I wanted to believe in all the words I was speaking, as we moved together in the dark. And all the friends that I was telling. And all the playful misspellings. And every bite I gave you left a mark. Tiny vessels oozed into your neck, and formed the bruises that you said you didn't want to fade, but they did, and so did I, that day.

 

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:: 2003 5 December :: 5.23 pm

i hate her.
my mom is so stupid. i cant go to brads party. even though she said i could the other day. i ask her about it today and she acts like i never told her. so yeah. i cant go.

1 kid | you worry too much

:: 2003 4 December :: 7.29 pm
:: Music: Sugarcult-memory

can i be your memory?
i liked today. nothing bothered me. i was happy. it was great.

Even if her plane crashes tonight she'll find some way to dissapoint me, by not burning in the wreckage or drowning at the bottom of the sea- Brand New/Jude Law and a Semester Abroad

3 kids | you worry too much

:: 2003 2 December :: 12.12 pm
:: Music: The Used-on my own (live cd)

knowing nothing is better than knowing at all
stayed home today. didnt feel the need to go to school. the only thing i enjoy is seeing my friends, and thats not even worth it lately.

nothing to do really...so yeah, im gonna go.

5 kids | you worry too much

:: 2003 1 December :: 7.26 pm
:: Music: Matchbook Romance

question..
does anyone feel like they cannot have a serious conversation with me?

7 kids | you worry too much

:: 2003 1 December :: 4.00 pm
:: Music: yellowcard-empty apartment

you forget where the heart is
school can die. yeah. the one day i ride the bus, it breaks down, so we had to sit there for a half hour...chris wrote if we go down we go down together on the window for some reason i couldnt stop laughing at that.

anyways.

no one is online so im gonna go. talk to ya kids later.

you worry too much

:: 2003 29 November :: 2.50 pm

You've got me right where you want me. Let's never talk, let's never,
let's never talk about this again because...
I didn't want it to mean that much to me-Taking Back Sunday/Bike Scene

you worry too much

:: 2003 29 November :: 2.31 pm
:: Music: Taking Back Sunday-Cute without the e (acoustic)

haha.
I feel sorry for all of you. Having to ask for comments...*laughs* All i have to do is be a bitch and i get 100+

*points and laughs at you all*

P.S I hate you all!

10 kids | you worry too much

:: 2003 28 November :: 12.36 pm
:: Music: Blink 182-I miss you

beat that...bastards! *snickers
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7 kids | you worry too much

:: 2003 27 November :: 9.31 pm
:: Music: The Used-Alone this Holiday

love, love me do, you know I love you, so pleeaassee love me do
well today i have a lot to be thankful for..
1. thanksgiving is over.

yeah..thats all i got.

*is bored

5 kids | you worry too much

:: 2003 27 November :: 2.28 am
:: Music: Blink 182-obvious

we'll have Halloween on Christmas
*is tired*

*cant sleep*

today was boring as hell. sat home all day. tomorrows gonna suck. family=gay. meh.

5 kids | you worry too much

:: 2003 26 November :: 11.19 am
:: Music: The Pixies-Tame

Fall on your face in those bad shoes, Lying there like you're tame
well this week should be good. no school. thats all i care about. hopefully, i'll get to hang out with some of my friends. is any one else going to the movie later tonight? well im gonna get going.

tears from eyes worn cold and sad..pick me up now..I need you so bad-Blink 182/Down

Update:
cant go to the movie.

you worry too much

:: 2003 25 November :: 6.23 pm

woohu=gay. somehow all my settings got erased and shit on here, so the background.. etc is gone. took me a long time to do all that shit. ah well.

*working on it*

ok and now i have all beckys settings. which makes no sense. this is fucked up.

Update:
*fixed*

2 kids | you worry too much

:: 2003 25 November :: 6.35 am
:: Music: The Beatles-Eight Days a Week

yeah...that was getting old.

4 kids | you worry too much

:: 2003 23 November :: 5.25 pm

To: Kevin Cuppett
i would like to apologize for showing support for my favorite band. i am so deeply sorry my journal offends you and ruiens the lyrics. isnt your icon Adam from tbs? so thats showing your a fan. right? you better get rid of that...its bad to show support for a band you like. oh and thank you for taking the time to lable me.

one more thing. i would also like to thank you for hating me because of what my journal looks like. thats an excellent reason.

116 kids | you worry too much

:: 2003 22 November :: 4.06 pm

dont waste your time on me, your already the voice inside my head-Blink 182

1 kid | you worry too much

:: 2003 20 November :: 5.19 pm

whats funny is this is exactly right.
solitary
Your soul is bound to the Solitary Rose: The
Alone.

"When I wake up alone, the shades are still
drawn on the cold window pane so they cast
their lines on my bed and lines on my
face."

The Solitary Rose is associated with loneliness,
melancholy, and patience. It is governed by
the goddess Merope and its sign is The Sword,
or Unrequited Love.

As a Solitary Rose, you may be summed up as a
hopeless romantic. You desire love and have so
much love to give, but thing just never seem to
work out the way you want them to. In life,
you can be very optomistic, even when things
are gray and nothing works out to your
expectations.


What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
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you worry too much

:: 2003 20 November :: 5.50 am
:: Music: Blink 182-Feeling this

place your hand in mine, I'll leave when i wanna
yesterday was fun, bradley came over after school, to burn cds and tune my guitar and such.

im tired. this week is going way too slow. this stupid cold still wont go away. meh.

i am feeling better though. as in emotionally, or whatever ya want to call it. its better to fight the sad feelings than just sit there and let them take you over.

well i better go get ready.

2 kids | you worry too much

:: 2003 18 November :: 8.10 pm
:: Music: Saves the Day-She

dont bother reading.
this feeling of loneliness wont go away. it just wont. i have run out of options...
i never had any to begin with.

4 kids | you worry too much

:: 2003 17 November :: 8.39 pm

im pretty sure im gonna be waiting forever.

6 kids | you worry too much

:: 2003 17 November :: 5.39 pm
:: Music: Taking Back Sunday-Ghost Man on Third

ruby ruby ruby ruby so ho
fuck off. if you dont like me, dont talk to me. that easy.

anyways.

my feelings are scattered everywhere...and im not even sure what they are for different people. *sigh

why waste my time...

you worry too much

:: 2003 16 November :: 4.02 pm
:: Music: The Used-Say Days ago

grrr.
my weekend was alright. went and saw the matrix last night, it was good. i wasnt as confused as i thought id be since i didnt see the second one.

..i was gonna hang out with brad, kelly and justin today, but my mom said no. they came over and i couldnt go so i felt bad, but i thought they were calling first so i could ask my mom. hope their not mad at me. :( there was no reason i couldnt go, my mom was just being stupid.

so once again another boring day at home.

1 kid | you worry too much

:: 2003 15 November :: 1.19 pm
:: Music: The Beatles-Let it be

such a gloomy..cold day.
well everyones gone again. its cold.
last night was fun. had a few people over...i needed to just laugh about stupid shit. made me feel a little better.

i still have this damn cold. and i swore it was gone.

chicken noodle soup sounds good right now, i think i'll go make some.

you worry too much

:: 2003 14 November :: 3.22 pm
:: Music: The Clash-Rock the Casbah

i hate rap music. like a lot.
the only word to describe how i felt today would have to be..

alone. yes, that sums it up.

*waits for people to show up at my house*
boredom sucks.

5 kids | you worry too much

:: 2003 13 November :: 5.05 pm

more and more each day im falling apart. slowly.



fuck.

you worry too much

:: 2003 12 November :: 8.08 pm

please read..
AFI - This Time Imperfect [Lyrics: Click + to display]+

1 kid | you worry too much

:: 2003 12 November :: 7.56 pm
:: Music: AFI-Silver and Cold

fuck him.
hey look. my dads home. and hes drunk. and my moms telling him to leave and he wont.

i hope he dies. i really do.

9 kids | you worry too much

:: 2003 12 November :: 5.30 pm

somethings missing and im sick of pretending everythings there.

1 kid | you worry too much

:: 2003 12 November :: 5.03 pm
:: Music: The Yeah Yeah Yeahs-modern romance

it is fucking cold in this house.
im really cold. like freezing...my fingers are frozen, my feet are frozen..in conclusion im cold.

this week has sucked. not sure why..it just has. absolutely nothing to be happy about. nothing good has happened for such a long time.

while i sit in each class im not really there. im thinking about everything but what the teacher is saying. i go home and pour my heart out onto paper. by the end of the day im drained. falling asleep in like 20 minutes at 10 pm is unusual for me. i guess its nice to dream. thats when things are how i want them. for once.

leaving forever would be good. however id be more alone. no way of winning for me lately. things have never been as i had wished. i should be fucking use to it by now.

I dont want to let fear rule my life...I dont want to give up before i die-Smile Empty Soul/Silhouettes

you worry too much

:: 2003 11 November :: 3.51 pm
:: Music: AFI-File 13

i am not a creature...ah ha ha.
my thoughts on sex
why would god make something thats so much fun (or so i hear..wouldnt know due to lack of expierence, but its all the rage in cedar) cause so much pain later?
i had to watch child birth videos today. i went into that class thinking i didnt want to have kids, now im sure. im gonna go for adoption or that surrogant(sp?) mother shit.

yup.

8 kids | you worry too much

:: 2003 11 November :: 5.44 am

do you ever realize how selfish some people are? they figure.."it didnt affect me in any way so i dont care"

11 kids | you worry too much

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