<center>And i can still hear the sound of love, run dry...</center>

:: 2004 9 October :: 6.47pm
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: over and over again by: nelly

i remember the day you left, i remember the last breath you took right in front of me...

Andrew made my day. =]

<33

1 _* | ...[Ryan

:: 2004 8 October :: 11.31pm
:: Mood: angry
:: Music: Over and Over Again by: Nelly

i cant take it, i cant shake it no more...

wow. tonight was 100% gayness. we actually went to see a movie, The Forgotten, but only me, nicole, camila, and zach went to see it. the fucking manager came in the theater a bazillion times. grr. omg the movie was fucking scary. me and nicole were like shaking, crying, and hyperventalating. lol. then we met up with chris, jeremy, and gusto and then ran into scott, eric and sum ppl. then went to walgreens .camila and zach decide to go find scott. zach gets to them ahead of us and we hear them say omg they keep following us and shit blah blah. omfg i have never been more pissed in my life. we fucking left them. then i accidently blew up at chris and jeremy and got all emotional and shit. i swear, i shuld be an actress. anyways, we went into borders but on the was we ran into vito, buddy, and sarah. so we kinda ran to borders to avoid getting our asses kicked! lol. and guess who we run into there....seth. ehhhh. we peed and then ran into juliano. and then omg...i saw DANIEL MIRANDA!!!!! i havent seen that kid since the last day of school last year. awww i miss him and his stories. <33. he told me about his dressing up as a woman the other day at school and actually being an attractive woman. LMAO. then we jus hung out with zach jeremy an chris. and me and nicole went into the lil ice cream store thing to say hi to hayley. then zach left and the rest of us hung out. i really love jeremy and chris. they rock. no seriously. out of all the skater ppl, they, even if sumtimes they dont show it, in the end they are the only ones who care and are actually like our real friends. and i love them for that. lol ok anywyas...so yeah we sat on the stairs cuz jeremy was crippled and we were all gunna have a massive orgy but the concrete was uncomfortable and wet so we postponed it. then me nicole and camila left. tomorrow im going with my mom to her work so i can read and get my hair dyed. ill get to see lauri too!!! <33

-later fuckers-

<33-janelle

:: 2004 8 October :: 3.53pm
:: Mood: irritated
:: Music: Over and Over again By: Nelly

i cant go on not loving you....

today sucked. 1st hour was boring. 3rd was too. we watched a movie about a talking monkey. ooh yeah i said hi to sumone today. i was impressed. lol. anyways...at lunch fuckhead gustavo knocks my beloved dr. pepper on the ground and it like explodes everywhere and then jeremy throws a sandwich at my face!!! ahhh. lol. 5th was boring. so was 7th hour. after school got jamba juice and talked to damian and sum ppl. then daddy piked us up and i was gunna do my analytical article for english but i cant find an article to write about. grrrrness x 43473847. and i wanna do sumthing tonight.!!!

-later d0rks!-

<33-janelle

ps- the funniest thing i heard today was dana telling me that her cat's foot started on fire last night. LMAO!!

:: 2004 7 October :: 9.23pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: Shes by: ryan cabrera <33

hes the one who brought me tot he edge...

today was ok. english we took two fucking essay tests. i swear to freakin god that that teacher is inhuman. 4th hour was ehh. i came to the conclusion that i am going to fail class particiaption, what else is knew? lunch-gustavo and jeremy were with us for a while, then we went over to damian and it started pouring, my skirt was flying up and i was trying to cram last minute for my ap history test. the test wasnt too bad. it was jus sooo long. 80 questions in 50 minutes. jeez. 6th was ehh. math is so fucking hard this year. it stresses me out so0o0o much. grrrrness. this is the first year that u havent had an A in math. i fucking suck. blehhh... after school hung around with damian camila eddie and stephanie. then walked home... muwahahah. anywyas...then went walking around with niki and nicole and we ran into tony...ehhh ick. hes so unlike mike. hes fat, white, and gay!!! grr then we saw chris (heart problem boy from OH) so we hung out with him and ran into jeremy, chris, and gusto along with brandon jj and matt at wendys so we all chilled. well minus our bros. we jus ate their food and sum old man looked at me strange. LOL. then we walked home and niki stepped in dog shit! LMAO it was hilarious. then came home, ate dinner and did my chemistry lab report. im so happy tomorrow is friday. i wanna do sumthing fun tomorrow. wanna make plans? comment or call me..

-later days-

<33-janelle

ps- Happy Birthday Max. =]

:: 2004 6 October :: 9.12pm
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: On the way Down by: ryan cabrera <33

i was so afraid of going under....
bored so taking a survey!

First....

First best friend: hillary
First car: none but it will be 50% of the ghetto-mobile!! LMAO
First real kiss: scott?
First break-up: well i broke up with scott but first time i got dumped was dan
First screen name: orangechic40288 (yeah its gay)
First self purchased album: nsync
First pets: cats and a dog
First piercing/tattoo: my ears when i was two
First credit card: dont gots one
First true love: ha...like im gunna say
First enemy: i actually cant remeber
First music you remember hearing in your house: dunno
First cigarette: never had one, never will..

Last...

Last car ride: today after school
Last kiss: oh god umm few weeks ago?
Last cry: couple of days ago prolly
Last library book checked out: A Portrait of a Lady
Last movie seen: godsend (freakkkky)
Last food consumed: hamburger
Last crush: i sorta have one now, sorta not..
Last phone call: today when camila wanted to go to the mall with matt and god knows who else
Last time showered: yesterday night
Last shoes worn: my black sandals
Last cd played: ryan cabrera!!! <33
Last item bought: candy after school
Last annoyance: my dad
Last disappointment: ha theres so many to name...
Last time wanting to die: i actually never wanted to die...
Last time scolded: um i never get in trouble
Last shirt worn: black t-shirt
Last website visited: woohu.com
Last word you said: away
Last song you sang: shame on me by ryan cabrera

What...

What is in your cd player?: ryan cabrera cd <33
What color socks are you wearing?: i dont wear socks...
What color of underwear are you wearing? purple!
What's under your bed?: um crap
What time did you wake up today?: 5:45 am

Future...

Where do you want to go?:UWM or Stanford
What is your career going to be? doctoral or psychological

Where are you going to live?: in a suburban community in a eastern state
How many kids do you want?: 1 or 2
What kind of car(s): cool ones

Current...

Current mood: happy :)
Current music: blind sight by ryan cabrera <33
Current taste: soda
Current hair: in a messy bun..looks like shit
Current clothes: black shirt and a skirt
Current annoyance(s): nothing really
Current longing: for a second chance...

Current desktop picture: sum ugly gray and black thing
Current favorite artist: ryan cabrera<33
Current book(s): Portrait of a Lady..errgggh.
Current color of toenails: black
Current time-wasting wish: haha...

[get to know you]

@ Name: janelle
@ Age: 16
@ Height: 5'6"
@ Sign: aries
@ Hair Color: blonde with black
@ Eye Color: i dunno they change
@ Foot Size: 8.5
@ Heritage: german
@ Birthplace: milwaukee, wisconsin<3

[schooling]

@ Pre-school: i was too cool for pre-school
@ Elementary School: our redeemed <33
@ Middle School: advent and OR
@ High School: OHHS <33 and WBRHS
@ College: UWM
@ Extracurricular Activity of Choice: basketball
@ Favorite Elementary School Memory: having a crush on rocky...geez what was i thinking? lol
@ Favorite High School Memory: all my wonderful friends that ive made <33 xoxo

[hygiene.. oh yea personal stuff]

@ Shower How Often?: everyday
@ Morning or Night Showers?: mornings
@ Brush Teeth How Often?: twice a day
@ Floss? (Don't lie!): like never lol
@ Shampoo Brand: sleek look
@ Soap/Body Wash Brand: sumthing from avon
@ Lotion Brand: i dont use lotion
@ Face Wash Brand: clean and clear
@ Toothbrush Color: pink and white!!
@ Body Spray: um none? lol

[love, hate, rejection, and all the fun stuff.]

@ Define Love: when two people complete each other..
@ Have you ever mistaken love for lust? possibly
@ Are you in love? With who?: im not sure. m
@ If yes, are you sure it's love?: no im not sure
@ If no, have you ever been in love?: im not sure once again
@ What happened?: ahh omg ur annoying
@ Have you ever been used?: yeppp
@ What happened and why?: too many times to tell
@ Have you ever used someone?: yes sadly
@ What happened and why?: same thing
@ Biggest disappointment (relationship/girl/guy-wise): haha...um lots.
@ Why?: omg stop asking really homosexual questions!!!
@ First Kiss?: haha um yeah that was bad...started with an r
@ Most Memorable Kiss?: that one night after the battle of the bands and the movie
@ PDA Fan?: not really
@ Ever been dumped?: yeah
@ Ever dumped?: yup
@ Worst kisser: both kevins lol
@ Worst hugger: anthony
@ Best kisser: max i think
@ Best hugger: dunnoo
@ Are you friends with any of your exes?: yeah
@ Nicest romantic thing done for you: haha nothing whatsoever..

[random questions because i'm done with catagorizing]

@ What are you wearing?: shirt and skirt
@ What are you doing?: this survey
@ What do you want to do with your life?: become a doctor, get rich, marry a handsome doctor
@ One Naughty Secret: that night at the window w/ camila + 2 boys =??? hahaha
@ One Silly Secret: teehee its a secret i cant tell
@ One Bad Habit: im so fucking picky
@ One Bad Personality Trait: i get pissed too easily
@ One Good Habit: im a nice person?
@ One Good Personality Trait: i dunno
@ One Natural Talent: i can say the stupidest things lol
@ One Acquired Talent: i dunno
@ Thing you want to do once in your life: meet ryan cabrera <33
@ Thing you will never do in your life: drugs
@ Where do you want to travel to?: italy
@ Where will you never go?: bangladesh
@ What do people not get about you?: everything...
@ What do you need right now?: to go to bed and study
@ What do you have right now?: nothing that i really want...

all done. =] now its time for bed.

-nite nite-

<33-janelle

4 _* | ...[Ryan

:: 2004 6 October :: 6.55pm
:: Mood: ecstatic
:: Music: illusions by: Ryan Cabrera <3333

if all of the things that you thought you would be pass you by....

OMFG. i am soooo incredibly happy right now that i cant stop smiling. my dad thinks im smoking sumthing. lol. but ahhh nothing can ruin my mood right now!!! =] =] =]

-I LOVE YOU ALL x0x0-

<3333333-janelle

:: 2004 6 October :: 5.35pm
:: Mood: devious
:: Music: tvs playing

if u need a car, truck or van..who ya gunna call? MAROONE!!..lol

grrrrness. matt and frank and josh are having a halloween party thing on either the 16th or the 23rd and camilas mom is letting her go well if i can go. and i prolly cant. cuz my mom isnt gunna let me go cuz theres gunna be drinking and shit. grrrr. i dont even know if i really wanna go.... blahhh.

-later G-units-

<33-janelle

:: 2004 5 October :: 6.11pm
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: All my life

and i thank god that i , that i finally found you...

today was pretty good actually. surprising since it was an even day. me and camila go to skool earlier and we ran into danny and his friend. so they decided to walk with us and hang out with us. yay we had friends this morning lol ! then owen showed up and yeah. owen=disaster waiting to happen. he dropped my damn box of notecards all over the floor. ahh i culda strangled him. then he sat on me. errrf. lol. aww it was fun this morning. i learned that u can eat weed thanks to my dear stoner friend danny <3. lol!!! english sucked but thats cuz we took a "realistic" ap test and i had no idea what the questions meant. lol. then we had to write a timed essay that i totally bullshitted. er. then spanish was ok. kinda fun. we actually got mrs. cripps to ramble off sunject for 15 minutes. we have never gotten her to do that before and this is the 3rd year shes been my teacher. lol. lunch was fine i suppose. i saw piercing boy!!! ahhhh <33 lol. but yeah. 5th hr was fine. 6th was ms. palettis bday and yeah it was fun. then after school chilled with camila and damien and sum strange kid whos white but turns brown. lol. then got picked up, went o wendys, saw all these gay middle schoolers and scott, gustavo, and jeremy. didnt stay to talk to them since they seem to have sticks up their asses lately. errrrg. whatevaaaaa. tomorrow=will be gay. i never do anything on odd days. blah. bye

-later acquaintences-

<33-janelle

mi favorite song as of a few days ago:

Cuz its all in my head,
i think about it over and over again
and i cant keep picturing you with her
and it hurts so bad..
cuz its all in my head,
i think about it over and over again
i replay it over and over again
i cant take it, yeah i cant take it no more...

i dont know what else to do,
i cant go on not loving you...

<333

:: 2004 4 October :: 4.48pm
:: Mood: bitchy
:: Music: Love me for me BY :ashlee simpson

im not the kind of girl you want to leave, you'll see....

ah today suxed. we had school and it was a regular day.errrr... i wore my cute pink and black shoes and OMFG they hurt my feet so bad i was like gunna cry on the way to class. 1st hour we wrote letters to our army dudes. mine was soooo gay!! lol. 2nd hour was fine i gotta good grade on my scarlett letter reading log so im happyy. 3rd-gay. 4th-read a story in spanish yo no comprendo any of it. lol. 5th-fine. 6th-fine sean kept slapping me....grrr ! lol. 7th-fine. me and dana played with her Mars Mud lol it was squishy!! then after school hung out with damien and ppl and yeah. hes probly coming with us to homecoming. so thats cool. then went to publix to buy sum candy for ms. paletti since its "Suck Up Day" tomorrow. lol.

OMFG. during lunch, gustavo tried to break all my fingers like he told me he was gunna do yesterday. and he wound up giving me a big ass scratch on my forehead and under my eye. im gunna kill that bastard if it leaves a scar!!!!!

well now i gotta go fill chris in on the max thing which def. did not go as planned. i dont even know if he read the damn thing. grrrrness. w/e.

-later ya'll-

<33-janelle

:: 2004 3 October :: 5.58pm
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: All my life by: KC and Jo-J0

all my life, i pray for someone like you, and i hope that u feel the same way too....

today was fun. woke up at like 11. got ready watched dave the barbarian (my favorite show!!) then went out with mommy and grandma shopping. and i got to drive. yayy!! we went to bealls and i found my homecoming dress. im soo happy. then bought elastic at rag shop for my pink and black shoes that i bought the other day. i got black high heels for my dress and then got a new pair or jeans, a black shirt and a pair of black dickies. ooh and a new bra. lol. it was fun and mommy paid for it all. oh yeahhhh! came home. tried on my dress with my shoes and went outside to show alina. sum weird dudes in a truck whisteld nd shit so i flicked them off. lol. but whatevvvaaa. then my family ate their dinner (steak) that cost 72 fucking dollars. i hate steak so i ate hot dogs. lol. im weird. but now im gunna go get alina cuz i told her we'd hang out when i was done eating. ehhhh...we have school tomorrow. what joy. =[

-later dudes-

<33-janelle

:: 2004 1 October :: 8.01pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: n0thing..

bafangul x 4349834548989800000

omfg. today sucked so fucking bad u cant even imagine. fuking woke up at 1:30 cuz camila went fucking psycho last night and wuldnt got to sleep cuz she saw bernise the dead lady in her room. and then like didnt even shower till fucking 4 and did shit. nothing. nada. its so gay. came home to eat dinner and my family is fucking bothering me. i didnt eat like anything and ahhh. all i wanted to do was go out tonight. anywhere. i didnt care who was there or whatver. i jus need to get out of the fucking house before i do sumthing stupid. i cant take it anymore im having a horrible day everyone is bothering me i was gunna tell "him" that thing tonight cuz hes online but i dont think i have the strength to go thru it right now. i dont know what in fucking doing tonight but there is no way in hell i am staying inside.

-fuck!-

5 _* | ...[Ryan

:: 2004 1 October :: 4.00pm
:: Mood: accomplished
:: Music: none

my other journal

heres the link for my livejournal. i dont use it much tho...

http://www.livejournal.com/~dumbblonde1137

:: 2004 1 October :: 1.55pm
:: Mood: apathetic

poem

i stole this from camila but i modified it a bit cuz it was bothering me. lol

mostly every girl i know wants a boy like this.....
Someone who would move the hair away from my eyes and than kiss me.
Someone who would let me sleep on their chest.
Someone to share lollie pops with.
Someone who would take me to the city just to walk around.
Someone who would look me in the eye and tell me something very, very serious, yet silly and tell me not to laugh.
Someone who would make me laugh like no one else could.
He would grab my waste and kiss my neck.
Sometimes at night we would put on music and dance in our pajamas.
Oh, and I�d love his bed head.
I want someone who would lay with me outside under the stars
and to talk on aim about stupid things.
Sometimes he would teach me how to play guitar, but he would always end up laughing at me.
He'd run his fingers through my hair.
He will get along with all my friends, and vice versa.
He'd love music just as much as I do, but still have that punk rock side to him.
We would make funny faces at each other when im on the phone
And we'd always take pictures in photo booths.
He'd pick up a flower for me while walking.
We�d kiss in the rain.
He'd hold me closer then normal if i was sick.
He would draw me pictures.
and when we kissed, our hips would be pressed together.

:: 2004 1 October :: 12.34am
:: Mood: gloomy
:: Music: 1985 by: bowling for soup

looks at her average life, and nothing is all right...

today was eh ok. woke up, got ready and made myself pretty lol. then jaryd and zach and everyone was bothering us to go over to boca winds so i called jaryd and started screaming at him supposedly it was so loud that zach could hear me downstairs and everyone thought it was fucking hilarious. whatever. then we went over to stefan and marcus' house. then me and camila argued, she left, and i stayed for a while. then went home ate dinner went outside and met up with nicole and niki. then we walked to nicoles house and joel and his friend doug came over to ask nicoles stepdad (whos a cop) a few questions cuz sumone keyed his car reallllly realllly badly and he was so pissed. so yeah then afterwards we all kinda hung out on her driveway talking to them. it was fun i suppose. joel sorta changed since i had last talked to him in 9th grade when i was like freakin in love with him *thumbs up* wow we were gay lol. then they left to go beat the shit outta the dude that fucked up his car and me and camila went home. then we ended up going to hang out with scott zach and max. we had to walk to his house past the lake and it was soo scary. then we get there and they arent at his house!!! so we went to find them. then we walked bak to scotts and him and max played pool. then we all left and went home. but OMFG on the way home walking by the lake a bum or hobo thing started yelling sumthin to us in like black ppl language and then started like running after us. jesus fucking christ ive never run so fast in my life. we hopped the fence so fast. i was so scared i was like hysterically crying. omg never again are we going by that lake.!! well now im sleepin over camilas again and shes being gay, but hey, what is new? lol bye

-later penguins-

<33-janelle

:: 2004 30 September :: 12.35pm
:: Mood: energetic
:: Music: ryan cabrera!!! <3

and i've lost my direction, where do i turn??

yesterday was pretty...gay. i had slept ovr camilas house and we did like nothing cuz her gay computer broke! then we woke up after 12 and made breakfast and noodles that tasted really weird. then went home and showered and did stuff on the computer. chris, jeremy, and gustavo were supposed to come over at 4 or 4:30 when nicole would already be home but they ended up coming like at 3 and grrr. yeah. we sat around in camilas house. jeremy ate food. chris was like dancing and singing to these gay rap songs and gustavo was freakin raping me. then we went outside and nicole came and we jus hung out. then me, nicole, and camila went to niki's house and her cousin tristan was there. we looked at her old loggers run yearbooks and we saw mike and tonys pictures...awwww! lol they look so innocent bak then! also saw jeremy, max and chris's 7th and 6th grade pictures...awwww!!! lol!!!!! then we walked up to wendys and ran into allie so she hung out with us. up there we saw mike (or shuld i say, mikeypoo? lmao) then walked home with jeremy allie and gustavo and camila and then the boys left, i went home and yeah. then went to alinas house and her parents called me a whackjob cuz my new shoes are funny looking. lol. hung out with alina steph and erica for awhile then went to camilas and it was boring. then went home and talked to my mommy about everything =] <33. im so glad that me and mom dont fight like everybodie else seems to do with their parents. anyways then talked to ppl online till ril late and i wrote something but im scared to show it to him. ehhhhh. ooooh and i changed my comment link thing....i think its beautiful. lol. well im out. peace.

-later losers-

<33-janelle

:: 2004 27 September :: 11.32pm
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: tv

[siiiiiiigh] power, what a wonderful thing...

OMFG. freaking hurricanes are gay. jeanne killed our power but to make us suffer, more than half of my neighborhood had power. liek only my street and camilas street was outta power. for like hmm 3 days now? well yesterday we went to scotts house and him and zach wouldnt let us in so we jus walked around and then went home. then later that day we went to marcus and stefan's house and they let us in. but their AC was like barely on..wtf?!? lol. aww their dad was like sooo nice. hehe. then we stood outside for like 2 hours in the pouring rain. twas fun. today did nothing. went to publix and drove home. yay. then laid out to get a tan and then ended up becoming sick with heat exhaustion so i sat in the cold shower lol. then me and camila went to sum gay ass ghetto dollar store where she almost squashed her brother to death..LMAO!! then we ate pizza. came home. practically melted to death. then was about to cry myself to sleep cuz it was so fucking hot and magically...the power came on!! now i only have 15 minutes left online cuz my dads being gay. grr. well i have a ideas for a journal entry i jus wil have to wait till tomorrow to write it. ok bye.

-later EVERYONE-

<33333333-janelle

:: 2004 25 September :: 2.25pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: All or Nothing by: 0-Town

is it all or are we just friends?...

grrr. i wish thes damn hurricanes would stop picking on us. im sooo damn bored. theres nothing to do. i was gunna go outside with camila, scott, and zach but it started pouring like a motherf*cker. grrr ness x 483958349584. i hate this. its only 2 and i ran out of things to do. bafangul!

i was trying realy hard to think of sumthing meaningful to write in here in order to fix sumthing, but nothing i think of seems to be enough. i really hurt him, but now this silence is killing me...

-later gators-

<3-janelle.

"never look back we said,
but how was i to know
i'd miss you so?"

:: 2004 24 September :: 2.20pm
:: Mood: bitchy
:: Music: Predictable bu good charlotte

i saw this coming still i dont know why i let you in...

blah tonight was utterly gay. went to the movies with zach and scott and met up with jeremy and chris. jeremy was bothering me and yeah. then joe showed up and so did annavictoria! thank the lord! <3. so we hung out the whole time. it was pretty damn boring there was like no one there. saw owen there and lisa. and we went to mcdonalds and we saw lucy. then my dad came and piked me scott and zach up then i went home and did nothing. blah. stuipd hurricane is coming so now i cant go to the mall tomorrow with chris and whoever else was going. bafangul. well im gunna go get sum sleep for tomorrow when we must endure the wrath of jeanne. =[

-later lovers-

<3-janelle

:: 2004 23 September :: 6.56pm
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: Breakaway by: Kelly Clarkson

if i had one wish and 10 seconds to think of what it should be, i'd know exactly what i want....

1/2 DAY hoes!!!

school was a waste of time lol. got my progress report, all B's and one fucking A. that sucks huge penis. its absolutely unacceptable. ive never done that bad before. gahhhhh!! and then in 6th hour sean wrote "janelle is a slut" all over it so grrr. lol. after school were we supposed to walk with chris and jeremy and gustavo but they left us so we talked to damien then walked home. then we walked up to wendys and there were enuff middle schoolers there to like take over the whole fucking world. lol. then lucy and bryan duggen with two g's showed up. blah he bugs me. then we walked to the new park and there were EVEN MORE middle schoolers. there was like this big ass group of them like fighting so the cops showed up and everyone ran. cept us cuz we didnt do anything. so they skated teh 5-stair untilt he cops told us to leave. sum nice lady at the picnic table told us to sit with her and say we were with her so that when the cops left we culd stay. she was super cool. lol. we like talked to her for 30 minutes. then mike came and then they all skated for and incredibly long period of time. then we went bak to wendys, well only me, camila, nicole, chris, jeremy and galarko!!! lol. i forgot bout him. eek. lol. then they ate and shit and skated sum more...saw mike (wow he got really hot since the last time i spoke to him) then we walked to nicoles house and i had to go home. bafangul!! my shoulders and back and neck are in like 100% pain right now cuz i had to carry chris fucking backpack like evrywhere cuz he "injured" his shoulder. dude u so owe me, even if my shuolders dont fall off by tomorrow!!!! lol. but yeah i have no hw and this is like the 1st time since school started. im soooo happy. but im gunna go register to win a concert by RYAN CABRERA at our school. damn if i dont win i think im gunna fucking die....

-later people-

<33-janelle

--ouch! i got really sunburned today. damn florida and its sun and hurricanes!!

--ooh and one more thing minus all the "personal" stuff.....im still quite upset about what happened and i just wish max would talk to me...=[

5 _* | ...[Ryan

:: 2004 21 September :: 10.04pm
:: Mood: hopeful
:: Music: Ordinary by: Vanessa Carlton

just a boy, just an ordinary boy, but he was looking towards the sky...

AHHHHHHH!!!! Fuck!! . i swore i would never update this bitch again but i cant help myself. im like seriously addicted to writing the retarded everyday things that happen to me. well ive decided to keep my journal jus im not writing anything personal in it. ohkay? now everyone should be happy and thats all i want. =]

so anyways....saturday me and camila went to the mall. it was gay we met up with kristin and allison but left them when they wanted to go to abercrombie and fitch. lol. then we ended up being there till like 8 cuz camilas family bought new cell phones. OMFG i thought the world was coming to and end. we saw a man wearing a skirt and he was very very hairy. lol. eww. then we went out to dinner at smokey bones,,, it was ok but we didnt see peter working there *tear* but i did go over to target and saw andrew!! <3 aw i miss him and all my olympic friends. then went to blockbuster and saw eric medina and sean o'dell. then went to camilas and watched "Godsend" fucking scary ass movie. i hated it. then slept over. suday went to suzie and carlos' for dinner. it wasnt bad. they are soo nice i love them. but yeah. monday school sucked big penis. tuesday school sucked even bigger penis. thursday we have a half day. if sumone doesnt make plans im gunna get a ride to olympic to chill with all my sexy lovers!! <33. bafangul! i miss them. so yeah. im gunna go. nothing more to say.

-later niggers-

<33-janelle

:: 2004 19 September :: 9.03pm
:: Mood: incredibly upset
:: Music: adhajkfhsdkfjh

once again, my words screw me over...

I AM SUCH A FUCKING IDIOT.

im done with this online journal shit.

5 _* | ...[Ryan

:: 2004 17 September :: 11.40pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: illusions by: Ryan Cabrera <33

if all of the things you thought you would be pass you by....

tonight went to football game. it was kickass awesome. ive never had more fun before. everybody who was anybody was there. we all hung out on top of the bleachers screaming our lungsout, then we watched the band warm up. then they all tried to skate and then we all jus kinda hung out. it was me, camila, kelsey, olivia (they are such cool ppl. espec. kelsey cuz like she rocks and carol and katie etc. dont like her eitehr!! lol), scott, gustavo, chris, jeremy, kevin, sean, anthony, juliano, lucy, martin, nick, jd, allie, valerie, omg and i saw kelsey muldoon!! <33 and yeah more ppl that dont really matter lol. it was soo freakin hot outside. omg and martin helped me learn how to drop in off a curb. it was sooo wicked!! lol then took scott and gustavo home. now im here, tired, sore, and smelly. hehehe. buhbye.

-peace foo-

~****oh yeah, and i forgot, that when the band played, i stayed and watched the ENTIRE FUCKING THING. even when everyone else left me. i stayed and i watched. not becuz i had to, but becuz i wanted to.... but w/e no one really cares. so later. =]

1 _* | ...[Ryan

:: 2004 16 September :: 11.55am
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: Fly by hilary duff

forget about the reason why....

last night wasnt as bad as i thought it was gunna be. didnt end up going out anywhere since theres really no where to go. so daddy had to make dinner so he was gunna get subway but i didnt want that so he siad i could get wendys if i walked over there from subway. i didnt want to so i threw a hissy fit until he took me thru the drivethru. lol im such a brat =] i saw nicole and nikki up there. came home and went online and stuff. then talked on the phone with gustavo and chris. crazy kids. lol. and then with hillary. then i slept over camilas house and i talked to ppl online and andrew tried to help me with my bf problem. lol thanks. then we went to sleep early cuz there was nothing to watch on tv. woke up an hour ago and camila is still sleeping so i ate her food. lol. dunno what im doing today since its that rosh hasahanah thingy. chris mite come over hur today. mayb nicole and nikki too. but yes. im gunna go slap camila repeatedly till she awakens.

-later chicos-

<3-janelle

:: 2004 15 September :: 9.07pm
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: Ryan Cabrera

survey foos

Three things that scare me:
1: spiders
2: public speaking
3: blood
Three people who make me laugh:
1: camila
2: chris & gustavo
3: pretty much everyone
Three Things I love:
1: my friends
2: playing in the rain
3: getting note from people
Three Things I hate:
1: preps
2: g-units
3: ap english class
Three things I don't understand:
1: who created the alphabet
2: how ppl cant believe in God
3: falling in love
Three things on my desk:
1: stapler
2: coke
3: ryan cabrera cd <3
Three things I'm doing right now:
1: taking this survey thingy
2: talking to chris online
3: being bored
Three things I want to do before I die:
1: meet ryan cabrera
2: get married to the above^^
3: have lil cabrera babies lol
Three things I can do:
1: speak english
2: be retarded
3: type
Three ways to describe my personality:
1: i dunno
2: people (esp. dudes) always tell
3: me that it rocks. whatever that means. lol
Three things I can't do:
1: dance (hips are broken) lol
2: sing
3: skateboard

[x] Part 1 -- The Basics [x]

What's your name? ::: janelle
Birthplace ::: wisconsin foo!
Age ::: 16
Age you act ::: 6
Current location ::: in a house in gay florida
Eye color ::: they change color..like a lizard!
Hair color ::: blonde with black highlights
Right, lefty or ambidextrous? ::: righty
Zodiac sign? ::: aries
Height? ::: 5'6"

[x] Part 2 -- Describe... [x]

Your heritage/nationality ::: american? mayb a lil german
Your hair ::: meduim length, straight, blonde
Your fears ::: spiders, public speaking
Your perfect room ::: black with white glow in the dark stars EVERYWHERE!
What you practically do in a day ::: go to school, do hw, sleep, repeat

[x] Part 3 -- What is/are... [x]

Words you overuse ::: fuck!
Phrases you overuse ::: wow im retarded, and what the fuck
Your first thought when you wake up ::: wtf! how can it be 5:30 already?!?
Your greatest accomplishment ::: 4.0 in 10th grade
Something you want to do ::: go to italy and met a cute italian boy hehe

[x] Part 4 -- This or that [x]

Pepsi or Coke ::: Coke
McDonald's or Burger Kings ::: mc donalds
Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera ::: spears
Chocolate or vanilla ::: vanilla hoe!
Adidas or Nike ::: adidas
Black or white ::: black
Bills or Coins ((Think $$$)) ::: bills
Burgers or hot dogs ::: hot dogs
Egypt or France ::: france
Rock or rap ::: Rock

[x] Part 5 -- Do you...[x]

Smoke ::: nope
Cuss ::: all the time
Sing well ::: yeah riiiight
Sing in the shower ::: si
Talk to yourself --a lot-- ::: yeah, ppl have told me i shuld seek professional help..
Believe in yourself ::: at times
Like taking these longass surveys? ::: yes actually
Play an instrument ::: no way
Want to go to college? ::: of course
Want to get married? ::: yeah
Want to have children? ::: yes like 1 or 2
Think you're a health freak? ::: nooope
Get along with your parents ::: yeahh
Get along with your siblings? ::: not often but occasionally
Think you're popular ::: ha no and i dont want to be. ima fucking rebel! lol

[x] Part 6 -- In the past month have you..[x]

Gone out of state ::: noo
Drank alchohal ::: yes but shhh....
Smoke ::: nope
Get high ::: uh no
Done any drugs ::: no for the 3rd time
Eaten an entire box of oreos ::: ew gross oreos=ew
Been on stage ::: not in front of like an audience
Gone skinny dipping ::: no way jose!
Been dumped ::: yepp
Dyed your hair ::: constantly
Stolen anything ::: ha yeah...

[x] Part 7 -- Your friends! =D [x]

Craziest ::: juliano and dana
Loudest ::: scott when he screams
Most shy ::: chris cuz he never speaks!
Blondest ::: ha me?
Smartest ::: janis/sarah
Kindest ::: janis/angela
Best personality ::: i dont know
Most talented ::: none? lol
Best singer ::: def. not camila
Most ghetto ::: chris or max with their gay "No problems" shit lol
Drama Queen ((or King XP)) ::: camila lol
Pain in the ass ::: camila =]
The one you just want to strangle to death ((Homer Simpson style))::: gustavo lol jk
Funniest ::: aanonthony!!! lol
Best person for advice ::: my mom cuz my friends suck cock when it comes to advice
Dependable ::: most of them
Trustworthy ::: hillary
Druggie ::: danny lol
Most likely to end up in jail ::: either juliano, alex or scott
Person you've known the longest ::: hillary and mike

[x] Part 8 -- The Last... [x]

Last dream ::: i dont usually dream
Last nightmare ::: dont know
Car ride ::: today to get dinner
Last time you cried ::: almost today, but it was sunday nite i believe that i actually cried
Last movie seen ::: anacondas
Last movie rented ::: cant remember
Last book read ::: scarlett letter
Last word said ::: hi mommy
Last curse word said ::: ass
Last time you laugh ::: jus now
Last phone call ::: 10 minutes ago from camila
Last CD played ::: ryan carbera biotch!
Last song you listened to ::: Shame on Me by Ryan Cabrera
Last annoyance ::: my bladder..i haveta pee but i dun wanna get up
Last IM ::: chris and gustavo
Last weird encounter ::: yesterday when RJ randomly said he loves me..wtf? lol i thought it was funny
Last person you hugged ::: jaryd
Last person you yelled at ::: either camila or jd
Last time you wore a skirt :::yesterday
Last time you've been evil ::: today
Sarcastic? ::: today
Last time you fought with your parents ::: today
Last time you wished upon a star ::: a few nights ago
Played Truth or Dare ::: that nite with max, chris, jeremy, and camila
Spent quality time alone ::: right now

[x] Part 9! -- Randomness [x]

Are you talking to someone on AIM ::: yes
Do you feel lonely ::: kinda
Ever TP'd someone's house ::: nope
How about egging someone's house ::: no
Do you not like dislike not like me? ::: WHAT ARE U SAYING KID?
Ain't Eminem and 50 Cent just fine? ::: no they suck hairy whale penis
Yo Momma ::: is ugly
Ever been so hungry you felt like you could eat the person next to you? ::: omg yea lol
What do you think of George Bush? ::: he rocks my socks
Any secret fetishes? ::: I absolutely LOVE skater dudes
Do you like to wear chains? O_o ::: not at all
How many languages do you speak? ::: uno

[x}--More Surveyness--[x]

_+ full name: janelle leigh ?
_+ first crush: rocky
_+ what were u doing 15 mins ago: talking to ppl online and listening to sum gay rap song chris sent me
_+ what are u wearing now: bball pants and a shirt that doesnt match lol
_+ Do have a Cell phone?: yes sir
_+ u shy or outgoing: both
_+ sleep with stuffed animals: uh noo
_+ what do you want from a partner?: to treat me with respect and love me
_+ feature you notice first: personality and if they skate lol
_+ looks/personality: a little bit of both
_+ tan or fair: tan
_+ like flirting?: hell yeah
_+ would you ever date a friend: yep i always do

[x]-- Relationships --[x]

_+ do u have a LIKER?: well a few ppl like me and i like one person
_+ what is their name?: max..
_+ what is ur favorite thing to do with that special sumone: hold hands and sctually be together
_+ ever been in love?: not really
_+ Best friend: huh?

[x]- FAVORITES --[x]

_+ color: black and pink
_+ silver or gold: silver
_+ diamonds or pearls: diamonds
_+ showers or baths: shower
_+ food: chicken fingers
_+ current song: Predictable by good charlotte
_+ holidays: Christmas, my birthday
_+ animal: llamas and monkies
_+ drink: dr. pepper
_+ perfume: ralph lauren
_+ cologne: axe
_+ activity: hanging out at the movies or wathcing the boys skate
_+ fruit: strawberrries
_+ do you like to dance: yeahhh but i suck at it!

[x]- LAST TIME I - -[x]

_+ showered: this morning
_+ went runnin: dont know
_+ went to a movie: sunday night
_+ wished u were sumbody else: all the fucking time
_+ were depressed: today foo

[x]-- RANDOM - -[x]

_+ where would you love to travel to?: italy
_+ whats ur aim screen name: i have lots...
_+what do u want to do with your life?: go to college, get a good job, makes tons of money, and have a family
_+ last time you went to the doctor: in july when one of my piercings got majorly infected. Ouch that hurt!
_+ do u have a credit card: nope
_+ do u consider urself a "nice person" ?: yes.. generally.
_+ are u stressed out?: all the time
_+ do u believe in angels?: yeah
_+ do u think ur spoiled?: totally
_+ do u like mustard?: eww no
_+ have u seen the exorcist?: nope and i dont plan on it either

[x]-- DO YOU --[x]

_+ read the newspaper: only when i have english hw
_+ believe in miracles: yes
_+ like the taste of alcohol: some of them
_+ have any secrets: yes
_+ wish on stars: yes constantly...however, none of my wishes come true. hmph.
_+ believe in ghosts: nope
_+ take walks in the rain: all the time..who needs an umbrella?
_+ sing in the shower: haha yuppers

[x]-- i.. --[x]

_+ i am: upset
_+ i think: im fucking retarded
_+ i know: more than i should about someone...
_+ i have: to pee really really badly
_+ i wish: everything would go bak to the way it was a few weeks ago
_+ i hate: myself
_+ i miss: the old days
_+ i fear: what might happen within a few days
_+ i feel: sad and nervous
_+ i hear: ryan cabrera's beautiful voice singing
_+ i wonder: why i think about things to much
_+ i regret: that one journal entry...
_+ i love: hillary, mike, camila, kyrie, dilan, jack, mara, nikki, nicole, max, chris, jeremy, scott, gustavo, martin, nick, alex, juliano, johnny, jeremy gale, zach, amanda, lisa, janis, angela, sarah, desiree, kelsea, dana, grace, diana, scott alarcon, aanonthony, daniel, john, allie, kristin, derrick, jaryd, rj, danny, joe, russel, luciano, seth, the piercing kid lol, chris (wendy), gia, frank, matt, josh, jd,RYAN CABRERA, and all my other lovely amigos.
_+ i care: about my family
_+ i am not: in a good mood
_+ i cry: wayy too much
_+ i do not: have good luck with boyfriends...i always fuck everything up
_+ i never: smoke
_+ i confuse: me and everyone else

:: 2004 15 September :: 4.04pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: shadow by ashlee simpson

i can finally see...dont feel sorry for me...

today sucked pretty much. english we were bombarded with work and took a test (super easy) and i was gunna present my political cartoon cuz i actually understood it but we didnt do presentations today...grrrr. then went to spansih and had to do our conversation presentations. i was scared shitless as usual. but didnt do too bad. i got an A. me and fernando realized we have 3 classes together. hes a cool dude. lunch gustavo and camila fought like usual and he sat on my head. lol. history we read the delcaration of independence..whoooa. lol. then algebra we took a test and learned sum new stuff, this girl in my class was soooo stoned sum ppl thought she mite be dead. lmao. silly stoners. =] after school talked to sum ppl. kelsey has the same sandals as me. lol then walked home with jd, marcus, and steven. we talked about sex of course. i always seem to have very amusing questions. lol. i learned alotttt. lol some things i didnt need to know tho... haha well now im trying to figure out what to do tonight. movies? mall? they both are getting so old. and none of my super cool jewish friends can hang out cuz of rosh hashanah (sp?). so yeah. im out.

-later hoes-

ps- you know what REALLY bothers me? ...
....
...
hypocrites.

i hate how people can go on and on complaining about sumone either doing or not doing something and then they go and do or not do the same fucking thing. this "incident" happened to me today before 2nd period. its sooo gay i wish i had said sumthin right then and there. ghsdgasdjkdf

:: 2004 14 September :: 7.00pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: my dad cursing at sumthing

$%^HH**^^@@(*)(!!!

A "Profile-worthy" convo between me and my dear friend gustavo...

ihateuall34: would u swallow ryan cabrera's cum?
mrs cabrera 69: in a heartbeat

lmao. im such a loser =]

:: 2004 14 September :: 6.45pm
:: Mood: confused/sick
:: Music: Fly by: Hilary duff

in a moment, everything can change...

today was the first day back to school after our long hurricane break. it was nice sorta. didnt do anything in env. science. we never do anything. omg i seriously think that ms.dice, my ap english teacher, is freakin inhumane. we did 60 vocab cards and got 3 hw assignments in 50 minutes. in psych we watched a 9/11 tribute. it was really sad. i wanted to cry. lol. then did our group projects in spanish and im in a group with this chick and this dude fernando. hes cool. they both speak spanish so i feel like a total idiot, but what else is new? lunch was usual except that gustavo came up behind me and scared the crap outta me and i thought the world had come to an end. lol. ap historty was ok. no test =] . alg was gay. no test either its tomorrow. and chemistry was soo boring. dana was absent and i kept falling asleep. lol. after school i wanted to talk to max and stuff until he had band but he never came outta the band room...hmmm. whatever. so me and camila walked home with derrick, steven, and stevens brother. stevens brother was a sweetheart. he carried my heavy algebra book all the way home (alllll of us live in the same neighborhood and we never knew that lol). then camila and derrick left us so i had to walk home with them. then did sum hw. for sum reason i havent been feeling good lately. i keep getting this horrible nervous feeling in my stomach and not being able to sleep or concentrate on anything. im pretty sure i know why, and i want to figure out what to do about this "problem" but im jus sooo darn confused. ahhhh. well im gunna go do more hw.

-later dudes-

<3-janelle

--omg! i think this is the first time i have not swore once in a journal entry. Go Me!! lol

:: 2004 13 September :: 7.02pm
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: predictable by GC

something isnt right, i can feel it again...

dang. i had a wonderful nite last nite. ha! yeah right. well me, kristin, and camila made last minute plans to go to the movies. everyone was going. max went. not with us tho. we ran into him there with kat his "girlfriend" cuz shes not technically his ex cuz they didnt "break up" wtf. ahhh. yes but im not getting into that all yet. anyways...everyone went to see a movie, cept us so it was kinda boring till the movies got out. jeremy, alex, juli, katie, lauren, leanne, nick, martin, eric, scott, patrice, and sum others i cant remember were there. we went to mc donalds and i saw ANGELICA!!!!! ahhh i havent seen her since she moved. <33. then we went to talk to max...ehhh. that had to have been the most awkward thing ever. but whatever. then came home and heard sum stuff. sum really fucked up shit. wow. i know more than im supposed to but im damn glad i do. who the fuck does that to sumone. like seriously? i dont even know what to do. i cant ask my mom (my best friend lol) cuz i kno she'll jus tell me to tell him to fuck off. but i dont want to. but i should. ahhhhh. whatever.

-later losers-

:: 2004 12 September :: 5.17pm
:: Mood: lonely
:: Music: Predictable by: good charlotte

so take your words and your empty promises....im done with this...

yesterday was not a complete waste of a day. me and camila went to the mall at like 5:30. we walked around by ourselfs for a while and bought sandals at pac sun. then we ran into frank and matt and they made us pull this shock thing. owww it hurted. lol. then we left them and ended up meeting up with them again and they hung out with us. we met krisitn and her friend chelsea there. then we al hung out and we had sum japanese man pull the gum shock thing and it hurt/scared him so he threw it, broke it and was gunna keep it. frank wanted to like beat him up lol. then we sat int he food court and gustavo showed up and i kept having to test the shocker thing to see if it wuld work and the last time it hurt like a motherf*cker.....ahhh. then we took pics on their camera phones and frank and matt left and we went and ate dinner at fridays. then went home and chilled with gustavo till he left. then jeremy and scott came over at like 11:45 and we sat on the driveway and jeremy took camila around the block on his dirt bike. then we went int he back yard cuz of the mosquitoes. camila jumped in the pool. no one else did. lol then we jus talked and stuff and stated everyones problem. everyone said mine was that im stupid. lol. what else is new? but jeremy said its not necessarily a bad thing. cuz it makes him laugh. lol. then we looked at the stars and planned out a road trip to new york, georgia, and pennsyalvania. lol. cant wait. they left around 2 am and we didnt go to sleep till 4. woke at at 1 and the 3 of us did nothing alll day. now everyone wants to go to the movies....grrr to all of u. but i g2g shower and eat dinner..

-later babes-

OMFG i almost forgot, when we were waiting outside of fridays for camilas mom to pick us up, i saw a fish on the wall and we spent 20 minutes throwing things up at it trying to get it down. all the employees at fridays came out and were watching and sum family stopped to help us. lol. then we got it down and it turned out to be one of those rubber things that fishermen use to catch fish. LMAO. it looked soooo real tho....