:: 2004 20 November :: 5.11 pm
:: Mood: shitty

god i just feel like shit right now
kim's all..."yeah me and dave have been talking about stuff lately. like if we would go out with each other if me and my bf broke up." i was like.....i dont wanna fucking hear this. god
n i just wanna fucking break down right now but my fucking mom n her stupid ass friend are over n i just wanna stoping thinking right now. n its really killing me
i wish it was august right now
i was so happy then
or i guess
i dunno
bobby was my friend n talking to me
dave would still be talking to me
im pretty sure me n jon hung out sometimes
god i hate everything
and i hate nothing
fuck!
i just need right now
i need so much
its fucking killing me
kim was my friend too
we just arent friends right now
im such a loner
n i have this goddam emptyness inside my stomache n my throat and its fucking killing me
i just wanna go out somewhere n smoke myself to death
i just hate living right now
i dont think ive ever enjoyed it
i hate feeling like shit
WHEN IS IT GONNA FUCKING END
god...if kim n dave went out i think id flip
just cuz shed end up hurting him in the end
god
i hate fucking living.......

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