tomorrow...but sat. i found out will be such a busy day...i have to clean up my room cuz i'm getting irritable...i hate when that happens...plus i need to get some sleep for the next couple days so i feel better...talk later...

& the excitment has left the building
well i just witnessed my first fight...hard to believe huh?...& i'm a senior...well yeah it was kyle against luis...it was kinda stupid...but scary...i got an uneasy feeling afterwards...so yeah...that's one exciting thing going on at hhs...*oi*...

class is almost over & i still haven't finished my damn ntbk...*FAQ*...talk later...

a day at school...*ugh*
well i'm in the mac lab right now...trying to work on my fafsa form, but it doesn't really matter cuz i don't have my pin or my password...i think i'm gonna have to start all over again...fking jpo is pissing me off right now...i think i'll rape him :) ...jk, he's not "my type" ;) ...too much dark chocolate...anywho...

this morning was coo...i did nothing...*yay*...

i made joey an anniversary card lastnight...it's kickass...my printer works now so i made a lot of things...yeah i was bored...

tonight we have the radio show...that's coo...if my computer decides to cooperate, i'll make a new cd :) ...& i was all, "yeah....that's coo"...lol...

i'm gonna have to get going cuz i need to finish my notebook for garewal...*oi*...talk later...

tomorrow is our 9 month anniversary...in this time a baby was born...that's what joey would say

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so...
where is joey?...

what do i do for my dad's birthday?...

why am i so tired right now?...

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ok...yeah talk later...

what i've learned today...
well today was an interesting day & i realized something & i know this is gonna sound stupid or silly or just out of nowhere but...

i really miss joey & i'm for some reason hurting inside...i hope i never hurt him & i know that it would eat me alive if i did...& i couldn't stop thinking bout him today...which makes me realize...

i love him so much...enough to be one step closer to being his wife :'( (happy tears ppl)...

well i have nothing else to say...talk later...

i guess the early bird does get the worm...damn!
for some reason i couldn't get sleep this morning...i woke up round 3...so that's coo...i guess...

i think i woke up out of pure excitement of today...the school celebrating v-day today...getting a sugar coma...having a pep assembly...umm...yeah...

dude, i wasn't one of norah jones' fans, but her new song "sunrise" is coo...her video is on like 24/7 i swear...lol...& denisse is jealous of that i'm sure...

speak of the devil, she made dinner last night... ;) good job!...it was kickass...

joey kinda started something w/ me lastnight on the phone...& even knowing that he was mad @ something else & i tried to disregard it...it still sticks in my mind...*oi*...he better be happy today...lol...

i think ppl liked my eyes yesterday...i kinda freaked out ppl & my dad kinda doesn't like 'em...but that's too bad huh?...lol...

damn it's boring right now...*ugh*...well i'm shaving my legs today...g'bye hair :(...*sigh*...lol...it's for the better i guess...

well i'm gonna try to get like 30 mins of sleep...talk later...

that song is fking funny man!
well i got my colored contacts...they kinda coo, turquoise, but i'm having a problem seeing now...lol oh well...they look kick ass!...

i have to get going for school...nothing exciting happened yesterday...so yeah...talk later...

i'm tired dangit
well today was ok i guess...nothing bad @ school that i remember...i just kinda felt *eh* & lost...i blanked out a lot in classes so i think it was my contacts & i was losing focus maybe...i dunno...

work went ok today...i went & bought joey's v-day present & in the process i broke his car...lol...just the key chingy...but it's crap anyways so yeah...*whew*...i love you baby!...

so i'm here @ home watching the real world...yeah i kinda wish i was on there just to be myself round ppl i'm not used to...but yeah...

it's getting late & yeah...talk later...

damn it's too cold in the morning...
i'm gonna have to go to school early...well at least i can kinda get some hm/wk done @ school...lol...i slept good last night i think...OH DAMN!...the only reason i got online was to look for lyrics, but i got distracted & now i remembered...lol...well tonight is the radio show so we'll see how that goes...

gotta get ready for school...so talk later...

the day is done...finally
so the day was ok...by myself mostly...i made dinner for my dad & left to go film something for joey & fabi...it was coo...& fking cold too...lol...so yeah...this movie i'm watching is pretty coo...it's a country movie...bout a singer/songwriter from new york moving into nashville to make it big in the local bar scene...it's funny cuz when i watch these kinda movies they tend to inspire me some, or motivate me to the point where i'm like "yeah, that's what i'm gonna do, that's me right there"...then i wake up!...lol...anywho...well tomorrow & probably forever more i'm getting taken to school by my dad...how crappy it is to have to go to school @ 7:30 when school doesn't really start til 8:15!...yeah i'm kinda pist bout that...ni modo eh?...

well it's getting late & i'm gonna try to fix something on my computer...talk later...

i love you joey :)

*blah*
so another long morning is passing me by...i'm having to clean the room but i haven't gotten very far...i hope i can do something today...i hate it when my dad yells at me cuz then i feel like i'm nothing...i'm worthless or something...he makes me feel inferior to mankind...wow that sounded kinda deep...anyways so i get all depressing & shit after our fights...& i hate to feel like that...*sigh*...i dunno what to do anymore...oh well i guess...

i'm gonna keep cleaning & listen to evanescence like mad (what's new)...talk later...

the last town carnival in my damn senior life...awww :(

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well after the last post joey called to tell me he was coming over...he appoligized & so did i...i really hate fighting w/ him cuz i guess it's just so much more serious when we fight...that's the thing...i've never really had someone who would fight w/ me...i usually was the only one to bitch bout things...but to me fighting is healthy in a relationship i guess...it'd be too bland if everything was perfect, though in our society we strive for perfection...anywho...so we spent much of the day @ the carnival again...i went home for a bit & got in trouble for...yeah if you really want to know just email me...but yeah...so anyways...went back & hung out w/ joey & some other ppl...then danny hung out w/ us for a little bit too...today was lu's 18th bday, but since he's a j/w, i had to tell him sad 18th...lol funny stuff man...so hanging out was coo today i guess...just really tiring...we have no school tomorrow, so i'ma stay home & clean my room cuz i need to be able to go out this weekend...well i'm out of things to say except that EVANESCENCE WON BEST NEW ARTIST & BEST ROCK PERFORMANCE @ THE GRAMMYS!!!...that's my band ;)...

i love you joey...talk later...

everyone hates me now
i feel like i'm losing denisse & mark...my two friends that liked eachother this week i have a feeling i'm losing too...

now joey & i kinda got into a fight & i didn't want it to go there... :'( ...he hates me & the way i am i know it...i'm not the one for him...there's gotta be someone better than me...someone he can trust & his parents & sister can love to be around...someone...someone...someone...

but not me...

talk later...

a long night...
well the carnival was coo...joey & i got eachother rings so that was kick ass...then we got (or i won) 2 stuffed pugs...we named them pugsly & wednesday (like from the adams family)...so yeah that was coo...i took care of him some cuz we both got sick, but he got it worse than me...but i think he's ok now...hopefully we can hang out today...i dunno yet...well i better get going to get ready for church right now...talk later...

"say you're here & IT'S ALL OVER NOW"...
well it's over...my last holtville parade, my last parade in general i think...i almost cried in the middle of the performance, but it wasn't worth it...

i couldn't talk to denisse & mark cuz they seemed preoccupied today...actually everyday now...& danny was too busy looking for "someone"...*ugh*...yeah i guess i'm pathetic...

i'm gonna try to go & have fun @ the carnival...but something in me says it will never be the same...

*sigh*...talk later...