:: 2004 24 December :: 12.57 pm

Look, it is christmas eve.

Relatives are coming over like, now. Fun, and food yummy

let it

:: 2004 22 December :: 11.06 pm

Right now I
1) feel like crap, not just crap maybe worse because i ate a ton of junk food at Sharon's (well actually it was just this really greasy pizza) and...
2) want to go outside and play in the snow but look at the time and i don't think getting lost or freezing to death would be that great of a service to the well being of my family.

By any rate, tomorrow i get to ride the snow mobile that my parent's got today (don't ask, i have no idea why they got one, i guess they have just been wanting to get one for awhile and so they up and did.)

wow, it is only wednesday and i still have another week left this is sooooooo nice. Thank you LORD. Because i sure as hell do not want to go back to school any time soon.

But, today was also awesome because i went over to sharon's as we had a "mini" christmas get together with amanda and opened presents and had a good time just being plain silly. (and the misltetoe i might add gave some extra flavor to the setting) I think that sharon's two younger sister's think i am a lesbian or something after i kissed them and then proceeded to kiss both sharon and amanda. But, hey, i am just a loving person, eh?

So i had a decent day, it had its downs, but i got over them.

let it

:: 2004 21 December :: 10.40 pm

i whispered into the night
clinging onto false hopes
clenching to false dreams

I cursed immortality

reconciliation isn't all it used to be

let it

:: 2004 11 December :: 7.07 pm

Well my last entry was crazy. that is what happens when i am up too late. And to continue that thought, I wasup until 3, didn't really sleep any after that point...maybe on and off sleeping because i moved from the room with the woodstove to the cold room about three times, and then i was awake at 7.

So the morning was a bit crazy, like i think when i am around trisha i become dumb, or at least very stupid, or silly. not sure what, but it was snowing outside and we decided it would be fun to wake up sharon's brother by throwing snowballs at him. Oh it was fun, but if trisha hadn't been there i probably would have been on the computer or doing something else. Since sharon usually doesn't wake up until 9:30 or 10.

Anyhow it was a good laugh. It is fun to pick on younger people.

Blah, so trisha ended up coming over to my house for a few hours after we left sharon's at 10:30. We watched Starksy and Hutch.

Then after my family took trisha home we went to the Historical Society to see all the prettyful decorations hanging up. then came home ate supper and voila.

so, i am tired, but i am not sure if want to go to bed right now because i am sure everyone else is going to be awake fairly late and that means they are going to be loud and that means i won't be able to sleep because there is going to be too much commotion. BLAH.

let it

:: 2004 11 December :: 1.38 am

so its late and i am at sharon's house (yet again) trish is asleep in the room next door and well sharon...is trying to go to sleep downstairs. Yet, here i am for some reason at this late hour doing nothing in particular but writing about nothing particular. Maybe i am bored, maybe i am tired and just don't want to admit it, but for some reason here i am.

Today was an okay day. I thought i wouldn't make it through the day since i was up so late on thursday night and woke up so early friday morning and look...it is saturday! yay!

So i don't know what is going on today, i guess i am supposed to take trisha home, but i don't know how my parents are going to react to that exactly. Since they are always bitching at me about something in reguards to "overusing" the car...which means driving maybe once or twice a week. wow.

But, yah know, if they want to adopt trisha since it is such a sin to drive, then that's okay too, i have a pretty big bedroom i am sure i could fit another bed in there for her.

Not that i would want to, but, you know what i mean. I just don't understand why my parents are treating me like i am about three years old when well I am 18. That is cruel isn't it?

And since when is a car meant for driving? that blows my mind. I always thought that a car was meant to be kept in a garage or a driveway, who drives anyways?

obviously not me.

let it