average, everyday sane psycho...
tonite i went to the mall with jack to find janis a birthday present. did we find her sumthin? negative. so we are going to target nest friday. instead we got coffee and ate kids chicken fingers at fridays. hehe it was fun.

god my finger still rilly hurts. thanks lucy. lol i wanna crack it sooo bad but it wont work. it feels like my finger has been jammed halfway into my hand!! ahh! lol.

grr...suzi and carlos are coming over on sunday for dinner so i haveta clean the house extra good tomorrow. im soo excited i cant wait...yeah riiiight!

omg there is only 2 weeks of skool left. i cant believe it. this year went by sooooo fast! im soo mad that i haveta go to gay ass west boca high--wut a gay name--im gunna miss all my friends soooo bad! and this year i made even more friends that i will probly never become better friends with cuz now i'll probly never see them (ex..daniel, juliano, andrew, angelica, john etc...) its sooo sad. im especially gunna miss dilan (my first friend i made at olympic <33), kyrie, jack, mara, shreya, bryan, angelica, kia, melissa, carolyn, scott, and a few others. --im not gunna walk across the same stage as them on graduation, i wont be in the same video thing as seniors with them, nothing. why the fuck did they haveta build a new skool? god im gunna cry so bad on the last day of skool... :'(

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<3-jan-

...[Ryan

close our eyes, pretend to fly...
wow...scott was rite, i have major moodswings. anywho yesterday we had a sub in levin and skeleton! Thats a dream come true!!!! haha then after skool me, dilan, jack, bryan, kyrie, anna, onan, shreya, and mike went out for pizza.it was pretty fun. then i went over to alinas and camila was there and we watched scary movie 3...AGAIN!! then went outside and then decided to stop into loggers and watch the chorus concert. we ended up walkin around the skool checkin it out. then we saw allie and charlie in the concert singing!!! haha then we left and got followed by these scary black guys and we like ran inside subway almost and hided.lol then we did like nothing. it was boring. but i woke up at 12:45 this morning, or shall i say afternoon? lol well im gunna go shower since its like almost dinner time,,,hahah! anyone wanna do sumthin 2nite, call me!! alrite im out. holla.

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-jan

...[Ryan

im sorry that i hurt you...
today was fine and dandy. spanish-test, did pretty good got and A! yes!! go me go me! haha then we read a story...BORING!!....drivers ed- gay. did book work and went into simulators. got an 85. ick! then looked thru the yearbook until the bell rang. lunch-there was a band playing, the music was good but their singing(or shuld i say screaming?) needs work. lol. i saw anavictoria twice. :-)...biology-dissect excretory system. ewww janis cut out the heart and a kidney!! and i touched its spleen!! hehehehe...p.e.-ehh patrick and damien started to harass me in the beginning, like usual. then me and angelica played bball wit ppl. joey and andrew didnt play. oh well it still was fun! then we went outside and played bball with lucy. we were playin 21 and me and lucy both went for the rebound and he made me jam my middle finger rilly rilly rilly bad. owww it hurt alot. he tried to crack it and make it better but it wuldnt work. then he signed my yearbook and so did happy, leo, angelica, and daniel. <33 :D anywho...im gunna go cuz my finger hurts and typing isnt helping. peace out homies. ..::LaTeR dAyS::..

Holla! --damn im white!!!

<333-jan

...[Ryan

notice me, take my hand....
well today was...okay? geometry...did hw and extra credit. english...took poetry test...did good? read streetcar. lunch...piked up my yearbook (ya'll gotta sign it kk!) bio...dissected respitory system..ick! the pig is starting to smell rotten. janis had to give up her position as dissector cuz she culdnt take it anymore. lol. history...had a sub! YAY!!! me and angela went to retake our SRI test, got a 1500* WOOHOO for ME!! lol then took my history test. i got one wrong that im sure of. zaibatsus...japanese company thingys and i put that first but Noooooo i have to change it. damn i shulda listened to mrs. mitchell!!! lol. stupid ass japanese ppl!! anyways i have a spanish test tomorrow and if i get an A, ill have an A in the class!! so im gunna study until the uses of the subjunctive come out my ears!!! lol alritey, im out. later lovelies!! xoxo

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<3-jan-

...[Ryan

imma mommy...again!!

I adopted a cute lil' Scotty fetus
from Fetusmart! Hooray fetus!

his name is Samuel, the Scottish fetus!!

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<3-jan

2 _* | ...[Ryan

..::..::..::..::..
I <3 YOU MOMMY!!!

*~*Happi Mothers Day!!*~*

<3-jan

...[Ryan

well then...
this weekend was very bizzy actually. im amazed for once lol!!

FRIDAY: after skool, me, dilan, melissa, kyrie, and jack went to mama's and got pizza. then i went home, got ready, went to see camila for like 30 minutes cuz she had jus gotten bak from NC, then lauri and kerri piked me up and we went to see kelsey perform in the "wizard of oz" at spanish river. it was good. haha she was a munchkin! jessica maupin and dana were there with us too :/ then we alllll went over to mizner and ate at the "all american cafe" then got home like at 11:30

SATURDAY: woke up, did my chores (grrr!) then skateboarded with camila, tyler, and julian to the new park. saw billy bob (chris) there...ewww!!! then went to the mall...bought a cute necklace, a black bracelet like my pink one with the spikes, and a cute pink polka dotted skirt!! haha im sucha loser!! anywho...yeah.

tomorrow im going to julians bball game and then its his bday!! yay! happy birthday julian!!!

i wanna get a new background for my journal...hmmmm...

ok im gunna go.. later lovelies!!! XoXo

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<3-jan-

ooooooo yea...dan called me (wut a surprise) jus to say "hi" well at least he called. lol

3 _* | ...[Ryan

la la la la la
boredness. shit camila started to sing and she wont friggin shut up!!!hmm...we are going to the mall when her parents get bak from the supermercado (thats publix) lol well imma gunna go. bye bye!!

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<3-jan

...[Ryan

blahhhhhhhh!
ehhh i have lots of stuff to update about but ill do it later when my eyelids are able to stay open without me holding them open. im out. piece.

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

-jan-

2 _* | ...[Ryan

test
Testing...1...2...3!

...[Ryan

hip hip hooray!!
finally im gunna buy a skateboard all my own. no more askin to use sumone elses. im gunna get a HOT PINK blank one. its gunna be soooo hott!! ahh i cant wait till i get. thanks to jd he helped me get the rite size bearings trucks and shit. i still need sum more money tho...like 30$ dollars!!! haha i needa job!!!!! ahhh!!!

anyone wanna donate me $$ ?? haha

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<3-jan

3 _* | ...[Ryan

quizz!!
took another gay quiz...----->


You have a surprise kiss! Your partner is always
pleasantly pleased to have you jump outta no
where to dote them with a fun peck on the cheek
or more passionate embrace. super markets and
work places are your favorite places to attack
your loved one with all your love =p


What kind of kiss are you?
brought to you by Quizilla


<-----KiSs Me!!! XoXo
hahahaha

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<333-jan-

...[Ryan

yay no hw!!
finally! i get a break from all this work!!! anywho now im bored. haha. god i rilly want camila to get bak. i have alot to tell her. A LOT!!! why does stuff happen when shes not here?? ahh! i think im gunna blow!! well i was suppposed to hang out with gustavo but there was a change in plans so in a few minutes im gunna call alina (when she gets home) cuz i havent seen her in like FOREVER!! i miss her! hehe. ooo i saw annavictoria today. omg she soo totally has to be one of the coolest/nicest persons i kno. at least meeting her at scotts party was fun. haha ...anywho yeah im bored. oooooooo!!! we started the pig dissection 2day in bio. at first i was afraid to look at the piggy but its not too bad...that is until we start to cut him up!! that will be horrible. well 2morrow b4 we cut it, we are gunna paint its nails pink since they are yellow rite now and kinda gross, haha and we are gunna take a pic of it too!!! wut losers we are!! oh yeah. the bag with the pig in it said it was "female" well turns out it has balls and a penis and is "male" hahaha it was sooo funni. yea anywho....haha...damnit! theres a pep rally monday during 6th hr. (PE) noooooo now i wont have hardly any more days to play bball with lucy and all those other cool cats!! *tear* such sadness....well im gunna go call alina...i think we'll go get gum, since im out!! well later lovelies! XoXo!

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<3333-jan-

...[Ryan

henry makes us horny!!!
HAHA angelica ^^^^^ wow today was gay. spanish we learned a new verb tense. how exciting..yeah riiiiight! i think that drivers ed is a complete waste of my time. we watched a movie from like 1982 on road rage and then took an open book test.--so u dont rilly learn nething. then we have like 45 mins to do absolutely nuttin. gaahh! boring. lunch was gay . me and jack had an argument over ecuadorian ppl vs. american ppl. AMERICAN PPL CAN KICK YOUR STUPID ECUADORIAN ASSES ANYTIME!! --haha jack <33333! omg in bio we watched a video about how to dissect ur pig. it was hooorrible!!!! so gross i almost cried. i thought i was gunna be sick too. i so cannot do this. ahhh! poor piggy. then p.e. was rilly gay. me and angelica played 21 with joey <333 so hott!!, john, and andrew. it was fun? then it rained (DAMN U FUKIN CLOUDS!!) cuz then i culdnt play bball with lucy *tear* so we jus sat and watched them play. theres this black kid who has an ass like J Lo!! haha and im not kidding. its funni. i have a geometry test AGAIN tomorrow. i have to get an A. otherwise im screwed and i WILL cry. god i fukin hate the end of the year. so many projects, papers, reports, and studying for exams. im gunna die next year with 3 AP classes, 2 honors classes, alg II and psychology. ahhh! im out. piece.

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<33-jan-

...[Ryan

im a mommy!!!
i jus adopted a blob! and his name is bernard!!!



isnt he jus the cutest lil thing u have ever seen? he must get his good looks from me!! HAHAHA JUST KIDDING!!!

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<3-jan-

...[Ryan

god damnit! skool needs to burn in hell!!
today shuldnt have been a bad day. but no. in 1st hr i get a progess report with my last test grade on it and it said i got a 68 D!!! WTF IS THAT??? i dont get D's!! thats the second one in a row!! i was soo pissed and i even thought i knew everything on the test too! and sean got a 100% damn i do his fukin hw for him. how the hell did this shit happen? its completely ruining my GPA!! i wanna cry...

~rest of the day doesnt matter. fuck off. im not happi.

..::Later Faggots::..

-jan-

2 _* | ...[Ryan

blah
today was gay. all i did was study and do hw. i never left the house rilly. i wrote my bio paper, read my history chapter, bought and made flashcards for spanish, studied them, ate dinner, talked to ppl online, talked to angelica on the phone and thats it.

camila left today for lutherrock. she wont be bak till friday. damn man!! i rilly want her here now!! i need to talk to her about sumthin that happened and shes the only one i can tell. god damn it friday better hurry up and get here. welll i haveta go study more. piece.

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<3-jan-

...[Ryan

camila...
yesterday, all those sk8ers = Hardcore Hottness!!!!!

hahaha

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<333-jan-

4 _* | ...[Ryan

hahahaha..


what kitchen utensil are YOU?


HAHAHAHAHA im a spork!!! thats the funniest thing i ever heard!!!!!

2 _* | ...[Ryan

weekend=fun
FRIDAY: me and camila did like nothing until like 9 when we met up with gustavo and scott and chris. it was funni. then we went to wendys and jd was fuked up cuz they all had been drinkin and shit so i bought him mints to cover up the alcohol in his breath. why am i so nice? then we went to scotts and waited outside till they were done eatin then we walked to camilas and hung out in the neighborhood. it was fun. we had lesbian sex, scott humped my leg and ran down the street with his pants off LOL, and massive orgys (sp?) on the grass tho cuz it hurts on the cement! ;) hahaha.

SATURDAY: today was scotts late birthday party. so me camila and allie went and there was alotta ppl there. it was fun sumtimes it got gay but hey, it was prety cool. ori, juliano, martin, nick, scott, gustavo, anthony, chris, eric, patrice, jeremy, annavictoria, her bro, lauren (bitch lol), sean and other ppl were there. it was cool. they played guitar, skated, played paintball etc. OMG they blew up lil tadpoles with fireworks! it was horrible. poor lil froggies-to-be!!! me and camila left at like almost 8 and went to wendys then went with her parents to best buy/burger king/radioshack. now im sooo fukin tired and tomorrow i haveta write my bio paper, study for spanish and history so i dont think im going out anywhere tomorrow. well im gunna go to sleep. ttyl later. piece.

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<3-janelle

...[Ryan

I've fallen head over heels in love with you...
well well well...yesterday when i got home from skool i had to babysit alana, dylan,tyler for like an hour. it wasnt too bad. me and alana made jewlery outta beads. oooooo yeah... during p.e. me and angelica decided to play bbal with these hot juniors/senoirs. haha it was funny/scary. they were soo friggin tall i thought i was in giant ville like in Ella Enchanted! one of them is soooooooooooooo damn hot! his name is joe. haha and i met bob (well thats what i call him). he calls me J. lol. it was a ...strange...experience to say the least. then played a normal game with lucy, dylan, matt, grant etc. today i had a sub in geometry and i did a shit load of extra credit. then in english it was gay as hell. we did a poem, and then we had like 30 minutes left so 80% 0f the class sat on the floor in a circle (including mr. levin) and played the game where he asks a question and u go around and everyone answers. me. dilan, kyrie, and bryan sat in the bak of the room and mr.levin told us we couldnt talk. fukin bastard! so we passed a note around. it was funni. lunch- i went to bio and studied with janis and angela. the test turned out to be open note...i <3 u ms. woloshcko (sp?)!! lol. the test was pretty easy i think. and history mrs. skelton was talking and then we had a frie drill and then she lectured and then i slept during a Nazi movie. ooooo yeah also, after the bio test i was coloring the tape on my binder with blue pen and it rubbed off all over my white shirt! im so pissed!!!! ahhh! well when camila gets home, which is god knows when cuz they got in a car accident..LOLOLOL we are gunna go to the library and possibly dennys for dinner. well im gunna go, i typed long enuff. i gotta remember to send in my two dollars to keep my oh-so-precious journal. alritey then, by lovelies. XoXo

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<3-jan

...[Ryan

ATTENTION EVERYONE: I HAVE BIG NEWS!!!
dilan and jose are going out!!! woohooo!!!! yay!!! ---ok thats all i had to say. im out.

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<333-janelle

4 _* | ...[Ryan

god i hate odd days!!!
today at skool suxked sooooo bad. i hate odd days. took a geometry test. think i did good. i better have. i need an A. english...soooo incredibly boring. he criticized my essay like usual and made me feel like imma stupid fuk. then bio was weird. we had to disect a worm..ewww! and then marissa had to cut the grasshopper in half jus cuz hse wnated to. it oozed weird goo. lol it was soo gross. then history..i tried sooo hard to stay awake but it didnt work i slept for five minute intervals. lol then after skool, hung out with scott for a teeny bit. then went home and my dad dropped me off at the gas station and i met up with gustavo and i went to babysit tyler, alana, and dylan. gustavo stayed for awhile then left. then liek 40 minutes later the dad came home and camila's mom helped with my spanish homework then we walked around. now im here and i fixed my essay. im bored. siiigh. well im gunna go get sum sleep maybe. haha i everytime i say that i dont end up going to sleep till lke 10-11!! lol well i have no idea what im doing this weekend so if u wanna do sumthin comment ot call! luv ya'll!!

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<3-jan

...[Ryan

I hate everything about you, why do I love you?
ehhh tonite was the induction ceremony for NHS. it was gay and boring. now i have a headache. ugh! i wanna go to bed soon. i had an icky day. hopefully tomorrow will be better. i doubt it tho, i gotta babysit tyler, alana, and dylan for three hours 2morrow. ughgghhh!!! well w/e i have a geometry test 2morrow i have to get an A or ill never get my grade up to an A. well im gunna go to sleep. nite nite lovelies.

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<3-jan--that name is growing on me! hehe

...[Ryan

grrrr-ness!!!
ahh today was boring!!! spanish we read a story about a magic mountain, how gay. drivers ed-movies, test, work, geometry. me and jack got invited to janis' 16th bday party. we haveta dress up as foreign ppl. We're gunna be CHINESE!!! haahaha...bio-boring i hate this i never kno wut the hell is going on in there. p.e. was ehhh....patrick was being a dick and they lost my bracelet. im sooo frickin pissed. then patrick raped me. lol and me and angelica walked around and i had to play volleyball with her. i hate that sport. i suxk!!!! haha then played bball outside with ppl. lucy looked "spiffy" today LoL. i was supposed to hang out with gustavo today after skool before that induction ceremony for NHS but he never called. so w/e. well now that im done tellin u bout my gay day...im gunna go shower and get ready for this gay ceremony. piece.



<3-jan

~~Ladies and Gentlemen, i believe we have found another dan!! (u kno who im talkin bout camila)~~

...[Ryan

hah 4 u gustavo..
haha hi gustavo. happi your in here now. oh yeah im sorry bout ur dog. i lost a dog once too, except mine died. lol. feel better 'member i <3 you!! LoL see ya 2morrow. --hahah im soo gay. lol. later.

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<3-janelle

2 _* | ...[Ryan

jus sum thoughts...
SCHOOL: gay. thats all i have to say. p.e. was alrite. lucy was all sad cuz carol was being a bitch...go figure. lol me and angelica tried to cheer him up. i dont think it helped tho. lucy i <3 u!!! LoL anywho...other than that nuttin happened.

OTHER: i've been thinkin lately about how like everybodie i kno has like problems with their parents/families and i never thought i rilly did. well not until the other day that is. i've been thinkin lately about my dad and how hes more or less like an aparition. its like hes not here, but he is. all day he's in his room playing freecell on the computer or watchin sum western movie on channel 55 that hes already seen bak in the day when all tvs were black and white. and when he does come out and talk, hes mostly yelling. he has major moo swings and can be all happi and joking around and then the slightest thing can happen and immediately he'll be cursing his head off at anyone and everything. if hes was an alcoholic...i'd run away! but hes not thank god. however, when hes angry it rilly scares me. like im afraid to go and ask him the simplest question like if he can help me with my math hw or whatnot. like yesterday, i had my music on too loud and i didnt kno if he was talkin to me or not so i yelled "what" and i guess it had attitude in it cuz then he got all pissy with me and was like "forget it. dont ever take that tone with me again" ahh and i accidently took his pen, god forbid, and he has a cow over it. and cuz the clip was a lil bent he throws it bak at me cuz its "worthless". what i dont like is that i feel like i barely even kno him. like the sayings are supposed to be "mommas boy" and "daddys girl" thats not me. me and my mom are very very close. i can tell her almost anything. i cant with my father and it hurts. i cant tell him my boy problems or situations i've gotten in cuz all he'll do is tell me the right or moral thing to do or go off on sum tangent about "bak in the day". the only things we ever talk about is sports, politics, school, college, and music. and its gay lil lectures about that crap. i feel like i cant relate to my dad. like i feel sorry for ppl who dont have a dad, but its like i dont either. what hurts is the fact that hes rite next to me yet, so far away. the only time we spend together is to and from skool, and when he helps me with my vocab every week for like 45 minutes. wow. what a vast amount of time. what scares me the most is that..im leaving in two years and going off to college and who knows how often i''ll even see my family much less my dad. besdies, hes gunna end up having major health problems in his near future. i mean he's been smoking since he was in his teens i believe and hes 56 already. he doesnt have eternity to waste anymore. and it scares me that i may never really kno my father. also, i cant even remember the last time i siad "I love you daddy" its been sooo many years i think since that. i cant remember the last time we hugged or anything either. this is tearing me up so bad inside and i want to tell him how i feel..but i can't.......

..::LaTeR dAyS::..

-janelle-

...[Ryan

<333 XoXo <333
Carl i love you!! <33333

...[Ryan

beach=danger!!
today, me and camila and her dad, julian, and kevin went to the pier to go fishing. me and camila first walked around but sadly there were no hot skaters. however when we were sittin on the pier, these scary ghetto gangster ppl were there. we were sittin on a bench and this guy came up and started talkin to us. asked for my number so i gave him a fake one. lol then he was askin if we culd do sumthin later and we were like umm...no cuz we are with my (camila) dad. so hes like can we come over near ur house later. so he asked where we lived and we were like ummmm....uhh....at the end of glades. haha then he asked how old we were and shit. i think he was like 19-ish. also he was smokin. plus--he lives in georgia and is leaving tomorrow so he probly wanted to get with us u kno...lol camila was like practically hyperventalating!!! haah it was scary tho. then they walked past and we were sittin near her dad so they didnt say anything. when they came bak her dad was far away and suddenly (thank god) this random old man started talkin to us bout our fish. we kept talkin to him..like rambling on about bait and shit even tho we had no idea wut the hell we were talkin bout until the guys past. the old man saved us!! <3333 thank god. then julian's friend from his bball came to fish with this 15 year old who wasnt too bad lookin so we were all tlakin/hanging out/flirting. it was fun. then we left, went to mc donalds, and saw some extremly hot skater like guys!! ahhh soo cute! <3 then they left *tear*

now im home, tired sorta, bored and yeah. i haveta write my english essay tomorrow before i do anything else. i mite go to julians bball game tomorrow considering the fact that its the last one! well im gunna go read and then go to bed. piece!!!


..::LaTeR dAyS::..

<333-janelle

ps--ewwww! i touched a squid!!! yuck!

4 _* | ...[Ryan