So I thought to myself, why doesn't everyone just get along? Then I realized, that's right, we are all just human .

 

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:: 2004 1 May :: 7.49 pm

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:: 2004 29 April :: 10.25 pm

Today was weird. Was with sharon from 2-9:30. I am so suprised i haven't gotten sick of her yet. haha.

I would have been home earlier but my dad forgot about picking me up at 8, so it ended up being 9:30. Oh well. o well.

Tomorrow is the funeral. I wasn't going to go, but Sharon's mom and her are going so i am. I wanted to go, but it wasn't like i was going to go by myself. ugh. blah. I don't know what to say.

May hang out with Melissa tomorrow. Don't know yet mom is being queer about that. She says i need to be hom because it is jake ans laura's birthday. Well i wouldn't mind if it was the family birthday but it is the friend birthday. And i don't enjoy little rowdies running around everywhere. So if i have to stay home i am going to be locked in my room with the music quite loud.

blah. so many complications, so so so many.

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:: 2004 27 April :: 9.26 pm

It seems that the world is coming undone. The seams that hold us together from day to day are unravelling slowly; surely.

The things I found joy in -- ectasy in -- are now nothing but bland remedies for a rather boring life. I have lost the passion that once overflowed from me and the belief that there is always hope. Perhaps this is only a momentary loss, and I will awake someday and feel vitality in me again. But until then I am sorrowfully afraid I will remain pessimistic.

The events of one fateful day can change the heart of a person forever. I am afraid my heart has been changed. And i am not sure when or if it will ever be healed. I pray that it will, but cynicism runs deep and cold.

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:: 2004 26 April :: 9.16 pm

Feeling a bit ill. Hm, ill maybe in the mental respect, or in the physical respect? i'm not sure yet, my head and my belly hurts so i guess that can count as both.

School went alright today. Had 3 quizzes and one test. Kind of exhausting, especially when i had to use both of my studyhall periods to take them. (make up things from when i was gone) so i felt kind of rushed since my day is usually very relaxed. Maybe that is a factor in the sick feeling now. ugh, who knows. Maybe it also has to do with the fact that i am on page 90 out of 711 and i have until Thursday to finish.

yah, that may be it.



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:: 2004 25 April :: 9.31 pm

I had a nice weekend with Xach. Too bad it seemed to be over so quickly...

BGHS Prom is this coming weekend and sadly i am not going. I was considering it for awhile, but i am going to prom with Xach on the 8th at his school. I wanted to go to mine, but i don't know, two Proms two weekends in a row seems a bit much, plus i am pretty sure my parents wouldn't let me do that anyways.

But there is always next year, right? And i plan on going to all of the dances next year since i didn't go to any at my school. I feel kind of bad since i didn't go to any, but again, i don't. odd, eh?

I miss you Xach.

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