:: 2003 16 November :: 2.13 pm

GAH!... that pisses me off to.. they not only put on AOL GUARDIAN.. but they also found about how i secretly stole their password and changed my parental controls to mature.. now their back at "teen".. and i cant get on my FTJ account... thats wicked fuckin gay.. stupid aol.. i guess ill have to go find a crack or maybe another password decoder to get their password again.. blah... oh well..

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:: 2003 16 November :: 10.57 am
:: Mood: violated

AOL SHOULD JUST DIE!!!!
Sooo MOM... you got AOL GUARDIAN... and your looking at all the websites i go to.. well this is my journal and your fuckin reading it...you shoudl be ashamed...... what kind of parenting is that... reading your sons journal.... im pissed.... but not just at you, i left some really nasty hate letters at the AOL website saying i was goign to sue for invasion of privacy... lets see what AOL thinks about that... ive always hated you AOL...

im just hoping AOL GUADIAN only emails you the main sites i go to.. soo atleast i can go to my FTJ account...but i doubt it...

.:: From Behind My Eyes::.

:: 2003 15 November :: 8.44 pm
:: Mood: nothing.. blank
:: Music: switchfoot- meant to live

.:: From Behind My Eyes::.

:: 2003 15 November :: 10.07 am

You're a Non-box.


What box do you get put in?
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im procrastinating on cleaning my room, i think im going to go do it now....

.:: From Behind My Eyes::.

:: 2003 15 November :: 12.35 am
:: Mood: tired

::yawns::
wow, im really tired.. but i felt like updating my journal alittle before i went to bed... lol... i discovered (well i really didnt discover it) this wicked funny show... ive been missing Jackass and now theres Wild Boyz... its got Steve-O and party boy in it and its like the funniest show ever.. maybe even more funny then jackass..lol... like its not the same funny... they go around to different countries and do fucked up shit with the wildlife and kinda turn it into a tiny educational documentary on the different species...lol.. like... OMG! Steve-O fuckin had a dead bass lay its eggs in his mouth and got a male bass to do its thing in his mouth to fertilize them.... that was sooooo gross, but i found it very funny... lol... Johnny Knoxville wasnt part of the show but he made a couple little visits into different scenes... it was hilarious...lmao.omg.. i will never forget the fact that Steve-O had a live minnow shoved half way up his ass and it was just like flapping around... anyways

im really tired, and when im tired i say fucked up shit.. sooo that last paragraph was only proof on how tired i really am...

.:: From Behind My Eyes::.

:: 2003 14 November :: 4.40 pm
:: Mood: happy

J. Swift = Fucked up in the head
Yeah, my FTJ account was accepted.. theres onyl one pic on it at the moment (and its alittle suggestive, just thought id warn people).. the account name is LittleGhost.. the pic looks kinda cruddy quality, if i had realized that they were going to shrink it down so much i would have just cut it down to get it under 100K instead of saving it as really low quality... lol..

today was a good day, english and chem went by easy... OMG!! last night i had to read the most fucked up story for english ever.. it was a proposal by jonathin swift, he proposed that to get rid of the large population of extremely poor women (and their many children) in dublin that 1/4th of all the male babies born should be sold at the age of 1 year to be served as a new kind of dish on the market... cooked babies would be served in every house and would possibly rival pork... this guy must have been fucked up in his head... it would work but who in the hell would do that.. the money for the babies would go to the mothers and would be enough money for until she had another child the next year, thus getting rid of some poverty and the population of poor people..he got into alot more detail then me... if Swift was actually serious about that, i hope he burned in hell.... that is FUCKIN GROSS.. but it was interesting reading for once..lol..

.:: From Behind My Eyes::.

:: 2003 14 November :: 1.59 pm
:: Mood: Bored

Morpheus


?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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i was actually able to find a free computer and get rid of some of this boredom.. yeah that sounds like me i think... good survey..lol...

.:: From Behind My Eyes::.

:: 2003 13 November :: 5.36 pm
:: Mood: happy/really hungery

i finally made my FTJ account, im not going to post it is until i get to see it..lol.. i want to be the first... its still being approved..

today went by good, except that i flunked an english quiz and im starting to wurry becuase ive flunked alot of them lately.. chem was wicked easy, all we did was watched Bill Nye becuase there was only 7 people in the class becuase of the "asphabs (or how ever its spelled)". after all the classes the lunches went by pretty good.. nicole was really really sad though, i tried bieng there and being a good ear but i dont feel that that was enough and i couldnt think of anyway to help..alot of people didnt feel all that great today now that i think of it. ::sigh::

violin lessons actually went GREAT.. lol.. practiceing actually helps a ton. i got there and i played a couple christmas tunes. and then i taught myself 2 other songs by ear.. im soo proud..lol... like... i didnt even have the music infront of me.. but i was actually able to figure out the songs from how they sounded in my head right there... the teacher was like "well, im not going to say that your going to be the most amazing violinist that ever lived, but youll definetly be great someday if you keep at it, youve got the ears and coordination for it".. that made me happy.. i was like "SWEET!!". yay..lol

IM STARVING!!!.. my parents went to bring the dog to the vet and make sure she doesnt kill him.. shes tried :-/. and my dad said ""ill make dinner when i get back"..lol.. i didnt eat much for lunch today so i brought this on myself but i need to put some food in my stomach.. ::tummy growls::..

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:: 2003 12 November :: 4.37 pm
:: Mood: happy

Today was a wicked sweet day.. lol.. in english we jsut started workign on our senior project essays.. and last night i came up with the PERFECT topic.. heres my thesis: "MUsic has major pychological affects on the human mind.".. yeah.. and then i can go on into liek music in medicine and the "mozart affect"..and then on the bands cd i can have my violin play as the lead in one of the songs and make it really pretty as an example of how different music affects us differently.. yeah.. im very realived... and then i go to Chem and we did a lab just on BURNING STUFF!!!... FIRE!!!. lmao.. my lab partners were getting a tiny bit annoyed though.. i kept throwing shit in the bunsin burner... like peices of paper, pencils etc.. the whole place smelled like gas and it almost gave me a head-ache..lol.. but it was fun.. and then the rest of the day went good.. 4th block was kinda boring but it was ok..

I finally put a user image up.. lol. its not like a GREAT picture of me but it does the job nicely.. its pretty good..lol..well, i better go do my hw soo i have time to play violin and guitar... :)...

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:: 2003 11 November :: 4.35 pm

SNOW
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!... ITS SNOWING!!!!!!!.... WOW!... lol...maybe school will be canceled (but its very unlikely).. and i kinda really want to go to school tommorrow.. i miss all my freinds..i miss alot of people...and tommorrow would be boring staying home all day anyways...

I finally figured out how to shrink and crunch my pictures down soo they dont take up too much memory. Thanks a million again randy for photoshop...lol.. and thanks jayme for pointing me in the general right direction..since i never used it before lol.. :)..

.:: From Behind My Eyes::.

:: 2003 11 November :: 10.31 am
:: Mood: tired/ just woke up

lmao.. awww...soo cute
thats right, "just woke up" is an actual mood..lol.. and im feelign it right now...i was bored since i just woke up so i did a couple quizes....


Your the cute devil you love helping animals on
there way to your domain. Any thing you do is
considered CUTE.


Which Devil are you?
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ok ok.. that was only one quiz... but i just woke up..lol.. LEAVE ME ALONE!!!..jk.. :-P

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:: 2003 10 November :: 8.22 pm

OUCHY
blah... this burning pain is starting to worry me.. alot... i dont understand... i cant do like anything as far as exercize becuase whenever i tense up any muscle (even in my arms or chest) that pain in my intestines pops up and im like drained...hmm....maybe im goign to die :-P... i give myself a week to live.... lol... jk.. but yeah, its pissing me off....

randy downloaded Paintshop Pro 8 and Adobe Photoshop 7 for me.. (thats like $1000 worth of programs)... ive always wanted them.. now i can crunch those pics for free and stop wasting time using microsoft paint...lol... YAY!.. :).. thanks randy..

im kinda afraid.. the pain in my gut.. my abnormal sleeping.. i fell asleep on the bus today.. maybe my medication isnt workign anymore... ill have to make a stupid doctors apointment and get a bunch of stupid blood tests... gah... needles are gay... and NO i dont have any serious life threatenign deceise... its just one that makes me tired... ALOT... like get home from school and take a nap until dinner and then go to bed at 7:30 becuase im tired... that kind of sleep...:-P... its crazy...

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