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2008 17 November :: 2.32am
I don't know what to believe anymore.
Tired from over thinking, numb from over feeling.
When you try to move on and things get thrown back at you.
This whole event seems like mutually assured destruction.
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2008 16 November :: 1.11pm
Mudvayne - Pushing Through This
Salt the wound
Cut through a conscience I've failed to explore
The calm before the storm
Speak your peace and prepare for the fall
Words have been chosen
Tainting the gift
Lying truth's so increditable
So fuck you all
I'm turning my back on this killing so small
Step by step I'm pushing through this
(All of you get away from me)
Eye for an eye I'm pushing through this
My law
Step by step I'm pushing through this
(All of you get away from me)
Tooth for a tooth I'm pushing through this
Through you
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2008 16 November :: 12.39am
Drastic steps
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2008 14 November :: 10.44pm
finally broke down and went to the doctors wednesday.
sinus AND respiratory tract infection.
lucky me.
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tuwang
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2008 13 November :: 1.48pm
So yeah... I've got some time so I guess I'm about ready to update you guys.
Been pretty stressful here, as far as classes go. But I've managed to maintain an A- so I'm alright in that department. Plus I got an 88 on the last test with a class average of 62. My theory is that someone just didn't show up, regardless...
I really need to take some pictures of where I am at. I noticed that all my pictures are of me drinking. Not to say that I'm not drinking a lot, a problem I need to find a solution for desperately, but I'm not JUST drinking. I'm doing a lot of things recently. I guess the problem is that I have a hard time taking pictures of anything interesting because I feel like such a tourist. I will do a lot of things here because I don't really care what the people think of me, and it gets me somewhere usually. For some reason, though, I can't seem to take pictures. Soon enough I will get some real good ones.
Speaking of drinking, this weekend is sure to be packed to the brim of fun. starting tomorrow morning I'm going to some elementary school to play games with kids. It's mandatory, which kind of pisses me off. I've already volunteered to do a few of these kinds of things and I'd rather just sleep in, but you know, I guess I gotta do what I gotta do.
So after waking up at around 8 and getting back at around 12, I have 2 hours or less to just chill out for awhile, before I have to bike to the train station to catch a train to Kyoto. Luckily they are paying for the ticket for me. By them, I mean some Women's College of some sort or another. They are loaded, and have decided to pay for a few of us to take a train and a taxi (keep in mind that a taxi is about 2 dollars per foot, fucking expensive) to the school, and then for the ride back. I'm not actually taking the train back though...
Afterwards, Nate, Nick, and I are going to chill in Kyoto and see what happens for awhile. They claimed that the event won't end until 8, and I'm still not sure exactly what we are doing there. I think we are just trying to help them with their english or something, who knows.
So I imagine we'll eat some food, get some liquor, do some shopping or something, and maybe buy a burger and McDonalds so we can take a nap. Yes you just read that correctly.
Around 10-10:30 we are meeting up with Kelly, Yui, Shige, Adam, Megumi, and maybe one of her friends, at which point we will consume endless amounts of alcohol and then attempt to do some clubbing of some sort. This will last, I'm assuming until about 5 in the morning.
Then, I will be fucked, I'll die on the train home, barely crawl into bed and go into a desperately needed coma until about 2 or 3 that afternoon.
I'll wake up, try to get some homework done, and then head out to the bar to bid my friends farewell as they head off to live in Tokyo.
Sunday, maybe I'll rest, we'll see....
I have a meeting with my teacher now for some conversation time so I will catch you chaps later.
だから、今私は先生と話に行きます。今週の週末にとても急がしくなります根から、らいしゅうぜんぜん話しないと思います。じゃあ、まったね。
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phil-himself
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2008 10 November :: 3.46pm
Lawls my insurance company gave me a PT Loser to drive while my chevy is getting fixed.
This has been a fun afternoon of abusing someone else's car.
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2008 9 November :: 11.15am
I feel like I have a lot of emotion to pour out.
But I don't know how to put a lot of it into words.
It's been so long since I have vented any of my emotions.
I think that its because Im gradually getting better at telling Mike how I feel instead of bottling it up, and then just lashing out at him the next time he pisses me off.
Its kind of pathetic that after 3 years I still have a hard time telling him how I feel about certain things.
Most the time I am just trying to spare him the hurt, because I am a harsh bitter person.
I used to blame his daughter for every little thing, and I'd hide out in the bedroom when she'd come over.
But I've overcome that, and I think that I am even coming around to the thought of having kids eventually.
I think I'm growing up..
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2008 9 November :: 12.27am
More bullshit, a fucking car wreck. Fucking Hell just what I needed tonight.
I would really like to be able to talk to a certain someone right now.
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2008 5 November :: 1.53pm
kimbo got tko'd. lol.
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2008 4 November :: 9.11am
So I've basically spent the last day and a half in bed..
I made an attempt at work yesterday. I felt perfectly fine, then all of a sudden I'm sweating profusely, feeling like I am going to vomit, and then I passed out.
I've been shakey, cold, then extremely hot.
The littlest movement makes my head throb so bad I start balling.
My head hurts even more when the lights are on.
I feel like ass, and look just as worse.
My sister, Derrick, and Seth are coming up in a couple of weeks.
Im really excited about that because I miss them all..
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2008 3 November :: 5.18pm
Goodbye. Nice to know you.
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2008 3 November :: 4.35pm
Im not sure what its all for.
Its getting harder to even find a purpose in life.
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jayzulla
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2008 2 November :: 2.32am
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v3M4VacJ4NU
done this1 million times but nobdy understands still. except mishy. kimbo = not shit and washed up. anderson silva is king. nobody will ever be as dominate as he was/is. 1:01 spinning back elbow knockout, who does that? no one. sickest move ever in mma. respect anderson or die.
edit. 4:45 is the sickest bjj triagle you will ever see in your life. and 6:02 is the most disgusting knockout you will ever see in your life. spiing beck
elbow. ouch!.
edit # 2. Spelling wasnt the best, but i still have to give him props. nobody will ever match his skill of fighting. kimbo is chump, lenser is chump, everybody ever is chump compared to him. regardless who it is, it could be fedor at 185 and andersons clinch is to good for anybody to withstand. his strikes are all sniper style. the just hit, and you feel it. love the man, many kudos. plz dont retire in 09!
edit # 3: im sure most of you know this already but i just want to say it. most youtubers (90.5%) of them are morons and try to ethug out.
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2008 2 November :: 2.32am
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v3M4VacJ4NU
done this1 million times but nobdy understands still. except mishy. kimbo = not shit and washed up. anderson silva is king. nobody will ever be as dominate as he was/is. 1:01 spinning back elbow knockout, who does that? no one. sickest move ever in mma. respect anderson or die.
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2008 2 November :: 1.45am
this is how i roll. Oberon, our summer ale. An American wheat ale with the color and scent of a summer afternoon. i dont need to dress up. Im Jay motherfucking Zulla. happy halloween peeps. i hope everyone had as fun a time as i did.
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tuwang
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2008 2 November :: 11.31am
you never realize how bitter cold you are until you step into that hot shower.
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tuwang
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2008 27 October :: 2.33pm
So, as with most updates as of late, I will preface my story with "interesting weekend".
this one I might actually describe though...
So Friday night was the Halloween party, which I feel like I'm continuously misspelling for some reason or another. A lot of fun, I got all good and sauced up for that because I had announcing to do. It helped with making everyone laugh, but did not help with pronouncing japanese names with horrible handwriting. To be crude, it looks like chicken scratch to me as is, but when someone writes like a 2 year old it makes it even more difficult. Either way, there was no harm done, and the party went off. It ended in a good mood and I continued to move on with my day. So at about 9 PM, me and my group of friends, including Nate, who thinks I'm a racist, Kelly, the blonde cutie who also thinks I am a racist, Yui, Nick, Megan, Adam, and Cooper, headed out to Kyoto for a wonderful night of dancing and getting shit faced! yay!
There were a few things wrong with this for me....
1) I was dehydrated
2) I was way too tired to be pulling an all nighter
3) I didn't eat all day
So, after consuming 3 chu-his, a bottle of vodka, and a half a bottle of wine, my mind was in a state of intoxication that I have never seen before. Granted for the first few hours of dancing my mind worked fine, but after 3 LIT's in the club I started to have crazy ideas. This lead to me leaving my group and wandering around Kyoto at 4:30 in the AM. Not cool at all. Although moderately entertaining.
I'm sorry Chris. I wish you could have been there to see it.
I'm pretty sure I'm an alcoholic...
three cheers?
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alastar
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2008 26 October :: 4.49pm
:: Mood: determined
:: Music: Manchester Orchestra
I will indulge in every whim and woman that I meet.
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phil-himself
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2008 26 October :: 1.22pm
Not going into work today till 6:00pm because I have the flu. Such a shitty week this has been.
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2008 22 October :: 6.16pm
So after a lot of discussing, we have highly considered moving to Wyoming..
The final decision isn't going to be up to me, because I am not the one that has a child.
Also, we are looking at getting an english bulldog puppy.
Im still waiting for my civil service date.
And at this rate, I don't think I am going to get in to take it until december.
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2008 21 October :: 1.03am
:: Music: Saul Williams
Time
All of mankind grows and falls while seconds pass to centuries
And none of the ones left behind can find the answer to what's meant of these
Temples built in ancient times, lines written in the bible
Ignorance breeds confusion, birthing chaos, war, and squabble
While every turn and twitch of hands marks a moments stark abscission
One man thinks inside his mind with blurry, clouded vision
How many days can possibly reside within this hour?
And all he wants is someone who will praise him for his power
Not to bow or even beg, just simply nod in their agreement
That all his work was not in vain, to bring him closer to the cement
That every picture taken doesn't fade to nonexistence
The lens, the frame, the cameras flash; they serve as his resistance
To forgotten times, dead languages, and man's own great collapse
And so he strives to capture time itself within his photographs
He reflects upon the devastation and thinks that man can now do no worse
But the ticking clocks with twirling hands, their swinging pendulum it lowers
With a razors edge, moving back and forth, it slices time into its portions
While everyone lines up to find their months are now divided
The calendar hangs gutted, pages flip full of distortions
But dates erased can't be replaced no matter where they hide it
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2008 19 October :: 7.43pm
so. Interesting weekend.
I went and saw some old temple. I say it like that because after your 5th or 6th temple you stop appreciating the grandeur of them. Not that I have no appreciation at all... but they start to blend together. This one happened to be on top of this hill/mountain and almost naturally blended into the scenery. I mean, you had to look past the hordes of people that were there but otherwise it was quite scenic. It also helped that I had a fantastic tour guide, although I dont' think she thought so so much. Whatev, it was a good time.
Afterwards we went to eat pizza... which you don't see very often. (I've been here for about a month and 3 weeksish now and I've done pretty good, so I deserve a good cheating).
I've been progressivly losing weight... not so healthy I don't think, but I eat alot. Maybe I should just eat more?
this up coming weekend will be very hectic. Shigadai party on friday, and then kyoto on saturday (like every fucking weekend). But it's sort of the halloween weekend for them, so it should be interesting to see how they percieve the condemned holiday.
speaking of which, I still can't decide on a costume... any ideas?
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phil-himself
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2008 14 October :: 1.31pm
I think there is something fundamentally wrong with this country that Beverly Hills Chihuahua is the top film right now. Well it's better than Oliver Stone's piece of shit making money, apparently people aren't sheep enough to buy into his sack of garbage.
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2008 13 October :: 11.56pm
Be calm. Become.
Now be patient and embrace this.
Be gravity or weightless.
Let off, let up,
And learn to let it all go.
Let yourself be vulnerable
To fear, to failure.
Then to collapse and reconstruct
And to enhance with any luck.
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phil-himself
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2008 13 October :: 12.12am
If you see the Metrodome Referees, they are wanted for Robbery. That is all.
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2008 12 October :: 2.38am
so i think ive hit rock bottom.. i was just in jail for the same thing ive been doing for along time.. and it seems like everytime i get close to paying off my fines and driving legit.. something happends..
my car is illeagle.. no surprise there
i sleep on a couch
work doesnt give me enough hours..
my life has no direction
and im alone..
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tuwang
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2008 12 October :: 2.44pm
So meh...
another day.
I wish I spoke more japanese.
I had an interesting night last night. let's call it a Kevin moment and call it a day shall we?
who else had an interesting night last night?
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jayzulla
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2008 11 October :: 12.14pm
MSU = #23 in the country baby! Javon Ringer ftw!
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2008 10 October :: 12.46pm
I had another dream about you last night. But it's ok.
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2008 8 October :: 10.17pm
:: Mood: Bored out of my effing mind
:: Music: The Ting Tings- Great DJ
Durr
Well I figure I should at least update a bit. Went out and splurged on a few things. I shouldnt do that since I'm not sure when we will get back to work. Things with the gf arent so hot right now and we've been fighting quite a bit over stupid and well trivial things. I dont know what to do about the whole situation. I guess I'm just tired of being treated like a doormat. Anywho I have tomorrow off and got my effing car fixed so now i have transportation, but for how long. Looking at renting a place though but for cheap and can allow dogs so if anyone knows of a place be sure to let me know. :)
Umm... if anyone isnt busy tomorrow be sure to let me know since it seems I have free times and stuff. Who wants to watch Sleeping Beauty on Blu-ray ;-) yeah I'm a dork what of it. So yeah give me a call if you got the number if not here it is...right about now... 890-3624 so yeah c ya.
Joey
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