bah
so.....long time no update i guess...

been going out wtih rob since feb. 28th
its alright
hes so confusing and i like him so much
lol...im such a dork
ive never kissed anyone before...my one expirence was kyle from NH n he was like the drool master and it was gross...even if it was just a 3second mouth pressing ness thing
and i didnt even expect it
but yeah
i was at robs house...hmm...tuesday? n i have never liked or been more comfortable with neone then him and we were just sitting there, he was sorta laying on me and it was amazing. i noticed he kept trying to kiss me and it kinda scared me. so when we were just sitting n stuff i said to him id kiss u but im too scared then he tried to get me to kiss him n stuff and it wasnt that great n i wouldnt and i was having a panic attack and all that great ish
yeah
n weve had great conversations and all this stuff and im so scared of trusting him and letting myself like him and its so gay and hard and i almost hate him becuase i like him so much
bahhhhhhhhhhhhhh
and i just wanted to be wtih him today
no one else
n it didnt happen......bahhhhhh
and he told me he wished i showed up at the concert and i was all gRRR and stuff
but yeah

im really sucking in school
im supposed ot have done stuff for my huge research paper for history and i havent done nething....i dont even wanna do it
have a project for biology and i completely forgot about it
so i have to do it before thursday cuz i suck
yeah
bahhhhhhh i just want you for my own
more then you could ever know
baby all i want...is you