:: 2003 27 September :: 6.30 pm
:: Mood: bored/doubtful

::sigh::...im in one of those bored moods i guess....today was and is still soooo boring... kinda feel like im an unwanted tool... no one needed me to drive them anywhere today..thus i didnt hangout with anyone...i didnt get invited to anywhere...lots of people could have been like "hey todd you should go to blah blah blah..we will be there...."..but no one did...its just all in my head though...i know it is...just that little voice that i thought i killed along time ago...but i guess scars dont just die... they always come back sooner or later..its just human....and it would be wrong to ignore them...i hate him...thats all i can say at this point.. I HATE YOU LITTLE VOICE!.....i feel like the guy from "The Cell"....except my little voice isnt saying "kill kill"....its just sayign "everyone is useing you...you have no friends and will be alone forever"....but i know that thats not true either... the fact is im not alone..and i have friends that care about me....and for that im eternaly grateful...thank you all..luv you guys...

.:: From Behind My Eyes::.

:: 2003 27 September :: 1.06 pm
:: Mood: grateful/ nervous

hmmm...today just feels awkward all over..i dont know...i just want to thank everyone who has been there for me.. becuase without you guys id be missing out....on everything..my life..my future..id be nothing without my friends... whatever the future brings..i wont forget you guys..these are some of the best years of our lives.. livin it up in hs... just glad i got to share them with you...hmmm...im a drama queen :P...oh yeah...and.... Erin i hope your ok and not hurt...and everything else is ok to...hope your on later....you kinda left me only knowing that something really bad happened............

.:: From Behind My Eyes::.

:: 2003 26 September :: 5.57 pm
:: Mood: happy

WOW...i just re-read my journal and its been really random lately...lmao....today was great..best day i had in a while... in english i have to wear this purple flower, which is "a favor from my lady fair"...lmao...i thought the whole idea was kinda cute....i didnt really mind the flower...even though it was really brought out by my fishnets and a bunch of people kept looking at me...their a bunch of losers...anyways...i thought it was hot (the fishnets and the flower)..lmao.. and CP Chem was really intersesting and not boring.. Mr Keeton (dont know how to spell his name) was talking about Quantum Physics and Mechanics... stuff like how any certain atom can be simataniosly in 2 different places....1 atom being in 2 places at once....and how like if you go fast enough you can make time slow down..and alot of jets do that..all the time...its been tested (they put a clock on the ground and one in the jet and when the jet landed the clock in it was behind)...wicked sweet...today was a happy happy day.. :)

.:: From Behind My Eyes::.

:: 2003 25 September :: 5.19 pm
:: Mood: happy/hyper

As usual i was correct in that i wouldnt be sad for very long....lol....im wicked happy but i dont know why....i have no reason to be but im not asking any questions... hmm...i still need my guitar from chris...its mah baby.. hmm...yeah.....what to talk about.. i did my senior write up...good stuff..just hope i didnt forget anyone..that would suck...anyways...I DONT HAVE ANY HW!!.yay... toady wasnt borign at all...not for even one sec...thats great...

.:: From Behind My Eyes::.

:: 2003 24 September :: 1.28 pm

lalala....that was wicked stupid..i kept loosing count...i got to like 1000ish...becuase i was smart and was counting them 52 at a time....(and yes im talkign about the floor tiles)...blah.. i was reading this thing about guys with someone..like "all guys minds are exactly the same...the only way of telling them apart is their faces..."..its not often that i feel so insulted and categorized and stereotyped in that way but i laughed it up anyways.. ::sigh:: i know i shouldnt care becuase i know im not liek that...atleast i hope im not..anyways.. lmao...it did say one thing about "dont let your man's mind alone to think...its to small to be left alone.."..i found that insulting to but its true for me minus the small part...i think way to hard when i get bored and all it does is make me feel bad..i hope something will happen in the next hour that wil make my day...that would make me really happy...but im sure when i get home away from all this drama ill be happy and cheery..but it would be nice anyways...

.:: From Behind My Eyes::.

:: 2003 24 September :: 1.02 pm
:: Mood: BORED AGAIN

hmm..i wonder if theres some kind of mental sickness that causes me to be bored sooo much.....LMAO...OMG!!..somethign wicked funny jsut happened that i feel i must write..Ms Ferris isnt in yet...but some girl behind me just was like to some other kid behind me "hey whats that you just clicked on..." and he was like "nothing" and then she was like "nah...its looked like NAKED WOMEN to me.." and he was like "ok ok.. you caught me"....lmao...thats wicked funny...anyways...today has felt good even though it has been really boring...i feel pretty hot in these fishnets... RAWWWRRR!..i should wear these more often..especially with these jeans....anyways...lmao..im going to go walk around school counting tiles...ill be back later.....

.:: From Behind My Eyes::.

:: 2003 23 September :: 4.32 pm
:: Mood: happy

Today wasnt boring but it sure hell wsa different..lmao...it all started when me, mike, seth, and erich were about to go to mcdonalds during 3rd block...and before we could leave we got pulled over by officer dexter...and mike had a cigg in his hand and now hes grounded and has to go to court..everyone got ISS's except me and erich....but we were dumb and were like "lets walk to mcdonalds anyways"...and it was raining out...so i got soked..and then i got back to school...and erin decided to get soked to..then 3 other girls in her class went and got soked with her..and then the teacher blamed me...and i wsa like "pfft.. i didnt tell them to do that"...today was a weird day....

.:: From Behind My Eyes::.

:: 2003 22 September :: 6.07 pm
:: Mood: touched

wow...now that i write actual stuff, i write alot...i think its becuase i just write stuff that probly ill forget but id like to remember...im weird...anyways... yeah i just finished my chem paper...hmm..it got me thinking.... the "law of conservation of energy". for those that dont know what that means it merely states that energy can neither be created nor destroyed..it can only change form... i say that im energy....my soul is energy...and therefore ill exist forever...ill just change form...soo.. everything doesnt really matter that much...who knows how many steps or forms i will take....it will never end... it makes me happy........

.:: From Behind My Eyes::.

:: 2003 22 September :: 2.24 pm
:: Mood: alittle bored

oh yeah..i forgot about last night....yeah last night was wicked fun... me, randy, chris, mike, and adam all went to concord...we parked like ontop of a really big parking garage by Margaritas and threw bouncy balls of the roof to see how far they would go... it sounds dumb but it was fun...then mike and randy skateboard down while the rest of us took the elevator....i wish i brought my skateboard...and a video camera..that would have been fun....and then we all finally got to the Escape Key...its like this place with a bunch of extremely fast comps that you can use which are all hooked together so you can have lan-parties...we all played cs for like 2 hours and then left.. good fun :)

.:: From Behind My Eyes::.

:: 2003 22 September :: 2.11 pm
:: Mood: bored

I seem to be bored alot....im in 4th block right now...fun fun... the only thing makign the time go by is watching roy use photoshop... wish i was taking graphics right now (even though roy is in advertising..just not working).. erin is doing her hw (as usual)..thats probly why im soooo bored...but i dotn care anymore....shes ovbiously into matt and perhaps alan..oh oops...a duh..shes dating now..i jsut rmemebered...lmao...but thats fine becuase shes not a very good choice...even if she did like me...shes way way way to minipulative...and its just not me that thinks that..yay..though id rather not use this journal to talk dirt about people, its soo true.. BUT IM HAPPY so its all good... a gf would always be good..but not one that would hurt me like i know she would... not to be meen....

.:: From Behind My Eyes::.

:: 2003 20 September :: 4.39 pm
:: Mood: BORED
:: Music: KoRn- Got the Life

.:: From Behind My Eyes::.

:: 2003 19 September :: 8.29 pm
:: Mood: BORED

::sigh::....im sooo soo sooo bored right now... no one is on AIM.....and ive already played guitar and violin for like 3 hours...soo...that enough of that...i hate it when im bored...becuase when im bored i start thinking way way to hard...about stuff that i shouldnt and stuff that doesnt matter but makes me depressed anyways....well...im just hoping typeing in this journal will take this boredom away....::yawns::..well...i think maybe i can..wait..nope...im bored as hell and theres nothing to do....well...atleast i have brandons b-day to look forward to and FEW TO FALL's first band practice...oh yeah..and happy b-day Brandon!!!!

.:: From Behind My Eyes::.