Cause I Will Bring You Down. I Don't Wanna Miss, I Don't Think You Can Handle This.

Yeah. Snow day. >.< BLAH. And after all that whining and yelling I did yesterday when mom said I couldn't go to the dance, unless I could get a ride with someone else, I don't get to go. And, she never went to Jersey. Gr.

-sigh- I dunno. I love this song. The guitars are amazing. <3

The sun will rise and keep your mind at ease... So close your eyes


It’s scary and incredible and beautiful, loving someone with your whole being. Knowing you’d do anything just to grant them a peaceful night’s sleep.



It’s crazy. Without him, I would have nothing; there would just be no point to life. With him, though… I have everything.

If I Needed Someone To Control Me, If I Needed Someone To Push Me Around. I Would Change My Direction. Save Myself Before I.. Drown.

Bwahahahahahaha! I've got a ride with Shelby after the dance. Wahaha. I'm goinggg! Yay.

Hello There. The Angel From My Nightmare. The Shadow In The Background Of The Morgue.

Yeah. Well. Im in a PISSY mood. So if I were you, I wouldn't bother me. Well.. Dixon was pissing me off to no extent today, so I screamed at him, and then later felt bad about it, but whatever. Then, I come home, and there's still no heat, because mom forgot to turn it on this morning before she left, so I'm FREEZING. And when mom came home, I asked her if I could go to the dance, and she starts going off on me, saying that she's not gonna pick me up, because she's leaving for Jersey tomorrow morning, and that she told me she was leaving, which she DIDNT. So here I am, Freezing, not going to the dance, and just hearing news that I cant go to the dance, because my mother decides to wait until the last freaking minute to tell me that SHES GOING OUT OF TOWN FOR THE ENTIRE WEEKEND! AND, to top it all off, AIM is going all weird on me, and it keeps changing my profile. G.D!

I decided I really, really like this song.

I'll be coming home
Just to be alone
Cause I know youre not there
and I know you dont care
I can hardly wait to leave this place

no matter how hard i try
youre never satisfied
this is not a home
i think im better off alone
you always disappear
even when youre here
this is not my home
i think im better off alone
home, home, this house is not a home.

by the time you come home
im already stoned
you tun off the tv
and you scream at me
i can hardly wait
til you get off my case

no matter how hard i try
youre never satisfied
this is not a home
i think im better off alone
ou always disappear
even when youre here
this is not my home
i think im better off alone


THIS HOUSE IS NOT A HOME
IM BETTER OFF ALONE

I Could Be Mean, I Could Be Angry, You Know I Could Be Just Like You. I Could Be Fake, I Could Be Stupid, You Know I Could Be Just Like You.
You Thought You Were Standing Beside Me.
You Were Only In My Way.
You're Wrong If You Think I'll Be Just Like You.
You Thought You Were There To Guide Me.
Your Were Only In My Way.
You're Wrong If You Think That I'll Be Just Like You.
---------------------------------------------

Yeah. Love this song. <3
What does 'chipper' mean?

Anyways. Just got off the phone with Robbie. Haha, why am I always updating after I get off the phone with him?? Hm. Oh well. Anyways. We talked for like... a long time. About lots of stuff. ;D

School was okay.. I had to go to Mr. Otto's office during first block. He was asking me if I'm "ready for the SOL's". Wtf?? Doesn't matter if I'm ready for them or not, I still have to take them. Then he was all asking me about my break, and what I got for Christmas. And when I told him I got a guitar, he went into this whole big story about how he used to be a guitar player. Then he was asking me about what kind of music I wanted to play, and before I could say anything, he was like "Rock". I was like.. "yeah.." I think he was judging me by what I was wearing. My "All Girls Rock Camp" shirt and my studded belt, my studded cuffs, and my ball chain. *grins* I hope he's scared. Yeah. School was actually pretty good though. English was okay, and so was Math, except I got caught with a note, but whatever. And I got a 100 on my math test! yayayayy! And then... Went to French. I like French ALOT better now since Mrs. Moretz is teaching. She's so much nicer, and more fun, and not so stiff. Yeah. And she lets us goof off and stuff, as long as we get our work done. Yeah. She's super awesome.

Right now.. I'm in a chat room with Chelness and Coleman. Hehe. Two of my favorite buddies.Haha, we're torturing Coleman by talking about periods. Lmao. that poor kid.

Take it easy, stupid punks.

Rock.

I'll Try To Kiss You If You'll Let Me..

<3 I love this CD.

Yeah. So me and mom wasted all day at the mall. I got a poser-perfect studded belt, some black and silver rubber bracelets, Lilu perfume, the Blink 182 CD, Three Days Grace, and Wasting Time-Mest, then I got some new headphones for my uber cool walkman. Yeah. So yeah. Oh, and I got a book from Waldenbooks. Haha, yes, I am a nerd. Oh well. Worst part: I'm almost done with it already. *grins*. Yeah, and I had a Gingerbread Latte from Starbucks. Yum. ;D .
Robbie called today after I got home. Yay. Made my day. We talked for like.. an hour. Like we always do. Haha. I get to see him tomorrow. <33 Yay! That's the only time you'll ever hear me say "yay" for school. Heh.


Rock.

Another Lesson I Didn't Get To Learn. You're My Obsession, I've Got Nowhere To Turn.

Yeah. Well, after about ten minutes of racking my brain, trying to think of something to say, I gave up on updating this thing in French. Lmao. I dunno. I've just been watching the Simple Plan DVD ALOT lately, and it's oh-so sexy when they're in Paris and they're speaking French. So yeah, thought I'd give it a try. Though, as you can see, it didn't work out too well. =]

Well, Shelby went home earlier. Yeah. So.. I'm bored. Haha, I was talking to Paul earlier. Man, that kid is crazii. <33 Haha, but he's great.

Yeah. Like I said. I'm bored. I'm out, punx.

J'adore David Desrosiers. <3 ;D

Rock.

Comment allez-vous?

-Sigh- Je ne suis pas heureux. Je suis trés fatigué et j'ai besoin de sommeil.

Everything's Gonna Be Alright Now. Everything's Gonna Be Alright.

I dunno. I'm bored. Hah, surprise, surprise.

Yeah. Um. Shelby's here. Yeah. We watched the Simple Plan DVD. Yes.. again. Haha. I like that DVD, thank you very much. So screw off.
;D

Check out the new layout, dude. Okay, so it's not really a new layout, but it's new colors. Yay for me! It would have been a new layout, but I am BLAH when it comes to html codes. Yeah. I dunno. I'm bored.

Robbie called today. Yay. Haha. Made my day. He was on his way back from North Carolina. =] I get to see him on Monday. Yayness.

I'm out.
Catch you later.
Stupid punks.
Rock.

Why Should I Care? You Weren't There When I Was Scared, I Was So Alone. You, You Need To Listen. I'm Starting To Trip, I'm Losing My Grip, And I'm In This Thing Alone..

Haha. Yes, I am listening to Avril Lavigne. You should be scared. I am too. But oh well. I like this song. Soo.. screw off.

Omg. Haha. Jess found these pics from when I was like.. 8, and she was 11.. Omg. Haha. It's scary as fck. Haha. I told her to burn them.

I'm out of Smarties. I am going to die. Eee. I am going to like.. be super hyper for a while, then I am going to be like.. dead.

Aw, Jess just showed me a pic of Katie and Jesse when they were little. They were so cute. Aww. Hehe.

I've Got Responsibility, That Is My Liability. I'm Questioning Authority. They Say There's Not A Chance For Me.

Hm. I dunno. Not much is going on. Me, Mom, and Dad went to Outback last night for dinner. Woo hoo. -.-

Yeah. I dunno. I woke up this morning at like.. 10:30 I guess, and called Shelby. Talked to her until like.. 12:30. Yeah. She's supposed to be coming over tonight. We're going shopping.. hopefully. If mom doesn't back out. Bleh.

I've watched the Simple Plan DVD like.. 5 times in the past two days. I watched the Good Charlotte Hard Rock Live performance that I taped over the summer, this morning. And now I'm watching the GC DVD. Yeah. I dunno. I'm bored. Jess is showing me a bunch of pics. There's this ADORABLE one of Hunter. <33 I love Hunter. Hehe. AND ROBBIE NEEDS TO GET ON!


Benji: "I like it when Joel raps. 'Cause, ya know, he's a good lil' rapper"

I Try Not To Think, About The Pain I Feel Inside. Did You Know You Used To Be My Hero?


You're like David! Congradulations!


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Haha, yeah buddy. David's hott, man.
DUDE, why can't we have guys that look like that in Madison?!

Sometimes This House Feels Like A Prison, That I Just Can't Leave Behind. There's So Many Rules I Gotta Follow, Cause You Can't Let Go.

Well. Happy New Year. I guess. *sarcastic happy dance* I dunno. Just feels like another day to me. Oh well. It's "A New Beginning" *grins* You'll get that if you're a GC fan. Anyways. I can start over with some things. Yeah.

Last night we had a 'lock in' at church. Hah. 'Twas pretty fun. Chelsea and Dianna went to Sheetz and bought candy. Te he. I got two bags of Smarties. Man, those things rule. I swear I ate about 30 rolls of those things last night.. Which would be about.. 450 Smarties. Haha. I was wired. Chelsea and I had a chugging contest. With a brand new 2 liter bottle of Mountain Dew. We had that entire bottle gone in 3 minutes. No lie, man. And we were like.. SICK as dogs for about a half an hour after.. but after we got over that, dude, we were WIRED. Then we played Poker-style Uno with Kaitlyn and used warheads, smarties, and sprees as bets. Hahaha. It was great. We were all up until like.. 5AM. And then got up at 7. Haha. So I came home and put in the Simple Plan DVD and watched it until like.. 10AM, then fell asleep and woke up at 4:15 PM. Yeah. I'm still downing smarties, though. Man, these things are great stuff.

AND I MISS ROBBIE!

The Sky Will Never Look The Same Again, 'Til You Showed Me How It Could Be.

Yeah. So I didn't do the dishes, and when mom came home, I got a lecture. Nothing new. I'm going to Chel's tomorrow. Thank God. I've only been home two days and I'm already needing to get out again. *Sigh* Oh well.. I'm still happy. Just ticked right now.

I was typing something.. and I typed the word "hugged" and accidentally hit the thesaurus button on my keyboard, and the first word that came up for "hugged" was "keeping". I thought that was cute. ^.^

This Somber State Is Getting Old. Well I Never Do What I Am Told. So Now We're Gonna Roll..
And Now We're Gonna Roll With The Top Down, Seat Back, Rollin' In My Cadillac.

Haha, this song SO rules! *Does Jeremiah Rangel's 'Hotel Room' Dance.* Haha! <33

So anyways. Yeah. Haha. Man, I love this song! Yeah. But... Yeah. I got up like.. Two hours ago. Haha. I didn't go to bed until like.. 2:30. No. Wait. I went to bed at like.. 1, and I didn't fall asleep until 2:30. Yeah. I dunno. Not much is happening. Dad is in the basement watching TV or something, and Mom went to work I think. So yeah. Not much for me to do. I should probably do the dishes or something, before she gets home, so I don't get a lecture. But, chances are, even if I do the dishes, I'll get yelled at because I didn't vaccuum. Yeah. She's evil like that.Yeah. So. I've decided that GC isn't my favorite band anymore. They have to share the top spot with Mest. Hehe. I wouldn't mind having to share anything with Mest. *Wink* Haha. Yeah. Anyways. I dunno. Peace.

Thoughts of happiness
Only when you reminisce.
'Cause now that things are bad.
You think of what you could have had.
Think of the years they spent
With no money for the rent
From the bottom to the top
They stuck to their guns
They'll never stop
-Mest | Without You

I said "Sit back, relax, it's not the end"
We're gonna postpone it.
Put it off again.
Our seperate paths will lead us different ways.
But the care remains.
It will always stay.

Yesterday's not all that bad
Sorry I could not make this last.
Yesterday's not all we have.
Sorry I could not make this last.

One thing I need from you
That's honesty
Please never lie to me
That's what she said to me.
ONe thing for sure is that
I will be true
In everything I do.
That's what I learned from you.

Yesterday's not all that bad
Sorry I could not make this last.
Yesterday's not all we have.
Sorry I could not make this last.

I Want A Girl In My Bed, Who Knows What To Do. A Playstation 2. I Want A Shopping Spree, In New York City!

Haha, that's my favorite part of that song.. And no, I don't really want a girl in my bed. That'd be weird. No. I want a guy in my bed. Not just any guy though.. Robbie. And not for perverted or dirty reasons either! Just to hold him, and be held, and be with him. I'd be genuinely happy then. Hah, my eyes are tearing up just typing this. I'm missing him like crazy. I'm ready to go back to school. I need to see him, to hug him, to know he's there. One week. Just one more week. God, I hope I can make it. No. I will make it. I've gotta see him again, duh. *Smiles*

I've been a whole lot happier these last few days. I can finally say I'm a happy person, and mean it from the bottom of my heart. I'm a very happy person. I'm happy with who I am, I'm happy with Robbie, and I'm happy with who I am when I'm with Robbie. *Smiles* Hope he's happy with me, too. I don't think he's suffering with me though. I really don't. Anyways. Like I said. I am a genuinely happy person. No more cutting my wrists, no more slashing my arms.. None of that. It hurts me, it hurts Robbie, and it does no good to anyone. Just harm to those I love. And knowing that I'm hurting my loved ones hurts more than I could ever hurt myself. And plus, I want to be happy. There was a time when I wanted to be depressed, and I was happy being depressed, but.. it's not like that anymore. I have no reason to be depressed. Robbie showed me that yeah, my life may be bad at times, but it's not bad all the time, and there's always someone out there who is worse off than I am. I've got so many reasons to be the happy person I am. I've got an AMAZING guy-friend *smiles*, I've got the best friends anyone could ever ask for, and even though my family may be boring and hateful at times, they're still incredible and I love them, though I may not always like them.

And I'm here for the ones closest to me. My friends.. The people I consider my family. Chelsea, Ian, Jared, Coleman, and Robbie. The people I adore. I love them. So much. And I'm not going to be the weak and fragile one anymore, who depends on everyone else. No. I'm gonna be here for them when they need me. I'm gonna be here for them to lean on when they need support. And Robbie needs me, and I'm gonna be here to help him through everything. Forever.

Robbie. Baby. I love you. And everything I said in the above paragraphs, I meant with every emotion in my soul. I'm happy. I'm a very happy person. I mean that with my whole heart. You make me happy. And I have you. <3 Baby.. I love you more than words could ever explain. I'm gonna be here to help you through everything, whether you want me to or not. Have you forgotten how stubborn I am?? Don't even try to argue with me about it. You won't win. *Grins* And like I said twice before. I love you. xo*

Police Records said I Wouldn't Exist. I Wanna Know The Meaning Of A Christmas List. Said All I Wanna Do Is Kick The Welfare. All I Wanna Do Is Get My Share. All I Wanna Do Is Make Some From Nothing.
EVERYTHING'S GONNA BE ALRIGHT NOW!

Well. First off. Merry Christmas! Hope yours was as great as mine! Hm. Lets see.

I got.. lots of stuff.
13 CDs: the first GC album, NFG"Sticks And Stones", Thrice "The Artist In The Ambulance", Goldfinger "Open Your Eyes", Evanescence"Fallen", Trapt"Trapt", AFI "Sing The Sorrow", Mest "Destination Unknown", Audioslave"Audioslave", Now 14 (Hey, it had GC on it!), Chevelle"Wonder What's Next", Sum41"All Killer No Filler" (Yes, I know, but my other one was fried), the official copy of "No Pads, No Helmets, Just Balls"-Simple Plan.

Yeah, and then I got the GC and Simple Plan DVDs and a DVD player for my room. A new walkman, the 2004 GC Calendar, a watch that has a black leather band and has metal pyramid studs on it, a bunch of other studded cuffs and stuff, a GC wallet with a chain & stuff, a GC shirt that says "Good Charlotte" on the front and "On The East Coast We Ride..." on the back *thumbs up*, like.. four shirts. One that says "So Many Skaters.. So Little Time..", one says "Rock Chick", one says "I Have Issues", and another is "Jessica's All Girls Rock Camp.. Play Like A GIRL". Pretty cool. Then I got a GC backpack <33. New sheets and stuff for my bed, a Spongebob mousepad, stuff from The Body Shop, a Sam Goody gift card, and yeah. Stuff. It was a great Christmas. But, tomorrow my grandparents are gonna be here. >.< And then tomorrow night I'm leaving for NJ. And I'm gonna chill with Tyler and Miranda on Saturday, then on Sunday night we're all heading over to Uncle Jimmy's house for the family Christmas party. Oh Joy.Yeah. So.. yeah. I wanna talk to Miranda. Hm.

I Don't Ever Wanna Be Like You. I Don't Wanna Do The Things You Do. I'm Never Gonna Hear The Words You Say. And I Don't Ever Wanna, I Don't Ever Wanna Be You!

I just got off the phone with Robbie. =] And as soon I as got off with him, Brittney called. >.< Anyways.

I was on the phone with Jess last night until like.. 1. We called Paul, then Jeremiah and Tim, then Paul, then Jay, and then Jeremiah and Tim again, but it was busy.. yeah. Assholes. Haha. Paul is so great. I <3 him! Hehe.

I get to open some presents tonight. Yay! I get to open half of them tonight and half in the morning. Woo hooness! Hehe. I get presents, I get presents! Yeah. I'm bored. Bya.

I Get Knocked Down, But I Get Up Again, You're Never Gonna Keep Me Down.

Haha. Me and Justin are having the most hilarious conversation.

NONsenseBassRcks: do i make horny baby?
xSUiCiDE RiOT: oh hell yea
xSUiCiDE RiOT: hahaha
xSUiCiDE RiOT: lmao
xSUiCiDE RiOT: jk
NONsenseBassRcks: hehehhehehehehehhehe
NONsenseBassRcks: me too
xSUiCiDE RiOT: you make yourself horny? or you were jk too?? wtf?? Im confused!
NONsenseBassRcks: i jkjkjkjkjkjkjkjkjk
xSUiCiDE RiOT: hahaha
NONsenseBassRcks: only u make me orny
NONsenseBassRcks: jkjkj
xSUiCiDE RiOT: HAHAHA
NONsenseBassRcks: hehheheheahahahahaha
NONsenseBassRcks: ifmlao
xSUiCiDE RiOT: haha
NONsenseBassRcks: im fucking my laghing ass off
xSUiCiDE RiOT: creepy
NONsenseBassRcks: jok9ing
xSUiCiDE RiOT: haha
NONsenseBassRcks: 69
NONsenseBassRcks: wha????????
xSUiCiDE RiOT: 69.. hahhahaha
NONsenseBassRcks: yea baby
NONsenseBassRcks: brb
xSUiCiDE RiOT: okay
xSUiCiDE RiOT: hah
NONsenseBassRcks signed off at 9:55:18 PM.
NONsenseBassRcks signed on at 9:57:03 PM.
NONsenseBassRcks: BACK!!!!!!!!!
xSUiCiDE RiOT: Yeah buddy!
xSUiCiDE RiOT: NONsenseBassRcks [9:57 PM]: PENIS go in the PUSSY
HAHAHA
NONsenseBassRcks: u bet bitch:-*
NONsenseBassRcks: jk
xSUiCiDE RiOT: haha
NONsenseBassRcks: yup
NONsenseBassRcks: it does
xSUiCiDE RiOT: lmao
NONsenseBassRcks: r u my bitch?
xSUiCiDE RiOT: Maybe.
xSUiCiDE RiOT: Are you my daddy???
NONsenseBassRcks: ukno u wanna b
xSUiCiDE RiOT: rotfl
NONsenseBassRcks: of course i am
NONsenseBassRcks: what?
xSUiCiDE RiOT: rolling on the floor laughing.
NONsenseBassRcks: oooo
xSUiCiDE RiOT: yea
NONsenseBassRcks: im ur daddy sooooooo.................
NONsenseBassRcks: ur my___________
xSUiCiDE RiOT: bitch
NONsenseBassRcks: good girl:-D
NONsenseBassRcks: should i ask jess that?
xSUiCiDE RiOT: haha yeah
xSUiCiDE RiOT: I'll tell you if she laughs
xSUiCiDE RiOT: Im on the phone with her
NONsenseBassRcks: ok
xSUiCiDE RiOT: She's cracking up.
xSUiCiDE RiOT: Hahaha.
xSUiCiDE RiOT: She's still laughing.
xSUiCiDE RiOT: Haha.
xSUiCiDE RiOT: She's so great.
NONsenseBassRcks: NONsenseBassRcks: r u my bitch?!?!?!?!?!
NONsenseBassRcks: u kno u wanna b:-*
lilBaBiEcAkEs1: oh yea
NONsenseBassRcks: good girl
xSUiCiDE RiOT: haha
NONsenseBassRcks: now u boh can bend over so i can smack that ass
NONsenseBassRcks: both*
xSUiCiDE RiOT: LMFAO!
NONsenseBassRcks: *smackspank*

His Lovin' Keeps Me Movin' On.

What is your favorite..
gum:	spearmint
restaurant:	rubio's
drink:	water
season:	fall
type of weather:	rain
emotion:	love
thing to do on a half day:	cling to robbie
late-night activity:	internet w* friends
sport:	i dunno
city:	waldorf!
store:	hot topic
When was the last time you..
cried:	last night
played a sport:	wow. dunno.
laughed:	earlier today. i was reading some fanfic.. 'twas pretty funny, too.
hugged someone:	friday..12/19
kissed someone:	friday 12/19
felt depressed:	saturday
felt elated:	elated?
felt overworked:	i dunno
faked sick:	last school year
lied:	wow. like.. last night
What was the last..
word you said:	dude i think
thing you ate:	cookie
song you listened to:	i dunno
thing you drank:	kool-aid
place you went to:	uncle joe's house
movie you saw:	bad santa
movie you rented:	i dunno
concert you attended:	GC/MEST/GOLDFINGER! WOOO! 10/23!
Who was the last person you..
hugged:	robbie
cried over:	robbie
kissed:	robbie
danced with:	...wow
shared a secret with:	kristen or chel or someone
had a sleepover with:	hahahaha
called:	robbie
went to a movie with:	mom
saw:	mom
were angry with:	mom
couldn't take your eyes off of:	robbie
obsessed over:	gc
Have you ever..
danced in the rain:	yeah. not romantically. me and chel danced like fools
kissed someone:	yeah.
done drugs:	nah
drank alcohol:	yeah
slept around:	hell no
partied 'til the sun came up:	haha yeah
had a movie marathon:	i dunno
gone too far on a dare:	nah
spun until you were immensely dizzy:	haha yeah
taken a survey quite like this before:	nah

The Favorites, Have-You-Evers.. and Last Times! Oh, the variety! brought to you by BZOINK!

A Poem.

I promised him I wouldnt do it
I promised him that I would try
but the only happy thought I have
is the precious moment when I lose my life

no doctor could ever save me
no pill to take the pain away
alls I need is someone to care
but I've never had that in all my days

so this skin yearns to be broken
my blood across the floor
you beg me to not give in to it
but my body is begging for more

so If I slice just once
will the pain be all gone?
Or will I be stuck with even more
more then I've been holding inside for so very long

and as I set the knife down
to endure life some more
I think of how you care for me
and it dawns on me exactly what im living for.

In Your House, I Long To Be. Room By Room, Patiently. I'll Wait For You There Like A Stone. I'll Wait For You There. Alone.

Yes. Well. I'm sick again. Thank you Dad for not going to work these past four days, and staying home and getting me sick. Erg. Yeah, Scott even called last night and asked where the hell my father has been. He got up yesterday at like.. 5AM and pretended like he was going to work, came home at 8 last night, all acting like he'd been at work all day. I wanna know where the hell he's been going. I swear. I am not going to be able to stand another affair. That one with that Loretta bitch was bad enough. Anyways.

Like I said. I don't feel good. And I need a hug. And Robbie isn't here to give me one. All I have is a dad who does nothing but sleep on the couch all day. Gr. He pisses me the fuck off. Ugh. I need to stop talking about this.

I watched MTV today. The top 40 videos of 2003. Good Charlotte's "The Anthem" was number four! Wooo hooness! Hehe. Yeah. Evanescence was on there somewhere. I caught it at like.. number 27. So yeah. I think that's where "Bring Me To Life" was. I wanna talk to Miranda.. I should call her. I dunno. God, Brittney has been calling me all day long. I haven't answered the phone though, because I know exactly who it is. Good God. If I didn't answer the first seventeen times you called, I'm not gonna answer the next thirty-six times you call. Just out of spite. Gr. She pisses me off.

Like I said before. I wish it was Christmas. I want my stuff. And then I want it to be Friday night. So I can go see my cousins. The few people in my family I adore. They're so cool! Eee!

Another Day Is Going By, I'm Thinkin' About You All The Time.

Well yeah. I have nothing better to do. So I'm going to update.. Again.

Brittney called me this morning. I could have freakin' slapped her. I didn't answer the phone though, I just unplugged it. After it rang 17 freakin' times. I didn't have to answer the phone to know it was her. She's the only one who calls on my line at ten in the freakin' morning, and lets the phone ring 34 freakin' times before she hangs up and calls the other phone. Grr. Don't call me at ten in the morning. Unless you want to go chasing your head down the street after I bite it off. I mean. What the heck?? Why would you call someone that early anyway, and then let the phone ring 17 times before you realize no one is going to pick up, and then call the other phone line?? I don't think that's very courteous. Gr. And she called at like.. 10:30 yesterday morning, and was like "Stacy, you need to get up" Maybe I don't wanna get up. Grr. Pisses me off. I don't call her house at 10AM when she was up until 3 the previous morning, she shouldn't do it to me. See, it wouldn't be so bad if it was Robbie or Kristen or Chelsea, because I don't talk to them on the phone all that much. But Brittney calls 30 times a day! Gurrr. I need to get out of this house.

I want my A Perfect Circle CD. Mom better have gotten it for me. If she didn't, then she's taking me to Sam Goody and I'm using my 35 dollar gift card to get it. And some other CDs too.. I want.. Yellowcard, Audioslave, Taking Back Sunday, Dope, Our Lady Peace, Socialburn.. yeah. There's more. But I can't remember them. I have them written down somewhere. Hm.

Sam called last night. I told her I was gonna be like.. 500 feet down the road from her on Sunday night. She said she might show up, but if she doesn't then she wants me to come see her. It isn't that far. I could walk down there, me and Miranda, and then see her, chill for a while, and then go back before anyone misses us. Last year we went outside and hung out and probably could have made it to Bordentown before anyone had noticed we weren't in the basement anymore.

Ew. Chingy is on MTV now. That stupid video for Holidae Inn. Makes me want to hurl. All those videos are the same. You have like.. three guys, lots of alcohol, and about twenty whores who are all over those guys. Oh dear God. Hilary Duff is on there now. Ah. I am going to go crawl under a rock and die now.

Don't wanna hear about it

Well. I haven't been faithfully updating this journal like I used to. But I've been really busy with my other journal. The one I keep secret things in. The one that I don't plaster all over the internet for everyone and their uncle to see. But anyways.

I'm leaving at like.. 8 on Friday night and not coming back until Sunday night. I'm going to NJ with Uncle Kenny to see Tyler and Miranda. Oh God I miss them. I haven't seen them since.. Like.. the summer. Yeah. So.

I wish it was Christmas already. I want my new CDs. And I want my new CD player. And I want my MP3 player. I want them. NOW