:: 2003 23 August :: 7.25 pm

ide give up my everything
just for one taste of you, and your world
ide sign on the dotted lines
to give away tomarrow
if it meant just one day
as yours
ide say my last goodbyes to everything
if i never had to say goodbye to you
ide live forever in tears
as long as none of them were cause by you
ide let you unravel everything ive built
if it meant starting over
next to you

catch me..

:: 2003 21 August :: 7.01 pm
:: Mood: guess smarty
:: Music: scientist

catch me..

:: 2003 18 August :: 12.29 pm

you promised you would cute me
you would always be here
you would call everyday
always be sincere
you promised you would always be truthful
that you would never lie
that we would always be friends
till the day we die
you didnt call today
the day i need you more then the rest
its weird how we both failed
the most important test
its funny how we loose
the things we were so lucky thave found
its funny how i thought you would be here forever
now your voice a unfamilar sound
i should have held on tighter
never letting go
not its too late
i dont blame you
anymore then i blame myself
i cant blame you for lieing
i did it to
i too have broken promises
all of them to you

catch me..

:: 2003 18 August :: 12.21 pm

im sorry i didnt save you
i was too busy saving myself
i didnt notise the slits in your wrists
how you truly felt
i didnt understand then
of course i never will
why we had to feel the pain
like slowly being killed
but this kind of dead
is worth then death itself
silent screams
invisible tears
no difference
beteween minutes
and years
lookin around
but not seeing a thing
hearing laughter
but causin pain
i cant cure you
or make you sane
i cant breath in this life
cant lie anymore
say nothin is wrong
nothings right
gotta get this off my chest
this fake smile is all i have left

catch me..

:: 2003 18 August :: 12.08 pm

i tried to tell you
you ignored the signs
you were too busy planning your own suicide
i told you once before
but you have proabably forgotten
i exspected someone to ask what was wrong
regardless of my happy song

catch me..

:: 2003 18 August :: 10.57 pm

the car didnt start today
n i had tha worst head ace
they pulled the whole "better late then never"
corse i hate being late
so i stayed home
yea..so i tOok a nap..went online..talked to jillerz..n tanned..all day
=) sounds boring..
but it wuz tha best day ive had in a while :D

catch me..

:: 2003 15 August :: 8.24 am
:: Mood: scared

last night i dreamed i was online. and like 20 people had popped up telling me they hated me. people from my old school.. and there s/ns were all like LiL Emily07 ..or LilChelsie07... and they were all saying omg i hate you more then anything..and i asked why..and they said cause u made Jill kill herself...
i hope that never fuckin happens,
cuz no one would have to blame me,
i'de blame myself

catch me..

:: 2003 14 August :: 5.34 pm
:: Mood: hyper

yay!
me iz a happy camper today!! i had an awsum day!! ... last nite i wuz all *depressed* n sh!t n all sadd n i did not want to go to school today but i ended havin tha awwwsomist day =)... court is being a bitch tho but screww her..:-/
anywho. i had spanish which wuzz otay ii guess>.> then i had HiStOrY!! wif Jordan =) -n- thurz thiz realllly hott guy in dat class! wooee wooot woot! n thunn.. -N thun i hadd BuiSnESs wIch wuZ oTtay..n thun i had science n i gotz ta talk to Kevzz a lil bit! =) he kalls me britterss now...=) n thun thur wuz this huge storm @ tha end of the day n me n steph n tyler n thez otha two kidz were hangin out n we got rained on but it wuz funn funn!!! i wuz SOso hYper lOl...YAH! well iM lYke still rully hypur..so ill rite more latah latah...
xOx britters
p.s. im talkin to jilly 2 ! yay!

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:: 2003 9 August :: 1.24 pm

hey ppl..i dunt hav much time to talk cuz were goin shoppin but i thought ide rite a lil bit..
Monday is school..ahhhhhhh
yesterday me n snort went to Publix n hung out wit ryan n hiz friend derek =) it wuz really fun..thurr hillarious i <3 hangin out wit him ..snort sed he likez me but im pretty sure he don*t cuz i mean who wuld..?

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:: 2003 28 July :: 11.13 pm
:: Mood: full

i was thinkin..
sumtimes i HATE life like seriously i wanna DIE .. i HATE so many people n things in life and mostly LIFE ITSELF..but then i find someone like *JILL* and i LOVE her SO MUCH it makes all those other things FADE AWAY..like with her in my life i have somthing i actully DONT HATE..something worth getting UP FOR..cuz i LOVE her more then i HATE all the other things...so i end up LOVING life for giving me such a wonderful thing and regretting ever HATIN anything..


* u have to have been deaf in order to hear
u have to have been blind in order to really see
u have to have been lost to be found
u have to cry in order to laugh
u have to break in order to be fixed
you have to be sick in order to heal
you have to have hated, to love*


::write more later::

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