moomoo
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2011 5 November :: 9.27am
Dear Woohu, BOYS FUCKING SUCK! I guess some things wiill never change no matter how old you get.
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phil-himself
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2011 3 November :: 8.21am
in the now
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valoth
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2011 31 October :: 4.17am
Im not being mean when you talk about your plan for college. Im being realistic.
Common problem 4yr plan students face:
-money(loans or cash for needs during student years)
-finishing on time
-finishing with leads to jobs
Common needs:
-job(part time/summer/seasonal)
-money(loans or other finance)
You cant just brush that off. You cant tell me no, because your successful. Successful people might finish on time sure, but are you saying everyone Ive known is not? You dont really get to declare that. lol Thats unfair and pompous.
You dont even know what your planning to go for. How can you finish on time if youve not decided anything? What if youve already missed classes that file under things to make it out on time? Cmon now.
Oiy. You had me so happy earlier. Now you leave me on sour notes.
Just like Rachel. I dont like where this path leads. Need a better fork in the road.
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phil-himself
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2011 28 October :: 11.30am
yeah you're life's hard, tough shit, there's 7 billion people in this world and you think your issues are tough
first world problems
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valoth
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2011 28 October :: 12.53am
:: Mood: depressed
Cope
Im trying so hard not to dip into the sea of depression again right at this moment.
Do you know how hard it is to want something so bad?
Do you know how hard it is to have everyone who knows what you want say its not worth your time? How you should just drop it now?
Do you know how hard is it when this is the second time around on this journey? The names and faces may have changed. The emotions are still ready to grieve.
I have the next 3 days off to dwell on this. 3 days to sit in the shower and sulk. 3 days with no plans. 3 days.
I need an outlet. I need a better one that is. I need someone to talk to. I dont have the person I trust and can voice my concerns to.
Oh wait. That persons the person whos causing me half my trouble.
The other option is now on disconnect because of a better situation.
I need medication. I need consultation. I need someone. Im prideful, but not so prideful that Ill let myself not admit to these facts. I just cant get myself to take the steps alone. It kills me that much more that I can openly reflect to myself on these situations. My innermost monologue is like a pet owner with a rolled up newpaper slapping me over the head as if Im puppy whos just done something wrong.
Im like that satalite a month back that was supposed to come crashing down to earth. No one knows my path or where Ill land. Ill skid off the atmosphere a few times and build into a fireball. Evaporate over a radius thats big and leave no traces once Ive landed. Ill sink into the ocean never to be needed again.
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valoth
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2011 27 October :: 12.29am
A horse is not a home
"Love, unrequited, robs me of my rest:
Love, hopeless love, my ardent soul encumbers:
Love, nightmare-like, lies heavy on my chest,
And weaves itself into my midnight slumbers!"
William S. Gilbert
Being sick is really annoying. My nose is raw now from tissue usage. My head feels like is ready to explode most times. The body ache sucks . I cant wait until the coughing kicks in...
To top it all off Ive been running into fits of this ache inside my chest for the past couple days. 10-30min of having the feeling of someones hands inside my chest just squeezing body parts. Im not good with anatomy but Id venture a guess and say kidney's. If not that then the liver. Just feels like hands are in there twisting them. I should see a doctor but I think I caused the problem with the meds I got hopped up on to try and get it under control once I started feeling sick. Popped a lot of cold/congestion stuff, zrytec, and some avil/ibprophane for headaches from sinus pressure.
Hope it passes.
Moving right along I seriously wonder how much longer I can stand being alone. Companionship is a necessity in the human life I think. Someone who can find a fulfilling life without it I applaud you. Im a lesser man who needs that person. I need someone to push me, challenge me, love me, and share things with. Daily. Nightly. The longer, more frequent, I come across these situations like with 'her' right now the more and more Im sure of what I want in a relationship. Which makes me that much harder to be with.
Im already not a super social person. This blows.
I should have been born in a different place at a different time. Im not meant for this age. I stroll through life hating myself with this current time. Modern convenience destroys me.
Love unrequited is love that harder for one and avoided by another.
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valoth
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2011 23 October :: 7.40pm
All Hallows Eve
I miss the old version of Halloween. Everyone these days seems to be obsessed with the gore, guts, and violence version of the holiday thats starting to form.
Remember when it was about outfits from the colonial era and stories that scared you because they played on original fears? Fears of the unknown the unexplained. The emblematic stories!
Stories of creatures that went bump in the night. Werewolves, vampires, and headless horsemen. Creatures that were able to take victims then disappear into the shadows they came from.
These days all I hear and see is zombies and godlike killers like that of Jason. Its all about how much blood will spew from a wound, how many people they can kill, or how much guts they can show.
It all seems Psychotic murderers and stories of undead walking the earth.
Zombies are dumb. The idea of an apocalypse revolving around them is even more stupid. People who like them are stupid. Common sense alone would suggest that something thats dead doesnt make sense roaming around. The only case of undead walking is Jesus, and he didnt go around eating people now did he?
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valoth
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2011 23 October :: 1.34am
I think I got across to her today. She might understand things now, even if it was only a few brief statements. That might be wishful thinking, but lets hope not.
Might go hang out with her soon.
She might show up for Thanksgiving still. Sounds like she was planning on that already, regardless of what she wont acknowledge or requite.
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phil-himself
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2011 20 October :: 7.02pm
And it's gonna be hell to pay.
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valoth
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2011 19 October :: 2.23am
SEPTEMBER 1st 2011 It all began spiraling downward
Why are you so callous about my feelings?
How many times had I brought the issue up. You make me want to flip the switch and ignore you forever.
I hate knowing you right now. What could I have done with the time Ive wasted on you?
"Men can never be just friends with women"
You can be coworkers, colleagues,related by family, married, divorced, or roomates. Never just friends though.
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