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2005 20 December :: 2.09pm
o.o
For some reason, I can't view my Friend's Page. >:[
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mieko
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2005 15 December :: 8.00pm
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Hannah told me she didn't want to talk about Brandon, and she wanted our discussion not to stay on him.
Well.. that was a month ago at least, and I didn't talk to her about him. But today I really wanted her perspective (she'd be a great psychologist, honestly...) and when Brandon got on well...
xXAnimeOutlawXx: SCORE!
sedative03: ?
xXAnimeOutlawXx: HE FINALLY BLOCKED ME!
xXAnimeOutlawXx: MWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
xXAnimeOutlawXx: Now..
xXAnimeOutlawXx: For the convo
sedative03: Yes, because I have no clue what happened. XDDD
xXAnimeOutlawXx: xXAnimeOutlawXx: Hey
HeartSeedOrchird: Hi.
xXAnimeOutlawXx: No? ok, fine
xXAnimeOutlawXx: Ttyl
HeartSeedOrchird: Wtf.
HeartSeedOrchird: You're so quick to jump the fuckin' gun.
xXAnimeOutlawXx: Oh,. whoops sorry.. Not used to you replying so quickly ^^*
HeartSeedOrchird: Yeah, I'm sick of it.
HeartSeedOrchird: Bye.
xXAnimeOutlawXx: You're just sick of everything, aren't you?
HeartSeedOrchird: Yah, 'cause you know me so well.
xXAnimeOutlawXx: Remember when you said you loved me..?
HeartSeedOrchird: Yeah, I regret it.
xXAnimeOutlawXx: Hmmm.. Well that makes two of us..
xXAnimeOutlawXx: So, who DO you love?
xXAnimeOutlawXx: If it's even possible for you
xXAnimeOutlawXx: Is it Rebecca?
xXAnimeOutlawXx: I know you're there, and I know You're pissed at me.
xXAnimeOutlawXx: So?
xXAnimeOutlawXx: Block me.
HeartSeedOrchird: Hm?
HeartSeedOrchird: No.
HeartSeedOrchird: Oh.
xXAnimeOutlawXx: Why not?
HeartSeedOrchird: Yeah.
HeartSeedOrchird: Not to the block me.
HeartSeedOrchird: To the Rebecca question.
HeartSeedOrchird: Bye freak.
sedative03: Wait, WHICH was to the Rebecca question? O_O
xXAnimeOutlawXx: "Yeah"
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Just so you guys know.. Hannah pretty much hates Brandon, and he finds her incredibly annoying, as you can see.. But it's not out of spite, I'm sure. She has a great boyfriend now and he's coming to visit her sometime.
Anyway.. I don't know. I just don't know. He says he loves me but..
I'm just not sure about him anymore. I still really enjoy 'being' with him and everything..
Ah well. I'm almost ready to let it all go past me, and to just enjoy being with him and Demetria while I can.
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I hope I got a good grade on that last test in geometry.. I probably failed. >.>
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mieko
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2005 14 December :: 10.41pm
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(In a chat earlier):
HeartSeedOrchird: The only thing beautiful to me is fire :3
HeartSeedOrchird: Light yourself on fire Rebecca.
sedative03: Fuck you. < -- (I was pissed off at him because he was paying a lot more attention to Demetria than me, and I have histrionic tendencies)
HeartSeedOrchird: Ugh.
HeartSeedOrchird: Grow up Rebecca.
HeartSeedOrchird: Tell me when you're not vomitting up hatred.
HeartSeedOrchird has left the room.
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MathIsFun61: Oh Brandon IMed me.
sedative03: Hm? What'd he say?
MathIsFun61: he asked me how long i'm staying online.
MathIsFun61: I'm going to ask what the hel is up with him.
sedative03: Yeah? 'Kay. Tell me what the convo is.
MathIsFun61: Hey back in the chatroom why were you just brushing Rebecca off? Talking down to her kinda. Humm. I dunno.
MathIsFun61: HeartSeedOrchird: I wasn't.
HeartSeedOrchird: I love Rebecca, she knows it.
MathIsFun61: HeartSeedOrchird: She was being sour though, so I left.
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(A while later)
HeartSeedOrchird: I love you.
sedative03: I love you too...
But I think I'm being too bitchy.
You want Demetria, right?
HeartSeedOrchird: Yeah....
HeartSeedOrchird: She's not into me though.
HeartSeedOrchird: -Shrugs-
HeartSeedOrchird: We all have our moody days.
HeartSeedOrchird: I always bitchy D:
HeartSeedOrchird: I don't think I'll go to sleep.
HeartSeedOrchird: I will, but not until like 3.
sedative03: What, so I'm your reserve? Hahaha. Already happened once, but the guy was ugly.
HeartSeedOrchird: Reserve?
HeartSeedOrchird: No...
sedative03: Lmao. That's what you were thinking.
But I meant that.. since "Demetria's not into you", you just kind of.. I don't know. It made sense in my head, but I don't see where the common sense in the idea went.
HeartSeedOrchird: Hmm.
sedative03: Hmm?
We use the term 'love' too loosely.. I'm confused about whether it's the "I really love you" thing or the "I love you in a family kind of way".
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NOTHING about me at all. SHE had to ask HIM.
And I was being sour, so he left?!
He doesn't give two shits about me enough to ask me why the fuck I'm so bitchy?
And he asks DEMETRIA how long she's gonna stay online. UNFUCKINGBELIEVABLE.
He's the most insensitive ASSHOLE I've ever known!
Whenever he ranted or acted sullen, I'd ask if he was okay.
But obviously, that doesn't seem to matter.
He still hasn't answered.
I don't know why I still care.
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2005 14 December :: 6.18pm
Hahahaaaaa.
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Almost no one in Geometry finished the test today. So I have about an hour to skim everything in Chapter 10 for the test...
AC:WW is sooo cool. *_*
Except my dad didn't plug in the new wireless router (I'm not sure whether this one will work, hopefully it will. -crosses fingers-) and until then I'm stuck with a one-fruit town.
Brandon hasn't been online since yesterday when I logged off. >.>
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mieko
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2005 13 December :: 6.01pm
Omgomgomg.
My dad bought AC:WW from Wal*Mart.
HOORAH!
Now I have to hurry up and finish my geometry homework, finish that stupid WWI history project, then play a little, then write notes to cheat off of for the test tomorrow.
I think I might have the time. HM.
-ALSSOOOO-
I will have to majorly suck up to my dad now.
Guh.
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2005 12 December :: 9.26pm
Oh great.
So to explain everything AGAIN (the last one got fucking deleted by mistake. Jesus.)
Brandon + Demetria + Me = Same age, met same month, at Gaia slots.
After a few days, Brandon thought he loved me, then I told him stuff about how he should find a girl at his school that he likes, about how I need to pass state tests, and how I don't believe in love overall.
Since two months ago, or less, I met Melissa (same age, has known Brandon for a couple years) and Hannah (same age, known Brandon as long as me).
He's told her (Hannah) that he thinks he loved her too. I'm not sure when, but yeah.
He thinks she's annoying now, and blocks her. They don't really talk anymore.
I wasn't as keen on him as I am now..
I've gotten to know him better, and he makes me laugh and stuff, and he's pretty smart, academic-wise..
But this last convo just.. just blew me away. I was so shocked and hurt.
Read more..
I dunno..
It's probably just my period.. u_u;
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mieko
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2005 8 December :: 5.29pm
._.
Got my quiz and test back.
Quiz: 50%
Test: 47%
So okay.
I'm actually paying attention in class, trying to figure out how to do my homework.
And this happens??
Wtf is wrong with me?
There's a kind of "joke" about me;
Since I moved to the US when I was still incredibly little, I tell them I was 'Americanized' and that is why I'm not as 'smart' as asians are stereotyped to be.
But the thing is..
I never was that smart.
I'm barely above average smart.
I'm not even sure I have straight Bs anymore.
I think there are a couple Cs now.
Especially in Geometry.
God, how I loathe geometry and algebra.
You know what really got me down today though?
My school doesn't have a Psychology class anymore.
I'll have to wait until college to take Basic Psychology.
AC:WW hasn't come today. My mom thinks it's supposed to come tomorrow or the day after.
Today was just one disappointment after another.
:<
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2005 5 December :: 8.07pm
OMG KIKYOU.
WE MUST VISIT EACH OTHER'S TOWNS. LYK.. SUREEUSLY.
:'DD
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2005 5 December :: 4.38pm
:: Mood: cold
Ahahaha.
So.. Stephanie and I cheated on this one quiz a few weeks ago in Geometry.
Two of the questions we didn't get at all. The only one we got right (out of three) was something really easy and I could've done myself.
We got half-credit. Yah. 50%. WTFFF.
We are going over the Pythagorean Theorem now. It is pretty easy, but I know eventually I'll gasp for Air (capital A for a good grade) and probably Drown (capital D for anything worse than a C).
-moanmoanmoan-
-gripegripegripe-
-whinewhinewhine-
OOHOH, I'm getting Animal Crossing DS either Tuesday-Thursday this week! AAAHHH. < 3333333333
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mieko
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2005 4 December :: 1.45pm
Guess what?
Love is awesome sucks.
Heartbreak Hotel would be a good band name.
So is Papercut Heart.
And other things pertaining to being female and in love.
Bah.
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2005 3 December :: 2.08pm
Guh.
'Kay so.
All the snow is melting.
From the trees.
The ground.
And my roof.
So it is melting from my roof..
Only now..
Whenever I look at my window..
I THINK IT IS SNOWING AGAIN.
Can melting snow be evil little minxes? Yes, in fact, they can.
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mieko
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2005 2 December :: 9.00am
:: Mood: creative
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Silent beauty,
Why don't you take a walk,
So we can drift away?
Please tell me you feel the same..
Because I don't think I'll be able to take the heartbreak.
The snow falls so gently around us now,
I can feel my breath coming short,
Can you save me, silent beauty?
Can you help me survive this world?
If only, if only I wasn't a burden..
It's the way the world seems to work of melancholy.
The snow falls so gently around us now,
I can feel my breath coming short,
Can you save me, beauty?
Save me, beauty?
Inside, inside the way my mind thinks,
It's no coincidence.
The boy across the street knows no fear,
He dies at the hand of that rapist next door.
So tell me, while the snow falls harder,
Lick my lips to get that secret.
Ingenious incission of only the corporal minds,
Save me, beauty.
Save me.
by-- Life's Scissors
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