*The true nature of a man is decided in the battle between his conscious mind and the desires of his subconscious. The only way to win is to deny the battle.*

 

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:: 2004 29 August :: 8.05 pm

today was interesting.. like.. i was at work.. and some lady came walking in and was like "hey, theres a tornado comeing.. did you hear it on the radio..".. and im like "umm.. nope.."..she was like "its heading this way in 15 mins.. does this place have a basement!!! OMG!.".. and im like "uhhh... nope......"...and she was like "then we should have everyone hide under the seats in the theaters".. and im like "umm.. i dont think anyone could fit under them.. really.. i wouldnt worry about it. whatever.".. and she was like "well its coming!!! i heard it!.. look the winds picking up!!" and the wind was just normal and gentle...people were getting out of there movies and she was like "people.. there is a tornado comeing.. for your own safety stay inside!!".. and im like "seriously.. we are in CONCORD.. i wouldnt worry about it.. look at all the trees and hills.... "... and finally after calling all of her family on her cell to warn them and watchign a movie, she left... stupid bitch.. as she was there a huge rain cloud came in.. it was like HUGE.. lol.. and it startign raining and lightnign was striking (this was while she was in her movie).. and it was crazy.. and then when i was gettign tickets a bolt of lightning struck right outside in the parking lot and fried all of the phones.. it was actually quite funny.. the phones just kept ringing and ringing. and at first i didnt realize it wsa becuase they were busted.. soo id pick it up, no answer, then it woudl start ringing again.. lol.. and finally after pickign the phone up like 5 times i was like "fuck it....".. lol.. we almost lost power twice.. oh yeah i forgot, when tornado lady was talkign to me, my coworker pulled in with his subs on.. and she like freaked out and thought it was the tornado.. lol.. stupid lady....

adam and sarah came to my work today.. it was nice to see them... i let them in free becuase im a nice guy.. lol..

my labtop should be here on like wednesday.. thats what im guessing...

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:: 2004 25 August :: 11.33 pm

today was pretty good.. i jsut sat and read my HTML/ XHTML/ XML book.. im almost done that by the way.. im debating on getting to javascript one or flash mx one next.. but anyways.. yeah i read all day, becuase work was really slow.. it was jsut me and cara all day.. it was funny though becuase last night i guess hse got bit in the eye by a spider or somethign becuase her eye was a puffed up today.. lol.. i was like "arrr-guh!! hey i can be a pirate too!". its funny getting her pissed off.. lol.. anyways.. soo today was an ok day of work since i brought a book.. i should bring a book mroe often..

i guess MV started school today.. thats cool.. my brothers first day of highschool.. wonder how close he got to getting the shit kicked out of him.. lol.. nah.. im sure he can take care of himself.. anyways..

oh yeah.. and wheres lauren anyways.. hmmm.. :(..

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:: 2004 22 August :: 5.42 pm

yesterday wasnt very fun.. im not over exaggeratting but i got this migrane at work about half way trhough the 12 hour shift.. and by the time i shut up the doors i felt like i was goign to puke.... ut atleast it wasnt as bad when Leah showed up.. i was just getting some guy popcorn and then in the corner of my eye i saw someone secretly glancing at me from the line for tickets outside through the glass.. lol.. it was her.. i waved and smiled.. and of coarse i had instant butterflies and got all nervous.. she was with her sis and mom.. i could tell since her sister looked EXACTLY like her except alittle taller and slightly darker hair. and they got their tickets and came in and got in line for food at the other register (not mine). and the whole time Leah was whispering stuff to me and i was suppossed to rad what she was saying.. but of course i was helping a customer while she was doign it and so i messed up liek five times.. shes so cute :)... before yesterday i didnt realize that i acutally do miss her.. *sigh*..

and today i ordered my laptop!. soo excited.. like. i cant wait until it comes. lol.. its a dell and it came with a free printer and wireless card.. its faster then this computer.. thats for sure.. lol

.:: From Behind My Eyes::.


:: 2004 21 August :: 2.30 am

DisorderRating
Paranoid:Low
Schizoid:Low
Schizotypal:Low
Antisocial:Low
Borderline:Low
Histrionic:High
Narcissistic:Moderate
Avoidant:Low
Dependent:Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive:Moderate

-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --



HIGH for histo-whatever.. blah.. it makes perfect sence... im always strivign for attention.. which is probly the second reason i even did this quiz.. .. i like attention alot.. it jsut means id be a good exhibitionist, thats all.. *laughs really loud and stops to think and daydream*....


all of a sudden i have the feelign that people are goign to dislike me becuase i have HIGH for histropethia (or somethign like that).. hmmm.. well, hmm.. im not sure the quiz is correct.. i meen, i like attention and stuff, but they say i shoudl be extremely self centered and stuff.. and like lie about being sick for pity.. and i really dont do that stuff. when i got my wisdom teeth out and i was writing shit n here.. i actually said "i feel great".. lol. soo whatever.. maybe i actually have HIGH paranoia which caused me to do the test wrong.. haha.. lol.. luv you guys

.:: From Behind My Eyes::.


:: 2004 21 August :: 2.01 am

yeah so i went to work.. fun stuff (not really). lol... it seemed like everyone was in a good mood though atleast.. and i was out in box soo i didnt have to bother doign anythgin except getting tickets.. though that seemed to feel really hectic, becuase people kept using credit cards and causing the line to get really big. and then people instead of lining up on the sidewalk were lining up out into parking lot.. soo cars couldnt get in.. some people are dumb.. travis had to go out and be like "hey! everyoen move!. cant you see the three cars trying to get in.. move onto the sidewalk....".. lol.. it was funny around like 11:15.. like i had counted all the money and stuff and we were closed up for selling more tickets.. and a guy and a couple of is friends walk up and are like "hey, whats starting soon?".. and im like "everythign started atleast 30 mins ago....".. and he was like "do you guys have alien vrs predator?".. and im like "thats the other theater down the street".. and he was like "shit, why in the hell did i come here.. this theater fuckin SUCKS".. and for some reason i took offense to it and i was like "UMM.. NO, YOU SUCK" right into the microphone.. it was true though.. he was the idiot who went to the 100% wrong theater and was extremely late for any movies and was like being an ass about it.. jerk.. anyways..he didnt do anything. jsut walked off... i swear sometimes at work i get like a male's version of PMS. lol..

my mom told me as soon as i pic out the notebook i need we shoudl order it.. and i have.. its a Dell.. its sooo great.. im kinda mad that my car money is going to be takign a big blow.. but oh well.. its nto like im going to be buying a notebook every year right.. lol.. plus the next few paychecks from work are goign to be extra big (after this next one i should say, which is going to be puny)..

oh yeah.. and tommorrow im working 11:30 to 12... *cries*.. lol.. but that means money *leaps for joy*.. hehe.. and yeah.. thats not a half an hour shift.. its a 12 and a half hour one.. YAY for money...

.:: From Behind My Eyes::.


:: 2004 20 August :: 3.07 pm

hey can someone leave me a comment and tell me if you can see a background picture of creepy purple forest stuff... thanks

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:: 2004 20 August :: 2.26 pm

there.. i think that the background pictures and stuff make my journal loo more thought out.. but it runs a tiny bit sluggish now.. and now to add to the sluggishness!!!!




ITS MA BABE! isnt she cute :)... ive visited her a few times at Concord MotorSport.. they should know me by name buy the time i buy her.. lol..before i was like "i only want a dark blue one".. but now im obbsessed with the balck ones.. hehe. lol.




heres another cute angle.. look at the curves *wink wink*..


anyways.. now that my site proby takes wice as long to load.. im going to get going.. lol.. cya

.:: From Behind My Eyes::.


:: 2004 19 August :: 10.20 pm




i want an asian koi type pisces tatoo with a bunch of big flowers. the asian style and tatoos are jsut soo sweet.. i luv it.. id probly get another one on my lower left back.. soo it would be like the pisces symbol.

but im not goign to be able to get one for a while.. shitty.. like.. im savign up for a BMW. and soon im goign to be takign money from that to buy a labtop.. soo.. better not spend a bunch of money on a tattoo.. and i know what people probly think to.. "your not really not doing it becuase of the money.. your jsut a pussy..".. well fuck you. lol.. i have to have my blood taken and shit all the time and am always being poked with needles... it doesnt matter..

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:: 2004 19 August :: 8.30 pm

today was pretty sweet.. i hung out with ashly, jeremy, and erich.. lol.. it was kinda random.. first i went and picked up ashly and then we went to jeremys and he was sleeping still.. soo she was like "hey!. wake up!". lol.. and he did.. obviously.. and then we hung otu there with joey and meaghan a while.. and then we went to erichs house (all the way in loudon [where i live]) and watched a couple episodes of AquaTeen Hunger Force.. then me and erich were like "we need to go get soem angus".. and of course jeremy thougt we were secretly talkign abotu drugs the whoel time.. but we really were talking about the angus burger at Burger King.. lol.. soo we went all the way to pitsfeild to get gas then all the way to concord.. adn then when we got there... Wilson and Jess were there. weird how Wilson is way up at the top of employment at McDonalds.. but he eats at Burger King.. lol.. then after a while.. and talkign abotu good times after graduation (me,wilson, seth and wilson's dad doing the yeah..) erich left to go to work.. and me and ashly and jeremy went back to jeremys house.. and hung out.. and then i dropped ashly off.. and that was my da.. now im here talking to lauren and ashly, mostly lauren, you guys are so great.. thanks.. lol.

.:: From Behind My Eyes::.


:: 2004 19 August :: 8.22 pm

today was pretty sweet.. i hung out with ashly, jeremy, and erich.. lol.. it was kinda random.. first i went and picked up ashly and then we went to jeremys and he was sleeping still.. soo she was like "hey!. wake up!". lol.. and he did.. obviously.. and then we hung otu there with joey and meaghan a while.. and then we went to erichs house (all the way in loudon [where i live]) and watched a couple episodes of AquaTeen Hunger Force.. then me and erich were like "we need to go get soem angus".. and of course jeremy thougt we were secretly talkign abotu drugs the whoel time.. but we really were talking about the angus burger at Burger King.. lol.. soo we went all the way to pitsfeild to get gas then all the way to concord.. adn then when we got there... Wilson and Jess were there. weird how Wilson is way up at the top of employment at McDonalds.. but he eats at Burger King.. lol.. then after a while.. and talkign abotu good times after graduation (me,wilson, seth and wilson's dad doing the yeah..) erich left to go to work.. and me and ashly and jeremy went back to jeremys house.. and hung out.. and then i dropped ashly off.. and that was my da.. now im here talking to lauren and ashly, mostly lauren, you guys are so great.. thanks.. lol.

.:: From Behind My Eyes::.


:: 2004 18 August :: 11.30 pm

today was a pretty sweet day at work...just me and cara.. caras wicked funny.. been friends since 1st grade.. lol.. we got 10 quarters out of one of the arcade machines using some scissors... haha.. shes nice.. but shes wicked meen to customers.. its wicked funny.. some lady a few days ago came up to me and was like "ya know... everyone who works here is soooooo nice, except for that blonde girl *points at cara*".. and i jsut laughed my ass off....

corey got us pizza today.. hes always getting us pizza and stuff.. hes wicked awsoume..

theres this claw machine at work.. and cara put fuckin $20 bucks in it a few days ago.. and corey has put atleast 30 or 40 in it..seriously.. liek everyday i work with either of the they put atleast 5 bucks in it.. and i jsut stand and watch...

ive been thinking abotu gettign dreads.. now that my hair is somewhat long enough.. i guess chris and randy got tattoos today (yeah i read your journal, i get bored ok?).. its kinda funny since i was just thinking all of today what i want to get for a tattoo... but i think im getting the dreads first.. i want the tatoo to be something involving roses..but NO skulls and snakes...

.:: From Behind My Eyes::.


:: 2004 17 August :: 11.38 pm

Today was ok.. i havent updated in a while.. im gouign to be buying a labtop soon.. YAY's!. haha.. hopefully a dell.. i like them.. lol.. i finally fixde my xanga soo it doesnt look liek shit anymore... now i have to fix my woohu one.. hehe.. i was dumb when i was making it and in my sleepiness set the background as a picture i had stored on my coomp.. instead of online.. soo all i got to do is find that pic online.. and everythings good..soo yeah...

i luv you guys!

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