:: 2004 22 April :: 9.41 pm

School has been fun. Not. Well i thought i was caught up with my homework from missing monday and tuesday, but realized that i am not caught up. I am a chapter behind in Gatsby (i read two today) and have to finish my independent book and write two essays on it that will not be fun at all considering that they are due tomorrow and i haven't finished the book...hmm i guess i will just have to bs it or otherwise hope Mrs. Dever will have mercy. Like she did today when i asked her if i could take the Gatsby quiz tomorrow because i hadn't even read chapter one in the book yet...plus my STUPID book on Ben Franklin which i think i will just skim through, because there is no way i am going to be able to make it through a 700 page biography by next thursday. Nope, no way.

I have to take a history test monday that i haven't even looked over yet, i have to read the last three chapters in my history book for that... Also behind on my art project which isn't pleasant. Ugh, luckily i have two studyhalls. yes, luckily.

Friday i am going over to Shar's to sort something out, and possibly work on painting her room. (if she actually has paint rollers...which would be nice) Coming home friday night sometime to sleep in my own bed. Then Saturday afternoon Xach will (possibly, hopefully) be coming over and spending the day and part of Sunday with me and my family.

I really should read, but reading sounds so trite right now. I love to read, but taking notes while reading simply sucks, and it isn't motivating me much. So I will sit and it will suck and I will sleep.

what fun.

let it

:: 2004 21 April :: 6.56 pm

I'm back.

blah.

let it

:: 2004 16 April :: 4.56 am

I'm here in California. Isn't that weird? To think that I am updating my journal from over 2,000 miles away???

Anyways it has been nice here. It hasn't been as warm as i wished, it has actually been about 6 degrees cooler this week than usual. Oh well, that's the way it is. It hasn't been cold, and it hasn't been hot either, so i guess you could call that a good thing. But i kind of wanted warm weather, at least for when we go to the beach, but that is unlikely since in Santa Cruz it is only going to be aroun 59 degrees (thanks to weather.com) but there is always the option of wearing a wetsuit which i think i will take advantage of. joy.

alright, well it is pretty late, or should i say early? wow very confusing. Back home it is almost going on 5 o'clock, and here, it isn't even 2 yet. well i should go, even tho i haven't been sleeping all that much because of the continual stimulation of new places and new things, i think 6-7 hours is about the max i have been getting, which isn't bad considering the first night we didn't get to this house until three because checked baggage sucks.

but, it's been fun, and i don't want to go home. At least not now. This vacation has gave me a second wind so to speak. A second wind of motivation for life and a reason to spice things up a bit.

let it

:: 2004 11 April :: 9.51 pm

I leave for California tomorrow at 12:30. The long drive to Columbus, then the 6 hour plane trip. This should be quite interesting. I really hope this trip turns out well.

I'll be back Tuesday sometime, so until then. :)

let it

:: 2004 10 April :: 12.51 pm

Experiencing a glimpse of the past can bring tears, happiness, and regret. All of which i did experience this weekend.

It is hard to tell how i ever let a friendship almost melt away into nothingness. I know that there were complications, but is that really an excuse? I wonder at times if my priorities are a little out of order.

But remember, what is done is done, there is no changing what has already been, the only thing there is to do now is prepare for the future, so the past does not repeat itself.

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