:: 2004 19 October :: 8.45 pm

Through countless hardships, failures and ailments a person becomes helpless only when they accept defeat.

let it

:: 2004 14 October :: 7.53 pm

The device I see
is right within
the night I sense
so intense
resist this kiss as
spicy whispers go
unattended in the
basement where i
know you shall go
unheard, without a word
seeking something without
receiving, giving more
than what you had in store
i felt the heat
underneath and with it came
some delay
out of the oven
in such a hurry
eating quickly
mouths are burning
stomachs churning
muscles squirming
my compliments to the
love chef

let it

:: 2004 14 October :: 5.23 pm

Well, well, well.


I keep wondering to myself, why is it that everyday I wake up and worry about what other people think about me? Maybe it is the fact that I have always had this obsession with my image, but yet again half of the time I really don't give a shit what I look like. Maybe there are two people inside of me that just want to be let out. Hmmm....

Anyhow.

I am not sure why some mornings i wake up with the urge to primp myself while others I don't even want to brush my hair. Sometimes I spend half an hour on my makeup, others I don't even look in the mirror.

You want to know what the weirdest thing about today was? I had mushroom soup for breakfast. I am not sure why, because right now it actually sounds pretty gross, but at the moment i was all for it.

And now i think i am suffering from sleep deprivation because I this very sudden urge to sing the alphabet song very loudly; maybe even run around outside buck naked and then jump in a giganto pile of leaves.

you know it.

if anyone wants to know i have another journal at www.blurty.com/users/emmyquillo

let it

:: 2004 10 October :: 7.44 pm

i got my mid-term report in the mail, and i am doing better than i thought i was but then again i am doing worse than i thought....


Well i have all A's, a B in German (which is great considering I have not been doing so hot in that class) and a C+ in Trig which i am kind of shocked by. Hopefully i can pull that up.

I am not really all that worried about school since this is my senior year and stupid college apps go by my stinking cumulative 3.4 GPA from last year. Oh well.

let it

:: 2004 6 October :: 6.05 pm

Well, Homecoming went semi-well (better than it has been the past two times) and i think i can credit that to the fact that i didn't have a date.

Anyhow.

I had a great time with Sharon, Amanda, and Melissa. Wish we could hang out more, but i know we can't...

Halloween is creeping here slowly. There is a dance on the 30th, not sure if i am going to go yet. I do have an excellent costume though, so i may just go so i can show it off.

let it