eh...
so yeah...today was shit

mom is gonna be so disapointed (i fucking hate that word) in me...im not gonna make honors second semester...i dont think. we only have what 16classes left?
i have a C+ in english...which was a B+ which will probably turn into a b or b- when averged into this semester. math i have a C- or something...when i had an A- first semester
computers i got a A+ or something...i dont really care
russian i have a B
n im probably failing photo
god
its so fucking annoying
i wish i cared
i really do but no things have to suck fucking major ass balls
god
ERRR
this guy i didnt know, but knew, its weird
killed himself
i havent heard from danielle
god
i miss her so much
i hate having to be fucking strong for other people
i FUCKING HATE IT
GOD PEOPLE U NO IM NOT ASKING FOR ANYTHING
BUT REALLY
how fucking stupid are you all
bobby is fucking picking up the hints a little
i WISH HE FUCKING DID LIKE WHAT? 5 MONTHS AGO
you know when he DIDNT FUCKING HATE ME
WHATS UP WITH YOU? HUH? WHY ARE YOU NOT BEING MY FRINED WHY AR EOYU FUCKING DOING THIS TO ME WHEN I FuCKING NEED YOU THE GODDAM MOST...GOD WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS HOW FUCKING RETARDED ARE YOU I MEAN COMMON HOW OBVIOUS AM I THAT I WANT YOU TO FUCKING HELP ME BUT I CANT TELL YOU ANYTHNG BECAUSE I CANT TRUST YOUR GODDAM ASS REALLY COMMON YOU ARENT STUPID NOT ONE OF YOU FUCKING BASTARDS ARE STUPID

omfg....
GRR
AND WHATS UP WITH ALL THE FUCKING RAPE
IF YOU DONT WANNA HAE SEX THEN DONT IF SOMEONE HAS FUCKING SEX WITH YOU AND YOUR ON DRUGS OR DRUNK THEN FUCKING SEW THEIR ASS COMMON LADIES!!! YOUR GOOD ENOUGH TO HAVE GUYS LOOKING AT YOU SO FUCKING MAKE EM KEEP THERE PANTS UP ITS NOT HARD OT SAY KNOW AND IF IT IS THEN DONT HANG OUT WITH THEM WHILE YOUR FUCKING HIGH AS A GODDAM KITE
AND FOR ALL YOU PEOPLE OUT THERE WHO THINK IM FUCKING INSANE

i am


grr...im so fucking tired of all this shit going on
i want it all to fucking end
everyone be fucking happy
you know what?
YOU KNOW WHAT I GODDAM WANT?
i want it to be august again
i really do

also had a little self reflection thing the other day
one of the lesser bad reasons of why i smoke:
i guess it reminds me of august, when i used to hang out with bobby every day.
yeah fucking sad i know
I DONT REALLY GIVE A RFUCIKING RATS ASS IF ITS SAD OR KNOT CUZ U NO WHAT IM FUCKING SAD
HEAR ME FUCKING YET YOU DEAF BASTARDS
OMFG!!!!!!


yeah, i kinda havent been happy lately
i dunno if u noticed
i really hate always having manic depressive entries
i know it sucks to read but eh
what the fucking hell
's my journal




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