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it just bugs me now...*ugh*...

:(

in other news...
i found out that someone likes someone...no mentioning of names here...it's coo, i guess...

yeah i'm not in the mood to talk anymore...talk later i guess...

happy happy friday...
well today was ok...we did hey pachuco @ the pep assembly & i did my best to "skank"...yeah it was funny...hopefully if everyone shows up tonight we'll have pep band @ the basketball game tonight against calipatria...i know we'll lose ;) ...

i had a great time after school though...

anyways...tomorrow is the parade & i'm kinda freaking out subconciously...i think it's cuz it's my last year doing this...& the holtville parade i've been doing ever since i've been living here...so it'll be a drastic change next year... :( ...noseogefil...lol (jaime)...

so yeah i'll write more laters...talk later...

dude, i'm so tired i can barely see the screen...
well the past few days have been ok...just really tired lately & i've noticed i'm not eating right again...i've also noticed i'm moodly lately...& an extreme thing i've noticed is that i'm actually focused on my school work... :S ...ok anyways...

joey got me the lacuna coil cd which is coo...i like a lot...my head hurt today cuz of the contacts, so yeah i really need to start drinking a hell of a lot more water...i've just been out of it lately...i think something's really wrong but i just don't know what it is...cuz i've also noticed (& i bet you're saying to yourself "i wish she'd stop noticing"...) that i've been scratching my head more than usual...for those of you who don't get that, i usually scratch my head when i'm nervous bout something...

maybe it's cuz the parade is in a few days...& i have really low expectations on how the carnival will be...

i just remembered how i can't take change very well...& that this is not only a new year, but a year w/ different actions that may take place...i dunno if that made sense...oh well...

i should start getting some sleep cuz i gots early practice tomorrow...talk later...

my poor tired eyes...
well i came back from the station...it went coo...school was alrighty i guess...i've been very frustrated w/ brad lately...to the point where i think we've screwed up our friendship, cuz now i think i've seen a side of him that i don't like, & i've found that that side is pretty much the real him...i dunno what i saw i guess...*sigh*...well i'll be on later cuz i can't remember what i was really gonna write bout...talk later...

serendipity: The faculty of making fortunate discoveries by accident
i like this movie, though it frustrates me...it makes me think to much bout whether or not the person really is "the one"...but nevertheless i know that whatever i put into the relationship determines that joey is THE ONE for me...fabi & i were talking bout a possible ring for so that's coo...just as long as i can marry joel, i don't care if he'd bought me a 25cent ring...

so yeah hopefully we get to jam tomorrow...me & the freshman...i'm kinda excited bout it...

well i'm out of it, so talk later...

so how DOES it feel to treat me like you do?
well i'm talking to a friend, & i'm seriously not gonna mention names...well he's just kinda buggin me, cuz he treats me nice, kinda when he wants "something"...but yeah...it's probably in my head...oh but i'll tell you all this much it's definetly NOT danny...

well i didn't get my colored contacts, but they will come in soon...so yeah, i'm getting turquoise...neato i guess...

i think i'm gonna sit outside, or maybe not, but i'm planning on playing my guitar tonight i hope...i still haven't done my homework...i'll copy off of someone tomorrow...lol...

maybe afterwards i'm gonna watch serendipity...yeah...

my stomach hurts...& i'm bored & tired...so yeah i'ma go now...talk later...

if you lived in the 70's you would probably be at a
disco now. so your a pair of candies clog
heels. but since your kinda preppy your most
likely fun but a little self centered.


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musically unchallenged
i was in the mood today to bust out w/ my guitar & play, but i haven't done so in forever...the freshman want to start a band...that's coo...but i kinda wanted to play an instrument, but depending on who's all doing it, i think i'll be singing...which is coo...so yeah...i'm hoping that i can get some practice in w/ the other guys that i'm supposed to be in a band w/...i guess they think i quit but i dunno...well we'll see what happens...talk later...

happy groundhog day!
i might get colored contacts...hm...

Your Dream Engagement Ring Has an Oval Diamond!

i'm such a drama queen...
well ok it's not my last entry, but i just don't feel like saying my problems anymore, cuz i just don't...so yeah i'm ok now i guess...but whatever...

"don't want your hand this time, i'll save myself, maybe i'll wake up for once..."

maybe...just for once...talk later...

temporary goodbyes are things i'm used to in my worthless life...
i think this will be the few last entries i write here...i can't talk bout me anymore...i can't be open w/ everyone here...i can't speak...i think i'm dead...it's not a total thing that i'll never write again here, but i just don't know what to say anymore, & i don't have the strength to do things that i thought i could do...

w/ my last few words that i may write here:
HANG ME ON A ROPE, TELL ME ALL MY WRONGS, FOR IN THIS WORLD I DO NOT BELONG...

still kinda cleaning...
so yeah i'm still at home trying to get some things done...didn't really watch my chick flicks, but i did eat & relax some...i'm almost done w/ my laundry & i'm gonna have to clean up the floor & vaccuum...hopefully my dad will let me go out tonight...i really need it...well i'ma finish...talk later...

boring at my house man...
well my dad left to work, & i'm gonna try to clean up not only my whole room but some of the house...my motive?...to go to the drive-ins w/ joey, lina, ben, aubs, & daniel...hopefully my dad won't freak like he did last time...*oi* i hope i can go...but if he says no, then i think joey & i will still hang out so that's coo...i already started doing laundry so that's coo...i'm gonna have to make my bed, vaccuum, & put things away...i should also clean up the bathroom cuz i left all my make-up & hair stuff from last night all over the counter...

maybe afterwards i'm gonna eat something & watch some chick flicks...i realized that i need to relax somewhat today...well after my chores obviously...but i deserve it...i finished finals & i think i got a 3.0 barely...i finished my last carrot queen race...i am pretty much caught up on assignments...i should be able to breathe now...*sigh*...wow, that was great...

so yeah i think i'll be on my way now...talk later...

1,000 tickets got me 3rd runner-up, & it's finally over...*yay*...
well the banquet went ok i guess...didn't win like i knew i would...got 3rd runner-up...4th place for those who don't understand placements...& there were only 4 running...but i got my money so i think we're good...joey hung out afterwards, so that was coo...i'm glad that he came...i wish denisse & rosa could've came, but oh well i guess...

so yeah joey diez won carrot queen...what a fucking surprise...but i handled it well...c'mon, don't pretend that you didn't see that one coming?...lol...

i think i'm gonna get some sleep now that joey called to let me know that he got home safely...*sigh*...i can't wait til home for him is home for me... :D ...

g'night...sweet dreams...sleep tight...talk later...

i hate you so much...
i can't talk to danny w/out feeling like shit sometimes...& this is when i see that joey was so right...*ugh*...(i hate to be proven wrong if you haven't noticed)...i realize that i stress so much over little things & when i talk to danny it makes it worse...he's bitching to me on the phone something bout his dog & 6th period...all of which i don't understand...mainly cuz i can't concentrate today...i've always hated & will always hate the way that danny tries to "calm" me down..."breathe in & out becky...look at me & breathe..."...some other shit like that...i hate that he all of a sudden cares...when it was him who never told me his side of the problem of when we broke up...

i'm sorry, it hurts to say it, but he's been asking me ever since he got w/ griselda if i'd ever leave joey for him, or if there was a chance of us getting back together...fortunetly for me, the answer, is painful for him to read i bet...
DANNY, YOU'VE MADE ME HURT SINCE THE DAY YOU LIED TO ME...& I DON'T THINK I'LL EVER FORGIVE YOU...& IF OUR FRIENDSHIP ISN'T GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU, THEN FORGET IT ALL...BUT AS FAR AS A RELATIONSHIP GOES, YOU WERE LUCKY TO HAVE HAD ME FOR 3 YEARS, BUT I'D RATHER BE WITH SOMEONE WHO CARES & WANTS TO BE WITH ME FOR LIFE!!!

fuck this, talk later...

a cold morning...
i had danny wake me up this morning by calling me...it worked but i forgot that i was mad at him last night so it came back when i answered the phone...so yeah anyways...

i'm having to look over my theisis statement for mac...i have a writing test in 5th per. & i have to go in at 8 to fix my theisis...or i should've already done so...& i can't figure out one... :( ...i'm surprised that i actually got an A in that class...must be a glitch in the computer...lol...

i never remember how to make a theisis statement, yet i usually get the highest grade w/ it in my class...?????...oh well, i hope mine goes over well...i've been thinking bout it so much that i have no clue what i'm going to write bout after the damn theisis...*shit*...

i'm gonna have to go, but before i do...i found out that something's wrong w/ my cd drive on the computer...it doesn't read any cd...so if anyone has any suggestions bout it please comment...thanx...talk later...

little time left...
well i've got 1/2 an hour til i have to turn in my tickets today...i'm gonna lose, but i did try...

just not very much ;)

wish me luck...talk later...

fuck this shit...i'm not taking it...

Yours are DEMON wings, possibly resembling
those of a bat - huge, black, and clawed. You
are cold and impure, and a born Creature of the
Night. Possibly with an interest in those of a
vampyric nature, or possibly one yourself. You
have little sympathy or care for humanity and
see them as existing for no real purpose -
thus, you can be very manipulative and bend
them to fit YOUR purpose. And you do have a
purpose, to everything you do. Nine times out
of ten it will be strictly for your own self
gratification or perhaps merely amusement. As
soon as a person or situation is no longer
productive or pleasurable in your life, you
will rid yourself of it or them. You could very
well have just a touch of superiority complex
(or perhaps more than a touch?). Despite all of
this, you are capable of love so intense that
you place that person's wishes even above your
own - the only time that you will do so.
Chances are you are attracted to people in
which you see...yourself. Though many hate you
for your carelessness and evil...Sexy, fierce,
sinful, and mysterious...you turn me on.


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god it pisses me off everytime...DAMNIT TELL ME IF YOU WANT ME TO GET AWAY FROM HIM...

i can't take it anymore joey, tell me the fucking truth & don't make me feel like shit...

repetitive loser
talking to joey made me realize right now that all i ever really talk about is the fight that danny & i had...shit why the fuck does joey love me?...sometimes i think that god should punish me by leaving me single...i hate the way i am...i hate my living conditions...i hate that i can't be trusted...i hate that i don't want to trust myself...i hate that lina & her mom & everyone else at school makes me feel stupid...

maybe i'm not the one...*sigh*...stupid stupid stupid...

fuck it i'll talk later...

so yeah...
well it was a long boring day...my dad got dumped i guess...so it's kinda depressing here...but that means i don't have to deal w/ her anymore, which is coo i guess...that just means that i can't use her car anymore, but then again, it's coo...lol...

well i've got nothing to say really...talk later...