the tragedy is how you're gunna spend the rest of your nites with the lite on..
i fucking hate guys!!! they piss me off sooooo bad. ahh they should all fuckin die.what makes the the most fuckin mad is that they dont even kno what the hell they are doing to me. god damnit i think i rilly shuld become a fucking nun so i wont have to deal with this shit. i hate u.

i hate you all. i hate you all. i hate you all. i hate you all. i hate you all. i hate you all. i hate you all. i hate you all. i hate you all. i hate you all. i hate you all. i hate you all. i hate you all. i hate you all. i hate you all. i hate you all. i hate you all. i hate you all. i hate you all. i hate you all. i hate you all. i hate you all. i hate you all. i hate you all. i hate you all. i hate you all.

now go fuck off and mind ur own bizness.--oo and dont bother commenting, none of u shitfaces do so anyways.

Fuck off


---wow most swear words i ever used in one entry..but i had to get my fucking point across to u dumasses.

3 _* | ...[Ryan

lookie here!
i completely changed my journal around. comment and tell me if u like it. COMMENT DAMNIT!!

5 _* | ...[Ryan

i like the way that feels...
god today suxked so bad! i wake up early to go to the mall, and then my mom says i cant go cuz i have too high of a fever. its sooo not fair. i actually had sumthin fun planned and it gets ruined. damn it! i hate everything.

anywho my daddy took me out to lunch like he alwyas used to when i was sick. we went to dennys. lol. it was fun. we had a chance to talk which we dont usually have.

now im here. bored and bored. i think i mite go over camilas house. grrr....i hate being sick. it suxks.

i think im going shopping 2morrow morning with mi mommy! yay shuld be fun. then i dunno what else im doing. wanna hang out 2morrow nite? call or comment! :D

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<3-janelle

...[Ryan

theres a time and place for everything...
ahhhhh! i think im gunna cry....

...[Ryan

i could be just like you...
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh! i think im gunna spaz out!!!!!!--c a m i l a u kno wut im talkin bout...

anywho...today was another boring and gay day. actually not rilly.

i went with my mommy to her work today and she did my hair. its REDISH-BROWN!!! omg its scarry. well it looks pretty hot but im not used to it. ive been the blonde chick my entire life so its a lil weird to me.

then at like 9ish we hung out with scott. jus did the usual thing---stand around and talk about the most random things...(such as beavers and snowshoes lol.

but yeah. i dunno wuts wrong with me. but i feel rilly...WeIrD rite now. i dunno why. i guess it makes me mad when ppl talk about their bf/gf all the time. ok well not mad, i guess jealous. and it makes me go thru these stupid mood swings and now i wanna boyfriend rilly bad!!!!! ;( haha. later.

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-JaNeLLe


ooooh and camila---we are gunna shove her gay ballet slippers up her ass!!!! :D

2 _* | ...[Ryan

watch it pass the day as it fades away...
2morrow im going with my mommy to work and shes gunna do my hair. i dunno what i wanna do to it. this is all the possibilties i have so far...

1). jus pink highlights like normal
2). dye the entire underneath pink or black
3). dye my hair brown with a tint of redness (i like this one)
4). jus dye it brown
5). keep it the same
6). get it layered

--ahh i dunn i asked ppl and sum say to leave it that it looks good the way it is, and sum say wut the hell change it. u only live once. ahh i dunno what to do.!!

--plus the lady who's son is in that band is gunan be there tomorrow. me and camila wanna meet the band..!!<333

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<3-jane//e

...[Ryan

mayb it wuld it be fun, to get a new opinion...
ooo yea---i forget to mention...after target me and camila went to bealls and dressed up like men!!!! it was soo funni.

we make sum pretty hot guys if u ask me! ;) hahaha


..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-jan

------>got a new background...do u like??<------

...[Ryan

did u think that i was gunna give it up to you?...
ahhh! gosh darn it! i cant hear my music or myself think! these stupid mexican lawnmen are mowing my lawn very loudly!!! ahhh! i wish they would jus get back on their raft and sail bak to cuba. stupid lawnmen.

anywho, me and alina slept over camilas. watched school of rock... the gayest movie i have ever seen! dont watch it!

anywho, yesterday was pretty boring. me and camila didnt rilly do anything. we went to target it was kinda pointless. we bought gum..and saw andrew working! it looked like he was having tons of fun...lol Not! afterwards went swimming at camilas, then ran across the street to alinas pool.

then we were talking to her dad--( i think he thinks i have issues lol)--and he told me to NEVER EVER get into a car with a boy cuz i mite get *gasp*...RaPeD!!! lol. i thought it was kinda funni. yeah but he acts like my 2nd dad so if he ever finds out i did, ill be in so0o0o much trouble!!!

gosh my house is sooo freakin hot! the stupid air conditioner broke and y the repair man hasnt fixed it is beyond me. ahh i think im gunna die. and i have a fever whcih makes it even worse. stupid alina got me sick! <33

well im gunna go take a cold shower. if anyone wants to do sumthin later..tell me....

of course no one ever comments in my journal. u all hate me!!

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-janelle

2 _* | ...[Ryan

uhhhh....wtf?
o h m y g o s h....
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im sooo sorry...

4 _* | ...[Ryan

i say, take me out...
tonite after dinner, me and camila met up with scott and hugn out for awhile. we went in the woods, took pictures, and collected balls--paintballs that is. yeah i have like an obsession with paintballs and i started a collection today lol. we found alot and all different colors too. we put them in a container and sumwhere between plating my herb garden stick and trying to see and alligator, i lost all my balls!! its horrible. i want them bak! lol

after scott went home me and camila went to alinas house and watched Princess Diaries. i love that movie. its soo cute. i wish real life was like that movie. too bad falling in love doesnt work like that either. its a shame that ril life is nothing like the movies. *sigh*.

well im tired and no ones talkin to me online so im gunna go to bed soon. alrite im out. piece :D

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-janelle

...[Ryan

everybodies watching you now, what happens next?
wow...yesterday was...interesting to say the least. woke up, did sum of my chores, went to camilas house cuz my air conditioner is broke!! and hers isnt. lol. then i dont remember what we did. then we went to burger king at like 9:30 then i slept over her house and we went online and talked to ppl for like 2 hours. then we watched this gay movie and went to sleep.

this morning--woke up at like 10. ate french toast sticks lol then bribed mikey into lettin me use his skateboard. then camila rollerbladed and i skateboarded all the way to the new high skool. god damn was it hot outside! i thought i was gunna pass out! lol. now im at my house, still no air conditioner= very hot and cranky ppl walking around my house. lol. i wanna do sumthin tonite but theres rilly nuttin to do. well im gunna go shower...peace out. :)

..::LaTeR dAyS::....::LaTeR dAyS::....::LaTeR dAyS::....::LaTeR dAYS::..

<3-janelle

PS---OMG!! my brother's friend took him on a private jet to the bahamas this weekend. soooo NOT FAIR!! i wanna go!!!

...[Ryan

AHHHHHH~!
OMG today after skool i took a picture of seth ...well his back side, which includes his ass!!!


hahahahahahaha! yeah im not a complete loser.

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<3-janelle

...[Ryan

..:: b l a n k ::..
*sigh* today was the last day of skool. took geometry and history exams, got A's. but w/e. i waited for scott after skool but i didnt see him so now god only knows when the next time i'll ever see him again. same with sum other people. :(

well then me and jack went to wilt chamberlians for lunch cuz there was nuttin else to do. then we went to target to get kia a present for her party tonite. then went to pik up brandon, went to walmart bought a new swim suit. and then came home and camila went to the mall anyways so w/e. and now once again im here, all alone. god if this is what summer is gunna be like i think im gunna die!!
l8er.

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-janelle

..::SuMmEr!!!::..

...[Ryan

[insert subject here]
quiz...---->

J	Juicy
A	Appreciative
N	Nutty
E	Entertaining
L	Lucky
L	Lucky
E	Exquisite

...[Ryan

no0o0o0o0o!!! tell me its not over...plez, jus tell me that.
omg tomorrow is the last day of skool. i sooo dont want it to end. yeah ill see most of my good friends--i.e.-kyrie, dilan, jack, mara etc.--but there are ALOT that i wont.

besides takin my last exams tomorrow, i also have to say goodbye to everybodie. its soo sad *tear*

yeah yeah i kno im a loser, but w/e i dont care. fuck you


..::LaTeR dAyS::....::LaTeR dAyS::....::LaTeR dAyS::....::LaTeR dAYS::..

<33-jan-

1 more day *tear*

...[Ryan

gay gay gay
yet ANOTHER gay quiz...


You are Lucy!


Which Peanuts Character are You?
brought to you by Quizilla


--hahaha lucy. thats funni, (well at least i think it is)

<3-jan

...[Ryan

OMG OMG OMG
OH MY GOD!!!! if i dont see SETH at least one more time before school is over on friday, i will cry!!! ahhh hes sooooooo freakin hott!!!(--so hot that he deserves 3 exclamation points!! lol john)

ahhhhh!!! i <33 him!! hes sooo sexxii!!!! LOL

<3-jan-


..::I LoVe YoU sEtH!! MaRrY mE!!!::..

2 _* | ...[Ryan

woohoo!
yay! today mrs. cripps raised my grade in spanish so i got an A. so now i have all A's!! yay! a 4.0!!! im soo happi!! i havent gotten straight A's since third grade!!! LOL. anywho my spanish exam was as hard as balls. i soooo didnt get an A, which is what i needed to get an A for the semester. grrr! but i got an 92 on my english exam so thats good. i gotta study for bio and drivers ed in like a few minutes.

after skool at the last second me and jack went to dilans house with jorge! lol jk jose. we sat in ceramics with kyrie until one then she left and we stayed there until like 1:30 and walked to dilans house. then jose left at 3 and we went to get pizza and then i left.

well im gunna go be the good 4.0 student i am and study. LOL (--sorry if it sounds like im bragging but i've been wanting to pull a 4.0 for the longest time and im sooo happi) well im out. later lovers. <33

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33--janelle--

---The Way i Feel by 12 stones is an AwEsOmE song! u shuld check it out!! :D

only 2 more days....*tear*

...[Ryan

awwww...
awww...today was sooo sad. it was like the last of everything.

^the last geometry class
^the last spanish class
^the last english class
^the last drivers ed class--thank god!
^the last walk to lunch with kyrie
^the last walk to MY soda machine
^the last olympic heights dr. pepper
^the last lunch
^the last walk up the stairs to our lockers (me and jack)
^the last walk to bio past the gay freshman
^the last standing by the line on the wall
^the last bio class with my smart pals
^the last walk to p.e. class
^the last p.e. class
^the last time i see my fave teacher mr. bennet *rolls eyes*
^the last time i have to hold lucy's shit
^the last time i see daniel and juliano
^the last time i see that hot kid standing next to the wall
^the last walk from p.e. class
^the last one of these....


ok ok sorry those we jus gay things me and jack made up all day. yeah yeah i kno, im retarded. but im gunna miss everything and everyone!! only 3 more days!! *cries*

i <3 u all

<3-jan

...[Ryan

knock! knock! knock!
haha yet another gay quiz...


You are fucking hardcore, you have the ability to
avoid mainstream and brainwashing cults like
MTV and FOX, you are one of the few, the loud,
the proud, the punk, go you, or you cheated


Do you know punk?
brought to you by Quizilla



--HAHA camila it said "HARDCORE" LOL!!

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<3-janelle

...[Ryan

boys = penis brains!!
arggh! i hate spring time when everyones in love <3 and like it seems that everyone has a bf/gf. god i hate it. i've had bad luck with guys lately --well every since that thing--but thats not important. but it seems everytime i give into their stupid crap and get hurt, they are jus "messing around" or are already going out with sum stupid slut!!! cough lucy cough. LOL but still ahhhh! i wanna boyfriend rilly bad! i havent had one since dan, and thats pathetic lol! ahhh doesnt anyone love me??? :/

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-jan-

3 _* | ...[Ryan

Simple things that make you run away...
god today was sooo HORRIBLE it wasnt funny. geometry was boring. i got an A on my spanish test (only good part of the day) english=gay jus like levin. drivers ed=boring and pointless. bio=a complete WASTE of time. we played jeopardy and the class wuldnt shtu the fuck up! and the questions are the exact ones from the exam!! ahh i didnt learn a friggin thing. so i went to p.e. upset about that when i asked mrs. belton if ther was anyway to get my stuff outta my locker. she said that everything was G O N E. that means i lost 2 skirts (jean one and pink/black/white striped one) 2 shirts (black and a blue one) 2 sweaters (white one with diamond J on it, and a black one) and my brothers sweatshirt. i was soooo upset i started crying. if i tell my mom im gunna get soooo grounded!!

then i let nikki borrow my 120 history ids yesterday and she put them in her yearbook, but nicole had it. so we went to get it from her and she had given it to caitlen. which means she didnt have my work. i immediately start crying again cuz that was the only way i wuld get an A in the class if i turned those in. then we had to run our asses to class cuz the warning bell rang. then i met mrs. skeleton at the door and she saw me crying and was like "Oh honey, whats wrong?" and i told her that i left my hw in my yearbook and a friend had it blah blah and she was sooo nice about it. she told me to turn it in on monday and not to get so worked up over things like that. then she left me go to the bathroom and calm down. wow she was soo nice. mayb the fact that i was friggin BAWLING my eyes out helped. lol i didnt do it on purpose tho. :/

then jack came over after skool and we went to target to buy janis a bday present for her party tomorrow. we are gunna be chinese again. yay!

god im sooo friggin bored rite now! i was gunna go to sleep cuz im rilly tired but i jus cant sleep and i dunno why. now i wish i wulda went to either camilas house or done sumthin with andrew. lol ahhh boredem suxks!!!!!!!!!!!!

alrite. im gunna go find sumthin to entertain me. buh-bye.

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-jan-

...[Ryan

ta-daaa!!!
Who got an 100% on their geometry test!?? woohu FUCK YEAH!!

-that is sooo going on the refrigerator!! :P

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-jan

...[Ryan

sprinkle! sprinkle!
today was ehhh. spanish we did work. drivers-2 movies and a test. lunch-signed mara and janis' yearbooks. bio- pig smelled like shit. the flesh was starting to rot. eww rite? yeah i thought so. we studied. then valerie dumped a bucket-o-pigs on the floor and rotting pigs and pig juice went everywhere. it was funni/gross. lol. p.e.-played bball with lucy, andrew, toga, twaddles(lol), joey, angelica etc. it was fun. oh yeah i have AIDS. lucy gave them to me. LoL then went outside. it was gay and hot. then went home and had t go bak to jacks house and get the flashcards for levins vocab test 2morrow. then ran like a mile to catch up to camila and alina. now im here about to do my hw. oooh yeah heres another RaNdOm quiz. alrite in out. peace.


You are a banana! Good job, captain obvious.


which rejected character are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<333-jan

...[Ryan

blah blah blah blah BLAH!!
i changed my journal format. comment and tell me if u like it!!!

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<3-jan

1 _* | ...[Ryan

vroom vroom!!
yeah so today me and mommy went to the mall and i got my 3rd hole and 2nd cartilage pierced. it looks rilly good except for the fact that both my cartilage piercings are kinda close to each other. oh well. i like it.

my parents are having company over soon. so basically im not allowed to touch anything cuz i mite get it dirty. lol. im rilly bored. camila and alina arent home and theres nuttin to do. *sigh* well im gunna go. byebye

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-jan-

3 _* | ...[Ryan

if i could find you now, things would get better...
ehhh...i jus got bak from super walmsrt with my dad. i drove. the drive there was pleasant and jeez there were like a bajillion people there!!! does nobodie have a life (like me) and goes to walmart on a saturday nite?!? it took us like an hour-hour and 15 minutes to shop. then it was dark and i had to drive home---spo0o0oky! lol thennnnn we had to stop at the gas station and then finally on home. god when my dad is looking for the shortest check out line he takes NO PRISONERS!! lol i seriously think if a lady walked out in front of him he wulda hit her with the cart cuz he was going so damn fast!!! lol it was funni. now im tired and im gunna go to bed early 2nite cuz me and mommy are "bonding" 2morrow morning!!! :D later lovelies! xoxo

--i wanna get my ears pierced a 3rd time but im not sure where i want it. like middle, bottom etc. i need help! wut do ya'll think?? *talks to self--dude jan, why do u always ask ppl to tell u what they think when u kno that NO ONE EVER EVER COMMENTS IN UR GODFORSAKEN JOURNAL!! god ur dumb jan!* lol im gay!

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-jan

2 _* | ...[Ryan

turn the radio up, push the pedal to the ground...
wow. im soooo proud of myself. besides doing ym weekly chores, I CLEANED MY ROOM!!! it was a disaster area--yeah sum of u kno how bad it was--lol. so yeah i cleaned and rearranged it.

--my mom said if i cleaned my room that 2morrow we will have another one of our "mother-daughter bondings" shes gunna take me to the mall to get my third hole pierced and myab my second cartilage piercing, not sure yet tho. then we are going grocery shopping. hehe :D i <33 my mommy this [........................................] much! hehehe.

--anywho now im bored. i have no idea where anyone is. *sigh* oh well im gunna go try and find a new background for this journal.. later lovelies~!

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-jan

...[Ryan

chirp! chirp! chirp!
i wanna do sumthin fun tonite! sumone call me and we'll make plans!! ;)

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-jan

...[Ryan