:: 2004 3 January :: 8.49 pm

wow, i havent updated in a long time... in these two weeks alot of stuff has happened, for the better.. and somethings for the worst.. the worst being i havent updated in a while and ive become pretty distant from everyone... but tommorrow im goign to get to jam i hope.. and im goin to daddys.. wicked sweet.. i hope ill get some good money for my beast and its hradshell case.. like.. if i get 250 ill be like "SWEET".. thats like 35% of what i bought it for... soo.. if i dont get 250.. ill be like "fuck you man, bye.."

kurtis was being a prick yesterday becuase he got yelled at for coming to work drunk..lol.. i guess i missed some funny shit when i left that night.. like none of the movies got started and he was like harrasing all the customers.. lmao.. i guess kara tried reminding him alot about the movies and how they should be stated but his exact words were "awww, FUCK the movies..hehe"

work has been ok..lmao.. the only thing from today is that some lady came in and her name was "Ineeda Hooker".. im not sure if thats the spelling but i was like "HAHAHA!!! shit... her parents must have been on the reefer"..which then reminded me off that cute girl named "Canada" who always comes in and hits on me...lmao..she was definetly "permi-baked".. soo i wouldnt date her or anythign but it was a nice break form actual work... today was my last day at work.. and after my checks roll in i should have enough for that line 6 half stack..

.:: From Behind My Eyes::.

:: 2003 28 December :: 9.42 pm

lmao.. today i had a headache for a while but then it got better thankfully..

work was the usual until i was about to leave and my other manager Kurtis came in.. he was soooo fuckin drunk.. or stoned.. i couldnt tell.. he was jsut plain fuckin high on soemthign and he went straight to his office and starting fucking around with shit.. and he called down on the phone and asked cara if she knew where he could by some crack... and she was like "nope".. and he was like "FUCK".. and then he ran down and was fucking up everything.. lol.. he got on box and started selling tickets.. and acting all weird.. and calling chris "the afro man..". and yelling things that werent even words and trying to sell ME popcorn.. lmao.. usually he is alittle buzzed when he comes in but that was crazy...its funny to get him mad or do somethign wrong becuase he will always jsut be like "your a shit face.. you did that way fucked up".. and its really hard not to laugh when he says stuff liek that..i remember my first day workign there he called me a shitface becuase i forgot to clean a theater or something...

.:: From Behind My Eyes::.

:: 2003 24 December :: 7.57 pm

I WICKED stole this from Ashly.. i jsut had to.. this is like the PERFECT psychological disorder quiz ever!... originally i wasnt going to post it.. but i did anyways.. probly becuase im starvinging for attention..

Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: Moderate
Schizoid: Low
Schizotypal: High
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Low
Histrionic: High
Narcissistic: Moderate
Avoidant: Moderate
Dependent: High
Obsessive-Compulsive: Moderate

URL of the test: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv
URL for more info: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/disorder_information2.html

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:: 2003 24 December :: 7.25 pm

lmao.. today.. unlike everyone else i know pretty much; i satyed home and hung out..lol.. becuase my family is going through some issues i guess... cheating, pre-adult pregnancies, blah, blah... and my grandma is wicked pissed off becuae of it all.. shes never mad... soo.. this is obviously a big deal..

i didnt have work today and no work tommorrow thank god.. the theater is open tommorrow... im not sure its goign to be busy or not.. lol.. probly.. since we are getting a christmas family movie tommorrow, "cheaper by the dozen"... soo.. large familys who gather together on christmas will have something to do when they get sick of eachother and go see it.. glad im not there...

i hope everyone has a good christmas :).. or haunika (spelling)....

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:: 2003 22 December :: 7.20 pm

im starting to see a pattern forming.. i wake up, go to work, and then i get home and write a journal entry aout how nothign happened becuase i was at work all day..lmao.. and then maybe add a few little things that i found funny that day...

WELL.. keeping with the tradition that will probly last for the next week or sooo.. i went to work.. and i came home..and...

i saw some funny shit at work today... little kids are SOOOO wicked mean to eachother.. their barberic. there was these two little boys (probly about 5 and 6) and they were walking towards the doors to get in.. and all off a sudden the little one elbowed the bigger one in the stomach and then back handed him in the face..and the whole time the mom is walkign to the door and didnt see a thing until one of them started crying.. he obviously wasnt hurt that bad since by the time he got in, he was all smiling and jumping around.. and being annoying...

a bus load of kids came today.. like.. it was extremely quiet all day and then there was 38 little kids running around screaming in the lobby.. i was like "oh god.. WHY!!!!".. it was total chaos but not as bad as when Finding Nemo was out.. omg...

lmao.. im sure no one cares... but i was pissed.. we got new napkin dispensers today.. they are SOOOOO GAY!... omg.. like... instead of having those little ones that sit on the counter..the napkins are now in these big boxes on poles ontop of the counter.. and they dont even work right..

mark and i were talking about weed and stuff today.. good stuff... and like what we do when we get the munchies..hehe. marks my manager and he fuckin smokes.. soo awsoume..his fuckin office smells like weed wicked bad... whenever i go up there i start like sniffing around really bad...im like "whoa!.. dude.. i smell...ummm.. hmmm..weed or something".. and mark will just be sitting there...

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:: 2003 21 December :: 7.09 pm

not a whole lot happened today..lol.. hmm.. i went to work. and i had to work with tony and he talked soooooooooooooooo much.. omg... like.. my cool boss mark was down there when tony was talking to me and i was just standing there staring off into the distance.. and mark was like "hmm.. hey tony.. shutup..todd just got back and your wearing him out man..wow".. lol.. hes soo funny..lmao.. and later on tony was talking to him (mark) about the "butterfly effect" or something and then mark just kinda interupted him and was like "hmm.. tony.. do you want me to punch you in the face??.. seriously.."..lol.. mark is soo fuckin awsoume.. i can remember when he used to like hit on all the milfs and stuff.. and actually get their numbers...

.:: From Behind My Eyes::.

:: 2003 20 December :: 7.15 pm
:: Mood: pissed

venting.. it would be wise to not take the entry seriously.. im haveing PMS
yeah, i guess i missed getting to hang out with everyone friday.. i guess everyone didnt go to the escape key... im not trying to be an asshole, or over react, or make myself out like a dick, or make it out like i think the world revolves around me.. but i wicked wanted to hang out.. and its like... i was purposely forgotten or something.. 100% seriously.. i was sitting at home going "hmm.. i can drive around.. i have nothign to do.. i wonder how sooon it is going to be until i get that call about when we are going to the escape key, and get to hang out with jeremy on his b-day..", ALL NIGHT.. and there was no call.. if i like did something that made people mad and hate me and not like hanging out with me, plzzzzz tell me what it is... or if its that people are just sick of me and think im a dick, tell me that to..soo i can find new people that think otherwise... becuase i will never change, for anyone... thank you

im not trying to complain and be a bitch.. but seriously.. do you guys hate me???

and yeah.. if anyone is reading this youve probly noticed that im pissed..lol.. and yeah, i said "im not tryign to be a bitch".. like alot.. soo.. if ANYONE. and i meen anyone gives me a lecture on how im beign stupid or how i think everything has to involve me.. well.. FUCK YOU!.. becuase i wanted to fuckin hang out with jeremy all fuckin day.. and the day before i was like.. "jeremy can we hangout tommorrow night and maybe jam or hangout (not knowing it was his b-day)".. and he was like "yeah, after i go to the mall with my mom to get a hoodie".. and all off a sudden the plans change and im not even invited... soo.. yeah.. in feeling pretty fucking left out..

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:: 2003 20 December :: 6.58 pm

i had work today.. 11:30 to 6.. lol.. its been a long time since ive worked..it all came back pretty quick.. probly becuase entertainment cinemas is an easy place to work.. i worked with denise and danny.. not tony (thank god)... hes an ok kid.. but seriously.. he really bad communication problems.. hes hard to get along with.. and he smells like ass... and his hairs wicked greasy... but enough dissing tony.. hes an ok kid i guess..

i cant really write much about today.. all i can say other then about work is that im starting to miss people already... school has only been out for a day and im already missing people.. its going to be a long 2 weeks...

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:: 2003 19 December :: 6.31 pm

I cant beleive i forgot to put in here but this morning i almost got into an accident... it wicked sucked.. i was driving along in my jeep wrangler..and then i took this corner at 40 mph.. it was a tiny bit fast but not really since the speed limit was 35.. and there was a big patch of ice.. i didnt even notice it for some reason.. lol.. the car in front of me didnt slow down at all, soo i only assumed there was nothign to worry about.... and as i was taking the corner the back tires gave out and the jeep did a really big fish tail..i was like "hey this is kinda fun".. and i moved the wheel alittle to kinda make sure i wasnt going to drive off into the other lane but since i was in the jeep (it can turn on a dime) and it was going 40, it swerved really really bad and then i got scared.. and then soo i wouldnt crash into the woods.. i turned the wheel again and then it swerved... then i finally i turned the wheel and i was going straight..lol..i think i had it on 2 wheels...lmao.. form now on i look out for ice... and slow down for it, unless im in a parking lot with no one around :).. then i just go crazy..

a thought came to mind.. i just ate chinese food.. and my cat was playing in the bag it came in.. it would be wicked funny and sooooo Jackass if i brought my cat back to the chinese place in the bag and be like "hey!! you didnt cook this!".. yeah.. i wicked should

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:: 2003 19 December :: 4.11 pm

i cant beleive its the weekened.. a two week weekened.. YAY

i drove to school today soo i could possibly jam tonight with jeremy.. but i didnt realize today is his birthday..lol.. soo.. i guess we are going to the Escape Key maybe... Im glad i was standing there when chris was talking about it or i might not have known until everyone talks about it later on.. and erich didnt end up bringing his video camera soo we could record doing crazy stuff with the jeep and his truck.. lol.. it was ok though since the place where we were going to make a crap load of donhuts like yesterday was all iced over... lmao.. i was wicked mad and disappointed that i missed D lunch.. i was looking forward to it alot :(.

today was a really easy day in school.. i passed in my senior report... i forgot to put my works cited page in alphabetical order soo ill probly end up getting it back.

my friend katie gave me some things becuase of christmas.. i was really really surprised.. its soo great to know she cares... to bad shes not single.. or id probly try to get to know her better :).. oh well..

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:: 2003 17 December :: 8.39 pm

i havent updated in a really long time.. well, where should i start..

a couple days ago on the news they were talking about a rapist in manchester.. and they described him as "a young male, brown hair, and medium build wearing a grey hooded sweatshirt..". i was like "oh god!!... wasnt me!!!"

today in lunch B becky put some eye liner and eye shadow on me.. i wanted the eye liner, but not the eye shadow.. lmao..erich got me on camera for a while with all my make-up..

ive been drawing alot lately... im alot better then i used to be.. i should post a picture or two on here as soon as i scan them..lol.

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:: 2003 15 December :: 9.41 am

hey, guess what????... theres no school today!! wicked sweet!..

im going to spend today working alittle bit on my senior report and then on my chem hw (that was due today)... right now im downloading shit.. some metal slug roms.. i feel like drawing really bad.. soo i probly will today.. i also feel like playing some guitar.. wich im sure i will today...

i hope everyone has a good snowday! :)

.:: From Behind My Eyes::.