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2004 9 September :: 8.04pm
mr tim8: i thought of you today
mr tim8: imnot going to lie
WulffMsc: aww, yay
WulffMsc: why? lol
mr tim8: i was taking a geology quiz
mr tim8: and the question was like
mr tim8: in the igious rock cycle please explian why rocks may have very simlar comaptions but have very different texture please explain why this happens and cite two rocks that this is evedint in and explain how it would accor in nature
mr tim8: and i was like
mr tim8: hm man
mr tim8: i wish brittany was here
WulffMsc: haha
WulffMsc: thats great
mr tim8: what was even greater was i knew that answer
tim is my favorite
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2004 6 September :: 10.40pm
i actually ate today...a full meal...i think thats the first time in a little over a week...i felt horrible afterwards, but i ate, theres nutrients in me now...that is a plus
sunday ian daniel and i ate lunch at arbys...we're real winners, we stayed there for 3 hours, adam met us for a bit, we talked to the twins and ran into bob, it was nice, i really enjoyed it...i think ian and i need to make this lunch thing a weekly event...i like our little games of catch up :) ian adam and i went to meijer...hung out with bob while he worked, i bought ian a candy car...ian took me back to my car where we had a 5 minute catch up session...it was a great session though, i met adam at finders, where amanda then met us, we went to dans and stayed there the rest of the night, and did a shit load of nothing, stevie and megan also joined us there
today...slept until 11, that was glorious, i felt like a big bum though, and i did nothing, but today was the first day in awhile that ive felt ok about things, and ive continued to feel ok about things even though nothing has really changed...id hate to say it, but maybe im just getting used to it, even though this isnt something that anyone should ever have to get used to...idk, all i know, is im feeling better
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2004 4 September :: 1.39pm
:: Mood: distressed
:: Music: KBV2
first week of school....done
first two football games....done
feeling better....fuck
i feel like shit, and i have for awhile, ive gotten to the point where i dont eat because food looks in no way appetizing, i dont sleep because of this constant feeling of discomfort, i just hurt, and im getting sick of it. i told stevie i'd just like to fast forward a bit and see what happens, thatd be great. but i was thinking about it...this is all self-enduced..not the actual thing thats causing it but the reaction...i just need to learn to move on and i'll be alright, but theres this constant feeling, and i know exactly what it is, and i know it wont go away for awhile until i actually discuss it, however, i dont see that discussion coming up anytime soon...so bare with me for awhile...this looks like its gonna be a long road, but i promise, i'll get my act together someday..i actually think ive been doing fairly well, i mean, my ability to hide shit really surprises me...im stronger than i thought
school actually hast been bad...ive grown to hate band, calc is fun though, physics could use some activity, govt...well, i just talk to hess the entire time...and AP normally shows for some fun times, and art i can sit there in solitude for awhile and its nice. im able to leave right after 6th, but lately ive been staying the entire day to work on things for either band or sab...next week i'll have to work on sab at least twice...im starting to wish i wasnt so involved with everything...
i got to see aunt elaine last night..she was at the game...she said megan and i can go for a visit...im taking her up on that...some time away from ohio is much needed right now...out of sight, out of mind right? probably wouldnt work
i also saw the herringshaws metcalfs wensinks and mershmans at the game....so many people to say hi to!!
homecoming is soon...makes me want to cry a lot...very stressful, i dont even want to think about the hours of work im gonna have to put into that
how long until graduation??
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2004 31 August :: 3.34pm
:: Mood: indescribable
first day of school...over
last night megan called me and asked if i wanted to go watch amandas game with her...well, it was that or work on my idea/quote lists some more so i eagerly accepted...my very first volleyball game, it was exciting, i need to learn the calls though and then i think i'll understand it all a little bit more. but before the game, i was at megans house and we were looking at pictures of megan and aaron from when they were little...i miss being little...that time in your life where nothing matters as long as theres a game to play, and your bed waiting for you at night. but anyway, we went to the hs for the game, picked up our yearbooks which are a vast improvement from the year before. went to the sundae station afterwards and quickly headed home because it was fast approaching 930 and i still have some work to do...
so..first day of my senior year...mom took my picture this morning...kinda cute. classes i think are going to be ok...band is band..calc will be fun, 5 girls and like 20 guys haha. but brighman is fun, and we get along. physics i have ian and tara...gov't i have with hess, so it should be entertaining to say the least...AP will kick my ass, and art is intriguing, i know i wont be the best at it, but i still think it'll be fun, plus ive got adam lingering around the room also, which is nice...then i get to go home early...so i went to see mom, told her all the shit i need to buy, ran to the CA, contemplated going to see coach, but decided against it...too many small people around to face it alone, i'll wait until adam decides to come with me
now i have a 2 page journal to write, a calc worksheet and some forms to fill out...yay for school...
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2004 23 August :: 9.53am
:: Mood: happy, but pissed because i have to go to band
:: Music: final fantasy 5 and 6!!
havent updated in awhile...eh
ok, so lately, ive felt like ive been going around completely blind folded, and i havent been able to find anything, it's like i was in a damn meadow...then last night i finally hit a wall. pretty hard too. it was one of those...smack yourself on the forehead, cause the biggest welt because you're the biggest dork ever kinda things. i already knew what i found out...but hearing it from the source helped soooo much. i think we may have finally reached the ok stage...like the ok ok, no the ok but sometimes not ok stage that we've been in for awhile. makes me happy. well, plus the fact, i have a sweet ass euchre partner now haha
this weekend was a lot of fun. friday we had the freshman breakfast, so stevie sara and i went out after about 2 hours of sleep and picked up some three very surprised freshmen. went to the HS at 6am and ate some food, played some ridiculous games and then came home. i think they really enjoyed themselves...they got a better freshman breakfast than we did. came home...got ready for my interview (yea i know, britt working...such a shocker..) but yea, got the job, so now i have to go through all that work permit shit and ugh, anyway, left here with sara to go get dani! that was tons of fun, raining hardcore, the fort was basically one big puddle, went to the mall to grab some subway and shop a little before going to the guys' scrimmage...they looked good, but i guess we'll wait until friday to see how good. left the scrimmage early and went to grounds and then to amandas...watched the olympics and then left. did a lot of explaining to dani..filled her in on pretty much everything, shes the whole...unbiased opinion you want to hear :)
saturday we woke up and headed into town...ran an errand for band and then went to megans to help her pick out a pair of glasses shes wants...now you're thinking, picking out glasses that should take like 3 minutes...it did. then we talked for about 50 haha. we watched her paint her room and just chatted...gotta love megan. and her family because we got a free cake from them instead of having to go buy one. granted it said 'chris happy 13th'. adam was able to scrape off the chris, make the 3 into an 8 and draw a dolphin on it with the frosting dani and i went to kroger to buy. the cake looks really good, so daniel adam dani and i sat and watched both kill bills...amanda came out during the first one? idk, she came sometime. had stevies party that night...she was complteely surprised...expecially when she cut the cake and found some money bundled up inside for her tattoo :) she loves us haha. so i actually get to go todya and watch her get it...im kinda creeped out but at the same time, incredibly intrigued. played a lot of euchre that night...so much fun, made dinner which was great, it was just an amazing night...
sunday, dani and i left here arounf 1,went to finders...found both the kill bill sound tracks that i realy want and will soon have and she cought aerosmith g.h., went to panera, sat around there for over an hour just chatting, went to for keeps, and then visited daniel at the library...talked to mrs dunn! i love mrs dunn...shes so cool. came home, cleaned the house, then bill and robin came and they left...sad, i miss dani already! haha, i'll make her come up again during the school year :)
went tod ans last night, played euchre, and sat around...gotta love it
well, i think that was upbeat enough :)
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