long time no update

yeah...
its been a while
since i could say
that i wasnt addicted

i dont even know why i want more
aside from the fact that i feel like ill never be happy again

the cravings come and go

russia...4/7-4/22
crazy shit.

woke up next to nick doig a couple times
tried to get him to do stuff when we were shitfaced
didnt work heh


but yeah
ive gone like 3 weeks without doing it
and i want it so badly
so badly

dont think ill make it through