something along the lines of right
alright

new years:


ok so yeah, jaycee n danielle came over n we were gonna work on our books for a bit but kim kept bugging me n we had to go meet jon, so yeah.......we didnt do much with books
got jon n walked toward the library
stood out there for a bit
it was nice
35-40 degrees
maybe warmer
probably warmer
random car picked us up
n brought us to rich's
i was the first one in his house n all over the table was pot, it reeked of it, there was smoke everywhere, people passing bongs around
like 6 people at a table n i started freaking out cuz 1 i promised danielle there wouldnt be ne drugs around us n 2 JON is like the fucking straightest straightedge n i didnt want him to be all omg freaking out...i had a dream he did too lol
so yeah as me jon danielle n jaycee walked through the crowd n up to richs room i was getting really high. i couldnt even be outside richs room. i finnally broke down n told danielle n jon that i was really high n needed to leave. jon was like "i thought u smoked" and i was like well i used to n then i stopped.
so a couple mins later danielle's dad calles n wants to give her her medicne n we stress over a way to get back to beverly
we went to her friend sabrina's house
i know her from school a little
then danielles dad dropped us off at the movie rental area.......got movies n went to my house. dave called around 9? maybe n came over around 9:30 we had a blast watching movies n running around the house
i did some premo-flirting but it didnt pay off...
we went downtown at like 11:30
dave wanted a lighter cuz he wanted to smoke
actually him me n jaycee wanted to
lol
he got one hit
at like 12:20
but
at 12:00 we were all standing together while dave was trying to pack a cig. no one kissed
i wanted to kiss jon
n dave
either
both
but i didnt
had a chance with jon
cuz he was like pointing to his cheek n saying common ladies or something........but i didnt
just stood there
feeling more lonely than ever
eh yeah, then we went back to my house till like 1

today me n jaycee "went to the mall"
aka richs
5 ft 2inches bong
omg so big

but
eh
i think i wanna stop
just gonna be so hard
gahh


god its gonna be hard


jon got his eyebrow pierced lol
its so....different
i wanna go out with him
cuz it would be so easy to not do drugs
=someone i wanna be with that doesnt wanna do drugs
it would work out perfectly
even though i like dave
n hes fun n great
bobby is just
i dont wanna say right
but
something along the lines of right
yeah
im gonna go crash

took me 30mins to write all this

later
-ally