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2005 1 May :: 8.33pm
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: snow patrol
bleh
i feel like i havent updated in a while. alright. yeah.
the little canandians just got back. jon was online and i couldnt think of nething to say to him. oh well. ill talk to him tommorow or something.
i learned the snowpatrol song run of guitar...which tells the whole world how easy it is lol...i even have the solo memorized too...lol
but yeah, i was just sitting here thinking about stuff and i think im going downhill again. but something is holding me back this time. i dont care im not saying this for attention believe me i dont want attention about this but i havent cut or had the need to cut for a while. one time i tried to do it and it just...doesnt work nemore. but yeah. i dunno if thats good or not cuz there are worse things that i can do to myself. but i feel like im heading back down again except this time i think drugs are gonna be involved...heh...
i need some money
glamorous indie rock and roll tis what i want
its in my soul its what i need....indie rock and roll its time
tommorow im going to have to write an entire outline and essay...
unless i feel like failing world history 10 lol...i dunno y im still in cp1..who knows id rather switch that to math in cp1 but no the system is poop.
i really dunno wtf is up with bobby nemore
i really dont know him
oh well...i wish i did again
semi is on friday...hehe
i hope its gonna be good :)
l8rh8rs
=ally=
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2005 27 April :: 7.41pm
i would just like to comment how much livejournal sucks
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2005 23 April :: 10.42am
:: Mood: kinda cold/hopeful
:: Music: my burps from the soda im drinking/mom n her friends voices
blah blah blah blah dot dot dot
1. Copy this whole list into your journal.
2. Star the things that are true about you.
3. Whatever you don’t star is false.
01. I miss somebody right now*
02. I don’t watch much TV these days.*
03. I love olives.
04. I love sleeping. (sometimes)
05. I own lots of books.*
06. I wear glasses or contact lenses.
07. I love to play video games.*(sometimes)
08. I’ve tried marijuana.*
09. I’ve watched porn movies.*(i think im not sure)
10. I have been in a threesome.
11. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
12. I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
13. I look younger then I am.
14. I like and I respect Al Sharpton.
15. I curse frequently.*
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.******
17. I have a hobby.*
18. I’ve been told I: (women) have an applebottom, (men) am packing.*
19. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
20. I’m really, really smart. (If I wanted to be...I really could)
21. I’ve never hurt anyone.
22. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.*
23. I hate the rain.(neonewhochecksthisoff...idontlikelolsry)
24. I’m paranoid at times.*ohyeah
25. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free, and scar-free.*
26. I have had plastic surgery before.
27. I need money right now.*****
28. I talk really, really fast.(sometimes)**
29. I have traveled a lot.
30. I have semi-long hair.*
31. I have lost money in Las Vegas.
32. I have at least one brother and/or one sister. (onlychildalltheway)
33. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
34. I have lived on more than one continent.
35. I have a twin.
36. I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
37. I couldn’t survive without Caller I.D.
38. I like the way that I look.
39. I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.*
40. I know how to cornrow.
41. I am usually pessimistic.*
42. I have a lot of mood swings.*
43. I think prostitution should be legalized.
44. I think Britney Spears is hot.
45. I have cheated on a significant other in the past.
46. I have a hidden talent. *
47. I’m always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
48. I think that I’m popular. (People generally like me, I think, if that's what you're asking?)
49. I am currently single.*
50. I have kissed someone of the same sex.
51. I enjoy talking on the phone.*
52. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
53. I love to shop.*
54. I would rather shop than eat.*?
55. I would classify myself as ghetto.
56. I’m bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
57. I’m obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.
58. I don’t hate anyone. I dislike them.
59. I’m a pretty good dancer.*lol
61. I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
62. I have a cell phone.
63. I believe in God.
64. I noticed a minute ago that there was no number 60.
65. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.*onlyonce
66. I love drama
67. I have never been in a "real" relationship before.*
68. I’ve rejected someone before.
69. I currently have a crush on someone.**********
70. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.*?
71. I want to have children in the future.*sure
72. I have changed a diaper before.
73. I’ve called the cops on a friend before.
74. I bite my nails.*
75. I'm a member of the Tom Green fan club.
76. I’m not allergic to anything.
77. I have a lot to learn.*
78. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger.
79. I plan on seeing Ice Cube’s newest "Friday" movie.
80. I am very shy around the opposite sex SOMETIMES.*
81. I’m online 24/7, even as an away message.*untill i go to bed or go out for extended amounts of time
82. I have at least 5 away messages saved.*peoples phone numbers
83. I have tried alcohol or drugs before.*
84. I have made a move on a friend’s significant other in the past.
85. I own the "South Park" movie.*
86. I have avoided assignments at work to be on Xanga or Livejournal.
87. When I was a kid I played "birds and bees" with a neighbor or chum.(I'll show you mine, you show me yours type-of-thing?)
88. I enjoy country music.
89. I enjoy different genres of music.***********
90. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.*baffolo lolsryboutspellin
91. I watch soap operas whenever I can.
92. I’m obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist.
93. I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
94. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
95. I know all the words to Slick Rick’s "Children’s Story"
96. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
97. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.*
98. I have dated a close friend’s ex.
99. I have cut my self before. (accidentally, of course)
100. I am happy at this moment. i guess*
aside from that
i am a complete hopeless romantic
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2005 20 April :: 9.44pm
ahh...
its april 20th and i havent smoked pot in like....3weeks or something
yeah
jon had a date to the semi
i asked alex :)
kim is bringing me to the senoir prom but my fucking mom ruined it
GAHHHHH
saw jon 2 times today he didnt see me
i wanna hang out wtih him sometime soon
like tommororw
after next wednesday i can get my licence!!!!
s to the core
i wanna hang out with bobby so bad
its annoying me
and i feel like hanging out wtih rob
but i dont
i dunno
had like this
break down thing before i went to my dadsd house this weekend and danielle was like BAH u gotta tell ur mom and im not gonna sry penguin...
yeah...
its raining i wanna be outside
im wondering if doing drugs would be a bad thing again
i just feel so...tired when i think of doing them
i dunno
got an ipod for teh win!!!
yeah
beat all gurneys little gamer friends on his site
that was so good
yeah
im kinda happy
today was a lil depressing but yeah
i dunno lol
im just in a drifty mood
so yeah
no thought filled entrys
sry lol
no bitchin either lol hmm yeeeeeeah
alright well i gotta be upstairs by 10! cuz my mom is 64y
l8rh8rs
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2005 11 April :: 9.04pm
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: etta james- at last
blah
yeah...
nothing in the new relm
gonna ask jon to the semi tommorow
heh
i no hes gonna say no
thats ok
i think im using bobby for attention
i dunno tho
i cant like
think anymore
its so blahfull
jess is an awsome person
kate is too
ive been talking to them lately
jess mroe just cuz i have her sn
they r both wicked awsome
blah
...
9:32 now
blah
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2005 26 March :: 7.51pm
:: Mood: nothing
:: Music: my fingers hitting the keys/my breathing
so
ive been sick since last saturday
its not fun
yeah
Rob-
i will never give this to you but thats ok. i dont care (but i do)
Its weird, i tryed so hard not to screw us up. which is "funny" because i did. I think we "went out" for 16 days. I know it was a littel more than 2 weeks, but i cant remember the excate date. I feel like its stupid that im this torn up over you. seeing as i didnt realy get to know you that well. but yeah. im not really a trusting person which is annoying becuase its all i want. i dont care about anything else in the world beside finding someone for me. i dont care that im in highschool or immature or that i have the rest f my life to find someone. i dont care. everyday i wake up and feel empty it kills me to know that i am so alone. and its stupid because i think that i didnt call you because i was too afraid that youd go away. and be like everyone else that i have ever known. there are two things that always bounce around my head.
1 that you told me that you like everthing about me/you would -dont know the excate words- if anything happened to me or something. that makes me wanna kill.cut.drug myself because if you were really honest about that which i think you were, the fact that i had that and lost it just kills me.
2 the other aspect of my life is that im never really happy. ever. i may just be hyper or something but i hate myself the day iw as over your house, just you and me is the only time in my life that i was truly happy. just sitting there with you, touching your face, back, not doing anything but everything at the same time i think i would give up anything to just go back to that moment. i would. i'd do anything. i wish i could give this to you. but i doubt i will. i suck like that. i miss talking to you on the phone when it was really late, and the reason i never really said anything was because i liked listening to you too much. i know thats really lame reason but its true. i just liked hearing you talk to me. i liked knowning you opinions and how you felt.
oh well, i screwed up. i couldnt let myself trust you. i couldnt admit that im not a shitty person and someone actually liked me. i still cant, gone my whole life not being liked or loved my whole life. i hate it. so much. you have no idea.. yeah. hard to break that way of thinking.
there is about 80million other things id like to write but i think you get the idea.
-Alison
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2005 26 March :: 6.15pm
[ ] I am bisexual or homosexual.
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ ] I don't like Bush because from what I hear, he is dumb.
[ ] I don't like Bush with my own reasons to back it up.
[ ] I am for Bush.
[x] I really don't care either way.
[ ] I listen to political music.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[xdepends] I open up to others easily.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[ ] I watch the news.
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[ ] I own an iPod or MP3 player
[x] I own something from Hot Topic
[x] I love Disney Movies.
[x] I am a sucker for hair/eyes.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I curse randomly.
[ dontownone] I paid for that cell phone ring.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ]I have "x"s in my screen name.
[x] I've slipped out an AIM word [lol, brb, etc.] in a real conversation.
[ ] I love Spam.
[ ] I bake well.
[ ] I would wear pajamas to school.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.
[ ] I have a job.
[ ] I love Martha Stewart.
[ ] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I am self conscious.
[x] I like to laugh.
[ ] I smoke a pack a day.
[ ] I loved Perks of Being a Wallflower.
[x] I loved Go Ask Alice.
[x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[x] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[cangoformonthswithout or everyday] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I have many scars.
[ ] I've been out of this country.
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I see a therapist.
[x] I love white chocolate.
[xbuttryingtostop] bite my nails.
[ ] I am comfortable with being me.
[x] I play video games.
[x] I'm single
[x] Gotten lost in my city.
[x] Saw a shooting star
[ ] Been to any other countries besides the united states
[ ] I Had a serious Surgery
[ ] Gone out in public in your pajamas
[ ] Kissed a Stranger
[x] Hugged a stranger
[ ] Been in a fist fight
[ ] Been arrested
[x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator
[ ] Made out in an elevator
[x] Swore at your parents
[ ] Kicked a guy where it hurts
[ ] Been close to love
[ ] Been to a casino
[ ] Been skydiving
[x] Broken a bone
[x] Skipped school
[ ] Flashed someone
[ ] Saw a therapist
[ ] Done the splits
[ ] Played spin the bottle
[x] Gotten stitches
[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
[x] Bitten someone
[ ] Been to Niagara Falls
[x] Gotten the chicken pox
[ ] Crashed into a friend's car
[ ] Been to Japan
[ ] Ridden in a taxi
[x] Shoplifted
[ ] Been fired
[ ] Ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
[xxxxxxxxxxxxx] Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
[ ] Stole something from your job
[ ] Gone on a blind date
[x] Lied to a friend
[ ] Had a crush on a teacher
[ ] Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans
[ ] Been to Europe
[ ] Been married
[ ] Gotten divorced
[ ] Had children
[ ] Saw someone dying
[ ] Been to Africa
[ ] Driven over 400 miles in one day
[ ] Been to Canada
[ ] Been to Mexico
[ ] Been on a plane
[x] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
[ ] Thrown up in a bar
[ ] Eaten Sushi
[ ] Been snowboarding
[ ] Been Skiing
[ ] Met someone in person from the internet
[ ] Been to a moto cross show
[ ] Lost a child
[ ] Gone to college
[ ] Graduated college
[x] Done hard drugs
[x] Taken painkillers
[ximalmost100%suredontcarethough] Had someone cheat on you
[x] Miss someone right now
[ ] Eaten a stick of butter
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2005 24 March :: 11.34am
i wrote a letter to rob
not gonna give it to him
maybe ill post it later
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2005 19 March :: 8.30pm
i feel like fucking ending it now.......GOD
dont even have the stregnth to finish it off myself
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2005 15 March :: 5.58pm
yesterday we broke up in biology
wow hes a dick
plus he was spotted kissing tara yesterday
and some other girl today
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