drama queen is 17 and sleeping wit the boys for free....
owie!!!! i bought these cute EARINGS today but theres a problem....they are too BIG.

my ear holes are a gauge size 20 or 18. and i forced a size 14 in them. echhh.! (jus so u kno, the lower the number the thicker it is)

it hurts sooooo friggin bad. i read online that i shuldnt have put anything larger than a 16 in my ear. ooops.

if it keeps hurting i gotta take it out.

shulda enlarged the holes slowly and naturely but noooo i had to rush things. dumb janelle. dumb, *shakes head*

haha im gay.

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-janelle

...[Ryan

with the lights out, its less dangerous....
today my mommy woke me up at 9:30!!!! ahh i wanted to sleep forever. we went to super walmart to go grocery shopping and get sum things for our trip. i got clothes. yippie. i got 3 tank tops like the one i have, and two more that are sooooo super duper cute. <33. and a skirt. ooo ooo ooo! and i drove there and bak. yay for me.

came home. went to camilas then her mom took us to the mall.. twas fun. bought a cute lil pink and white polka-dotted purse from delias for 10 dollars. and bought a cute hat from pac-sun. oo and jewelry from claires. now im broke. there was this guy (who was kinda cute) that was everywhere we turned! lol. kinda creepy. i saw LAURI! she got her license!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhhhh!! yay!!!!

came home. ate dinner. went bak to camilas. steph, alina, and xtina were there. decided to go to the movies with Alex. twas fun. we saw "Dodgeball" it was hilarious. laughed alot. kinda gay tho. lol. then went to mcdonalds. alex got food. then i saw carolina!!! then went to borders and bought my last summer reading book. then we departed from alex and went home.

yay for shopping.

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-janelle

...[Ryan

bye bye beautiful...
wow lauris party kicked major ass. it was funn...

we went to the RAPIDS. it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be. there was like a bazillion people there tho. ick. it was hotter than balls. (i realized that i use that phrase alot) anyways we were there from about 11 till 4. then drove home. it was me, lauri, tracey, krysta, kelsey,. and kerri . kerri drove us. we fell asleep on the way home and when we got bak we all took showers and got ready to go out for dinner.

when we were done gettin ready, lauri's dad took a bazillion pictures. "I Love the Lighting" hahaha. then we went on the boat and sailed to dinner. we ate at The Banana Boat. it was horrible at first. our boat pulls up carrying 6 girls in skirts and stuff all the men at the bar start hootin' and hollerin' and whistling. lauri's dad started yelling at them lol. then we sat down and sum guy came up to me and kelsey and talked to us. it was gay. then there was this man playing guitar and singing and we decided to get up and DANCE. it was sooo fun. me and lauri were dancing and the guy mentioned above (sum guy-well his name was mike) asked me if i wanted to dance. so i was like...sure w/e. haha he suxked. he was nice and then he asked how old we were and i said "16" and he goes "Man u guys are young, and here i let u get all over me" i was like "wtf, u let me?" haha. then we asked where i went to skool and i told him and he got all excited cuz he used to go to olympic. then he danced a lil more and then told me to stay at olympic cuz its a good school, kissed me on the cheek, and left. hahaha i started laughing after he left. lol. then we ate. danced more and left. it was sooo cute. old people were dancing with us. and we started a CONGA LINE and went thru out the entire restaurant.

got bak to lauri's and her new boyfriend Ross and his friends came over for cake. i approve of him lol. OMFG. the most hilarious dude came too. hes this white rapper who thinks hes sooo incredibly cool cuz he has a record deal and stuff. he thinks he knows everything and is super conceited. also has a twisted way of thinking. haha he cracked me up cuz i culdnt stop laughing at how ghetto gangster wanksta whatever the fuck he was. lol. everyother word outta his mouth was motherf*cker. lmao. ooo ooo ooo! this is the funniest part, his "rapper name" is....OMEGA!!! LMFAO! i thought was soooo hilarious. i dunno ghetto pimp fags make me laugh cuz they look and sound so gay.

went to bed around 2:30 woke up at 10. im tired as hell. then i get home and at 3 i babysat for 3 hours. ehhh.

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-janelle

...[Ryan

dont bother trying to explain, i kno exactly what goes on...
wow. havent updated in a few days. so here goes....

THURSDAY:

well i slept ovr camilas and got woken up at 9:30 by tyler askin me if i can come over now to babysit. i ended up babysittin them for like 6 hours. ehhh. got paid tho. :D

then went to camilas. and then we went to scotts house and gusatvo and jeremy were there too. they ate pizza and i attempted to play bass guitar. then just like they promised....we proceeded to jeremys house to see the COWS!!! yay yay yay. it took friggin forever to get to jeremys house cuz we kept having to stop places. ooo ooo ooo! we stopped by this cute lil stream waterfall thingy by boca falls. its soo pretty. lol. then finally made it to jeremys and met up with jason and sum gay kid, mark swear to god hes friggin weird. like literally gay. but anyways. then more people came. cool people tho, yay!! martin, nick, joe, and annavictoria. they rock. lol. nick left and the rest of us proceeded to make the Long Ass Walk to the cow pastures. damn was it a looong way away. it was like on the side of LOXAHATCHEE ROAD!!! thats far. but yah we had to hope a fence and mostly everyone did but then friggin everyone chickened out and left. except me, scott, gustavo, and jeremy. we got pretty close to the cows when these 3 BIG HORSES came up to us. it was sooooo friggin scary. i swear to god i literally almost peed my pants!! jeremy was spazing out telling us not to move and ahh it was soo scary. cuz the horses were like protecting the cows. ooo ooo ooo!! they also had a DONKEY with them!! awww. but yeah they were so close that we petted them. then we decided to leave. jeremy, scott, and gustavo told me that i have balls for staying and not leavin like everyone else. yay i guess. lol. ooo ooo ooo!! i saw COW PIES too! LOL. then when we got on the other side of the fence where everyone was waiting for us, camilas mom called and said she'd be at jeremys house to pik us up in FIVE MINUTES. we were more than a mile away. we had to run our asses over there. scott, being the super cool dude he is, piked us both up seperatly on the dirtbike. we got there us before her mom got there. then she got grounded.

got home. went to alinas. talked. and saw the "other skaters" lighting themsleves on fire. (dustin, andre and their friends) so we walked over to dustins like they said we culd and yeah. they are sooo gay. its like...

SKATERS gone GANGSTER.

(insert hand motions here)

lol.

thats enuff for this one entry. ill update on lauri's bday party later. peace.

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-janelle

...[Ryan

holy shit dude!!!
omfg omfg omfg!!! i cant believe i jus did that. i decided to sleep over camilas house when gustavo called and said him and scott were gunna come over lter 2nite. they came to the window at about 12 and skated. we (being the chickenshits that we are) finally after planning and preparing, decided to SNEAK OUT of the house. jesus christ were we paranoid. we put shit under the blankets to make it look like we were sleeping and left the tv on. Oww it hurt my butt climbing out the window. haha. then we walked to the lake and it was boring so we walked over the hill and thru CL1. then they wanted to go to the plaza (it was peer pressure) -but it wasnt bad cuz it wasnt like we were giving into smoking or drinkin...haha. then we walked up there (paranoid of course) and yeah. we walked thru there and then decided that we wanted to lay in the street and watch the ights change colors jus like in The Notebook. hehe.

but when we got to the intersection there was cars so we had to wait. then we spun around and the lights twirled around and scott said it was like "being on LSD, but better" lol. then we finalllllly left there and began walking home. but dumb and dumber (scott and gustavo) decide to ride in the cart from the previous day. then they pushed the cart into the lake. then we proceeded to walk home and ooo ooo!!!! i found a Potato Rock!! i kept it as a souvenir of our "crazy nite". lol. then surprisingly it wasnt hard at all to get bak in the window. except camila looked like a seal climbling in the window. haha. she had "trouble" if u will. but yah, and hey, we did not get caught. so its all good.

damn that was an "interesting" nite. thanks to scott and gustavo we are becoming very bad chicks. hahahah. its fun tho. thanks guys for breakin us outta our "goody goody ways" <33

well were gunna go sleep now cuz yeah i gotta wake up at 11 to babysit. argh. bye

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-janelle

...[Ryan

gonna take her out, shes my latest attraction...


ANSWER IT!! (please?)

1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word.
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
29. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
33. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
34. Are you going to put this on your Journal and see what I say about you?

come on its only 34 ?'s. just copy and paste into the comment section. even if u dont have journal. i want a truthfull response!!

now people....be nice and FILL IT OUR OR....
DIE!!!

ok have a nice day. :D

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-janelle

2 _* | ...[Ryan

let me slip away....
last two days have been gay. hung around the 'hood with alina steph and camila and kristina. didnt rilly do anything yesterday and if we did, i cant remember. we did have a sleepover it twas gay. me and camila out slept everyone. everybodie ended up leaving cuz we wuldnt wake up. lol! then went outside eventually in pajamas (today) and tyler and kevin and dalton threw waterballoons at us then me and alina and steph and tyler washed our hair with the hose and shampoo. then we all decided to jump in tylers pool and me being the dumass that i am, stepped in a big pile of smelly dog shit. but its ok cuz i wiped it on stephs leg. LMAO!! then we left and i ran into tylers mom and she needed me to babysit forl ike an hour and a half RIGHT AWAY. the thing was, that i was wearing a bathrobe...but i was NAKED underneath!! haha so i babysat naked untl my clothes were dry. LOL. ooh yeah and tyler put his moms thong on and ran around the house. lol. then sorta talked to kevin afterwards and i haveta babysit 2morrow at 11.

ooh yeah we walked to wendys tonite and found a cart and alina pushed camila and steph in it and they fell over. AHAHAHAH it was hilarious. and its a BRELLA not UMbrella. haha steph.

ooo im getting my second cartilage pierced again tomorrow!! (since they messed up last time)

ahh yeah. sumone said sumthin to me today that rilly pissed me off. but yeah. me, being the passive person i am, kept it to myself. like usual.

ooh and theres this boy i think i like. but its a lost cause...

w h a t e v e r . . .

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-janelle

...[Ryan

she kisses everyone goodbye and waves her middle finger high...
yesterday was the 4th of July . it was pretty boring. didnt get up till like 12:30 cuz we didnt fall asleep till 4:30. my parents went to a party and zach came over and we hung out with him for a lil while. then went home. called allie. talked about our boy problems. lol! then went bak outside with camila and played with fireworks.

thats pretty much all that happened the entire nite. jus sat around watching people light off gay ass fireworks and listening to jay butt his nose into other ppls business. me and camila ended up chilling with the guys - ronnie, danny, and anthony. haha jay was teaching them to be gentlemen. it was hilarious. "can i get that for u dollface?" ahahahaha. but it was awesome cuz we kinda like bonded with them. we talked to them for a long time and none of them have a problem with me and camila. lol. what a change of pace. lol. they are ril fun to talk to too! haha

then alina came home with a few rilly good fireworks. and our fourth of july went out with a BaNg ! then daddy said i culd stay out till 12:30 so we alllllll went swimming at alinas house. was fun. then went home. talked on the phone with kevin and went to bed.

today gustavo is supposed to be coming over and were gunna have sex!!:D LMAO!

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-janelle

PS- and tomorrow i haveta hang out with kevin ALONE cuz my "friends" dont wanna help me out.

...[Ryan

_=_=_=_=_
hahahahha. its like 2:38 am and scott and zac jus left the window. they were there for quite a while. but yeah. we were jus talking and all of a sudden, THE HOUSE STARTED PEEING ON SCOTT!!!. it was sooo funni. he had accidently brokw the top of the water thingy that comes outta the house and gallons of water started pouring out. it was hilarious. scott got soaking wet and we had wake up camilas dad. lol. we didnt get in trouble tho.

so yeah we jus talked bout movies and gay stuff like usual. lol. oh yeah and kevin called like twice...ehhhhh. hes gunna call bak too. greeeat.

THINGS I HAVE LEARNED

-balls sweat so the saying "Its hot as balls" is true.
-when u get neutered they chop ur balls off and leave the penis.
-water comes from the house like underground or sumthin.
-pathetic ppl care, apathetic people dont care

yeah i think thats it, or at least all i can remember. but yes, fun times. :D

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-janelle

3 _* | ...[Ryan

if only i knew....
today was fun. culdnt sleep worth a darn. got up and did most of my chores and then scott asked if i wanted to hang out but i had to clean the bathrooms and shit then me and camila went and met up with him and zac. we played with those lil snapper thingys and scott threw one at me and it hit my boobie and popped!! haha anyways then we walked up towards the shopping center, acted retarded (mostly me) then had to pee so omg!!! we got to pee in PACKYS!!! me and camila had never been in there. it wasnt as great as i had expected. lol. then went ovr to wendys and zac bought a soda and we sat at a table playing with straws. lol . we were there for like 30 minutes. it was funny. then went uhhh home yeah.

then me and camila ran into kevin talked to him for a teeny bit. then watched dalton, tyler etc lite fireworks. then we all went swimming. scott and zac came over but didnt wanna go swimming (party poopers) so we went walkin around outside and lit fireworks in the street. and dumass me stepped on the grass after it was burned by a picolo pete. it hurts like a mother f*cker. ahh. then we went to the park, swang, threw shoes, spinned, and almost barfed. then went to scotts house and went swimming. we ended up spitting water at each other. then lit even more fireworks and then went home. sleepin at camilas tonite. gunna go tho. later.

oooh i have a twin that i didnt kno bout! lol john

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-janelle

...[Ryan

everytime she makes a friend, the vicious cycle starts again..
for god sake! my life seems to be very dull most of time and the guy department is usually pretty empty. then this always happens,
EVERYTHING fucking happens at the same damn time.

yesterday for example::

-got in a big argument with andrew, he prolly wont talk to me again.
-was rilly upset cuz of that and what had happened the nite before
-then bought a skirt (not important but o well)
-played with fireworks and scott and zac
-burned my damn finger cuz im so stupid that i dont even kno how to properly lite a lighter.
-then walk down the street to tylers cuz dalton was there and they were doing fireworks and

then....BAAM!!! everything started happening so fast.!! dalton gave me their last two bottle rockets and me and camila went inside. 2 minutes later kevin (tylers cousin) calls me from his cell saying that tyler wants his stupid bottle rockets bak. we gave them bak then i went home (after kicking tyler in his tiny ball sack LMAO). called camila cuz kevin called me again cuz they threw firworks at camilas window. then i decided to sleep over camilas. kevin called me bak. talked for a tiny bit cuz my phone died cuz i lost the charger. then i wasnt feeling good so i went home at like 12:30. no one was online so i called camila and she got mad cuz it was like 1 and i wasnt supposed to call that late. then she told me to call kevin bak to make sure he doesnt go to her house at nite. so i did and ended up talking to him until 4 in the fuckin morning. damn a lot of stuff happened and i have absolutely no clue what to do. the whole situation feels a lil uncomfortable to me cuz it happened so damn fast. and to top it off...he friggin asked me out last nite. i mean hes a cool guy and all and he's rilly nice. but i dunno. hes 18 lol and my parents wuld kill me. ahhhh i dunno what to do. i wanna cry...

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-janelle

...[Ryan

ive got 45 on so i...can rock on....
omfg. im still completely furious about last nite. i think im gunna scream!!

i hate them sooooo much rite now.

ok i feel better now. well not rilly.

guys are so unreliable and a pain in the ass.

but w/e. i need to get out today. go sumwhere, anywhere. ahhh.

still have pink eye. ehhhhh. my mommys not taking me to the doctor either. hehehe. thats jus like a bannow to do that. :D

i selfish
i am wrong
i am right
i swear im right
i swear i knew it all along.

got sumthin i rilly need to saw in an entry but i dont want everyone to see it. cuz the person its about does in fact read my journal sumtimes. i wish i culd make it friends only but that wuld be pointless cuz i need ur guys opinions of what to do and i have no friends on this journal cuz ya'll were too cheap to pay for it!! lol. ahhh i dunno what to do.!!!

alrite well im gunna go find sumthin to do. peAce.

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-janelle

...[Ryan

walking down the road that leads to who knows where...
wow.yeah. well here goes.

woke up at frickin 10 this morning to go to camilas house. we had to watch her lil brother and his friend. we watched Spiderman, the first one. then we jus layed around watching old skool Nickelodeon shows. and i felt like shit. i think im gettin sick. ehh. then we had to get ready to go to the movies with scott and gustavo.

my dad dropped us off at the movies, scott too. juliano, alex, and jeremy also came. fun stuff. juliano almost got us all kicked out before the movie even started. lol. we had to see Spiderman 2. god was it gay. i almost fell asleep in the beginning. and the stupid guy behind us had to explain everything to his gay kids and he laughed sooo loud i wanted to throw my shoe at him!!! anyways...at the end of the movie, sum lil kid crawled past camila and touched her leg and she had a spaz and i started cracking up and culdnt shut up. lol. ppl started shhhhushh-ing us. lol. damn it! Mary-Jane doesnt die!!! she was supposed too. grrness.

then we went outside and juliano tried to get into the Blood mobile. lol. then we ran away froma security guy, well more like walked cuz he was fat and slow, cuz they were skateboarding. went to McDonalds. its soo pretty inside now. they remodeled. lol. they ate. and me and camila tried to play a song on the jukebox but it didnt play it!! grrness. then went to the bathroom and damnnnn they have TV's in the stalls!!! omg lol. anyways then scott bought me a gumball. thanks scott. lol. it was orange in case u were wondering. then we went to play on the playground and i had a skirt on and i didnt want to but i did anyways and i got lost in it and sum guy that worked there came out and said we couldnt play on it. so i was tryingto go down the slide which is quite difficult to do in a skirt, and the manager guy is like standing at the bottom waiting for me. and i think he saw up my skirt!!!! ahhh. lol. then they decided to go across the street to the other shopping center. ACROSS FREAKIN 441!!!!!. we went but i thought we were gunna die. lol. then we went to Toys R Us. yay yay yay. i <3 that store sooooo much. it soooo awesome. we played on the toys and i found my "Future Car and House". yup yup. man the toys are soo much cooler now than they were when i was little. *tear*. then camila pointed out a bag of Shrek Ears. i had a complete spaz and we bought them. lol. no one else wuld wear them so i ened up being the only weirdo wearing them. o well. i dont mind being different. then we walked Backkkk across 441 and sat next to the lil bridge river thing waiting for scotts mom to pik him up. gustavo left then too. then me and camila and jeremy and alex went to Best Buy. 'twas fun. we looked at the washers and dryers then went and sat in these "oh-so-comfortable" recliners and watched sum of "The Lord of the Rings. then we left cuz camilas mom was piking us up. dropped alex and jeremy off at jeremy's house and finally went home.

god im so tired. sick too. oh poo.

my eyes look like ive been smoking crack. ehhh they are red and swollen and hurt. ehhh whats wrong with me!??

oooo i need to hang out with allie asap cuz i gotta meet cody!! :D

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-janelle


ps- scott was a sexy cowboy today. LMAO!

4 _* | ...[Ryan

if i sorted it out, if i knew all about this one thing, wuldnt that be sumthin...
last nite slept over camilas and then went home around 10:30 to do the dishes. then i was supposed to go to the movies in the afternoon with allie,dan,and cody and then again in the nite time with kyrie,jack, and bryan. i cancelled both (well sorta--long story dont wanna get into it now).

instead i went to the BEACH. yes, i, janelle, went willingly to the beach. haha and surprisingly, it was kinda fun. (for those confused--i absolutely HATE the beach. lol. david, julian, me, camila, and her mom went. me and camila walked like a mile along the beach and i got a bad ass sunburn on my bak. then i wanted to walk on the sidewalk so we had to walk on the sand. it was soo friggin HOTT. i almost cried it hurt that bad. we ran too. but still, i burnt my toes!!! it hurted. lol. then layed out and tanned. 'twas fun.

went home and went swimming in camilas pool with alina and steph. then walked to subway abd listened to sum guys play guitar. then went to camilas, talked to ppl online and made plans with gustavo to go to the movies tomorrow. spiderman 2. woo cant wait. havent even seen the first one lol. but we are watchin it tomorow when we watch camilas brother.

ooh i watched the "Real World: San Diego" finale. so sad, i cried. :D

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-dudee-butt. hahaha

...[Ryan

hola lola...
me and camila jus got bak from the movies. we saw The Notebook. it was sooo cute. i never cried soo much in my entire life. it was a very good movie. go see it , all of u! lol.

wow, kristin, zach is an ass. i say break up with him. hes a horrible boyfriend. either that or he is HOMOSEXUAL. lol jk. but u rilly dont need him. dump him and pik from one of the many guys that want u! ;) <33

ick! my soda is frozen. oh poo.

oh yeah, i forgot to tell ya'll, i got the underneath part of my hair dyed black. it looks hott.

im getting my cartilage pierced again soon. cuz they messed up last time..

i think im going to the movies AGAIN tomorrow with kyrie, jack, and mayb bryan. shuld be fun :D

going running tomorrow. w00t w00t.

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-janelle , AKA- dudee-butt. lol wtf?!?

...[Ryan

argh, here we go again....
all this time u were pretending, so much for my happy ending.


--ehhh...im going thru another one of those fucking moods. very irritable and i feel like i culd cry at any moment. duno why tho. possibly cuz i jus finished reading one of the books on the summer reading list ( "The Catcher in the Rye". it was kinda depressing. stupid guy was so patethic and self-absorbed. but anyways i was having a low-self esteem day today anyways. thinking im soo friggin fat and ugly and shit. that happens occasionally. hmm..w/e. im jus not very happy or excited today.

tomorrow camila is coming bak!!! w00t! and then 2morrow nite we are going to go see "The Notebook". yay yay! cant wait. i soooo want to see that movie. it looks soo cute. scott and gustavo said they wuld go with us, but they prolly wont if they even remember...hmpf...anyways.. then after gunna got to borders and get the other two books i need to read for AP english.grrrr..

im out. holla.

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-janelle leigh

...[Ryan

blah blah blah...
rite now im at suzi and carlos' house. they are my parents friends. we already finished eating dinner. they made sumwhat normal food for once. lol. ribs, mashed potatoes and then sum weird ass white cheese thing. it was gross but o well. i took a sip of my dads beer and didnt like it and spit most of it bak and so he poured sum in my cup and made me drink it all. gross. then my mom let me have a glass of wine, at least that tasted a lil better.

this morning i had to wake up early and go to camilas pool with my mom. she wanted to go swimming and get a tan since she hasnt since we last moved. it was ok we were there for like 3 hours tho. it got boring.

i got to drive to suzi and carlos'. its a long drive too. i want to go home. im tired. i fucking woke up at 9:45 this morning. thats early.

im gunna go check out allies journal and then..do sumthin. prolly read my book. hehe im a loser. :P

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-janelle

...[Ryan

...[Ryan

watching in slow motion as you turn around and say...
another random, pointless quiz...

How to make a janelle

Ingredients: 5 parts competetiveness 5 parts crazyiness 5 parts joy

Method: Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of curiosity

you were everything that i wanted. we were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it....
i got home at like 2:15 this morning. all i did was talk to ppl online and talked to john on the phone :D! that was fun. kevin walked me home. he kinda creeps me out. hes 18 and wanted me to like not go home yet like hang out. ummm...no? haha. well i got paid $31 for 4 hrs of going on the computer lol. not too bad.

woke up at 11 to go take care of ben. then did my chores and was supposed to go with allie to hang out with eric, jeremy, and nick. (not exactly my fave ppl) scott and gustavo couldnt go cuz they wuld rather stay inside waiting for lauren to get home. i didnt go but i dunno if allie went.

did nothing today. i have no energy. 2morrow i haveta go to Suzi and Carlos' house for dinner...ehhh! i hate going there. they make bad food. LOL

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-janelle

...[Ryan

call me beep me....
ahhh OMFG! rite now it is 1:25 am and i am at tylers house. babysitting. ill be here for another 30 minutes at least. its rilly scary. the kids went to bed and yeah i keep hearing noises and the dogs will randomly bark. lol.

well imma go talk to ppl, it calms me down. ill update more later. peace ya'll.

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-janelle

...[Ryan

i wanted you to kno that i love the way you laugh...
this morning i woke up at 11 cuz i had a scary dream lol. then i got ready cuz i was supposed to spend the day with my mom. but that never happened. ehhh.

so instead i did the dishes and then gustavo called. his mom was dropping him off at wendys so me and camila went up there to meet him. then we walked to scotts and rang his doorbell and knocked until he woke up. then we went inside and they were watching sum gay skate video thing so me and camila jus laid on the couch and watched tv. lol. then we went outside and we were gunna play "Crocodile Dundee" and look for the alligator. but we didnt see it. so we were skipping rocks and shit on the edge of the lake when i, being the coordinated person i am, stepped down on the bank and my foot sank like 6 inches into muck. it was soooooo gross. it was all over my sandal, toes, and pants. ick! then we walked to wendys cuz gustavo was hungry and i washed my shoes in the sink :D. lol. then i had a major spaz when camila told me i had a tick on me. turned out it was jus a lil beetle ( i think) then gustavo left and camila scott and me walked towards our homes and eventually departed.

camilas going away to disney till monday so i have to take care of her dog this weekend.

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-janelle

...[Ryan

wow...people can be rilly stupid sumtimes...
Wow...camila, you scare me sumtimes.

FoRSaKeNHeArTx: do u beleive in aliens
AlliegYaThatsME: no not rly..
AlliegYaThatsME: y?
FoRSaKeNHeArTx: well u better cuz there takin over the world
AlliegYaThatsME: mmhmm
AlliegYaThatsME: okay..
AlliegYaThatsME: have u been drinking?
FoRSaKeNHeArTx: no they talked to kristin
FoRSaKeNHeArTx: in her head
FoRSaKeNHeArTx: i was with her
AlliegYaThatsME: umm okay?
AlliegYaThatsME: i dont get it
FoRSaKeNHeArTx: ok well aliens told kristin that they r goin to take over hte world..n whoebver doesnt believe in them..sumthing bads gunna happen to them
AlliegYaThatsME: right..
AlliegYaThatsME: and i'm gonna believe this b-cuz..
FoRSaKeNHeArTx: cuz if u want to live just believe them
FoRSaKeNHeArTx: im not kiddin i see dead ppl
FoRSaKeNHeArTx: so yea
AlliegYaThatsME: YEAH...right..
FoRSaKeNHeArTx: no for real
FoRSaKeNHeArTx: theres dead ppl in my room
FoRSaKeNHeArTx: well spirts
AlliegYaThatsME: mmhmm
AlliegYaThatsME: spirits?
FoRSaKeNHeArTx: yes ..n yea n aliens talked to kristin
FoRSaKeNHeArTx: n said theyre takin over the world
FoRSaKeNHeArTx: so we can all live together
FoRSaKeNHeArTx: but the ppl that dont believe in them will be in deep shit
AlliegYaThatsME: yup
AlliegYaThatsME: okay.
AlliegYaThatsME: i think..u need to go like..in a mental place..or just talk to a syciatrist..rly..
AlliegYaThatsME: i'm nor trying to b mean
AlliegYaThatsME: but thats a lil wierd
FoRSaKeNHeArTx: fine but when they come i warned u
AlliegYaThatsME: okay
AlliegYaThatsME: umm thanks..i guess:-\
FoRSaKeNHeArTx: np
AlliegYaThatsME: so tell me more!
AlliegYaThatsME: what else did they tell kristin!!??!
AlliegYaThatsME: and what do spirits look like?
AlliegYaThatsME: wait like can u see them or can u like hear them?
FoRSaKeNHeArTx: well pretty much that n they spoke to her in alien.......well u really cant see them but u can feel them
FoRSaKeNHeArTx: n hear them
AlliegYaThatsME: o rly!
AlliegYaThatsME: what do they sound like
AlliegYaThatsME: and what do they feel like
FoRSaKeNHeArTx: ur makin fun of me
AlliegYaThatsME: no i'm not.
AlliegYaThatsME: i wanna know
FoRSaKeNHeArTx: ok well u can feel them when u get the chills n u feel a cold feelin round u
FoRSaKeNHeArTx: n they talk but all u can make out r mumbles
AlliegYaThatsME: r u sure nobody is like trying to freak out
FoRSaKeNHeArTx: im not kiddin if u want u can call me rite now n well call one kristins on the phone n shell tell u bout the alien
FoRSaKeNHeArTx: lol
AlliegYaThatsME: NO I BELIEVE U..
AlliegYaThatsME: ITS JUST its a lil wierd


--wow camila...ur a definatly weird. LOL

2 _* | ...[Ryan

hope dangles on a string, like slow spinning redemption...
i'm absouletly and completely crushed...

...but hey, it all makes sense now.


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today i got up at like 11:30 cuz my dad came in a said that tylers mom was at the door looking for me. i was like "damn, i hope i dont haveta babysit" but she jus came over to pay me for the last time i babysat. steph called and i told her i'd call her bak when i was ready. called her and tehy were at target.

so me and allie planned to hang out but grrrr! alina and steph saw her and followed. i wanted it to be a bonding time for me and allie like in the "old days". but noo. anyways we went to the gas station and got snickers ice cream bars YUM! lol then we mad the long hot walk to the new park. no one was there so we called up Nick S. they said they wuld meet us at publix. so we walked over there...oon the way we found a burnt catepillar!! we named it Oswald. LOL. then when we got to publix the cashier lady came up to us and told allie to "check herself" (if ya kno what i mean lol) she was nice and supplied allie with the proper "tools" LOLOLOL!!! OMG OMG OMG!!! I GOT HIT ON BY A MENTALLY RETARDED GUY!! then nick, eric, gustavo, jeremy, and martin met us there. it was kinda gay. nick left rite away and the rest of them were spitting in the air conditioners and watching it fly in the air and hit sumone. LOSERS!! lol. so we left cuz allie had to go home. went to camilas and daniela and estefania were there.

i dont feel like typing anything else. peace.

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<3-janelle

1 _* | ...[Ryan

the words you scribbled on the walls...
3 things that make me sooo mad...

1). the fact that i can be replaced so easily.

2). the fact that everyone else is allowed to be a bitch and say what they feel, but when i do it, its like a crime.

3). people who copy me.

3 things that make me soo mad explained:

1). i always feel that people can replace me to easily. even sum of my rilly good friends seem to do this to me. if im rilly that imortant to people, then why do i sumtimes feel like im pushed to the side like a bag of garbage. i'd like to feel important for once.

2). everyone i kno has been a bitch at least once in there life. sum are always bitchy. but when i get mad or upset, im not allowed to say anything. i jus have to suxk it up and accept it. if i do be bitchy and say how i feel or whats on my mind, people who supposedly are my friends, go and talk about me behind my back. its prolly cuz i dont complain about things usually but when i do its over sum lil thing that pushed me over the edge.

3). I ABSOLUTELY HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE COPY ME. it pisses me off soooo bad that i like go insane. i hate when i get sumthin new and then like other ppl get it. i hate when people copy my style and my uniqueness. i hate when people do their hair like mine, when they copy my purses (cough gay freshman girl cough), when people feel the need to get their ears pierced as many times as me. i jus hate everything like that. my mom says sumtimes that the younger people jus look up to me and want to be jus like me. BUT IT BUGS THE CRAP OUTTA ME!! i hate when people try to take my individuality away from me. DAmn u!!!


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..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-janelle

3 _* | ...[Ryan

if im jus bad news, then you're a liar...
Happy Fathers Day daddy!! <33

i love u!!

2 _* | ...[Ryan

i hope you still feel small when you stand beside the ocean...
today camilas mom found out about the whole boys at the window thing. i dunno how she found out but w/e. she doesnt kno about them coming in tho. she did say that scotts allowed to come to the window but, no sneaking in or out. kinda ironic that she shuld bring that up dont ya think??

hung out with allie today. it was fun. we talked. it rained. lol. nick 1 vs. nick 2. LOL

then went to alinas and camila came over and did sum gay spell thing. yeah i kno...LOSERS!!! jk <3333

i think i haveta babysit tyler, alana, and dylan 2morrow. mrs. johnson is gunna call me 2morrow morning. ehh so ill prolly haveta get up early. ugh! well i dont rilly feel like staying on the computer 2nite. i dont want to talk to sum ppl and im tired. so im gunna go watch dave the barbarian! i <3 that show.

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-janelle


~ johnny knoxville is one sexxy man!! ~

...[Ryan

ok dont worry, alrite all ready...
well today was ok. woke up at like 11. watched "Zenon: Z3". it was gay. dont waste ur time watching it.

then did my chores. took till bout 2. then went over camilas and went to Marshalls to shop for fathers day. then went to sum gay ass home store. we saw a camel and a rooster!!! lol.

then did nothing.

then scott asked if we wanted to go to the movies with him and his friend zack. we culdnt stay to watch the movie but camilas parents dropped us off at the shadowood area and we hung out with them for like 45 minutes. it was fun. eww omg! there was a big DRAGONFLY on scotts shirt and i thought it was a part of the shirt and i was about to touch it!! i hate dragonflies. they skated a lil and we jus sorta chilled. then they went to see the movie and we left.

now im here, sleeping over again. and camilas taking a ..."picture" hahahaha. im out. peace! :D

<33-janelle

...[Ryan

i was so alone...
haha i forgot...me and scott found a triangle shaped straw in the parking lot of loggers run. its like "The Ring", jus triangle shaped. lol.

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"oooo! beware!!" LoL

...[Ryan