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2004 7 February :: 8.10 pm
im haveing one of those interesting moments where all of a sudden you see something... and you actually see it.. what it really is.. and all of the fake self-implanted sheilds in your brain are gone...i realize that my "friends section" is filled with well, being blunt.. filthy hate, saddness, and hate... im not pointing fingers saying "dotn be depressive".. but i just never noticed that i only have a few freinds that arent depressed 24/7 and are usually happy... *cough.... Farrin, Adam, Joey, Katie, Meaghan... cough*
today went ok.. kinda sucky how jeremy had to go snowmobiling.. i worked on that song.. and its polishing nicely.. im workign in adobe painting it up right now.. pretty fun.. there were a few blank spots on my walls.. soo i did some taping... made them prettyfull...
i did the math about the Peavey 5150 II half stack.. and yeah.. i should have enough.. no one but me and Will and John understand why im buying a new amp... funny how we are ALL GUITARIST!!!!.. yeah.. people just trust me... wow.. i know what im doing.. and if i say a Peavey 5150 is 10 times better then my line 6... then it is.. its ten times better..lol... worth every penny.. of the $1599.99....
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2004 6 February :: 10.08 pm
hmmm.. today went ok... as far as school goes... other then that the snow pisses me off... like... i couldnt jam.. erich couldnt even drive 100 yards down the road to check out that guitar.. and i guess jeremy isnt going to beable to jam at all this weekened.. hes snowmobiling..
its pretty late and no one is on.. im starting to feel that loneliness kicking in... wait nm.. jon and ashly and farren are all of a sudden on...YAY
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2004 3 February :: 5.03 pm
wow.. me and jeremy must have kicked ass friday night.. lol.. ever since people are flocking to jam with us.. im like YAY!.. lol.. first alan is like "i shoudl leave my band"... and now roy and joey are like "well, we are sick of our band.. we might quiet and join yours..".. sooo..and soo jeremy obviously answered " sweet bring your gear.. your in".. and their like "ok".. im not sre if they were serious though.. if they were that would be wicked sweet...and not to mention Will randomly called me to jam with him.. and levi and alan did also..
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2004 2 February :: 4.16 pm
ive decided to pawn off all my personal belongings for a peavey 5150 full stack... including my marshall and my line 6 half stack.. and all my other shit minus my guitar.. and my boss pedals....
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2004 31 January :: 4.03 pm
i woke up this morning with a huge headache.. and stomach ache... i feel almost better now....
i went to daddy's and my brother bought a new bass... joey jsut bought a new bass also..
im kinda tired from last night but i hope i can jam later anyways...
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2004 30 January :: 10.25 pm
:: Mood: randon/ stoned ass fuck
FUCK.. i jsut made a journal entry and now its gone... ill have to type it again.. which shouldnt be to tough...WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeee!!E!E!E!
haha..lol... i drove 50 all the way home.. half the time on the wrong side of the road.. becuase.. im a NONCOMFORMIST!!!.. yeah wicked...boom bop deep dop do bop... hanson=wicked gay...
today was the best jammer sesion ever... i was like "YAY".. like first i wnet to jeremys.. no one was there.. soo then i went to chrises and found everyone(jeremy, chris, brandon).. we all went back to jeremys to jam.. we jammed for a while.. and then somethign amazing happened.. roy, Will, and joey showed up... we all jammed for a bit.. and then me and jeremy showed them our first song.. they loved it.. and when Will was leaving he was like "hey..dude.. your an awsoume guitarist.i wish i had heard you earlier"... and then right before he left he walked over to me and whispered in my ear "ill be in contact with you"...whats that meen??.. i still cant figure it out.. whateve rit is, it utterly excites me... Will the guitar/recording/ higschool god will be in contact with me..lmao.. wicked awsoume...
and then they all left.. and right after levi and jeremy G showed up.. and we jammed for a few more hours.. and then me and jeremy showed them our song and they were like after i left "you guys are wicked awsoume..you should just get rif of everyone minus you 2.. and get better people... your beign held back"
i feel soo fuckin wise right now... everythign is like.. in my zone... i know all...EVERYTHING i say i know.. YEAH!!!!
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2004 30 January :: 4.02 pm
im in such a great mood right now.. im like "WOOOHU!!!!!".... lol..funny little journal... anyways..
this mornign i got to school and i went to graphics.. and well.. Mr. Moge isnt a very good teacher.. hes meen. and he cant teach..like.. hell say "cnow copy the image or you can just go file, then save as..".. so i saved it.. and then we are in photoshop and hes like "now just press paste and your image will be there..".. and im like "fuck you.. lol.. now i have to go copy it.".. and while im doing that hes already gone through like 4 steps... he does shit liek that alot..
Mr Ginty was ok from his car crash.. hehe.. we were liketeasing him abotu how he killed the other guy.. "MR. GINTY MAD!!!! RAWRR!!"..
we didnt do a whole lot in Physics which is good..we watched a movie....and then i had ART 3... lmao.. marrisa AKA: "Marrisca" is wicked funny.
katie was on the bus... wicked sweet..lol... we are goin gto hang out this weekened.. of course now im confused agian..like.. she kept biting her lip and tongue at me.. and was trying to play footsies (spelling).. she must be atleast interested alittle..lol.. seriously..
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2004 29 January :: 3.48 pm
wow.. half my entries from last night didnt show up.. woohu is being soo gay.. i think im going to move to a different site soon.. but as we all know, im a procrastinator... big time.. soo it wil probly be weeks..
today was pretty good.. the whole katie thing is confusing the fuck out of me.. today she acted all interested...soo im just saying fuck it.. whatever.. just let shit happen and stop trying.. hehe..ive got alot of other stuff going for me.. its not a gigantic big deal..theirs alot of fish in the sea :)..
Alan has been talkign to me about how we shoudl jam.. hed be a second guitarist and sing.. and its sounds sweet to me.. when was the last time i heard randy sing in a mic...hmm.. one time he talked into it i think... anyways.. yeah... alan looks like that dude from Smile Empty Soul soo thats cool.. lol... he says that hes just tired of his band.. all of their stuff is sounding the same lately and he cant stand playing anymore beats to their stuff.. soo.. i say hes totally welcome to jam with me and jeremy sometime.. jeremy probly wont like it.. becuase he think alans a better drummer.. but thats definetly not true..lol... jeremy is a wicked awsoume drummer...
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2004 28 January :: 8.36 pm
seriously.. whats the fuck... like.. whjy did i let myself become interested in her... it seemed logical after all that stuff that she perhaps was interested.. but if she was why arent we hanging out now that the new semester has started.. and i cant like ask ferrin about what i shoudl do becuase she has seemed to block me.. and ignores me in school..... gah.. fuck...
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2004 28 January :: 4.11 pm
hmm.. ive decided that that whole kaite thing was a 1 time thing...most definetly...i wish it was something more special than that but its not.. i could be wrong though, like i am usually... but whatever..
school was ok today... Jake M is back... hes not in the mental hospital and was actually at lunch at our school since like 4 years ago.. hmm.. he seemed..
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2004 26 January :: 9.00 pm
im feeling really lonely all of a sudden.. i think its from Katie.. she wasnt in school today.. and i think its possible from the whole all night phone call and hangout all saturday night that i missed her alittle... and now its eating away at me.. i think im going to talk to ferrin tommorow.. maybe she will know the answers that i need...
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2004 26 January :: 3.51 pm
today was kinda boring.... wasnt as fun as i was planning..lol...
on the bus tonight i didnt make it in time to get a good seat.. and katie wasnt on to save me one soo i had to sit with some weird kid.. he was weird and had glasses and a really feminine accent.. and he was talkign abotu odd stuff and on turns hed like fly into me and jsut be like "*grins*..umm.. sorry for bumping into you..hehehe. sorry"...and id just be liek "oh.ummm... dont worry about it..."..
when i got home fuckin jeremy pranked me wicked bad.. i sooo knew it.. from the start what were the chances a girl would have the same text color and almost identical email address as him.. dude.. your an asshole..lol.. i sooo knew it though
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