:: 2005 13 July :: 10.33 pm

yeah
today i dunno
smoking sucks
i forgot to breathe...n almost passed out.
that was a little new
yeah
i really hope im not burnt out too bad for work tommorow
cuz that will suck
even tho mr. laubner is working
i really want bobby to be online...
just being on makes me feel so much safer and like..ok
danielle called me today.
oh damn i wasnt home
ill call her tommorow
eh yeah
blahblahblah
saw jon with alanna today
gross
they were at dane st. sitting on a bench...
so much for thinking that me n him only did that
oh fuckin well
aghirjhah
i wanna find a fucking guy
so bad
like
its not funny
so im not in this goddam boat all by myself
and having a guy i think will just make me feel better about everything
i dunno
fill the void
cuz my friends just dont cut it.....
heh
my friends dont but blades are better
yeah that was a little scary
im taking a step farther into cutting
i dont really care if neone has a problem with me typing this so the whole world can see
but
i need somewhere to get this out
and u dont know me
so just chill and keep reading or go somewhere else
alright?
so yeah...
cutting is now at a higher level.
for some reason i want to like..carve big hunks of skin out
and just see a big hole
that looks like a slice of an apple or something
maybe like a skinny D
yeah im tired
ill tell u about my next couple days then im going to bed
tommorow work 4-10 GROSS
friday OZZFEST
saturday i am locking myself in my room
and sunday work 2-10 GROSSERRRRrrr
hehe i get paid tommorow too
NICEEE
k im going to bed
l8r

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