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arissa

:: 2003 18 September :: 7.19pm
:: Mood: Horrible
:: Music: I'm just a Girl | No Doubt

I'm just a GIRL, so pretty and petite..
-sniffles- Oi minna-san. I've been sick for over a week.. Everyone at school is sick which means this cold won't go away for a while. -_-; Joy. This is the first time I've been online since.. Monday? .. I've been coming straight home and taking a nap.. Of course I can't take small naps, so I wake up, eat dinner, and then it's time for an hour or two of homework.. So I've had almost no free time. Well, tomorrows Friday. Yay! .. But once again I won't have any time to myself this weekend. -sighs- I'm going straight from school tomorrow to my best friend's, Amanda, house.. And from there we are going out of town, to Cherry Creek for the weekend.. Which means a four or five hour drive. BUT, they have the Anime Network there!! ^^!! -fangirl squeal- So we'll be watching anime all night.. Then we'll be going out on the ATV's I believe.. So yeah.. Then more anime, and then home.. So I'll be back Saturday night, but hey. My weekend is pretty much planned. o.o; Anywho. Wee, having slaves is great.. x3 .. Comic-con is coming! Yay. It's the closest to an Anime Convention Las Vegas will ever get at this rate. -_-; .. -sighs- .. but me and my friends are all planning on forming a big group and going together. ^^ It's going to be so much fun. Alright. Enough ramblings from me.. -.o Now I have to try and continue to figure out how at add friends. -feels so stupid- Help would be nice. >>; .. *coughs*..
Ja mata ne minna-san, with love.

Alyssa

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arissa

:: 2003 15 September :: 11.39pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music:

Whisper | Evanescence

Catch me as I fall..
Konnichiwa minna-san.
-sneezes- Well. I don't feel verreh good, I think I'm catching a cold.. Which is a bad thing. This school year, I want a perfect attendence record, which I doubt will happen.. But it's worth a shot.. But if I get sick, that will get in the way. -sighs- Oh well. Wee, learning Japanese is fun, especially in school. -luffs her school- I'm so tired though, getting up at 5 in the morning is killing me. Alright, it you haven't gotten it yet, I go to a magnet school.. And my major is Japanese.. I'm a freshman this year.. I get up at 5 am everyday, and don't get home until almost 4 pm every day. Sooo... Days are very long now that I'm not in middle school.. And keeping my GPA to a C will be hard.. But I'll do it! Anywho, I like.. Anime.. Okies.. So I *LOVE* anime.. But yeah... That's some basic information for the time being.. I'm going to continue to work on my journal. Ja mata ne minna-san.

Alyssa

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xMiyavixFanx

:: 2003 5 September :: 11.41pm
:: Mood: Like Shit
:: Music: Offspring- Way Down The Line

Dammit...
You know those times in life when you just think to yourself, "Well...I've hit rock bottom..." yeah well, I had one of those days.

-sounds of a cricket- And obviously no one gives a shit! For any new readers...-though I'm pretty sure that I only have one reader...possibly two- I'm gay, I have a boyfriend...his name is Tri, I loooove him. But this other dude asked me out...I don't like him. >.>; -sniff-

He's stupid and dumb...

Stupidity is contagious... -scoots away from the dude with asked him out, hissing-

Well....I'm not sure what to do, cause if I say "No, I'm taken" to the dude who asked me out, he might shoot both me and Tri in the head...many times. -_-;

Oh well....That's life for you...

Well, more updates soon!

Ja ne!

-A-

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xMiyavixFanx

:: 2003 28 August :: 6.23pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: Kittie and KoRn- This Town

Story! ^_^
Story! ^_^;;



-The End of The Road-


Recommended Music: Death Of Season- AFI



-prologue-
-- Jaison’s pov –

I hung onto the microphone as if I’d die if I ever let go, swinging it around as I sung along to a song aimlessly...I wasn’t even thinking about the words as they flowed out of my mouth, or the out of control audience that were hanging on my every word...but not at the same time.

My midnight and magenta hair was clinging to the sides of my face using sweat as glue, hanging in front of my emerald green eyes that I was often told by Rain were more valuable than any jewel. But that was just talk...and talk was cheap. -

The pounding of the drums rung out in a short but sweet percussion solo, the bass and electric guitar joining in before my voice yet again joined the melody...but on the inside I didn’t notice any of this.

I wasn’t thinking as a shook my head from side to side, spitting out angry words that was classified as lyrics. I wasn’t even acknowledging the fact that my band-mate was licking at my neck.

So what exactly was I doing, you ask?

Nothing...nothing at all.

— Rain’s pov—

I listened intently to the sound of our beautiful singer’s voice, watched as he and Dante basically grinded against each other right on stage, in front of my eyes. Could Jaison really not know how much it hurt me?

I sat behind the drums, unable to move, pounding hatefully at the instruments as my solo came up. As pathetic as it was...that was what our music focused on, hate.

An emotion I knew all to well, and didn’t want to know any better than I already did. But that was the way it was and I doubted that it would change any time soon. Inwardly I sighed as the song came to an end, finishing it off with a few well placed beats. Thankfully, that was the last song of the night and I couldn’t have been happier for that small blessing.

I watched as Jaison exited the stage after a vicious kiss with Dante and a childish grin at the crowd who swooned. I wouldn’t do it...I wouldn’t let him hurt me like this.

Especially when he didn’t even know what he was doing to me...


—Dante—

I couldn’t help but ravish him on stage, and you’d probably have trouble resisting yourself. Imagine him, slim but beautiful form shaking and jumping around...licking those delicious lips of his teasingly at the audience.

Sure...Me and Jaison fuck.

The relationship is purely physical, never had I felt anything for him emotionally except a strong protective feeling. No one, and I mean no one, was allowed to touch him in anyway that I didn’t approve of.

Once, when Silver got a little too into his joking around and kissed Jaison...I roared with an inhuman rage, pulling him off and throwing him into the wall.

I broke his arm...

But Jaison is mine, no one else’s and if I can’t have him than no one will...

And I will make sure that, that much is understood.

—Silver—

All I could do was sit and watch as my angel looked so broken on the inside behind his drum set, staring wistfully at Jaison. How I hate him...how I envy him. Never had he done anything to earn Rain’s love, he didn’t deserve him.

I have known the percussionist since we were ten...merely children, with a passion for music even then.

And he was beautiful, young, but so beautiful...

His hair was a soft ebony that reminded me of the midnight sky, though now it’s streaked with bright blue. Eyes of a icy blue, pale...almost see through but spell-binding. His skin is and has always been deathly pale, but fitting for an angel such as he.

I observed the fallen angel as he stood as well, exiting the stage with a emotionless expression on his almost calm..neutral face that I adored so much.

But of course, I was the joker...the one that no one took serious. So no matter how many times I tried to tell Rain how I felt about him, he’d only laugh and pat me on the back. It pained me inwardly, but on the outside I put on a grin and chuckled as well.

I could be very convincing when I want to be...

—Rain—

Aimlessly, I shuffled backstage...collapsing in the main room on the comfortable sofa. I vaguely noticed that Silver was watching me with a...concerned look on his face? As of late, I always noticed him looking at me like that...

I glanced to Jaison, who was sitting in Dante’s lap...flirting with him wildly. Though Dante barely did anything but kiss, lick, nip at his neck...he only wanted my love for his body...the bastard.

But I couldn’t do anything about it, I was just the shy drummer who stuck to the rules like glue, straight laced and sweet as candy. Or that was my stereo-type, and for one reason or another...I kept to it.

Jaison was feminine, flirt, with a love for magical girl animes... Dante was the exact opposite, rough manly and cold hearted to the bone. And then there was Silver...always joking about something or another. But when he wanted to, the fool could produce some deep thoughts. He was my best friend...the only person I truly trusted and I loved him like a brother.

I changed my train of thought, instead thinking of just how beautiful Jaison looked even in the arms of another. His eyes always shined when he was happy...like devastatingly beautiful stars.

But what was to become of my love when our band finally split up?

And it was bound to happen...more soon than late.



-End Prologue-


~~~~~

So...Whatcha think? ^-^


-Adrian-

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xMiyavixFanx

:: 2003 25 August :: 8.32pm
:: Mood: cranky
:: Music: Foutains of Wayne-Stacey's Mom

.... -whimper-
---The Things One Learns In Highschool----

One: School Sucks
Two: School is the anti-christ
Three: Disregard number two, we now have proof that Jocks have taken that placement.
Four: You will be hated by many...atleast 80% of the school. This includes the teachers and staff...


----Can't Think of Anymore at the Moment----

So, how are you?

....

I'm horrid, I SPILLED INK ON MY KICK-ASS PANTS!

-whimper- In art class, we were doing pen and ink and when I dipped the quill into the bottle of ink...I tossed it over and onto my pants! (Pants: Black with chains and bondage and shit. )...-sniffle- And the ink doesn't ever come out...I know, black on black right? BUT THAT'S NOT THE POINT DAMMIT!

It's the /principle/ of the thing...

>.> Ahem....

Anyway...

.......

Yes, I hate you too.

...

Since I don't know you, I'll name you myself!

I deem you, BOB!

....

So Bob, what's up?

....Gimmie candy.


-Adrian-

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