lala la
havent written in here for a lil bit...nothins new..my life is boring lol..
last nite i went to the mall with MEGGY lol it was fun...we saw rebecca gui and ryan..lol THEN we saw ryan fogarty and meg had to do sumthin and he told her to WAIT there until he comes back...so we wait...and wait...and wait...for like a half hour NEVER COMES lol and so she called him and hes sittin at home waitin for his ride..so we still wait..and wait...then gui told us he was gunna drive us to the movies so he did..and he was STILL at home..and she was like ill talk to u tomaro..lol and then her mom came to pick us up...so it was a very eventful nite i guess..lol gui and ryan are mean! lol takin my fone..not cool mann!!

kelshey--> me and you STILL have to do our shin-dig lol we must

lol well im out...gunna go be bored..or be online and talk to my lil devil..haha luvvv youuu

-emmmmmmyyyyy-

laaaa
((ow peter just hit me)) :-(

haha today was a funny day at school..gym was pretty fun..guys vs. girls in dodgeball haha yes we kicked ass haha outside the fact that helena is afraid of balls being thrown at her head..we did okay...

helen came over after school lol she FORCED me to make her god damn cookies and she made me eat them....I DONT EVEN LIKE CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIES...then we watched sum of blow..GOOD MOVIE mann haha

hmm richard is gay...and so is lamis

hmm...nothin is new..marks downstairs with tessa...peters home for spring break unfortunatly :-(

hmm yea nothin else to say...
byebye
-emily-

waiting...
rite now im sittin here waitin for time to go by so i can get ready for the funeral and go to it...i didnt get to go to school today, which i guess is alright...but wenever i miss it..i always end up sitting at home doing nothing...kinda like wat im doin rite now...

the wake last nite was sad...SSOOOO many ppl there...damn i wish that wen i die that many ppl show up at my wake..sheesh there was a LOOONNGGG ass line to get in..so we had to wait outside in the FREEZING cold for liek 20 minutes..and i was wearin a fuckin skirt..and my shoes were 4 inch sandals not the rite type of shoe to stand in one place in the cold..lol i saw my old babysitter that i had wen i still lived in watertown..lol she saw me and like started to cry and was liek omg ur so big beautiful now.. i use to change ur diapers..then peter and mark saw her and she was like ahh omg! they are so big! lol and i saw sum of my cousins too..which was cool, but it sucked to see them at that kinda of event :-\

Irma De Julio may you Rest In Peace..We Will Always Love You Forever

im out...
-emily-

baaa
..today was a boring day at school, as always...in a few hours i gotta go to the wake... :-\ ahh this is gunna be hard...

i got a shit load of homework to do...and i gotta take a shower and get ready and shit...ahh im such a lazy person that i prolly wont start any of this until like 6 or sumthin..yeaa thats me..a lazy bum ((as Mr. Collins calls me))

*quote and poem time :-)*
Won't you look into my eyes, and see the pain I always hide


My innocent smile
hides my tears
my happy laughter
covers my fears
i am so hurt
and i dont show
my feelings build up
they seem to grow
i wish my life was different in a way
and i wish i didnt have
to go through this pain everyday

EverYone sees whO i appear tO be
but only a few know the real me
you only see what i choOse to show
theres sO much behind my smile
you just dont know

My life has no meaning
I feel all alone
this sorrow all around me
has already greatly grown.
Everyone around me
seem alive and real
but, I'm just dead and hopeless
that's exactly how I feel.

a few lyrics from eminem...

"I dont know why this world keep turning
Round and Round
But I wish it would stop and let me off right now..."

alrighty...im out...

--> H!dD3N t3@rZ <--

survey
have you ever...
1) ...fallen for your best friend: yeah..
2) ...made out with just a friend: yea
3) ...been rejected: kinda
4) ...been in love: not sure
5) ...been in lust: sure
6) ...used someone: for what? i dont use people
7) ...been used: yeah
8) ...cheated on someone: never
9) ...been cheated on: i hope not
10) ...been kissed: yesh
11) ...done something you regret: kinda
12) ...color your hair: highlites
13) ...have tattoos: noo
14) ...piercings: just ears
15) ...own webcam: nope
16) ...ever get off the damn computer: um no
17) ...sprechen sie deutsch: mm? oh yea me too..??
18) ...habla espanol: asi-asi
19) ...quack: duckies!

have you/do you/are you...
20) ...stolen anything: hahaha..this is me we are talkin about!
21) ...smoke: yesh
22) ...schizophrenic:umm..?
23) ...obsessive: guys
24) ...compulsive: i think so
25) ...obsessive compulsive: yuppers
26) ...panic: yes
27) ...anxiety: yea
28) ...suicidal: yes
29) ...obsessed with hate for some people: hmm...
30) ...dream of gorish things: ew i dono
31) ...dream of doing gorish things instead of seeing them: lol um?
32) ...if you could go anywhere, where would you be?: away from here..maybe bora bora or MAUI haha
33) ...who would you be with: no comment
34) ...what would you be doing: lol i donno
35) ...what are you listening to: my im sound lol
36) ...can you do anything freakish with your body?: hmmm
37) ...chicken or fish: chickies!
38) ...is ice cream the best thing in the world?: no lol

Alphabet::
A) age: 14
B) best quality: i can listen to ppl
C) choice of meat: hmm
D) dream date: anything on a beach at sunset lol
E) exciting adventure: hmm..i donno
F) fave food: PASTA
G) greatest accomplishment: no accomplishments
H) happiest day of your life: im waiting for it...
I) interest: music & love & friends
J) jones soda: ...?? huh
K) kool-aid: sure
L) love: crazy, insane, great,pain
M) most valued thing you own: camera and pictures
N) name: umm emily
O) outfit you love: hmm...too many
P) pizza toppings: pepperoni
Q) question asked to you the most: are you okay?
R) respect: you give i return
S) sport you watch: hmm bball..soccer...football, vball
T) tv shows: boy meets world..nething on mtv..american dreams!
U) urine: mm..?
V) valued object: heart..camera..
W) winter: coldd
Y) year born: 1989
Z) zodiac sign: gemini

:-(
my cousins grandmother just died...she had been fightin for her life for the past few months and i just found out now that she died Friday morning..the wake is tomaro and the funeral is tuesday morning..im prolly gunna go to it too...
*RIP ID*luv you

..last nite i went to the mall with katie..wow lol absolutely no1 was there lol we stayed in the foodcourt forever..then decided to go walk around..and i was cold so i bought ANOTHER hoodie lol..this one says Maui on it..lol thats my island!!! :-) lol and so is Bora Bora....

ah today is prolly gunna be a boring day once again..i have to clean my room tho :-\ ughh..and then i have gay ass ccd tonite...baaa

im out
-emily-

la la...
havent written in here for a whileee...last nite i did nothing..lol i watched Touching Evil..thats a odd show but it was cool...yesterday after school i went to NHS to watch teh speedball tourny with katie lil sherge :-) fun funn...
ahh...so today will be boring..i can garuntee that already..

damn this weekend i have to work on my drug project..Cocaine :-) lol i learned stuff from the movie Blow about cocaine..lol thats a good movie..even better cuz its real lol

today i wanna watch A Bronx Tale..lol with robert de niro...a lil mafia here and there aint bad for the soul baby!!

38 more days until 420!!!

"Don't Let Your Mouth Write a Check That Your Butt Can't Cash" ~Dazed and Confused

alrighty im out...
-emmy-
-leave a comment-

.......
just came back from WaLtHaM..lol i was there all day cookin and stuff..lol yumm fooood haha...today at school it was ehh...nothin good happened..i wish it was the weekend-this week has gone by soooo slow...its not even funny mann
*damn fags need to stop callin my fone and leavin gay ass messages*((cough cough RICHARD))fagg

ahh im so bored...and tired..and cold

goodnite
-emily-

:-)
i just finished re-organizin my room..lol now i have this giant empty space on my wall...but ill find sumthin to put there..i still have other shit to do in there so i can finally have my room the way I want it :-) i set up all my pictures that are framed on my shelves..so it looks all pretty now :) and i have two big trash bags full of junk that imma throw out..lol and that wasnt even half my room...cant wait until i do the other half...and the closet thats a garuntee..of umm 4 bags..if im lucky..haha

silence of the lambs..good movie

tomaro we only got periods 1-3 :-) then sum borin shit in the gym..and a play thingy we have to watch...lol then we have "cookies and soda" tomaro is my mommy's bday too.. :-)
and wednesday im goin down to Waltham with my mom so we can help our friend who just had surgery..i get to make sum sauce and meatballs..italian style baby! haha niiice lol im pumped to make sum sauce..lol i love it with all the spices yumm :-p

well im out..
-emmy-

bored...
so last nite i did NOTHING...soooo boring omg...my mommy took me out to get ice cream haha cuz i was making her mad cuz i was like running around the house saying im bored im bored..lol and i got fries too...cuz i loooove them...

ahh today i have to type up my history project..and i have to clean up my room :-) lol its a tad bit messy...lol like always...then i have CCD tonite..and its a lil discussion on how to prevent suicide..HA! wat a wonderful subject for me! lol you cant prevent ppl from wanting to kill themselves tho...with some ppl you can...but not usually..

this week is A-week at school :-) good..and bad i guess :-\...but its all good..ill try to make myself happy

I try not to care
I try not to think about it
I try not to love you
I try not to give in
I try not to let the pain take me over
I try not to cry
But the tears just run down my face like they are meant to be there...
^^thanks ashley

I don't even know why I care
Why I still cry
Why I let this bullshit get to me
I try so hard
But I can't do it
I can't take it
I'm sick of all this shit
But I can't let it go
:-(

tHe ScArS rEmAiN fOrEvEr

la la..
last nite the talent show was pretty much..gay...lol but listening to katie and serge make fun of ppl made it better lol and watchin fil act like he had ADHD...hahaha

so today i woke up and went online..then decided to watch The Godfather part II..it was good..but the first ones better :-)
then i went out shoppin with my mom and i got like..5 new shirts a new nightstand and a corner shelf for my room to put all my frames on wen i get rid of my ugly desk :-) very happy i have sumwhere to put all my frames of friends.

baa tonite i donno wat im doin yet..and i wanna get out of here and do sumthin...but if i dont end up goin out sumwhere ill prolly just have sum ppl here..lol i will make whoever comes here watch the godfather haha :-) im so evil

call me if u wanna do sumthin
-emmy-

la la la....
today was a good day at school i guess..lol i couldnt stop laughin with my lil helena baby...haha i presented my project in english..lol yea me and helena have a lil case of stage fright...lol wen i was up there i looked in the hall and i saw shola stand there and smile haha that made me smile so then i was okay for the rest of the time...lol
:-)...

...so tonite i think im gunna go to Natick High to watch the talent show...i never new that natick had talent tho...wow....thats pretty cool lol i get to see KATIE i love you my lil dork...lol and i get to see lil serge and fil prolly..lol fun fun fun

..i think im gunna go downstairs in a lil bit to watch The Godfather part 2 lol but nothin can top the first one..i love it soooo much...

im out
*-emmiez-*

...
so today was an okay day at school..the mornin was fucked up i was in the worst mood ever..but i was okay after period 3 i guess..then i came home..did my usual routine((online and tv)) then i went to finish watchin The Godfather...i just finished a few minutes ago...such a good movie! lol thats how the family buisiness works..what can i say...

aww lil serge asked katie out :-) i love you katie!!

this past month...has been so shitty..every1 lately has been pissing me off..at school mostly...the little things are bothering me..that i usually wouldnt care about..but i do..and i dont know why..and lately ive been missing my natick people a lot..its hit me hard that i cant see my friends that ive grown up with my whole life..like meggy ive known her forever..and cassie d ive known her for a long time.. and val..every1 i just miss so much..and its just recently hit me how much i love them..it hit me hard

i use to be a real shy person..and a lot of people know that..and ive gotten better at saying my feelings to people..but still there are those times where i dont tell people how i feel about them..whether its good, or bad...and i regret some things that have happend this year..im sorry for everything...any1 who ive hurt in anyway..im sorry forgive me...if ur mad at me, and u want to ignore me forever, i understand..i guess...but please listen to me when i say..
i will forever love you

im gunna go finish sittin in my room and just...thinking...

Yours Truly,
Emily Ann D'Agostino

haha
lol yesterday i went to nhs to watch the bball games with katie serge and fil..lol omg i couldnt stop laughin the whole time..lol it was madd funny..lol i still laugh at the Finding Nemo moments..haha
BallerKidd21: WAIT WOOOOOOOA
BallerKidd21: AND I WAS LIKE WOOOOOOOOOO
BallerKidd21: AND HE WAS LIKE WOOOOO
BallerKidd21: COOL DUDE LOL
^^ HAHAHAHA

haha katie i love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
QteeKate88: aww emily and white boy sittin in a tree K-I-S-S-I-N-G

^^ okay...tell me can you honestly ever picture me...and a white guy?? i mean COME ON hahaha

hahaha wow i cannot stop laughing rite now...haha my family thinks im crazy..lol and tessa cuz shes here with mark BAAA they are in teh fucking basement WHERE I WANTED TO GO..so i can finish watchin my movie..The Godfather...lol YEA MAFIA! :-) gotta show love my family...haha

alright..im out...
-emmmmmmyyyyy-

blah
im gunna take the survey thats in kelseys journal...lol tanky kelshey :-)

..*SuRVeY!!*..
-001- [x] Licensed:: Emily Ann D'Agostino
-002- [x] Candles:: 14
-003- [x] 1st Breath:: 6-12-89
-004- [x] Sign:: Gemini
-006- [x] School:: Keefe Tech
-007- [x] Mascot:: haha unicorn
-008- [x] K-12:: 9
-009- [x] Birth place:: newton
-010- [x] K’shun:: maine..cape cod..
-011- [x] other places lived:: watertown
-012- [x] Hair color:: dark Brown
-013- [x] Hair Length:: a lil longer then my shoulders
-014- [x] Curly or Straight:: Straight
-015- [x] Tan or Translucent:: umm i donno
-016- [x] Eye color:: hazel-ish brown-ish
-017- [x] Height:: 5'2
-018- [x] Weight:: no comment
-019- [x] Nationalities:: ITALIAN PRINCESS BABY!!!
-020- [x] Boyfriend:: No
-021- [x] Girlfriend::
-022- [x] Their Name::
-023- [x] Their Age::
-024- [x] Their School::
-025- [x] k-12::
-026- [x] Since When::
-027- [x] How Long::
-028- [x] Crush:: not really
-029- [x] Their Name::
-030- [x] Best Friends:: Meg Amanda Kate Kelsey
-033- [x] Most Inside Jokes:: amanda haha
-034- [x] Best Room:: um...i donno
-035- [x] Craziest:: Meg
-036- [x] Sweetest:: Kate
-037- [x] Never Fight With:: Kate
-038- [x] Always Fight With:: I don't really fight with any of them
-039- [x] Family Members:: 5
-040- [x] Mom:: Yes
-041- [x] Dad:: Yes
-042- [x] Brothers?:: Yes
-043- [x] Their Names:: peter and mark
-044- [x] Their Ages:: 20, 18
-045- [x] Sisters?:: Nope
-046- [x] Their Names::
-047- [x] Their Ages::
-048- [x] Pets?:: Yes
-049- [x] Kinds:: that gerbil thingy
-050- [x] Names:: do i care?
-051- [x] Favorite Family Member:: i donno marks alright lol
-052- [x] Mom or Dad:: Mommy
-053- [x] Thongs or Panties:: Thong
-054- [x] Boxers or Briefs:: Boxers
-055- [x] Hair up or Down:: Down
-056- [x] TV or Computer:: Computer
-057- [x] Alone or Friends:: Friends..but it depends on my mood
-058- [x] Mall or Movies:: Mall! :-)
-059- [x] Beach or Boat:: Beach
-060- [x] Boyfriend or Single:: Both...depends
-061- [x] Heaven or Hell:: haha hell..rite kelshey?
-062- [x] Night or Day:: Night
-063- [x] Big Crowd or Close Friends:: Close friends I guess
-064- [x] Cup Cakes or Cakes:: cup cakes
-065- [x] Chocolate or Vanilla:: vanilla
-066- [x] Hugs or Kisses:: hugs
-067- [x] Chocolates or Flowers:: flowers
-068- [x] Diamonds or Pearls:: Diamonds
-069- [x] Love or Lust:: Love
-070- [x] Hat or Visor:: depends
-071- [x] Sneakers or Flip Flops:: hmm depends
-072- [x] Pants or Shorts:: Pants
-073- [x] Skirts or Dresses:: skirts
-074- [x] Purse or Wallet:: Purse
-075- [x] Curly or Straight:: Straight
-076- [x] VCR or DVD:: DVD
-077- [x] CD or Radio:: Radio
-078- [x] Dog or Cat:: dog
-079- [x] Cold or Hot:: Cold
-080- [x] NYC or Hawaii:: hawaii
-081- [x] Movies or Books:: Movies
-082- [x] Water or Soda:: Soda
-083- [x] Fruits or Vegetables:: Fruits
-084- [x] Rain or Shine:: Both..Depends on my mood
-085- [x] Sunrise or Sunset:: Sunset
-086- [x] Princess or Queen:: Princess
-087- [x] Candle or Lamp:: Candle
-088- [x] Shower or Bath:: bath
-089- [x] Pen or Pencil:: Pen
-090- [x] Blue or Black Ink:: Black
-091- [x] Phone or Person:: person
-092- [x] E-Mail or IM:: IM
-093- [x] Journal or Diary:: Journal
-094- [x] Sun Tan or Tanning Salon:: Suntan
-095- [x] Family or Friends:: friends
-096- [x] Boyfriend or Friends:: friends
-097- [x] Moon or Stars:: stars
-098- [x] Gold or Silver:: Silver
-099- [x] White Gold or Platinum:: Platinum
-100- [x] Hair Spray or Gel:: both
-101- [x] Sweet or Sour:: Sweet
-102- [x] Black or White:: black ((men))
-103- [x] Pillow or Blanket:: Pillow
-104- [x] Favorite Movie:: GOONIES!
-105- [x] Favorite TV Show:: hmm...
-106- [x] Favorite Color:: Pink
-107- [x] Favorite Number:: 12
-108- [x] Favorite Actress:: umm...?
-109- [x] Favorite Actors:: ??
-110- [x] Favorite Song:: soooo many maybe dirt off ur shoulder :-(
-111- [x] Favorite Month:: june july or august
-112- [x] Favorite Holiday:: christmas
-113- [x] Favorite Food:: French Fries and pasta!
-114- [x] Favorite Drink:: milk lol
-115- [x] Favorite Sport:: Soccer or bball or vball
-116- [x] Favorite Channel:: Disney or mtv :-)
-117- [x] Favorite Radio Station:: 94.5
-118- [x] Favorite CD:: i donno
-119- [x] Favorite Day of the Week:: Friday
-120- [x] Favorite Season:: Fall+ Spring
-121- [x] Favorite Place:: The mall..yes im a mall rat
-122- [x] Favorite Store:: rave i think...lol
-123- [x] Favorite Scent:: Moonlight Path
-124- [x] Favorite Grade:: 8th
-125- [x] Favorite Room:: i donno kelseys is nice
-126- [x] Favorite Flower:: Rose or daisy
-127- [x] Favorite Teacher:: Mr.Leavitt or ms. krantz
-128- [x] Favorite Cartoon Character:: I hate cartoons
-129- [x] Favorite Book:: Making the Run
-130- [x] Favorite Quote:: wayyy too many -131- [x] Favorite Girl Name:: Gina or Hailie
-132- [x] Favorite Boy Name:: Anthony
-133- [x] Favorite Phrase:: ahh faackk or yuppers..alrighty...awww
-134- [x] Shoes Usually Worn:: sneakers
-135- [x] Bottoms Usually Worn:: jeans..or scrubs
-136- [x] Top Usually Worn:: hoodie
-137- [x] Hair Usually Worn:: Down, or ponytail
-138- [x] Jewelry Usually Worn:: ear studs,,necklace,bracelet,my rings
-139- [x] Make Up Usually Worn:: Concealer,Black eyeliner,clear lipgloss, mascara
-140- [x] Nail Polish Usually Worn:: pink
-141- [x] Piercings?:: Yes
-142- [x] How Many:: 4
-143- [x] Where:: Ears
-144- [x] Do You Want More:: yes
-145- [x] Where:: belly button and ears
-146- [x] Tattoos:: None
-147- [x] How Many:: …
-148- [x] Where:: …
-149- [x] If You Don’t Do You Want Any:: Yes
-150- [x] Where:: Lower back,ankle,shoulder,wrist
-151- [x] What:: rose..devil...slit..italian flag
-152- [x] Do You Believe in Aliens:: umm...No
-153- [x] Do You Believe in God:: sorta
-154- [x] Do You Believe in Heaven:: Sort of
-155- [x] Do You Believe in Hell:: lets think..i am the devil
-156- [x] Do You Believe in Angels:: Yes
-157- [x] Do You Believe in Magic:: ehh
-158- [x] Do You Believe in Fate:: Yes
-159- [x] Do You Believe in True Love:: YES
-160- [x] Do You Believe in Ghosts:: Yes




[ Current Clothes ] pink pants..pink cadillac shirt
[ Current Mood ] umm bored
[ Current Music ] jayz..dirt off ur shoulder :(
[ Current Taste ] cookies
[ Current Hair ] thrown up
[ Current Annoyance ] guys
[ Current Favorite Artist ] Chingy, g-unit..i donno
[ Current Desktop Picture ] ugly clouds
[ Current CD in CD Player] mix
[ Current DVD in player] none
[ Current Refreshment ] milk
[ Current Worry ] wen mark is gettin here to drive me

LAST PERSON...
[ You Touched ] not sure
[ You Talked to ] my mom
[ You Hugged ] ryan
[ You Instant messaged ] ryan
[ You Yelled At ] not sure

FAVORITE...
[ Food ] french fries
[ Drink ] milk
[ Color ] pink
[ Album ] i donno
[ Shoes ] my boots...or adidas
[ Candy ] Mr.Goodbar and REESES!!!!!!
[ TV Show ] Boy Meets World or sumthin on mtv
[ Movie ] GOONIES
[ Dance ] i cant dance haha
[ Song ] hmm..dirt off ur shoulder
[ Cartoon ] I hate cartoons

ARE YOU...
[ Understanding ] I try
[ Open-minded ] not sure
[ Insecure ] yes
[ Interesting ] probly not
[ Random ] a bit
[ Hungry ] usually
[ Friendly ] ehh
[ Smart ] hahahahaha
[ Moody ] yes
[ Childish ] haha I try not to be but i can
[ Hard working ] nah
[ Organized ] i try
[ Healthy ] ehh smoking mite interfere with that
[ Emotionally Stable ] no
[ Shy ] yea
[ Difficult ] probably
[ Attractive ] no
[ Bored Easily ] yeshh
[ Messy ] at times
[ Thirsty ] I guess
[ Responsible ] ughh..
[ Obsessed ] yess
[ Angry ] sometimes
[ Sad ] alot
[ Happy ] I try to be
[ Hyper ] wen im with helena lol
[ Trusting ] I hope
[ Talkative ] sometimes

WHO DO YOU WANT TO...
[ Kill ] haha cozzy :-)
[ Slap ] lots of ppl
[ Look Like ] hmm...
[ Talk To Offline ] kate and kelsey
[ Talk To Online ] no1s on

HAVE YOU EVER..
[ Pictured your crush naked? ] lol ya
[ Been in love ] not truly
[ Cried when someone died ] yes
[ Cried when you were dumped ] yes
[ Lied] yes

WHICH IS BETTER..
[ Coke or pepsi] coke
[ Flowers or candy] flowers
[ Tall or short ] I'm short

WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX..
[what do u notice first?] eyes,smile..
[last person u slow danced with] woahh that was a long time ago
[worst question to ask] 'do you spit or swallow?' << i agree with kelsey on that

WHO..
[makes u laugh the most?] hmmm friends
[makes you smile] friends and guys
[makes you blush] guys
[has a crush on u?] I dunno..apparently a lot of ppl at school haha
[is easiest to talk to] kate..or helena, or erica lol i donno and kelsey is

DO YOU EVER..
[sit on the internet all night waiting for someone special to I.M. you?] yes..but shh
[save aol/aim conversations] yes i have mannyyy
[wish u were a member of the opposite sex] helena wishes i was so she could bang me
[cried because of someone saying something to you] yes...allll the time

HAVE YOU EVER..
[fallen for your best friend] kinda
[been rejected] I think so
[been cheated on] not that I know of..but doesn't mean I havent
[cheated on someone] nope
[done something you regret] yes

DO YOU / HAVE YOU..
[could u live without the computer?] no
[color ur hair] nahh i like my hair color
[ever get off the damn computer] no
[habla espanol] haha i wish
[how many peeps are on ur buddylist?] I dunno almost 200
[like watching sunrises or sunset] yes its me
[what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain?] emotional

NUMBER..
[of guys I have kissed?] 3
[of girls I have kissed?] sammi and helena..friendly pecks
[of continents I have lived in?] 1
[of tight friends?] 6 or 7
[of cd's that I own?] I dunno I make most of my CD's
[of scars on my body?] my slits on my wrist
[of things in my past that I regret?] gerry..:-\

la la
so last nite i went to the mall with katie :-) saw madd ppl there..i got to see serge..lol didnt talk to tho cuz it felt wierd goin up to him with katie with me :-\ but its all good..the whole nite me and katie talked about serge..lol for 3 straight hours...and tonite katies comin over lol any1 else u can come too if u want..lol
ugh..i have to work on my history project and my english report...baaa damn school

i have the biggest headache rite now..

lol this mornin i had to go to a funeral for my great aunt..lol nice italian funeral...lol
~R.I.P. AD~

ATTENTION Fats Pelligrini has died!! lol most of you probably dont kno who that is..but hes part of the mob that lives in Newton..The Lake to be exact..no one knows wat im talking about so imma stop....

im out
-emmy-

_|_The Scars Remain_|_

blah
so today i slept in late...woke and i felt so sick...then i ate breakfast and went back to sleep...and i woke up with the biggest headache ever..ahh it still hurts now :-( but takin a nice hot shower felt soooo much better lol now im happier :-D lol

ugh.. i have ccd in like..a half hour..thats gunna make my day even worse..ahh its so stupid we have one of those boring talks on "Relationships"..how gay is that?!?

oh yes my mom said i was grounded for this whole week..and she took the cell fone..haha wat a fag she really thinks that shes gunna follow thru with this grounding..haha she always says that then the next day ill ask to go out and she would be like oh yes of course..haha i got her on whip ;-)

haha well imma go eat sum dinner..byez
-emmy-

baa
yesterday morning i got my braces off :-D hehe im sooo happy lol i look a lil different..and ppl are tellin me that i look like Christina Ricci..i was like ummm alrighty then! then after i came home and then went to meggys house to chill with her and kelsey :) much fun..then helena called me and as i was talking to her meaghans blacklight fell lol and kelsey got scared and like screamed then i got scared of kelsey..haha then of course i couldnt stop laughing..lol helena was like are u high?? haha NO i was not helena! i dont do drugs..wat are u talking about?!? ;-)

then after that i went to the mall..aw the good times there with the girlies :-) lol i got to see gui dean an gerry..((not the gerry cared to see me or anything))..but i saw him anyways..and jessy lol...hmmm who else did i get to see...oh yes serge too..and MR.LOPEZ omg soo hott..lol i got to talk to him i was like ahhh ur hot and ur talking to me!! haaha yes i was cheesed :-D..

today i have to go to the dentist again..ahh poopy...but then im doin nothin for the rest of the day..so imma be bored sittin here on my ass, as usual...

well im out..
(-(emmy-)-)


*my new favorite quote*
-->Just think about it next time you hurt a gurl...
you just might destroy her whole world<--

sick
today i slept all day long pretty much...cuz i took too much of the medicine that i was supposed to take before bed..not during the day :-\ yea so i was like knocked out from that for like 4 hours...and now im still sleepy and my body is like exhausted from doing..nothing

tomaro i get my braces off :-D im very excited for that lol

last nite i went to kelseys and we walked to johnson with jimmy robbie and ian...i thought i was going to freeze to death..my hand were turning blue lol and even wen i got home i was still freezing and i couldnt stop shaking...i remember getting out of bed and putting on a sweatshirt,a hat and a pair of mittens on..lol and wen i woke up i was in teh same position..with all of it on still..lol i was soooo cold and tired

ahh ive done nothing this whole vacation..it was so boring thats why i hate vacations..the first like 3 days are nice then after that u sit at home and do nothing all day..yea thats pretty much wat happens :-)

well i think im gunna go sit on the couch and watch more tv..and prolly fall asleep again..but call my cell if u got plans!

-emmy-

so fucking bored
im going to go insane i am so fuckin bored...its not even funny mann...i wanna go to the mall or sumthin..at least its gettin out of this house..ive been here for the past like 3 days..its maddness!

omg somebody who is reading this..text my fone ANYTIME this vacation PLEASE save me from my insanity!

mall baby!
hmm..goin to the mall tonite with the one and only Nicuddles :-) i havent been to the mall in a long time..i miss is dearly..lol so the rest of my week will consist of..
-Sleeping
-Going Online
-Watching TV
-Playing with my phone

yea thats my vacation...lol no1 seems to want to make plans with me so im gunna sit home this whole week..except for tonite cuz nicole is the only one that loves me :-)
i love you nicuddles!

well im out
-emmy-

-bored as fuck-
wow this vacation has been madd boring..except saturday wen i went to nicoles..lol besides that all the plans that ive had with ne1 got fucked up..so ive been home sittin at the computer doin nothin...as usual..damn i need to find sum more friends mann

3 DAYS UNTIL I GET MY BRACES OFF!! :-D

ahh im so excited :-) on saturday i got my hair cut and thinned out..i miss all my hair :( lol

lyrics...

*Infatuation*

Ooh oh, hey
Hey...ooh ohh, hey

He comes from a foreign place
An island far away
Intrigues me with every move
Til' I'm breathless, I'm helpless
Can't keep my cool
Steals my heart when he takes my hand
And we dance, to the rhythm of the band
I feel his finger tips, grip my hips
And I slip as we dip into a rare bliss

Mama used to warn me
To beware of those Latin lovers
She said I gave my heart too soon
And that's how I became your mother
I said ay mama, you seem to forget
I'm not in love yet
Sweet talk don't win me over
But I realized
Big brown eyes can hypnotize
When he says

I am full blood boricua
Reads the tattoo on his arm
He tells me, mami I need ya
And my heartbeat pumps so strong
Getting lost in el ritmo
He whispers te quiero, te quiero
I begin to give in with no hesitation
Can't help my infatuation
(Ah ah, ah ah, ah ah)
It's pure infatuation
(Ah ah, ah ah, ah ah)
Hey...

Skin the color of cinnamon
His eyes light up and I melt within
Feels so good it must be a sin
I can't stop what I started
I'm giving in
He brings life to my fantasies
Sparks a passion inside of me
Finds the words when I can not speak
In the silence, his heartbeat is music to me

Mama used to warn me
Not to rush love with another
She said I'm not trying to lecture
I just care about my daughter
Ay mama, you seem to forget
I never will let
A man control my emotions
But when he smiles (when he smiles)
I feel like a little child
When he says

I am full blood boricua
Reads the tattoo on his arm (whoa, whoa)
He tells me, mami I need ya
And my heartbeat pumps so strong (so strong)
Getting lost in el ritmo
He whispers te quiero, te quiero
I begin to give in with no hesitation
Can't help my infatuation
(Ah ah, ah ah, ah ah)
It's pure infatuation
(Ah ah, ah ah, ah ah)

Caught between my mama's words
And what I feel inside
I'm wanting to explore his world
But a part of me wants to hide
Should I risk it, can't resist it
This has caught me by surprise
Should I, let him take me to Puerto Rico
I can't hold back no more
Let's go tonight...
Ooh, hey

You adore me, never be lonely, ohh

I am full blood boricua (boricua)
Reads the tattoo on his arm (on his arm)
He tells me, mami I need ya
And my heartbeat pumps so strong (so strong)
Getting lost in el ritmo
He whispers te quiero, te quiero (oh, quiero)
I begin to give in with no hesitation
Can't help my infatuation

I can't help, what I'm feeling
Infatuated
Oh ooh, ohh...
Infatuation
Hey


..i love this song so much!
i think u mite kno why..
the bolded words explain everything..
:-\

-emmy-

at nicoles..
heyy im at nicoles..with her sister...chillin here drinkin a lil bit too :-)