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dumbblonde1137

:: 2004 2 November :: 3.52pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: 1985 by bowling for soup

what happened to her plan?


omg. i had a horrible day. i think im gettin deathly ill. it sucks. me and camila got our homecoming/halloween pics developed last nite. haha i stole a sexy Ryan Cabrera Poster from a magazine. and we got harrased by these stupid black dudes who were calling us Shawty lol!!!

today in first hr we did like nothing. 3rd hr i took a test and slept then talked to matt george val and desiree. lunch-stalked piercing boy again. OMFG OMFG. his name is gustavo LOLOL. ahhhh! hes so damn sexy i'd do him in a heartbeat. =] 5th hr-took notes for 10 minutes then slept the rest of the period, drooled on my arm excessively and made my left arm fall asleep. so i missed alllll the notes and i have to copy them from my lover janis. <3. chem was alright, we took a quiz i got a B. yay. lol. then did a lab with dana<3. i havent talked to her in a while. we had a nice chat about ex-bfs and how retarded guys are. lol. after school i was walking and i look to my right and BAM! theres Justin Kantz..AKA piercing justin. aww he goes to our school now. lol. then went out front and was a lil annoyed with everything and i was gunna walk home by myself since everyone had their damn panties in a bunch and jus had to go home right away. so after they left i called my mom and she was home and she piked me up. before she came i watched a movie with jeremy and nick cuz jeremy is a cool rich brown man witha portable dvd player. lol. now im gunna go do...sumthin.

-later loverss-

<33-janelle

...[Ryan


dumbblonde1137

:: 2004 1 November :: 9.16pm



disregard that last entry:

[edit]:

things are actually getting progressively worse. i cant believe i actually fell for that shit...


dfjdskfj!

...[Ryan


dumbblonde1137

:: 2004 1 November :: 8.59pm




things are starting to look up for me...



=]

...[Ryan


dumbblonde1137

:: 2004 1 November :: 4.38pm



im so fucking confused right now....


2 _* | ...[Ryan


dumbblonde1137

:: 2004 31 October :: 10.37pm



camila-

look, i dont think u were a hoe last night (homecoming night) i jus didnt like how u were acting and i didnt know what other word to use to describe it. me and kristin felt so left out and shit u have no idea. she came cuz of u, and u barely hung out with us. i didnt have hardly any fun at homecoming and i dont care if u didnt think it was a good idea for me to stay at chris' tonight cuz it was my turn to have fun and make up for the lack of it at homecoming. so yeah. jus wanted to tell u that i dont think u are a hoe at all. and i know we get on each others nerves alll the time and yeah. sorry.

3 _* | ...[Ryan


dumbblonde1137

:: 2004 31 October :: 10.24pm
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: dry your eye by the streets

the wicked thing about us is that we always have trust...


OMFG. today was so fun. woke up at like noon cuz i was so tired. did homework and got ready. then me and camila walked to nicoles house and hung out for a lil. made plans to go trick-or-treating later. then we went home and got dressed up. camila was a cheerleader and i was a hooker. lol. we looked so gay. then we went over to nicoles but jd and seth and all their gay friends were there. me and camila decided to go to chris' house. so we left. i felt really bad for leaving nicole tho. i <3 u.!! then right when we got there and walked up to chris and max...BAM! we got attacked with shaving cream. we were sooo white it was funny. we went trick-or-treating a lil and ran into BROWN MAN!!! omg it was so embarrassing. lol. then camila left and we went to chris' and got like attacked by sum kids. then we went to the park thing and all of us got incredibly covered in shaving cream. they styled their hair and we took pictures. it was greeeat. lol. then we went to sum secret tree spot thing. lol. massive sexual assualting. HAHAHA. but yeah. it was fun. then max left and me chris and gustavo sat on the curb and i literally got ANTS IN MY PANTS ahhh. it hurt. red ants lol. then i left and took the longest most wondeful shower i have ever taken in my entire life!! lol. but yeah. im gunna go to sleep since im the only one still up!

-later loverss-

<333-janelle


Happy Halloween

4 _* | ...[Ryan


dumbblonde1137

:: 2004 31 October :: 12.53am



homecoming was actually really gay. it sucked so much dick it was unbelievable. i dont feel like getting into it right now cuz im mad tired and i need to sleep and cuz im on the verge of tears and i..yeah. it was jus gay.

-later faggots-


PS- I LOVE ANDREW TO DEATH!!! his comments cheered me up! lol <3

7 _* | ...[Ryan


dumbblonde1137

:: 2004 30 October :: 3.22pm
:: Mood: loved
:: Music: breakaway by kelly clarkson

gotta keep moving on..


its official:

daddy finally told me that he loves me. it was nice. too bad he said cuz cuz mommy told him too...



whatever. :/

1 _* | ...[Ryan


dumbblonde1137

:: 2004 30 October :: 11.14am



HOMECOMING TONIGHt!!!



w00t~w00t!

5 _* | ...[Ryan


dumbblonde1137

:: 2004 29 October :: 11.00pm
:: Mood: tired/bored/excited/mixed up/emotional
:: Music: viva la bam <33

im gunna make your ears bleed.....


today rocked so hard. lol. it was class colors day, man...eveyone was so decked out! i loved it. 1st hr- we jus chilled, got more "spiritized" and wandered the halls. 3rd-nothinggg. 5th-OMFG i failed the last test we took. literally failed. as in a 59%. I DONT FUCKING FAIL TESTS. im so fucking mad/upset gahhhh. 7th-gayyy. thennn PeP raLLy!!! it was soo fun. omg chris emerson and his friend (nikis lover) were cheerleaders...damn they can "drop it like its hotttt" LMAO. but yeah. i'd do him. and piercing boy...who we found out is a fucking SOPHMORE!!! gahh. oh well. i'd still do him. lol. anyways....after school chilled with jeremy, chris, gustavo, max, and max's nice friend (i feel bad that i dont know his name hm...) yeah it was kinda gay. but whatever. i love them so much. well most of them. heck, al of them. lol. im in such a loving mood today. then came home walked with nicole and jd then went to Kyrie's 17th Birthday Party. it was nice to see evryone. i only stayed like and hour and a half. then went to the homecoming football game. twas fun. skating out back, making bull noises, dancing to the band music, acting stupid, riding the elevator up and down, grabbing anthony and gustavos penises, being spirited, playing hacky-sack with a soda can, helping nicole with her boy drama<3, and screaming GO BAND GO at the top of our lungs cuz no1 stayed to watch and we thought they deserved an audience. i love it. its so fun. <33. yeah but theres always the fucking drama taht comes along with it, or the stuff i make up. lol. but gah. yeah. dont feel like explaining. guys are really annoying, man, i wanna boyfriend soo bad right now!! lol

-later loverss-

<3-janizzle

1 _* | ...[Ryan


dumbblonde1137

:: 2004 28 October :: 5.26pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: coheed and cambria

the loss of friends you didn't have...


today was okkkk. english i thought i was gunna die. sooo gay. gahh i got an 82 on my POFL test. that suckss.spanihs was ok. took to fucking quizzes...did so so . and mrs. cripps kindly raised my participation grade 6 points (cuz she likes me lol) so i wuld get an A. however, she told me if i dont participate next time i will fail. lol. damn, now i gotta raise my hand. but oooo! the quarter jus "re-started" in that class 2 days ago and i already raised my hand 3 times. w00t. go me. lol. lunch was gay. jeremy was being french..and brown. lol. history-totally failed that test. gahhh. algebra was so gay. i wanted to sleep so bad but i wasnt allowed. gah. yeah. after school hung out with damian and allie and sum gay fat ppl i hate *coughkylacough* hahaha. then me and allie walked home late and had a wonderful conversation. im glad i had sumone to talk about things with. yea, she thinks in im love with him too. gahhh what the fuck is wrong with me? whateverrr. OMG OMG OMG. im sooooooooo excited for this weekend.

friday- class colors day and pep rally (im gunna be sooo spirited!!!) then kyries bday party at 6 <33 and homecoming football game with all my loverss at 8!

saturday- HOMECOMING!! yayness.

sunday- Halloween! this wuld be fun but i have nothing to do. grrr. anyone wanna do sumthin this day? COMMENT and tell me! <33

yay. im done. =]

<33-janellle

4 _* | ...[Ryan


dumbblonde1137

:: 2004 27 October :: 10.08pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: sn00p d0g

if a nigga gets an attitude, pop it like its hot...


today was ehh ehh. eviromental i totally failed the final. grrrrr. psychology-i have the highest grade -99% bitchhh!! lol. lunch-stalked piercing boy again, lol. history-booooring. chemistry=100% gayness. ooo ooo ooo! i was a cowboy today!! lol cuz it was western day. anywhoooo...after school chilled with everyone. everyone left lol cept damian allie eddie kevin and gusto. camila got mad and walked home. then me and allie took a walk and pretended to be cowboys riding a horse. ran int max. got abused again. then nanny picked us up. then i went with my mommy and got red shirts for friday and got ym eyebrows waxed since my mom said they loooked like catepillars. lol w/e. it hurt like a bitchhh tho. lol. tomorrow is Celebrity Day kind of a gay day. i think i might dress up as avril laviegne since i got the stuff. lol. but i dunno. god damn it smells like lysol. ahhh.

-later loverss-

<33-janelle

1 _* | ...[Ryan


dumbblonde1137

:: 2004 26 October :: 4.49pm


i love you.

5 _* | ...[Ryan


dumbblonde1137

:: 2004 26 October :: 4.23pm
:: Mood: emotionally un-stable
:: Music: dry your eyes by the streets

we can even have an open relationship if we must...


BREAKTHROUGH:

last night i had to say bye to my daddy who was leaving early this morning for wisconsin for 3 weeks. i figured he'd be like "bye kiddo. be good." and then id go to bed. but no. he did something he hasnt done in AT LEAST five years if not more....he hugged me.. yeah i kno it sounds weird but its true. it was so strange, but nice...i ended up going into my room and crying. it was a wonderful moment that im starting to cry jus thinking about it..wow.


4 _* | ...[Ryan


dumbblonde1137

:: 2004 25 October :: 5.17pm
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: breakaway by kelly clarkson

wanted to belong here, but something felt so wrong here...



Does anyone truly care about me ??



14 _* | ...[Ryan


dumbblonde1137

:: 2004 25 October :: 5.05pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: dry your eyes by The STREETS

the world feels like its caved in...


i am NEVER telling anyone anything ever again. well actually there are like mayb 2 people in the entire world that i can trust completely. thats why i dont tell anyone anything about my personal or love life cuz i feel like first of all-that they dont give a shit. even my really good friends, and second-that i feel i might say sumthing and it will get around and smack me in the face like most things tend to do lately. im through with all this shit. my friend group has seriously deteiorated and its upsetting. i seriously have like 3 best (true) friends that wont leave me and one of them that i love a whole bunch is mad at me, all cuz i opened my big mouth. thats why im not saying anything anymore. ill keep everything locked up inside. its ok...ive done that before...it doesnt hurt that bad...


gahhh whatever.

5 _* | ...[Ryan


dumbblonde1137

:: 2004 24 October :: 8.33pm
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: dry your eyes by: the streets

in one single moment your whole life can turn around...
lil thingies camila sent me:

*In kindergarten your idea of a good friend was the person who let you have the red crayon when all that was left was the ugly black one.

In first grade your idea of a good friend was the person who went to the bathroom with you and held your hand as you walked through the scary halls.

In second grade your idea of a good friend was the person who helped you stand up to the class bully.

In third grade your idea of a good friend was the person who shared their lunch with you when you forgot yours on the bus.

In fourth grade your idea of a good friend was the person who was willing to switch square dancing partners in gym so you wouldn't have to be stuck do-si-do-ing with Nasty Nick or Smelly Susan.

In fifth grade your idea of a friend was the person who saved a seat on the back of the bus for you.

In sixth grade your idea of a friend was the person who went up to Nick or Susan, your new crush, and asked them to dance with you, so that if they said no you wouldn't have to be embarrassed.

In seventh grade your idea of a friend was the person who let you copy the social studies homework from the night before that you had.

In eighth grade your idea of a good friend was the person who helped you pack up your stuffed animals and old baseball but didn't laugh at you when you finished and broke out into tears.

In ninth grade your idea of a good friend was the person who would go to a party thrown by a senior so you wouldn't wind up being the only freshman there.

In tenth grade your idea of a good friend was the person who changed their schedule so you would have someone to sit with at lunch.

In eleventh grade your idea of a good friend was the person who gave you rides in their new car, convinced your parents that you shouldn't be grounded, consoled you when you broke up with Nick or Susan, and found you a date to the prom.

In twelfth grade your idea of a good friend was the person who helped you pick out a college/university, assured you that you would get into that college/university, helped you deal with your parents who were having a hard time adjusting to the idea of letting you go...

At graduation your idea of a good friend was the person who was crying on the inside but managed the biggest smile one could give as they congratulated you.

The summer after twelfth grade your idea of a good friend was the person who helped you clean up the bottles from that party, helped you sneak out of the house when you just couldn't deal with your parents, assured you that now that you and Nick or you and Susan were back together, you could make it through anything, helped you pack up for university and just silently hugged you as you looked through blurry eyes at 18 years of memories you were leaving behind, and finally on those last days of childhood, went out of their way to give you reassurance that you would make it in college as well as you had these past 18 years, and most importantly sent you off to college knowing you were loved.


omg. im going off to college in like a year and a half. its too soon.

* 10 ways you know ur in love *
1.Time is an eternity when u're without them
2.time goes by too fast when ur with them
3.the thought of them makes you shiver
4.the sound of them makes u smile
5.when seein them,u cant c anything else
6.u start 2 listen to sappy love songs
7.u actually like sappy love songs
8.the smell of them makes you relax
9.you find yourself smiling constantly when it has something 2 do w/them.
10.YOU WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR THEM!!!

-^^hmm seems like the story of my life right now...

4 _* | ...[Ryan


dumbblonde1137

:: 2004 22 October :: 11.16pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: tv in living room

call now and well throw in this free gift...


THIS ENTRY IS DEDICATED TO ANDREW. haha <3


today was umm...gay? evnviro we had a sub and we did our lil group project thing. it was soo funny. god, were so racist. lolol. psych was boringgg. i feel asleep for like 45 minutes and i drooled on my sleeve. haha im sucha l0ser. =] lunch-god gustavo pisses/pissed me off so bad i was about to leave and go sit sumwhere else. i swear, if he says anything monday, im not sitting with any of them anymore. its absolutely ridiculous. we are being nice letting him sit with us cuz he got in a fight with lauren and he repays us by being a complete asshole. no im gunna kill him. literally if he doesnt watch what he says. buy anywayyyys...history watched a movie about an indian named kawaysdljguha...whatever. lol. chemistry was so gay. yeah after school hung out with like no one cuz everyone left right away. jaryd and max attacked me with paper numchucks. stupid fuckers. lol. after school went with daddy to get new cell phone!!! yay im so happy. then went to coral square mall to get my brothers halloween costume then went over to janis' house to finsih our spanish project and then went to the movies with nicole and camila. we went to see the grudge. jeremy and eric met us there. OMFG ive never seen a scarier movie in my entire life. i cried, i was shaking, i stopped breathing, i almost peed my pants, and screaming uncontrollably. it was horrible. even eric and jeremy were scared shitless. lol. i was greatttt. especially that lil chinese boy behind us. hahaha. after jus chilled and saw kelsey.<3 aww her and her new bf aree so cute. hehe. came home and yeah. OMG mommy quit smoking today =] . im so proud. <33.

-later days-

<33-janelle

if u want my new cell phone number, comment and mayb ill tell u =]

5 _* | ...[Ryan


dumbblonde1137

:: 2004 21 October :: 3.54pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: all my life. kci and jojo

gahhhhh!!! -_-


gosh, im such a fucking loser...

9 _* | ...[Ryan


dumbblonde1137

:: 2004 19 October :: 3.34pm
:: Mood: scared
:: Music: over and over again..

i dont know what else to do...

i fucking LOVE him....


^^...but it seems so pointless. its like leaving my heart in the middle of a six-lane highway to let it get ran over again and again. and im gunna leave it there, until no pieces are left unbroken ....

5 _* | ...[Ryan


dumbblonde1137

:: 2004 18 October :: 6.17pm
:: Mood: grumpy
:: Music: parents discussing my brothers suspension

HAHAHAHAHHA..wut a fag


today started horrible and only got worse as the day went on. i wore an outfit to school today that i thought was cute and camila kept making fun of it and it made me really upset. especially at lunch when she had everyone come up to me and make funny of it and point and laugh. i was seriously on the verge of crying. gahh it really pissed me off. took a spanish test did well. got a 46% on my english test lolololol!!!! history took a open note test and failed. greeeat. algebra totally failed the test. i eventually gave up and stopped trying. whateverrrr. after school chilled with everyone. max kicked me and nowi have a bruise..stupid moron. then found out that derek's name isnt derek. its james !!! wtf? lolololol!!! grandma piked us up then went to gas station and got an icee cuz i felt like it. lol . now i haveta go do hw. blahhhhhhhhhhh. peace

-later ladies and gents-

<33-janelle

1 _* | ...[Ryan


dumbblonde1137

:: 2004 17 October :: 7.36pm



i feel like i have to become a skank in order to fit in or be accepted by my "friends"...

wtf???

8 _* | ...[Ryan


dumbblonde1137

:: 2004 17 October :: 7.20pm
:: Music: crazy train by: trick daddy

ur not a friend to me, bitch dont pretend to be...


last night i finally gave up and stopped making excuses for why my so called friends act the way they do. people seem to put on an act and pretend to be so nice and trustworthy or whatever and then i get kicked to the curb. none of my guy friends are really my true friends. everyone is so god damn fickle. i hate how i can never talk to ANYONE about my day or how i feel about someone. no one takes the time to listen or care yet im expected to be all ears when ever they need to talk? doesnt seem fair. instead i have to talk to my mom. thats fine except for the things i cant talk to my mom about. i wish i jus had people who would listen and try to understand me. this past month has been hell on me and im an emotional wreck. no one knows it tho. so when i get pissed off cuz no one knows it, they think im being a bitch or whatever. im jus so sick of having all these "sorta friends" and acquintances. right now, the only people i can actually call my good friends who wont desert me, are camila, niki, and nicole. and i love them to death. i jus wish that everyone else who is supposedly my friend, would act like it...

-apparently thats too much to ask from you people.

-whateva-

10 _* | ...[Ryan


dumbblonde1137

:: 2004 17 October :: 7.12pm
:: Mood: cynical
:: Music: all my life by: kci and jojo

[insert slow gay music here]


yesterday was fun in its own weird way. woke up went on computer, gustavo called and he was on my driveway. so i took him to camilas house then i did my chores and got ready and me camila and gustavo caught the 2:15 BUS to the mall. it was the first time i ever took a public bus sumwhere. it was awesome. lol. yeah im a loser i know. =] stayed at the mall for several hours. saw scary 18 year old kevin ekkk!!! saw emily and lisa too. ha we see them everywhere!! lol. then camila got a dress and we went home. then we went to alinas birthday party and showed the 7th graders how to throw a kickass party. lol. it was pathetic tho, i had 12 and 13 year olds teaching me how to dance. hahaha. then jeremy and chris show up at like 10 and we all hung outside on camilas driveway for eternity times two. then scott came. and we all sat in paranoia of bernice the ghost. hahahaha. it was great and eye opening if u ask me. we stayed out till like 1:30 cuz her mom didnt care. lol. then gustavio, jeremy, and chris left and scott went to the window for a teeny bit then left. we went to sleep and i woke up at 10, came home, did hw and then went shopping with parents. bought jewelry for my dress and a lamp for my room. then came home, did massive amounts of vocab for POFL and yea. now im here. i tried studying for the algebra II test but its hopeless im sooo lost in that class it isnt funny. grr. now i have to go read a bazillion pages in POFL. joy..

-later people-

<3-janelle

1 _* | ...[Ryan


dumbblonde1137

:: 2004 16 October :: 10.06am
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: lets take our time by: ryan cabrera <3

i dont want this to die..dont wanna ever forget this night...


last ngiht was pretty fun. hung out at shadowood mostly with sam and sean. scott eric guillermo and gustavo were there too. i drove and gustavo says i drive like a woman...well DUH. lol. we tried on halloween stuff in walgreens, ate happy meals in mcdonalds and got coffee at starbucks. we saw alotta people. OMG OMG OMG i saw JUSTIN!!!! (piercing justin from pe last year. awww hes sooo hot. lol. i havent seen him in like forever. also saw chris working at borders and hayley working at the ice cream place. and then i saw my most favorite lovers in the entire world....DILAN, JACK, and KYRIE!!!! omg i miss them soooo much. <33. ...came home around 10:30 and yeah. now im here and we mite go to the mall. who knows.

-peace losers-

<33-janelle

5 _* | ...[Ryan


dumbblonde1137

:: 2004 15 October :: 3.58pm
:: Mood: angry
:: Music: 40 kinds of Sadness by: ryan cabrera <3333

i feel the same thing always happens when you're gone...


ugh! im so effing stupid! i dont know why i even believed for a second that there might be the slightest chance that there was still sumthin there between us. i was so fucking wrong. like totally. im so fucking retarded like seriously. i bring all this drama upon myself. ahhh IM SO GAY!!!! ....grrr.. thats why i wrote in my journal for psychology that i wished i had the power to read peoples mind and see what they are really thinking or meaning. it would save me from so much pain...

gosh am i an idiot. =[

-whatever losers-


3 _* | ...[Ryan


dumbblonde1137

:: 2004 13 October :: 7.23pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: 40 Kinds of Sadness by: ryan cabrera <33

just around the corner is not enough...


today was ehhhhhh. culd barely get outta bed this morning. that shit like gives u a fucking hangover. hahaha. went to school, found out that POFL isnt due till october 25th. i was soo happy i coulda got up and started dancing. went to take the pSAT. it was ok i guess. i was having problems concentrating and i kept falling asleep in between sections. like actually dreaming and drooling hahaha. im sucha dork! anyways then lunch was ok. saw piercing boy ahh*has orgasm* LMAO!!! 5th hr was borrring. 6th hr i learned, or tried to. 7th hour...GAY AS HELL. i hate that class i hate that teacher i hate everything. fucking teacher moved ppl who talk to much to different seats and she seperated me and dana. i was seriously gunna cry. thats the only reason i dont mind chemistry. the fact that dana makes it fun. but no now im sitting next to valerie which is ok cuz shes cool to =] but its still not the same *tear* andddd then i got a fucking 77% on my test, i thought i did sooo goood. i like cried, seriously i did. to myself and barely tho. yes, im a fucking loser. but then after school had to talk to jd and stuff cuz damian didnt come to school today...uh oh!! yeah but then every1 left and max talked to us. well he actually hurt us and threw my EVERYTHING folder on the ground and alll my papers went everywhere. im so disorganized im gunna like have a spaz. ahh. lol. went home, and walked with nicole. went to seth and jds house. got a dollar from them , met gusto at the park went to gas station and OMG....i saw my lover....DILAN!!!!! we made like a big scene. it was hilarious. but i havent seen her since annas party. aww i miss her <3 and all my lovely olympic friends <33. now i gotta try to study for my scarlett letter essay test i have tomorrow in AP english that is if i dont fucking pass out before then, im sooo tired....blah!

-later sexy beasts-

<333-janelle

2 _* | ...[Ryan


dumbblonde1137

:: 2004 12 October :: 8.42pm
:: Mood: high
:: Music: none cuz i cant find my ryan cabrera cd =[

wow....im a bad bad bad girl. shame.

today was, well interesting to say the least. ap env test went ok. psychology test was a piece of cake. lunch was ok. 5th hour got my id and i must say, it doesnt look too bad. lol. then chemistry test was ok too. but omggggggg!!! after school we were gunna go talk to damian but he was sooo fucking stoned it was hard not to laugh. but i didnt cuz i know many ppl who get really fucked up from taking those bars. he took two and then they, well camila, pressured me into taking one since he some left. i was scared but i did it anywyas. it tasted like absolute shit and i didnt really get that fucked up. just a lil spacey and touchy lol and a MAJOR headache. me and camila had to get outta the house so we met nicole and went up to wendys were we met upw ith jd and then jeremy chris and max came.russel was there too. they were sooo pissed when they found out what we did. especially jerermy. lol. then we all jus hung out for a while and talked about having sex and shit. like usual. lol. i still owe jeremy sex for that one day cuz of the bet. hahaha anyways. im happy cuz i talked to max a lil which means he doesnt completely like hate me or whatever =] so thats good. but he hurted me. grr. he like tried to kill me jus cuz i pushed him. lolol. my arms feel like they are broken haha and my head hurts like a bithc cuz he hit me in the head with his head like 3 times. owwwie. lol. but yeah. my mom told me to take advil but i cant cuz i still have that other shit in my system and i dont want to get anymore fucked up than before. ahh i gotta go call scott alarcon with his homework cuz hes an idiot. <3 lol bye

-later chicos-

<33-janelle

1 _* | ...[Ryan


dumbblonde1137

:: 2004 11 October :: 4.49pm
:: Mood: pissed off

she paints her nails and she don't know,
he's got her best friend on the phone....


stupid fucker...-.-

2 _* | ...[Ryan


dumbblonde1137

:: 2004 11 October :: 4.47pm




im so fucking over it...

omg. grrrness x 12738728473!! im so fucking pissed. i'd talk about it in here but we all know how my words have come bak to bite me in the ass previously so im gunna make a friends only entry where i let all this go....sorry that none of u can read it since i know you all are soo interested by my life..hah not. but yeah. you'll get over it. but i will have to inform this "person" of whats happening possibly behind this "person's" back. i care too much for this "person" to let this "person" get hurt by this "person's" supposedly best friend. wow why the fuck do i care about ppl so much? grrrrr. whatever. im not in the mood.

leave me happy messages?? =]

-later fuckfaces-

4 _* | ...[Ryan

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