i cant believe this
..omg eighth grade is happening all over again..with friends leavin and everything..last year ana moved away..then her mom died...and scott i am so sorry for this happening to you too we're all here for u..love ya baby!..and last year prida left,joe left and then chris kinda left ((school at least)) and this year brenda left and she was a good friend...and now madelyn mite be leavin..and angie too..two ppl i have gotten close too...why is it that my problem in life is keeping ppl with me?? all this just got me thinking..and i sunk into one of my "sad moments" once again..wen im in this..i kinda cant get out of it unless sum1 really cheers me up...

...scott and ana..i love u both...i dont kno how you could deal with that loss..i never could..and just thinkin about how my mom can die..within the next 15 years ((the doctors said)) makes me like..wanna cry and cry alone forever in my room... :'( ..
..on top of scotts mom dying..my cousins grandmother is very sick too..and she could die..i hope she doesnt (( *ID* keep fighting ))...i really cant handle this anymore...and me being someone who happens to cry at EVERYTHING of course..i am crying now...:'( i cant help it anymore..i just cry and cry with every little thing..even wen my brother yells at me i just..cry..or if i think of sumthing sad..i cry..THIS SHOULDNT BE HAPPENING THO...ahh im gunna go listen to more sad songs to make me cry more :(

..love you all...
...leave some love...
eMiLiNa

my throat hurts :(


^^ omg its adorable

..ahh my throat hurts ssoo bad..fag peter gave me this..ah i hate u peter!...

so last nite manda came over and so did helena and then we went to the games...lol manda u were so cute, lol "emily im nervous!"..haha it wasnt that bad now was it?? she got to meet sum of my friends lol she of course thought sum of them were hott too..lol ((orlando, ryan, GERRY)) haha she had a lil obsession with gerry lol..o hes taken manda by BAA JESSY...erg...yea anywayz..we won the game lol and with the last 8 seconds left..thats wen me and helena actually got into the game and everything..lol b4 we were just like oh yay! lol then we went into overtime and helena said they did that just for us..lol so we could yell and scream for them..wow...lol great night...

..hmm today i have to clean my room and shit cuz yea i havent done that in a long time..then after helena gets out of work i think she wanted to come over here..and she prolly will so i can watch my smokin movie ((dazed and confused)) lol thats everyones smoking movie tho..lol i thank holly for being the first person to show me that lol 9(love ya hollz!))

yes helena..if u are reading this..i think that tonite i mite have to go to the mall cuz umm..yea i just need to cuz i didnt last nite :-\ hehehe and i have money to go and buy stuff :) lol

OMG hahahahaha last nite at the game it was the funniest thing lol...we were all talkin bout how gerry lives with the coach and like his mom moved to florida and manda was like o0o is that why they named him orlando cuz his mom moved to florida?? i was like umm were definately talkin about gerry..haha omg it was one of those things that u had to be there but it was so funny LMAO haha iwas like crying..lol i had include that moment lol JUST FOR MANDA!!! haha love ya!!

*-* im out *-*

..leave a comment!...

almost over :(
..todays thursday..meanin that vacation is almost over :( tomaro i have to finish up around here..like cleanin my room and shit...
then mandas comin over..and im bringin her to the keefe games...and helenas comin too :)...hehe i havent seen her in a long time, im excited to see her! lol and she gets to meet people that shes been longing to know..lol

..hmm saturday i think i have an appointment or sumthin..then nothin..maybe ill go to the mall or sumthing...like usual...then sunday i have ccd (ugh) then monday..its back to school...oh fun fun fun!! :-\...well imma go drink my hot chocolate..byebyez!~!

<3 Emilina <3 *-* leave a comment! *-*

KEEFE WON LAST NITE WAHOOO!!! lol wow ive never seen helena so into a game haha and she hates basketball..she was like screamin and yellin and jumpin, it was funny to watch her... but yea i was clappin and yellin too so i cant make fun of her :(...good game boys!~!..oh yea um gerry my mom says thanks! ((omg that was horrible helena!!!))

tonite is another game at Marian...me and helena are gunna go and cheer on our boys...GO KTHS!!! friday theres another game but i dont think its for a tourny...and im bringing amanda to that game NO MATTER WHAT SHE SAYS!! lol so manda u have to make sure u can come to the game its at 7 i think..but we are obviously gunna get there earlier :)...

wow helena informed me yesterday that tomaro is new years eve..lol definately didnt kno that lol this vacationis goin by so fast AND I DONT LIKE IT AT ALL! :-\ monday we have to go back to school... but 20 days until i go away!!! :-D YAY!!!!!!!! lol im so excited but im mad that i have to miss a week of school and i cant see ANYONE...lol but w\e its an A week so i miss seein the juniors and seniors...

well imma go do shit around here...leave some love!!!

-emilina-

*-*vacation time*-*
..waddup...im so tired i dono why the fuck i wake up so damn early...i got home last nite at like 8 from my cousins house..i was there since like 1230 or sumthin i havent seen them in so long..lol it was madd fun lol i was playin outside with my lil cuz christopher and giovanni..lol yes it was sum type of a chasing game lol those lil kids got so much energy...then i was chillin wit my cuz bianca and daniellea in their basement with brian....helena called my fone to talk about today and wats goin on...so after that talk we figured out that at like 1 or sumthin her mom is gunna pick me up then we gunna chill at her house until 630 or 645 and her dads gunna drive us to Marian for the keefe basketball game :)...yea rebeccas gunna be there..i havent seen her in a long time lol imma chill with her..lol we have sum talkin to catch up on ;)...

..yea lol manda wen u read this i hope u kno that i love you!!! hehehe lol we gotta chill sumtime this vacation...lol like old times...manda girl..and emmy wemmy...:) good times..good times...
luv ya babez!~!~!


**3 WEEKS UNTIL I GO AWAY!!!** WAHOOO!!! gotta love it! MWAZ

im out...leave some love for me!!!!
~!~EmIly~!~

la la
hellow...well last nite i went to the mall and met up with meg..kt..manda..and kelsey..the old mall crew..and we chilled for a lil bit but then me kt and kelsey went shoppin and meg and manda stayed with sean and ryan...we all got stuff..DIDNT WE KELSEY...yea she loves those pants..DONT YOU!....serge and nick were walkin around with us too for a lil bit....((serge and katie LA LA LA))

...then orlando came :-) and i was with him outside for like the next hour...i eventually left cuz i thought kelsey was gunna go crazy!! lol..im so addicted to the mall its scary..lol its my homeland..my comfort place as helena says O:-) i cant help it....

i havent seen helena since like...TUESDAY...thats MADDNESS i have to see her soon...i havent really talked to her either..i miss u my friend..lol

..today i have to babysit for like- 6 HOURS...but its okay i guess...its worth it..ill get sum $$ and i get to chill over there..nethin is better than bein home.. :)

well im out..byez

-|-E|M|I|L|Y-|-

really tired..merry christmas
TODAY IS CHRISTMAS!!! yea i wish i was as happy as i used to be wen i was little...christmas used to be the biggest thing to me now its like...oh hey its christmas again so wens my bday..but w\e i still love it...i opened my presents and i got the stuff i wanted..hmm i got clothes as usual...lots of gift certificates and MONEY ((hehe)) my dad gave the whole family a dvd player..i got lots of care bear stuff :-) hehe gotta love the care bears!! :o) i got film too to put in my camera (my most prized possession) i got jewlery too..a ring,necklace,bracelet..i got my prada bag too...yea to it was a good christmas...my aunt uncle and cousin came for a lil bit..my cuz steve was tellin us the funniest stories of wat the marines do at camp wen they have nothing to do...wow they come up with the stupidest games..lol and they have sum stupid kids who pull the pin out of the grenade thinkin nothin will happen, so they just hold it.....i couldnt stop laughin cuz he makes the funniest voices wen hes tellin stories..haha gotta love steve!!

this vacation is prolly gunna be madd boring..i mean mr maier is rite the first couple of days are fun and stuff but then theres nothin to do..u sit around sleep eat watch tv stay in ur pajamas all day and do nothing..lol that all i do i donno bout ne1 else...but tomaro is FRIDAY lol i looovveee fridays..its prolly gunna be another mall nite with meggy!! lol and now i got money but i still prolly wont buy nething lol just sit in the foodcourt and chill and talk to pplz...orlando said hed try to come..hopefully he will so i can see him :) and he can meet meggy lol.....argh friday i have to babysit from like..5:45- midnight ahh with the stupid little girl that ABUSES me lol she like kept on hittin me with this wood bat last time and i had like a bruise on my hand and my leg i was like omg shes in like second grade! I CAN TAKE HER lol but shes cute so its okay...then the rest of the vaca is gunna be pretty boring...lol just chillin lol eating food taking pictures with my camera...lol yea and talkin online...oh wat fun..well im out..byebyes

*merry christmas*

~*~emmy~*~

MERRY CHRISTMAS!! lol ugh i just got back from church with my mom and peter...yea it was pretty gay but w\e and tonite im goin to Jodi's with my parents and chillin there for a lil cuz we always do that lol i havent seen jodi in like woah long..:(....

last nite i went over to mandas :-D hehe i havent seen her in ssooo long and i love her so i went there and we decorated her tree haha but she had a lil bit of difficulty with the lights haha and the angel too..so i had to do it cuz she was too aggrivated and i thought she was like gunna blow lol...

la la la im so bored...liek no1s online cept for orlando.. :-) ...and my moms cookin dinner and its makin me so fuckin hungry :-\


ahh i wanna open my presents lol i can see sum of them rite now under the tree and its so tempting to just run and rip them open lol its soo hard lol BUT NOOO i have to wait till tomaro..then im hopefully gunna see my cousins tomaro cuz i havent seen them in so long cuz they live in watertown and waltham...ahh i want helena to come on lol cuz im bored...w\e im out...

*-*-*emilina*-*-*

presents
i just got back from wrappin presents for the giving tree...oh wat fun..yea but i had my niccuddles with me so it was all good lol..yea we wrapped and sorted...lol then we delivered them to the rehab type place for women me and nicole wanted to go in but they wouldnt let us :(

:) nicole gave me my late birthday\christmas lol it was a carebear blanket!!!!! :-D :-D its so cute!!! it has tenderheart and cheer bear and funshine bear hehe i love you nicole!! lol today is just a present filled day :)

yea ppl are gay
..yea if u ppl who STALK me wanna talk shit make sure u kno that i got ppl..same with helena....yea umm dont hate me cuz no1 likes u..cuz ur a fag who no1 likes..except men...

..umm yea fun times helena..lol

..yea thats all i had to say..write back later..luvyaz

poem for kelsey
Forget his name,
Forget his face,
Forget his kiss,
His warm embrace.
Forget the love that you once knew,
Remember he has someone new.
Forget him when he played your song,
Remember you cried all night long.
Forget how close you once were,
Remember he has chosen her.
Forget you memerized his walk.
Forget the way he used to talk.
Forget the things he used to say.
Remember he has gone away.
Forget his laugh,
Forget his grin,
For the dimples on his chin.
Forget the way he held you tight,
Remember he's with her tonight.
Forget the time that went so fast,
Forget the love that moved; its past,
Remember he's gone forever. :(

*-*-*i miss you*-*-* :'(

...crying these tears of mine...

yeaa...
hey pplz...i just got back from Helena's house..yea we went christmas shoppin at the mall ((my homeplace))...i got my mommy sumthin lol wow and helena in that store u were crazzyyyy!!!!! HAHA we spent like an hour in there standin in the same place lol just laughin and laughin and makin fun of everything hahaha...of course im poor and only had lik 25$$ lol and helena had like $100 so she got a lot stuff...lol the SMALL SHIRT lol and 2 posters hahaha she got bob marley and a tupac poster and the one we picked out he looked really hot in lol and wen we opened it up at her house to hang it up it was a completely different tupac picture hahaha and she thinks is scary...lol hes watchin u helena!! haha but hey its tupac..its all good!
lol trust me helena I KNOW MY POSTERS..and THAT IS A NICE POSTER!

...wow lol interesting day..and tomaro i gotta go get my brothers presents lol i wish i didnt but my mom says that they are part of my family and i must...lol ((dammit)) then on friday me and helena are goin to the basketball game to watch our COOL friends...lol yea i think shes comin over here then one of my bros will drive us...i think..i hope..lol THEN...saturday im gunna be with helena all day again..lol and im sleeping over...but saturday is 12*20..a very sad sentimental day..which i dont really wanna talk about..but ill sum it up by saying...I LOVE YOU JOE AND CHRIS FOREVER :)

well im out cuz my fuckin time is almost up and i gotta take a shower....pcce

*emmyz*

meggys survey!!!
lol this is meggys survey that i wanted to take! lol PROPS TO MEG!!! lol i took sum of the answers from u...lol

Name: Emily
-- Birthdate: June12
-- Birthplace: Massachusetts
-- Current Location: Natick MA
-- Eye Color: hazel i think
-- Hair Color: brown with highlights
-- Righty or Lefty: Righty
-- Zodiac Sign: gemini

series two - describe
-- The shoes you wore today: hmm my white ones
-- Your hair: down
-- Your weakness: being hurt..
-- Your fears:dying
-- Your perfect pizza: pepporoni! lol
-- One thing you'd like to achieve: umm to difficult to put into words

series three - what is
-- Your most overused phrase on aim: lol.. or haha :)
-- Your thoughts first waking up: oh yay school!
-- The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: Eyes
-- Your best physical feature: not to sure..maybe eyes
-- Your bedtime: i donno
-- Your greatest accomplishment: i donno

series four - you prefer
-- Pepsi or coke: coke
-- McDonald's or Burger King: Mcdonalds
-- Single or group dates: it depends..
-- Adidas or nike: adidas
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: umm nestea i guesss
-- Chocolate or vanilla: VANILLA
-- Cappuccino or coffee: cappuccino
-- Boxers or briefs: Boxers
-- Girls or Boys: guys :)

series five - do you
-- Smoke: yes
-- Cuss: Yep
-- Sing well: no!
-- Take a shower: yes
-- Have a crush(es): yea
-- who are they: u should kno
-- Do you think you've been in love: Twice
-- Want to go to college: maybe
-- Want to get married: Yes
-- Type with your fingers on the right keys: sure y not..?
-- Believe in yourself: sometimes
-- Get motion sickness: Nope
-- Think you're a health freak: no
-- Get along with your parents: sumtimes
-- Like thunderstorms: kinda...
-- Play an instrument: um no

series six - in the past month, did/have you
-- Drank alcohol: yes
-- Smoke(d): Yes
-- Done a drug: Yes
-- Made Out: Yes
-- Gone on a date: no i dont think so
-- Gone to the mall?: haha i mean we are talkin to ME!
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: i love oreos!
-- Eaten sushi: Ew no
-- Been on stage: no
-- Been dumped: No
-- Gone skating: walkin to the movies with jess and meg lol
-- Made homemade cookies: nope
-- Gone skinny dipping: um no
-- Dyed your hair: nope

series eight - the future
-- Age you hope to be married: umm ..20s..?
-- Numbers and Names of Children: 2 kids....anthony and gina
-- Describe your Dream Wedding: hmm i donno
-- How do you want to die: neway thats fast lol
-- Where you want to go to college: dunno
-- What do you want to be when you grow up: photographer!
-- What country would you most like to visit:ITALY!!! lol

series nine – opposite/same sex
-- Best eye color?: brown
-- Best hair color?: Black or blonde or maybe brown lol
-- Short or long hair?: i dont care
-- Best weight: doesn’t matter
-- Best articles of clothing: hoodies or nething that matches lol
-- Best first date location: umm i donno
-- Best first kiss location: does it really matter?

// series ten - number of
-- Number of girls I have kissed: none..
-- Number of boys I have kissed: umm
-- Number of drugs taken illegally: only 1
-- Number of people I could trust with my life: i donno maybe helena..? orne of my bestest friends
-- Number of CDs that I own: alot
-- Number of piercings: 4
-- What are they: ears
-- Number of tattoos: None, yet.
--Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: a couple
-- Number of scars on my body: a few i donno
-- Number of things in my past that I regret: um thats too hard to count



-LAST PERSON YOU
-- Touched? touched how? lol um kelsey or orlando
-- Talked to? helena and steve online
--. Hugged? orlando
-- Instant Messaged? LENA!
--. Kissed? orlando
--. Had a crush on? ryan lol
--. Do you still have a crush on them? no
--. Who broke your heart? joe and chris :(


[ the past ]

What is the one thing you would change about your past?: not sure
What is the biggest mistake you've made in your life?: god too many man..lol
Last thing you heard: my mom talkin lol
Last thing you saw: my rings
Last thing you said: sumthin to the dude on the fone
Who is the last person you saw?: Mom
Who is the last person you kissed?: orlando
Who is the last person you hugged?: lol orlando
Who is the last person you fought with? i donno
who is the last person you were on the phone with? um jodi or the dude who called for my dad
What is the last tv show you saw?: hmm sumthin on MTV
What is the last song you heard?: boys 2 men- ummm not sure

[ the present ]

What are you wearing?: um pants and a shirt with a sweatshirt
What are you doing? Typin while listenin to the tv
Who are you talking to?: helena
What song are you listening to?: nothin
Where are you?: my room
Who are you with?: myself
Are you online?: Yes
How are you feeling?: tired
Are you in a chatroom?: No.
What song is going through your head?: runnin

kelsey
hahaha wow today was emmy and kelsey day..lol kelsey u kno u loved it...lol yea so kelsey met most of my friends and she said she liked them all which is good lol kelsey is the new "love" at keefe haha u kno how many guys kept on askin me about her? hahha kelsey u arent used to that but its okay...lol i had to go thru it to "it happens to the best of us" ((lol i keep on sayin that))

kelsey had a lil OBSESSION today with john haha but we love him lol hes so cute lol kelsey said that she enjoyed the hot men.lol yes there is a lot of them ((orlando haha)) yea she met him too..lol OMG kelsey u should have saw ur face wen i sat in between his legs wen we were at my locker haha and then at lunch wen he had his arms around me then kissed me and wen he walked away u were like OMG JUST FUCKING GO OUT!!! hahaha i gave sum pplz her sn so they can talk to u lol but u cant give them to anyone else cuz they arent as cool as us..lol

kelsey dont u love my bus on the way home...lol so kelsey i still got a question..lol is keefe everything you thought it would be?? and more?? lol MORE HOT GUYS THAN U THOUGHT lol

tomaro imma prolly have ppl askin me questions about u lol imma be like YES SHE IS MY FRIEND..YES U CAN HAVE HER SN lol imma be handin ur sn out..so if u got random peeps imin u..its all good..lol they're friends with me lol :)
well imma go shake the presents that are under my tree lol ((im such a fag lol)) kelsey SANTA CAME!!! lol no emily its not christmas haha SHUT UP YES IT IS...haha i love you kelsey dunne!!!!!!!!!

im out.....~*~*emmy*~*~

amanda!
haha yes amanda has demanded me to make another entry...and which i am now..and i should i mean i use to always tell her to make one so i can read it..lol so i guess itsher turn to make me do it :( lol but i love her!!!!!! haha amanda u kno i love you! u can never forget that ever ever ever..u are one of my bestest friends i will never forget and u can never forget me..where ever i am and who ever im with u cant forget me..and i wont forget you....

now ppl...lol in mandaz old journal..((woohu.com/~manny3120)) lol she made an entry about me and making an adlib thingy lol and um yea i cant exactly do that lol so im just gunna write about her lol...

yea so that manda girl...((girl)) shes one pretty cool cat..lol yea shes one of my bestest friends...we have so many inside jokes lol ill never forget that nite when kelsey was on the bed sleepin and me and u were online talkin to senyo and marcelo and we just kept on laughin and laughin and we couldnt stop eatin the friggen brownie!! hahaha then we snuck out to go meet marco and his friends lol wow that night was crazy..lol and the other nite wen me and u were at the mall and kelsey calls ur cell and was like JOHNS GETTING IN A FIGHT lol and i was like WAATTTT!!!! andme and u RAN ALL THE WAY TO THE MOVIES lol we never stopped..just kept goin and u hurt ur ankle cuz u had sandals on haha then we got there and john and pedro has already left..lol then we saw johns brother..and we just went back to the mall and chilled wit kels and meg i think and like ryan maclean and ppl..haha wow good times..good times..
hmm wats another time we had together...lol canobie lake park lol i remember that kinda lol hmm...me and u always goin to the mall and lookin for out hot guys lol ((as usual)) now wen i go to the mall i kno the hot guys ;) hehehe....i could go on and on forever about ALL our inside jokes..cuz we have like a thousand....lol but i think imma go now :) i love you amanda maltz! always here for you!! MWA

*_*_emmy wemmy_*_*

quizy time!!

You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
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he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.


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Thug Bear


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HAHAHA HELL YEAH BABY!!!


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aaawwwww O:-)

blah
heyy..just got back from school..today was an okay day lol im still waitin for tomaro when KELSHEY comes! lol ((kelsey remind me to go to mr evans' office at 730 lol)) i was talking about you kelsey aaalllllll day long lol every period i was like KELSEYS comin tomaro everyone!!! lol they were all askin questions..lol like is she nice wat does she look like and blah blah blah lol ur gunna be my lil shadow aawww lol


yea im really bored rite now..im home alone..and once again starring at my tree..im decorating it once my mom gets home from the doctors

..helena im sry i didnt go over ur house today haha but u can have ur lil friend go over!! haha u kno ull like that!!! hahaha...

well imma go talk to ppl online..lol prolly steve like always haha..ly steve!! lol
..write back later..

*.::.emmy.::.*

i love amanda!
hey thanks to amanda i have my own journal now!! WAHOOO!!! lol i dont have to always read other pplz shit..lol yea so this rain outside ((lol snow)) thats a whole lotta white stuff....i want school tomaro so i can see *him* :) lol yea i love school...and guess what everyone?!?!?

KELSEYS COMIN TO SEE ME ON TUESDAY!!!!!!!!!!!! :-D :-D :-D omg im sssssoooooo excited she gets to come on the bus with me and meet all my friends and walk around with me all day long! now how hot is that? lol thats pretty damn hot ((like the men at my school)) lol sry had to say that lil bit of info for ya...yea so keefe better watch out cuz kelsey and emmy are comin! haha

yea so im sittin here starrin at my christmas tree...who has yet to be decorated lol im doin that tomaro i think i can smell it...yea im a bit bored...

i can hear popcorn popping lol..HAHA the neverending popcorn bag helena!!!! haha well hmm wat to do wat to do...i think imma go be bored and either watch the snow..or watch tv..or talk to my brother..lol we randomly have "deep" conversations sumtimes..and i like them...aiight im out!

*-:-EmMy-:-*

testing

heeeey this is manda trying out emmys journal :-)

i love emmy always and forever