My impending doom
Today i found out that have my progress report isnt next week sometime. It's this Friday!!!! I better get straight A's this time around or i'm gonna be pissed. I worked really hard this marking period. honestly, the only class i'm worried about is spanish. I'm really trying hard in that class but i dont think it's making much difference. O I'm gonna scream if i dont get straight A's. But i found out i have a 95 in Bio right now. And i got a 100 on the Algebra quiz i took this past Friday. So like i said, spanish is my only concern.
Well it turns out that i have a dance this Saturday. I'm not going to go. With certain people still in my head, im not sure i'm up to it. Plus the only people i would actually want to see, can't go becuase of band. EEEEWWWWW!!!! Band sucks my right nut, just for that. Or is it my left? I'm not sure. O well. I'll figure it out later. I'm gonna go do other things now. Bye
~BOYER

Second round of announcements
Today we filmed for the second, the morinign announcements. We didnt have our own openeing yet. But Bouchard, showed it to us. He's going to edit it in for us later. So it will be in the announcements tomorrow morning. SCORE!!!!
So i got back that Lit. test. I got an 87. The highest grade in the class. it was good i guess but i knew i could have and should have done better. O well i still have a good grade in the class. She knows im pissed about my grade so she went through everything. She even added in the particpation for me. Which i have extra credit in since im the only kid that raises my hand. but im not that annoying kid that gets all into it. And goes "OOOH OOOHH!!" every question. I have a 95 or sumtin like that. Fine with me. Especially since we get progress reports next week sumtime. So i guess im happy. It looks like i'll be getting straight A's. I haven't done that since 4th grade. I'm excited. and this is only a progress report. my sleepyness is unbearable. Flopping on my bed and not getting up sounds good. i think i will.
~BOYER

HEY BABY!!!!
Well today i went to the movies with Greg. Yeah that kid is a little wacky to say the least. But we had a relatively good time considering what movie we went to see. Mitchell said he was going to give anyone extra credit that went and saw the movie and wrote a brief summary about it. Since we are learning about the main character in class. Well it was a boring movie. A little hard to keep up with. Really confusing. Which added to my boredom. But we went out for a break half-way through. Well at least what we thought was half-way through. there was this girl, she was really hot and had to at least be a junior, that was flirting with me. Like really into it flirting. MM she was FINE!! I usually dont think of girls this way. Well that's because most of the time im thinking about Lauren. But this girl, wow what can be said that already hasn't been. And she likes Weezer. So she can't that bad personality wise. Plus she's not slutty. But idk i think i may go back there and see another movie next weekend now. I'm off to bed, write ya later.
~BOYER

Yuck Karate
I had karate today at about 10. I had to get up for it at about 9:15. I get there about 5 minutes late. Thinking i would get the tongue lashing of the century, i was totally caught off guard when they said class was moved to 11:15. But my parents had left for home depot. So i was screwed until they got back. Well i ended up waiting there 'til class started. So i sat there, bowing to my juniors every 5 minutes. See I'm a second degree black belt. Which means i'm pretty high up on the ranking scale. At least compared to the kids and adults that were at class today. I was the most senior. Every single person bowed to me. It was new I'm usually second or sumtin. But today i was most senior. It was cool.
After i got home it was raining off and on for about 2 hours amd oi had to cut the back lawn. It ws hard. At least with the rain it wasnt easy. Well i have to go to sleep. Busy day doing nutin tomorrow.
~BOYER

WOAH!!!!
I feel high. Of course i'm not though. But i just feel really care free. All my problems seem far away. Maybe it was the pep talk from my sis yesterday. But they usually only last a few hours, not days. Or maybe it's the fact that i had a half day and i dont have to worry about my problems for another 2 1/2 days. Well at least the ones in school. O well. Whatever the reason, it's a welcome change. today was, like i said, a half day. Which got me out of a biology quiz. Which is really kool. Unfortunately, absolutely nutin out of the ordinary happened in Social Studies. Which made for a very boring, and long half day. Which is not a good thing. WEll since i have nutin new to report, i think ill take my leave. night
~BOYER

A Revalation
Today was ok. I actually was having an OK DAY. WOW!! well it all started when i i saw our period's morning announcements. He put us on second. But then i was disappointed when i realized that they played the wrong song. How could they do that to me? They were suppose to play The Used - Box full of sharp objects. They didn't. They played Brandnew - Jude Law and a semester abroad. While it s a good song, and i can tolerate the band in general, they were SUPPOSE to play The Used. POOP!!! Well then i managed to get over this major set back in my now crappy day. Which came pretty quickly. Well considering i had to wait through health, biology, and English for it. But i got it. So in 4th period I have US History. Easy stuff for me. I'm no history buff but it is one of my better classes. Anyway. We are learning about the effects of the Renaissance, on the Age of Exploration. Well after explaining Marco Polo, and how he came back from Asia really rich, my teacher then said that other countries wanted Asia's richs. But Marco's way (of crossing land from Europe to Asia) was too long. So he asked us how they got to Asia. "But keep in mind kids, they dont know about the new world yet." So i said they went around Africa. Which is true. Some girl (Paris i think her name is) asked why they didnt sail west (and for those who have as bad a sense of direction as i do, that would be like traveling from europe towards the USA) I said that at the time they thought the world was flat. Well this really stupid girl, ditzy type, turns to one of those huge flat maps of the world that's behind her and points to the area at the far right; in the ocean just off Asia. She asks wait so then what comes after this? I was shocked at how stupid people are. Everyone was yeling at her telling her she was stupid. I stand up since i'm not that far awy from her or the map, and i point to what actually is "next", the other end of the map. In the Pacific Ocean. I told her this was what came after what she had pointed to. Yet her next comment almost left me speechless. (And by the way, Mitchell's in complete and utter amazement) She turn's to me and says, "boy you so stupid. That's at the other end of the map." No shit it's at the other ed of the map. It's a fucking flat version of the earth, shit-for-brains. So Mitchell grabs a globe and tell her that this is a micro version of what the earth actually looks like. She says, "wait so the world is round?" I said something to the effect of, "yeah we've known that for about 600 year." She was so amazed. She actually had a look of surprise on her face. Then as a joke, Mitchell says, "well of course it's going around this hugething called the sun." Then another stupid girl gets the courage to ask, "wait the sun is bigger than the earth?" My jaw hit the floor. Paris says, "girl that was so stupid." Im thinking, Bitch you have no room to talk, you just found out the earth was round!!!!!!!! Fuck why do stupid people think that as soon as they hear someone else say something equally stupid, they think they are geniuses? Then, a third person asks, "if you were in a rocket and you shot staright out of the earth, since it's round, wouldn't you go straight off?" I must give credit to this preson. it actually took some level of intelligance to ask this question, but not much to answer it. A plane does exactly that, but does it go into space? NO!!!!!! IDIOT!!!!!! I told the person just that. Mitchell told me to calm down. How can i stay calm when im surrounded by so much ignorance? Well then, the queen of all knowledge and wisdom, Paris, asks, " whats after the earth?" we say other planets. "yeah i know that, but whats after them?" again we said more planets. She was about to say something else, but seeing where the latest barrage of mind bending questions was going, i said that we dont know where the universe ends. She said "ummm ok then." Last, but certainly not least, was a comment madde by the kid sitting next to me. Mitchell was moving on and had made a comment about how Eurpoe didnt know that the America's were there. So the kid next to me says, "Well they probably didn't know Africa was there either." How could you miss Africa? It's (added in hand motion's) this big! His resopnse. "Well they missed the America's." the America's and europe were sepreated by a fucking ocean!!!! At this point i was so fed up with the stupidity of my fellow classmates, that i was actually yelling out curses. I got up, walked across the room to a map about the world in the 1300"s. I pointed to where Africa and Europe touch. I am by now screaming. How could you miss Africa? It's right fucking there!!!! I mean my God, their touching!! He turns all red and says, um ok. Mitchell is cool though. Instead of giving me a detention, he made me official stupid people slapper. I'm excited. Now that i look back, it's really funny. kelli was laughin her face of. Though she is the only one in that class that actually understands me. She almost passed out. She was literally crying. Then she explained to to our table at lunch next period. It had the same effect on them. Our table of kelli, lauren, becca, drea, reachel, me and some other guy that sits at the end that never pays attention. We were going crazy.
But unfortunately for me my day was not over. I had Algebra II next. So i'm in class, bored to tears. I sat for what felt like hours, waiting for the bell to ring. Finally it does. GRRAAAAHHHHH!!!! That period was soooo boring. Especially since i was hyper as hell, just coming off two really crazy and funny periods in a row. So i'm in Adv. Telecom. Just sitting there becuase we really weren't in the mood to practice today. So they were playing crappy music, and talking about pointless things. I sat in the corner, thinking about nothing. I really didnt want anything to do with these people.
Suddenly i realize something. Something really bad. My life is exactly as it was last year. And the year before. And the year before that. These past 2 years especially. This time last year i was exactly as i am now. I hated school. I had no one to really enjoy my time with at home. But even back then i hated the people in my school. I had a communications class, filled with people that i wouldn't mind throwing off a rooftop. Though i'll admit. The people this year don't seem to mind that im a year ahead of where i should be. Last year when everyone found out i was a freshman, they acted like i knew nothing. (You have to be a sophmore to take Comm Tech, my sister knew the teachers that run the studio's and stuff. She got me in a year early)They treated me like a 2 year old. AAAHHHHH!!!! i hated them so much. Still do. All those ignorant bastards need to shut-up or get my foot up their ass. Thank God i'm out of there. But now i'm a sophmore with a bunch of juniors and seniors. They are better than last year, but not much. I hope it's not a repeat of last year. My sister keeps telling me i only have to wait 3 more years. Just 3 more years and i'll be out of there. I'm so happy i have Alyson. even though she's at Elon right now, she always finds ways o cheer me up and help me with anything. She definately helped me in this instance. She's the only person that knows enough about me and my life, and has gone through twp. recent enough to know how shitty it is. Plus we have that odd sibling bond thing. And you know what? She is exactly right. I have already started looking for colleges to go to. All i need is 3 more years and i can leave all this shit behind me. Everything that hs gone wrong in my life, every problem i have ever had, i can leave it here in twp., and never have to worry about them again. Praise the Lord!! sry inside joke. Well now that i know that my life seems to be goin in circles, i think i'm gonna go to bed and think about how to straighten it out. Night world.
~BOYER

I want to do good
I had an interesting convo with my parents today while coming home froma karate. Well first i should tell you that ever since 7th grade i have been a slacker. I dont know why. I guess it's just laziness. Whatever. This year (my sophmore year) i really want to turn myself around. I mean with my lack of social life here in twp, and everything that has been going on wiht camp, my life has been kinda shitty (for lack of a better word). I need something so that when i go home and i sit down and think about my life, i have something to be happy about. I need to be proud of myself. Even if it's something i absolutely hate, like school it's something, and i need that. And so far i'm doing really good. My parents are really happy. I can tell. but as much as this helps me fight the urge to just give up in general, i can't completely forget this urge. I still care about lauren way too much. God sometimes, love is more of a curse than it is a blessing. Anyway. I'm trying to good in school so that i can have that 1 thing that can make me happy. I just hope i dont fall apart again. I can always hope, can't i?
~BOYER

The next dream
Last night was quite possibly the worst night of my life and i wasnt even concious for it. I dreamt of her again. Lately i dream of her, i dream of her being hurt in some way, and my lack of doing anything.(Check out sept 16th entry for further info on that dream) Over the past week all my dreams have been like that. I'm with her and there is always this figure. I can never tell who he is. But he is torturing her. She cries out in pain, but i do nothing. It's really starting to scare me. I'm serious too. I've had this dream many times. I have no idea what to do. Last night was the worst one yet. I'm in an operating room.
Lauren and i are married and she's having a baby. For some reason we haven't been able to. The children have all died in her womb. She's about to give birth when her stomach starts to grow. She's in serious pain. She's screaming for it to end, but it doesn't. When the doctor tells me she's gone. then her stomach erupts and that figure pops out. But i still can't see his face. Even in the well lit room, he's all shadow.
At this point i wake up again in a cold sweat. I started crying. CRYING. not full fledge crying, but i felt my eyes watering. BLAAAHHHH!!!!For once im not actually looking forward to going to sleep. I've been having dreams like this all week. I'm literally scared. Of course i would never tell he any of this. I'd scare her way too much. She probably wouldn't talk to me. I'm not sure waht to do anymore, but i think i have to actually go to a psycologist. Me being an aspiring one. I've already determined, that the figure is my interpretation of whatever is seperating me and lauren. Whether it be the distance or that guy she was with at the dance, i'm not sure. The sub-concious is never clear. and for those of u that didnt know, that's all dreams are. Messages from the sub-concious (obviously it's not that simple, but basically that's it) And the fact that i do nothing is my reluctance to be in a relationship with her again. I have other ideas, but these seem to make sense and really stick out. Well i'm off to think some more. Goodnight.
~BOYER

Homework
Blah. Today was ok i guess. I got a 98 on that algebra test. Whcich brings my grade to a 99. This one i'm sure of. I'm doing ok in school in general i guess. Though i played a lot of my cd's in adv telecom over the audio deck and the kids didnt like it. WEll some of them did. But all the wiggers and sluts that act black (which is even more annoying than wiggers) were complaining that it didnt have a beat. Wow so making sounds with your mouth is a beat? What do they call it........... beatbox? i dont know. i really dont care. but rcok they play instruments. they actually have something called guitars, and drums, and basses. All you have in rap is maybe a mix thinger whatever the hell they are called, and your mouth. And it takes no singing ability to get up on stage and talk fast. i could do that. anyway enough abou how rock music is better than rap. We all know it is. WEll if u dont, then u do now. i have algebra to do. goodnight.
~BOYER

BIOLOGY IS NOT MY FRIEND
unlike what my teacher is trying to make us understand.... BIOLOGY IS NOT MY FRIEND. I dont mind studying it. well compared to physics, it's easy as pie. MMMMM PIE!!!. I like pie!!! Well i just spent about 30 minutws of my life studying it with my dad. When we were done he was even more confused than i was. but thats ok. it gives me a better excuse on monday. I went to the mall today with jon. It wasn't too bad. W e joked a lot about random things. and jokes the were funny to us about a year ago. But i havent seen him in that long. it's crazy. But i got a needed escape fromn my life for about 4 hours. i bought a 10g earring. i have a 12g, but i think i'm gonna return the 10. it's a little too big for me. But other than thatnutin real exciting happened. i bought lots of gumballs. i like gumballs too. Well i need to get some sleep. my eyes are starting to shut becuase i got none last night. hdgndjhggdlkfgjd. mmmm sleep!!!!!!! I like sleep.
~Boyer