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2003 10 November :: 7.40 pm
life is crazy.
i was reading over my past entries.
they are all stupid and pointless.
from now on..my entries are gonna be more of my thoughts..not what dumb shit i did that day. yeah..thats all.
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2003 9 November :: 2.10 pm
Excuse me while I fall apart.
Don't flatter yourself sweetheart.
Let me take the wheel and I'll crash this car.
Why do you have to make this so hard?
You're so good at pretending everything is alright.
You're as welcome as cancer, but my door is always unlocked.
-Matchbook Romance/Playing for Keeps
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2003 8 November :: 5.46 pm
:: Music: Matchbook Romance
I finally got the Matchbook Romance cd i have been wanting...*smiles* it makes me happy. i reeaallly like it.
yeah..im bored.
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2003 8 November :: 10.37 am
:: Music: Motion City Soundtrack-Cambridge
you say that no one cares..but i do.. i doooo. hehe.
well yesterday was fun..stayed after school just to hang out with some people. than me brad and dustin went and played around in the auditorium...that was fun. we found the room under the stage and ran around in there..than ran around with the lights off..lol..its fun you must try it sometime. and bradley played his guitar...that was cool..i didnt know he was that good. made me jealous. heh. than me brad and my brother went to my house for like 5 min to eat burger king..than we headed to the park
to get kelly and neilee and walked to kayleighs..im suprised we lived..it was SO fucking cold. after that we all went to the concert at the high school. it was alright. i didnt care much for the first two bands. the bands were good..i just didnt like the vocals. broken sunday was alright..i wish the lead singer would have screamed more. after the concert becky came over and..that wraps up my night...i better get going...talk to ya'll later..
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2003 5 November :: 4.48 pm
:: Music: Taking Back Sunday-Summer Stars
today was an interesting day. there was a fight on my bus..it was awesome..ahaha..nothing like immature girls cat fighting. bradley finished my tbs pic..yay..its so pretty!! thank you bradley!!
some funny quotes from today..from random subjects..
"When you think of sex, think of me" Mr.Reyburn
me:"look at Arden..hes so gay..look at how he walks..look at him"!
ben birk: "your right...hahahaha"
arden: "my mom says i walk like my grandpa"
me: "was your grandpa gay"?
*laughter*
Mrs.Ahmed: "people in the middle east cant prevent pregnancy"
me: "dont have sex so damn much and they dont have to worry about it...damn whores"
Mrs.Ahmed: "excuse me"
me: "dont have sex, theres your protection"
Mitch: "release more wolves..than the deer will be eaten"!
me: "than the wolves will eat people"
Mitch: "than release bears, they'll eat the wolves"
me: "than the bears will eat us! what about we just release dinosaurs"?
thats all today kids...i can only waste your time for so long..heh.
if you are FOR SURE going to the Broken Sunday thing Friday leave a comment!
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2003 5 November :: 6.16 am
I love this song...its awesome because it actually tells a story..read.
| The Used - Poetic Tragedy [Lyrics: Click + to display] | +- | the cup is not half empty as pescimists say
as far as he's sees nothings left in the cup
a whole cup full of nothing for him to induldge
since the voice of ambition has long since been shut up
a singer, a writer, he's not dreaming now of going nowhere
he gave heed to nothing, and all that he was....
is just a tragedy
so he voyages in circles
succeeds getting nowhere
and submits to the substance
that first got him there
than in violent, frustration he cries out to God or just no one
is there a point to this madness and all that he was....
is just a tragedy
he feels alone
his heart in his hand
he's alone
he feels alone
I feel....
then on that last day he breaks
and he stood tall
and he yelled... and he takes his life
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its crazy..whenever im sad, happy, whatever.. i turn to music.its always there..one thing i can rely on..as corny as that may sound..so true.
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2003 4 November :: 6.25 am
:: Music: Matchbook Romance-Hollywood and Vine
yet another awesome song by this band..
my daddy cooked me breakfast..eggs, bacon and toast...this shows todays gonna be a goood day..unless hes missleading me..ha ha ha.
yeah..
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2003 3 November :: 4.29 pm
:: Music: A Year in a Day-Love, Hope, & Fear
I fucking love this song...anyways..today was really good..not sure why it just was.
im not fighting with any of the people i care about anymore so im happy..i dont like my friends being upset with me. i might be going to the Broken Sunday thing on friday..anyone else going? tell me..
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2003 3 November :: 6.21 am
I like this song...rancid wakes me up..
| Rancid - Fall Back Down [Lyrics: Click + to display] | +- | Don't worry about me, I'm gonna make it alright
Got my enemies crossed out in my sight
I take a bad situation gonna make it right
In the shadows of darkness I stand in the light
You see it's our style to keep it true
I've had a bad year, a lot to go through
I've been knocked out, beat down, black and blue
She's not the one coming back for you
She's not the one coming back for you
If I fall back down, you're gonna help me back up again
If I fall back down, you're gonna be my friend
It takes disaster to learn a lesson
You're gonna make it through the darkest night
Some people betray one and cause treason
We're gonna make everything alright
Well the worst of times, now, they don't phase me
Even if I look and act really crazy
I went way down, she betrayed me
Now my vision is no longer hazy
I'm very lucky to have my crew
They stood by me when she flew
I've been knocked out, beat down, black and blue
She's not the one coming back for you
She's not the one coming back for you
If I fall back down, you're gonna help me back up again
If I fall back down, you're gonna be my friend
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2003 2 November :: 9.55 am
X Straight-Edge X
I used the lyric thing because if you dont want to know about this..i dont want a long message you dont wanna read. Its basically saying what Straight-Edge really is...many people dont know...and they talk about it..pissed me off..so read if ya dont know..
| Straight Edge - What it really is.. [Lyrics: Click + to display] | +- | Straight-edge refers to a philosophy that's most basic tenets promote a drug free lifestyle. It developed as an offshoot of the punk rock/hardcore scenes of the early 1980's when the term itself is believed to have been coined by Ian Mackaye, in the self titled song, while he was the singer of the seminal hardcore band, Minor Threat. Mackaye eschewed the nihilistic tendencies of punk rock, promoting instead the simple (almost simplistic) philosophy of "don't drink/ don't smoke/ don't fuck."
In the 12 years since the demise of Minor Threat, these simple beliefs have transformed the minds of scores of teens worldwide. Increasingly disenchanted with societal ills, young men and women adopt the straight-edge doctrine as a blueprint to better first themselves, and then the world in which they live. While the original definition of straight-edge only included the rejection of mind altering substances and promiscuous sex, modern interpretations include a vegetarian (or vegan) diet and an increasing involvement and awareness of environmental and political issues.
As noted, straight-edge grew out of the punk rock/hardcore scene and so music plays an important role. The Teen Idles, an early 80's Washington, DC hardcore band, and something of a precursor to Minor Threat, can arguably be called the first straight-edge band. Since that time there have been hundreds if not thousands of bands who've so labeled themselves. Early bands included Minor Threat, SSD and Uniform Choice. In the mid to late 80's, straight-edge hardcore reached a zenith, especially in the greater Metropolitan area of New York City. This atmosphere led to the creation of Gorilla Biscuits, Bold, Wide Awake and arguably the most prolific band of the era, Youth of Today. While the bands of this period did much to popularize straight-edge, they also contributed to its closeminded and antagonistic aspects. The attitude between straight-edge and the rest of the world often took on adversarial tones during this time, largely becoming "The positive youth crew versus people who drink, smoke and/or do drugs." Many people dislike straight-edge and its adherents because of such intolerant views.
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www.straight-edge.com
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2003 1 November :: 12.57 am
tonight was good. stayed after school a bit than went to burger king...not sure why but we(kevin, becky, me and dustin)always have fun there. than went to kevins..hung out, went into town and walked around..found raych and kayleigh(cant spell that, heh) and hung out with them for abit..went and got erika and we all saw Scary Movie 3...it was great. after that went to kevins for a party..and now were (becky erika and i) are all here. heh. so overall great night.
and it was so funny while we were at kevins there was this drunk dude and he was all hitting on us and told us if we didnt want him to get thrown in jail for molesting us to go home. ahaha..drunk people are hilarious.
anyways...it seems to take me awhile to find out who my real friends are..but im glad to know now. as for the rest of you...fuck off..i dont need you..you dont need me..so its settled leave me the fuck alone.
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2003 31 October :: 6.02 am
Don't apologize, I hope you choke and die.
-Brand New
Everyone's caught on to everything you do
Everyone's caught on to...
-Brand New
..yeah that about explains it.
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2003 31 October :: 5.34 am
:: Music: Motion City Soundtrack-shiver
i have decided to not hang out with a group of people whos majority i hate.
go ahead and hate me. i really dont care..because if you dont like me...most likely i really dont like you either. thats really all i have to say about that.
well my plans for halloween sure fucking changed...but thats ok...its gonna be fun..well im gonna get going.
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2003 29 October :: 3.40 pm
:: Music: The Soviettes-Blue Stars
this morning was the first time in a long ass while i have actually strummed some strings on my guitar..it felt good..even if i suck. i dont even know what im playing...i just hit some strings and suprisengly it doesnt always sound like shit. heh. anyways today was uhhh good i guess. nothing special. so whos all hanging out on halloween im confused...well im gonna go...i need to spend more time playing my guitar than reading woohu and getting pissed, hehe. yeah..bye.
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2003 29 October :: 6.18 am
just read..
| Matchbook Romance - The Greatest Fall [Lyrics: Click + to display] | +- | The hand of my clock strikes two
In times when I got the best of you
We made promises we couldn't keep
And every night we couldn't sleep.
I didn't know why, but didn't ask questions
because it was the first time in my life, yeah the first time in my life
Where I, did something right.
I set myself up for the greatest fall of all time
You pick me apart
While I search for witty things to say (In my defense)
"You'll never amount to anything anyway"
(Don't press your luck, don't press your luck)
And think that I'm impressed with your one night stands
and your contagious kiss
I'm trying to get this right
Yeah, cause I'm ridiculous like that
I set myself up for the greatest fall of all time
I'll keep this as
A constant reminder
Of the nights I spent holding onto her
And rest assured I'm moving on
I miss you less, with each day your gone (your gone)
I set myself up for the greatest fall of all time
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2003 28 October :: 6.40 pm
:: Music: Matchbook Romance-The Greatest Fall (of all time)
I reeeaaalllly like this song!
anyways..today was alright. i guess. im thinking way too much lately...and thinking only makes me sad. so i should really stop.
yeah...this weekend should be fun. i hope it is. i wonder if when people hug me theres actually meaning to it..meh..i often wonder. yeah im done.
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2003 27 October :: 5.23 pm
my journal is complete! soo pretty! thank you Joe!!!
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2003 26 October :: 10.16 am
:: Music: Bruce Said Checkers-possessions
im not yours and your not mine..go our seperate ways, we'll be just fine.
..im bored. hopefully i'll get to hang out with some people today...yeah. babysitting wasnt fun...those kids are the spawns of satan. i told the fucker to put away a toy and he said "your not fun anymore" and i answered "if you dont put that toy away im gonna be even less fun" than he stuck his tounge out at me and i asked him if hed like to keep it. yeah...i dont get along well with kids. *shrugs* atleaste i got my money...yeah i really have nothing to say so im gonna go call some people.
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2003 25 October :: 11.59 pm
i [heart] this song...
| Goo Goo Dolls - Iris [Lyrics: Click + to display] | +- | And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
And you bleed just to know you're alive
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
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2003 25 October :: 11.21 pm
a very interesting conversation with kate!
stacyum || the only broken hearted loser you'll ever need says:
mmmmmmmmmmm
It doesn't really matter as long as you're here with me says:
mmm mmmmmmmm
stacyum || the only broken hearted loser you'll ever need says:
i want some mmmmmmm
It doesn't really matter as long as you're here with me says:
I have some mmmmmm
stacyum || the only broken hearted loser you'll ever need says:
well i want some mmm
It doesn't really matter as long as you're here with me says:
well you should get some mmm
stacyum || the only broken hearted loser you'll ever need says:
how do i get this mmmmm
It doesn't really matter as long as you're here with me says:
by eating chocolate mmm!
stacyum || the only broken hearted loser you'll ever need says:
well would of i dont have any chocolate
mmmmmmmmm
It doesn't really matter as long as you're here with me says:
I could give you some chocolate mmmmmmmm
stacyum || the only broken hearted loser you'll ever need says:
when could i get this mmmmmmm
It doesn't really matter as long as you're here with me says:
mmmm, maybe monday
stacyum || the only broken hearted loser you'll ever need says:
mmmmmmmmmmonday?
It doesn't really matter as long as you're here with me says:
yes'mmmmmmm
stacyum || the only broken hearted loser you'll ever need says:
mmmmmmm
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2003 25 October :: 11.00 am
:: Music: Kittie-In Winter
yesterday was fun. went to kellys..it was fun to hang out with her..since we dont much anymore.after that we went and got neilee, brad and dustin than went to the park. it was a lot of fun. we went to all the parks to play, hehe...that never gets old. some lady yelled at us and said we were too old to be playin there...so i said "your mom". that line has never been funny. but saying it just makes it funny..right..ok it doesnt..psshh. well i got out of babystiing last night, but i have to tonight which blows..but atleaste i get $20 towards my new shoes...yup, well i got to go take a shower...see ya'll later..
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2003 24 October :: 6.32 am
:: Music: mxpx-well adjusted
meh. its early.
i dont know if im going to the game tonight..my mom failed to tell me im supposed to babysit until last night...whatever..she does that every time. gah. doesnt matter either way to me. so glad its friday. i really need the weekend. i really have nothing to say so yeah im just gonna go.
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2003 23 October :: 8.41 pm
as i slowly..quietly..slowly..fall apart..
i want to just go away. i cant take this anymore. i hate how everything is. nothing is making me happy. nothing. no one will ever understand. id show some anger...but im too weak. i wish i could leave...and never come back. ever.
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2003 23 October :: 8.05 pm
please just....DIE!
DIIIIIEEEE!!!!!
please..........?
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2003 23 October :: 7.34 pm
And even if her plane crashes tonight
she'll find some way to disappoint me,
by not burning in the wreckage,
or drowning at the bottom of the sea-Brand New/Jude law and a Semester Abroad
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2003 23 October :: 7.06 pm
:: Music: Hot Hot Heat-naked in the city again
theres so much i want to say...but im not going too. meh. today was alright.
it seems the only person that i can have an intelligent conversation with...and who undertsands me is kate. thanks.
"I dont want anything to do with that family"
THANK GOD!!!! FINALLY!!!! *smiles*
that made me so happy to hear that, you dont even know.
well i might be going to the game tomorrow...anyone else going...tell me.
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2003 23 October :: 6.40 am
| ::15 Random Favorites:: | | 1: | blackness | | 2: | dirty chuck taylors | | 3: | hugs | | 4: | my friends | | 5: | hoodies | | 6: | bondage pants | | 7: | starbursts! | | 8: | humor | | 9: | being evil mwah ha ha | | 10: | rock music | | 11: | black eye liner | | 12: | bracelets | | 13: | your mom | | 14: | taking back sunday | | 15: | writing songs | | ::14 Favorite Foods:: | | 1: | chocolate! | | 2: | macaroni | | 3: | cheese pizza | | 4: | chips | | 5: | cheeze-its | | 6: | uhh... | | 7: | peanut m and m's | | 8: | chicken noodle soup | | 9: | hmmm | | 10: | too | | 11: | many | | 12: | fucking | | 13: | qustions | | 14: | !!!! | | ::13 Most Watched Shows:: | | 1: | That 70's show | | 2: | King of the Hill | | 3: | Jackass | | 4: | The Simpsons | | 5: | Real World | | 6: | hmm... | | 7: | uh... | | 8: | ... | | 9: | your mom? | | 10: | ... | | 11: | mmhhmmm... | | 12: | ummm... | | 13: | hmmmm.... | | ::12 Good Bands in your Opinion:: | | 1: | Taking Back Sunday | | 2: | Saves The Day | | 3: | The Used | | 4: | AFI | | 5: | Thursday | | 6: | The Get Up Kids | | 7: | Hot Hot Heat | | 8: | The Distillers | | 9: | Brand New | | 10: | System of a Down | | 11: | Tsunami Bomb | | 12: | The yeah yeah yeahs | | ::11 Memories:: | | 1: | too many to list | | 2: | .. | | 3: | .. | | 4: | .. | | 5: | .. | | 6: | .. | | 7: | .. | | 8: | .. | | 9: | .. | | 10: | .. | | 11: | .. | | ::10 Close Friends:: | | 1: | erika | | 2: | kevin | | 3: | stacey | | 4: | kate | | 5: | jenny | | 6: | Becky | | 7: | RAYCH | | 8: | ... | | 9: | ... | | 10: | ... | | ::09 Things you're looking forward to:: | | 1: | graduating | | 2: | getting my liscence | | 3: | finding someone i love | | 4: | your mom | | 5: | sex, ah ha ha | | 6: | hmmm... | | 7: | uhhh.. | | 8: | yeeaahh.. | | 9: | yup. | | ::08 Things you wear daily:: | | 1: | hoodie | | 2: | pants | | 3: | chucks | | 4: | bracelets | | 5: | shirt | | 6: | cool socks | | 7: | underwear | | 8: | bra | | ::07 Things That Annoy You:: | | 1: | teachers | | 2: | math | | 3: | 'HIM" | | 4: | my dad | | 5: | people who want attention | | 6: | posers | | 7: | people that are stuck on themselves | | ::06 Things You Touch Everyday:: | | 1: | people | | 2: | messenger bag | | 3: | your mom | | 4: | your dog | | 5: | ... | | 6: | yeah. | | ::05 Movies You Could Watch Over and Over:: | | 1: | Monty Python and the Holy Grail | | 2: | Billy madison | | 3: | Happy Gilmore | | 4: | A Walk to Remember | | 5: | hmm... | | ::04 Of Your Favorite Childhood Toys:: | | 1: | your | | 2: | mom | | 3: | is | | 4: | hot | | ::03 People You Have Kissed:: | | 1: | grrr | | 2: | rawr | | 3: | ... | | ::02 Of Your Favorite Songs:: | | 1: | your so last summer-tbs | | 2: | the taste of ink-the used | | ::01 Person You Could Spend the Rest of Your Life With:: | | 1: | havent found them yet |
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2003 22 October :: 8.22 pm
a very intelligent statement i stated today:
"If you wake up dead...I killed you"
yes...so far after saying this i got:
*becky laughing for 5 min*
Kate says:
hahaha, it's great!
and..
Tabletop53: that's great!
yeaaaahhhh...thats right.
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2003 22 October :: 7.44 pm
so much for not updating...
i have a feeling that if i jumped off a bridge, they would not only jump farther and with more grace than i did...but when i died from the fall, they would live.
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2003 22 October :: 4.37 pm
that describes exactly how i am...hehe.
hand holding - you like to be in constant physical
contact with your special someone but you don't
want to take things too quickly.
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