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eddy

:: 2004 19 November :: 3.55pm

New Band, Sweet!
Pretty Awesome. Check it out. Dir En Grey

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LoupGarou

:: 2004 18 November :: 9.37pm
:: Mood: okeedokie
:: Music: We go on - From Illuminations in EPCOT, walt disney World

Reasonably quick update


This song always makes me feel sad. I miss Walt Disney World muchly *hugs it*. Anyway, as for how life it? Stressful. School as of recently sucks ass. The work is making me feel crappy. I imagine I'll get over it once I stop being so tired. Been having some ugly days lately. Ah, teenagers and their moments of insecurity, don't ya love it? No. Tis not loveable. I dont even know why i feel stressed. Maybe it's the makeup work from yesterday or the fact that the grading period ends Friday. I hope this week goes by fast.

I love Christmas songs.

Anyway, an update in the political world. The damn media is over exaggerating things again, but what's so new about that?
They're talking about how this marine soldier killed an innocent wounded Iraqi soldier, violating the rules of combat. The thing is, people arent getting the real story here. These Iraqi soldiers have been boobi-trapping the dead and wounded bodies of their own soldiers, so that they will explode if touched by a soldier. Recently actually, a guy from Gilroy and his friend who was over there was killed by one
of those people.
Sean Hannity played the video on his radio, which means we can only hear sound, really, but what I heard of it was the soldiers talking and then one of them going, "He's playing dead! He's playing dead! Shit! he's playing dead!" Then the gun shot.
It makes me sick how people can put a man on trial for protecting himself and his friends. And about violating the rules of combat.. what do you think these Iraqi soldiers are doing? Playing by the rules?!
Not to mention it's a soldiers reaction to kill someone if he feels he's in danger. I mean think of all the things these guys have been through! This man was shot in the face the day before and back on duty the next day.

This subject kinda reminds me of a question I asked my mom once and I asked her why they don't have people cleaning up the sides of the highways anymore, because it's pretty damn dirty. She said it was because the people think it's cruel and unusual punishment to put prisoners out there. After all, they might get hit! Oh no! These poor child molesters, rapists, and murderers aren't allowed to help the environment anymore because they might get hit by cars! Numero uno: if they stay far enough from the road, that probably wouldnt happen. numero dos: If the driver is a dumbass and hits them, get the license plate number and sue them or try them for murder or something lol. Then they can be the ones working on cleaning up the trash. Or, to prevent all that, they can close off a part of the road or one of the lanes or something.
Silly silly liberals.

NOW ON ABORTION! WOOHOO! Bunch of political crap here.
First of all, these people are whining "Women should have the choice on whether they want to give birth to the baby or not." HELLO HOME DAWGIES! Them thar wimmin had the choice to have sex! Simple as that. You talk about well they'll find illegal ways to do it if it's banned and then people will die because of it. Okeedokie. Then DON'T TRY TO KILL IT! What a concept. Give birth to the baby, and put it up for adoption.
Now there are a few exeptions, and I mean very few in my case. Rape, for example. I have been told that after someone is raped they take them into the hospital and clean things out to lessen the chance of the woman getting pregnant. Of course, if you're a little too late, man does that suck. lol. I guess depending on how strong of a person you are, if you were raped and got pregnant, try to have the baby and give it up. Though of course it would make me sick to have the child of the person who raped me, so I dont quite know my stance on that. The second condition, is if the mother is in danger of dying because of the pregnancy. She will be labeled by me as a complete dumbass for having sex and not considering the consequences, and I wouldn't think of her as a very honorable person, but I suppose if she has to get an abortion, then she has to. Though it also makes me feel gross to say that.

On the death penalty, people say that those who are pro-life should be against the death penalty as well. I'm not. It's a simple as this: there's a difference between taking an innocent life and a sick murdering bastard's life.

Now on a happier note, my mom told me a few weeks back that she was doing something at school. Actually I think it was the seventh grade zoo trip that she was chaperoning, and she had that Clark girl in her group. Mrs. Clark, who was that science teacher lady for the lower grades at some point, is in the army. Still in the U.S., but she's preparing troops to go in to Iraq I think. The clark girl was talking with my mom and she said very cautiously: "..So.. who are you voting for?"
My mom said "Bush" and then the Clark girl smiled and said "Good. Because he'll get my mom home faster."

Now out of politics and back into my life. Let's see, what's happening in my life? well, the play went well and was a lot of fun. how I miss it. So that means to practices, which, despite my missing the performances, is a good thing because now I get more rest. Maybe now I'll go back to being ridiculously hyper in the mornings. Of course that can't be good for everyone in my school, so maybe it's just good for me.
I'd talk about Ryan more, but I remember how we used to make fun of Sarah and Stephanie for talking about boys constantly, and I'm afraid I'm going to sound like them too much. I shall keep that to my paper journal I guess.

Doody Doody doody. I gotta stop eating crap, dude. Well at least recently I've been snacking too much. If I had a swimming pool I'd excercise a lot more often. Me Mum says I should ride "the bike", which is an excercise bike upstairs, if I'm feeling crappy, but I don't like it. Oh well. Gotta start somewhere I guess.

This Woman's Place Project is a peice of crap. I feel bad for those people who got the really boring women. I'm not even overly excited about doing a report on princess diana, which doesnt mean I dont appreciate it and think she was cool, but I just dont want to write a whole assigned report thing.

Anyway, I think that will be all I'll write for today. Tootles! And sorry everything's so political now-a-days!

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eddy

:: 2004 17 November :: 6.54am

Ewwwww
Awww....man....I feel like shit. I went to bed all good and comfy like...then, like two in the morning i wake up and throw up on my bed. Then on the way to the bathroom i threw up some more all over the bathroom floor. I woke up lynne and she washed my blankets for me and she cleaned the bathroom floor. I felt kinda bad waking her up at two in the morning to clean up my vomit but i sure wasnt feelin up to it....Then, stupid me, decides to still go to skills later in the morning and thats where i am now.....and i feel like crap...My friend David here got me some sprite, hes cool, and nice. Aw man, I think im gonna see if lynne can take me home when i get back to school........

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eddy

:: 2004 16 November :: 3.33pm

Halo 2
Oh yeah, Halo 2 is awesome. I kick butt, though the only people ive played agaisnt are justin, mindy, joey, laura's boyfriend, and mr. perry. I kicked joey's butt a few times which i guess is pretty good, but im not sure. >.> we should have some more Xbox/Halo parties, those were great.

*sigh* Good Times

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eddy

:: 2004 5 November :: 6.33pm

Wooo...I really liked these :) What I'm too sexy for

Read more..

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LoupGarou

:: 2004 3 November :: 9.28pm
:: Mood: ecstatic
:: Music: New York, New York - Frank Sinatra and Tony Bennet

VICTORY IS OURS!
CONGRATULATIONS PRESIDENT BUSH ON BEING RE-ELECTED! WOOT SAY I! FOUR MORE YEARS!

I'm so happy that I didnt wake up this morning to Kerry being my president.

I kind of hope all this political unsettlement will calm down a bit, but then again it's going to be so unexciting not really being able to argue with any left wing liberals. I kind of feel bad for some of them, especially Julia. She looked really upset this morning when I walked in. Ah I hope she will get better.

Halloween was good good. I was a gothic lolita, as planned, though I don't know if I talked about my costume here. Anyway, it was a black boddess top that zipped up in the back, and some fishnet sleeves that I wanted to add to it. A lacy kinda poofy black skirt. Sounds dumb but i don't know how to describe it. Mind you, these are the only times I will willingly wear a skirt -- in costume or if I am forced by school formal uniform and or mother. And then my blue and black striped stockings, or as I like to call them, Totchi or Toshiya stockings. Then my boots and zee makeup ^-^ Yush i liked it muchly.

Hmm so for recent things.... lesseeee... Well Friday I went to another football game with Ryan! ^.^ Twas fun, he's so nice and cuddly. lol. Next time I have to invite both Marilyn and Louise *nodnod* because if I don't I'll feel guilty but if I do I'll feel guilty anyway.

We have this Friday off and Monday as well, but I have to help out at 8th grade day on Friday, so no extra sleep for me.

Not to mention next week is Hell Week for the play. Practices from 6 PM to 10 PM. Right now it's only eight and I'm already exhausted from practices. It sucks. I really need to catch up on my sleep this weekend. Anyway, I need to get this character sketch outline done tonight. Maybe if I stare at the word processing application long enough I'll get something done.

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eddy

:: 2004 26 October :: 4.00pm

Hehe, funny story time! Me my mom and Justin went to Gags and gifts to get the rest of my costume and we started walking down the aisle to get my stockings and this little 5 year old girl was playing with the fake boobs that they've got. It was a really funny picture. :)

Wow.....i believe this is the most consecutive posts in a day that ive ever had....whoo! Its kinda fun setting new records for yourself :)

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eddy

:: 2004 26 October :: 3.53pm

Weeee.....new picture for me :D Switchfoot rocks.....Yeah....so do a lot of others, but i happened to have chose Switchfoot for my picture :)

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eddy

:: 2004 26 October :: 3.45pm

Oh wow......I havent updated in forever.....sheesh. Hmmm.....dont really know what i have to say tho......I need a new picture for my woohu....this ones getting old.......Im goin to Erica and Tony's Halloween party Saturday....i like my costume.....Oh! Chelsea! If yer readin this you should see if you could come too! it would be fun : ) Yeah....Theres this girl thats always around now and i personally dont really like her.......I wont mention names just to keep away from controversy but yeah....she really bugs me.....a lot. >.>

Hooo.....well....i guess thats it. I think i put a lot of "........'s" in my writings. Dont really know why. I think i like to push that key when im tryin to think of my next thought or something. Oh well.

-SQUEE!- XD

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LoupGarou

:: 2004 10 October :: 11.32pm
:: Mood: full
:: Music: Ebudae - Enya

Quick update
Here's just a quick update because I don't feel like typing all that much right now. But here's an article thing I found that I'd love to post here. Well it's more like a forum thread, but you get the picture.

You know what I’m sick of?   I’m sick of all this liberal sympathy towards the soldiers of the war.  “Don’t hurt the poor little 18 year old kid; he shouldn’t have to fight this battle.  It’s not worth his life to drop the price of oil a fraction of a cent.”  Here’s news for you liberal sympathizers, he’s not a damn kid. He’s a soldier.  He’s a soldier who signed up on his own free will to be a soldier.  He made the decision by himself, and has prepared to make a sacrifice to his country if necessary.  He’s not all talk like you damn idiots running the television stations and news media.  He’s actually doing something to help the welfare of this country, unlike you.  He’s not sitting at home complaining or teaching students biased views in college about the evils of Mr. Bush.  He’s not a whiner or a wiener, like many of you are.  He, and men and women just like him, train every single day in preparation to go to war and fight those who threaten our motherland.  The United States is only what it is today because of people like him, those who decided to give something back instead of hogging all the glory without the repercussions.  He didn’t join the military for a big pay check or to further the luxury of his life, because he will never find that in the armed forces.  He joined to truly help others.  Go find something else to complain about you dime a dollar, stupid piece of shit, liberal sympathizers.

LAGOD20@AOL.com Writes


First off let me tell u that u need to calm the fuck down.  People have a right to speak their minds just like u are doing on this site so fucking deal with it. 


Second, yes, there are many people who signed up for the military under their own free will.  But dont ever say that everyone that's in Iraq signed up under free will.  On my 18th bday I was forced by law to sign up by law for  "Selective service"  or in my words the fucking draft.  Myself and my brother have many friends who were "activated"....DRAFTED to go to Iraq and are there as I'm writing this.  So fuck that, screw your outlook on the war that everyone is there under their own will.  You may have been, but most people I know that are there, arent.  And I would never sacrifice my life for a country that tells people that they have to fight for it.



In response:


Everyone whom is in Iraq signed up under their own free will, including your buddies who are building sand castles right now.  They may not be in Iraq under their own free will, but regardless, they knew what a soldiers responsibilities were when they took the oath.  They knew there was an opportunity of deployment.  As for the “selective service” you speak of, it’s not the draft you idiot.  It only becomes a drawing for draftees when the United States is at the point where it has to draft people, which by the way hasn't happened since Vietnam.  And you’re probably thinking, what does this guy know?  I’m a soldier, and every one of my friends are soldiers. Most have already been to and returned from Iraq.  You’re a liberal piece of dog shit, which sucks off the welfare of our country.  You don’t like it here?  Join the Taliban you fuck.

______________________________

i found this in the weirdest and most random place anywhere: "http://www.slickpimp.com". lol I went there because of a link in Sarah Andrade's profile, so it's not like I visit there regularly or anything ^.^

Lookit:

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LoupGarou

:: 2004 23 September :: 8.37pm
:: Mood: giddy
:: Music: Chop suey - System of a Down

9.23.04
No quote today, unless I feel like it later, and I just might feel like it later.
So what's been happening lately? Well, I'm singing at The Taste of Morgan Hill Saturday morning at 10:00, and am paranoid that I'm going to mess something up. But oh well.
Auditioned for the "play" which is basically six comedy sketches. He was only casting 12 people out of everyone who tried out, and I got in! I'm so happy! Except we had practice yesterday and man does acting like a chimp do Hell on your legs and back. I didn't even know the muscles in your back could get sore! But they did. And it's weird indeed.
Peach iced tea is good.
After school today I headed over to Johnny Rockets with Louise, Joanne, and Kiley. I just got a soda and stole off of other people's plates, well, I usually waited for them to offer first.
Oh yeah! Yesterday my dad let me drive through the cemetery! He drove in just through the gates and stopped and randomly asked "You wanna drive?" I went "Sure!" So I got to drive! It was fun. We drove to my great grandpa's grave, because it was his birthday. He would have been 97 I think it was. Dad told me to take out a Sharpee and we wrote "Happy birthday G-pa!" on the polished part of his grave. It will wash off eventually; we weren't violating it or anything. After that he let me get back behind the wheel and I went down to check out this shrine they had in the cemetery Japanese style. It was really pretty - the gates were carved stone and the building itself was painted reds with a black curvy pagoda roof. Then I drove up a big hill where they had a big stone building where they burned the bodies of people for cremation and discovered there we a few more graves up there, but they were very rich graves. They were large and of dark polished marble, next to them were waterfalls. Twas so pretty! What would it be like to be buried there? .. Well I guess you wouldn't really know, being that you're dead.
On the way home (no, I was not driving) Dad and I started up the conversation of why my aunt Ceal had chosen to bury Nick. I like talking to her a lot of the time, but there is something about her that is weird. She buried Nick in a graveyard out of our way and with no family members buried there as well, as far as I know. We haven't really gone to visit his grave in a while because it's too far out of the way. None of the headstones as decorated an unique they're all the flat boring ones. Dad says it was because she wants to mourn Nick's death by herself, that she wants his death all to herself. I think in some way that's very true. Well, she's been mourning over his death since it happened, she's never really stopped. I wonder if she holds a grudge against us because we've been able to move on, or maybe she prefer's it that way, that she gets all Nick's attention. Some of it really doesn't make sense, and it's hard to explain like this unless you happen to know her well enough to understand. She's really a nice person, but there's something that's inwardly selfish about her. She doesn't mean to be, that's just the way she can be every once in a while. Spoiled, I suppose. But you can tell it's not something she's aware of or that she thinks she's better than anyone. But then again that's hard to explain as well, so I might as well quit trying.
Four day weekend. I get to sleep in tomorrow. Yay!

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LoupGarou

:: 2004 15 September :: 12.06am

HAPPY MIYAVI DAY!





wee! He turned 23 today. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEEV-SAN!

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LoupGarou

:: 2004 3 September :: 10.22pm
:: Music: Erode - Dir en Grey

Jared Leto is doing a gay movie with Heath Ledger ^^

"What a beautiful day. The sun is shining, the birds are singing.... I want to go home."

-Wednesday Addams; The Addam's Familt Reunion



Well, I've been told I should update my journal again which is true, because I've been planning to write a lot in here. Come to think of it I should probably go one Quizilla and make a second quiz thingy as well. M-chan would be happy if I did that.

Let's see now.. school's been going very well. Got my first English Honors quiz back with a 95% which is an A, so I'm very happy ^^. I've met a bunch of people there. Maybe later I'll list them and tell you a bit about them (oh fun).

First I think I'm going to talk about something my sister and I talked about about a week or two ago. I can't remember how we got on the subject, but I found it somewhat interesting, so I'm going to put my opinion on it here.

The Catholic church I think, though others may think otherwise, is a very confusing religion. They teach you that God created the universe, that God knows everything that's going to happen before-hand, and that no one is perfect besides God.
First thing I disagree with? I don't think God's perfect. Why? Because the Catholic church also teaches that God gets sad when we do wrong, that he has decisions to make. In my opinion, if God was perfect, why would he have to make choices? Why would he get sad when someone does something he doesn't like? He felt pain when he had to make that desicion to wipe out the planet in a flood (and yes, I know that's only a story), and he felt anguish when His son died on the cross. He had to make a choice, and He had to make a decision. He was sad about that decision and didn't want to do it, but He knew he had to. If you were perfect would you have regrets? What is "perfect" anyway.
The Catholic church also says that we were created in God's image. If nobody's perfect, and everybody was created in the likeness of Him, would he be perfect?
Secondly, free choice. I've been taught over the years that God gives us free choice, but then at the same time He also knows everything we're going to do. If He knows, tell me, how is that free choice? It may create the illusion we have a choice what to do, but in reality, we don't. So then if even God does not entirely grant us that, does that mean this believe of "free-choice" never even existed? Are our lives played out one by one, and what we think are surprises really aren't all that surprising?
Now on another thing having to do with belief, but not Catholicism. In some religions they believe that you are reincarnated repetitively. What you did in your past life has to do with what you become next. Many people believe that it is unlucky to become and animal of some sort and that it's much better to become a human. But I really don't find humans all that great. People assume that all animals are dumber than us, and I imagine they are in a lot of ways. But they have something that we lose when we're very young. As we grow up we lose our child-like innocence, but I noticed that animals really have no guilt. If they kill, it's usually for food. Dogs especially. A lot of people think it's dumb to follow someone around no matter what, because you want someone to love you. But what's wrong with wanting to feel loved?
We're arrogant to think we're better than anything else that lives on this earth. If we can't understand anything about these other things, like what they think, how can we say something like that? I mean you can't just assume.
No, I'm not saying animals are the smartest things in the world, but I do think that some things are of a higher rank than humans in many ways, say I!

Akapookie!

I think too much.

I need to go pack real quick. We're going to Capitola tomorrow.

Okeedokie. Now shall I tell you about people at ND? Naw I think I'll save that for later.

Stab the dolls of hate.
Wash yourself with their blood.
Drive into the raging current of time.
Swing your murderous weapon into the belly. "The earth."
Shout and start creating confusion,
shed your blood for pleasure. And what?
For love? What am I supposed to do?

-"Art of Life" by X Japan



Yush I was looking up the lyrics to that and I liked a few excerpts. Decided to put that one in here ^.^.

Bai now!

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LoupGarou

:: 2004 22 August :: 6.53pm
:: Mood: exanimate
:: Music: Come to Jesus - Mindy Smith (it is very sad-sounding and pretty)

Great Googly Moogly!

"You walk past me -
I can feel your pain.
Time changes everything;
One truth always stays the same:
You're still you,
After all,
You're still you."


"You're Still you" by Josh Groban



Friday night stayed over at my grandma's. I'm proud of myself. Over the two times I went in her pool I swam 70 laps (35 Friday evening and 35 Saturday early afternoon), which is pretty good considering I haven't exercised as regularly as I would have liked to during the summer. And I figure Mema's pool is a bit shorter than the pool we used when my sister and I were on the swim team. Didn't do the laps all at once though. I took it pretty slow, 2-4 at a time. Oh well. I'm happy that my arms are sore.

Is that normal, being happy that your arms are sore?

My grandma's doing very well ^_^. She still has a great sense of humor lol. She's fonny. I luff my Mema.

Today I went to my Godfather and, technically I guess, cousin's house. Mike, my Godfather, is really funny. He and my dad get along so well. They'll be sitting on the couch watching olympics rowing or something and Dad will go "Yeah, Mike, you remember when we used to row for the Santa Clara rowing team?"
"Oh yeah, those were the days"
"Yep. mike used to be the guy with the bullhorn that would stand up and yell, 'ROW! ROW! ROW!'. Yeah, that was great."
And of course they've never done anything like that in their life.
"You know, Dennis (my dad), I'm keeping my eye out for a sitting in a chair competition. I - yeah I think I could get the gold for that."
"I think that should go for the Fall Olympics"
"Hey yeah! That's when all the new TV shows are on."
"Exactly. Great idea, we should do that! Fall Olympics.."
Mike also thinks he's Spiderman. You know those Spiderman decoder cards you can get from a cereal box or something? Apparently when Mike's family went to Hawaii they were going to the movie theaters and when they got up to one of the ticket guys or something Mike pulled out his Spiderman card and said, "Hey like my Spiderman card?"
The guy looke at him.
"Yeah look isn't it cool? These are very rare. I have a Spiderman card" he handed the card to the ticket guy.
"Yeah yeah mister that's really nice," he said nodding politely and pretending to examine the card, smiling.
"Yeah I know isn't it awesome?"
The ticket guy was probably thinking to himself This poor man is retarded . lol ^_^.

Anyway, Mike has three daughters, my cousins: Stephanie, Peggy, and Lauren. Stephanie is 13 and one of the top gymnasts in the state. She'll probably be at the next summer olympics. Peggy is 15 and goes to Mitti. Lauren just turned 18 and graduated from Presentation this year. Every year they celebrate Lauren and Stephanie's birthdays together because they're so close together, so that's what we were there for. things are kind of awkward though, because we're invited and then so are their cousins on their mom's side. I dunno I know they don't mean to make us feel ignored, and maybe I'm just antisocial when it comes to that stuff, but we kind of feel left out. Oh well, what can you do?

I am proud to announce, however, that Mike, Yolanda (his wife), Larry (peggy, Lauren, and Stephanie's uncle on their mom's side), Larry (larry's son lol), Joe (oldest of Larry's sons), and Larry #1's wife are voting for Bush. You can add my parents to that number, and Yolanda's nasically telling Lauren she's voting for Bush this year, since she just turned 18. lol. So that's... 9 people methinks. I was surprised to hear they were on the republican side indeed.
Mike says he think's Kerry's a wimp. Teehee.



You know something I find interesting? I was talking to Jen Carrow the other day, and I'm well aware that she may have the address to this journal, so I can only half hope she doesn't see this. I don't like it when people are angry with me, but who knows? Maybe if she reads this she'll understand what I'm saying.
We were talking about how people can be stereotypical about things, like religion. During that conversation she said something like: "yeah it bugs me when people say things and don't consider other people's feelings." It made me wonder: You think she thought about that when she wrote that note about Mrs. Saunders?

For those that don't know, Mrs. Saunders, my English teacher, had bad hip problems. I think she had surgery on it this summer. But because of this problem she would make pain sounds, like gasps every once in a while when she did things. I don't particularly think that Mrs. Saunders was the greatest nor the friendliest teacher in the world, but when she wasn't teaching, she was really a nice person, and I think that she should at least be respected in some part that she came in to teach us even though her hip sometimes hurt her so much she could hardly walk. For some reason Jen has hated to a point beyond hate.. I guess you could say she practically loathed her. But I could never figure out why. I don't ever remember Mrs. Saunders doing anything besides being exessively grumpy, but maybe there's something deeper than that.
One day she wrote a note. I believe it said something like: "Yeah I bet the reason Mrs. Saunders moans like that all the time is because she goes to the bathroom and sticks a dildo in her and leaves it in all day."
Mrs. Saunders found it, and you can imagine how hurt she was. I think she even cried. I don't care how much you dislike a person, you do not say something as cruel as that. The woman is suffering from sickness and pain and she still comes to teach us. I was sickened when I heard that one of my classmates wrote that about someone. I think I was even afraid to tell and complain to my Mom or any of my friends outside school because I was so ashamed of it. It's despicable.

I remember for a period of time I truly hated Jen. I hated how someone could be so sick as to say something like that about a person who, to other people at least, has done nothing. Someone who's sick. I did truly hate her.

And I wonder if she thought about what other people's feelings when she wrote that. Did she realize how many people would disagree with what she did? Do you think she maybe truly believed people would agree with her? And after she came back from suspention I don't even know if she was sorry for what she did.

Do I just not understand things?

I wish she'd explain to me. I want to try to understand.


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LoupGarou

:: 2004 20 August :: 12.30pm
:: Music: Droppin' Plates - Disturbed

I'm up before noon for once.

"kimi to futaride aruita ano goro no michi wa nakute
sore demo zutto aruita itsuka kimi to aeru no kana

nadaraka na oka no ue yuruyaka ni yuki ga furu todokanai to hodottemo
kimi no heya ni hitotsu daisuki datta hana o ima...

kyonen saigo no yuki no hi kataku kawashita yakusoku
omoidaseba toke dashi tenohira kara koborete

nadaraka na oka no ue yuruyaka ni yuki ga furu todokanai to hodottemo
kimi no heya ni hitotsu daisuki datta hana o ima...

madohen ni hitori kiride tada yuki o mitsumeteru kimi o omoidashi nagara
garasu koshi ni kimi o ukabe saigo no kuchizuke shite...

ne...waratte yo mou nakanaide
koko kara zutto anata o mite iru wa."

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"The road we walked back then is gone
but I still walk along it anyway.

The snow quietly falls on the gentle slope,
now I put your favorite flower in your room
even though I know it will never reach you.

when I remembered our unyielding promise
from last year's last day of snow, it began to melt,
and spill from my hands.

The snow quietly falls on the gentle slope,
now I put your favorite flower in your room
even though I know it will never reach you.

As I remember you watching the snow from the window all alone,
I recall you through the window and give you one last kiss...

please, smile, stop your crying now...
I'm always watching you from here."

-"Ain't Afraid to Die" by Dir en Grey



My iPod's busted T_T *shniff*. It won't turn on. OO WAH AH AH AH! And the day I got my library cards for the Martin Luther King Library in downtown San Jose, I also lost one of them. It's because I'm a super super genius. I'm just so incredibly smart I can't keep track of my library card. Einstein was so smart he couldn't memorize his own phone number. He also didn't wear socks, which meant his feet probably smelled really bad.

Get up, c'mon get down with the sickness!

I haven't eaten breakfast yet. Anyway, on the 18th we went to San Francisco to celebrate my Dad's birthday and go see the Lion King, which was his father's day present. The play was good good muchly. The opening scene was enough to have won an award, I say. The costumes were amazing indeed.

We stayed in the Grand Hyatt that night, yush. It was good, but not as good as the other Hyatt in SF. I don't even know if I spelled "Hyatt" correctly.

The 19th we went back homie womie and ate dinner with my grandma, uncle Larry, Aunt Ceal, and Cousin Adam at "By-Th-Bucket" (and yes, I did spell that correctly). Yum. Melikes that place. Teehee. "Cousin Adam". Kind of like what Quatre does in Gundam Wing: "Good-bye, friend Trowa!" Oh dear Quatre, you must get out more.

OooOoo! And it also got nice and foggy in the evening time before we were going out to see the play! Sho purdy.

You know, I think I'm going to change the journal layout again. Muaha!

I need to label my school books and sort out the whole losing-the-library-card issue.

*stomp stomp clap* *stomp stomp clap* *stomp stomp clap* *stomp stomp clap...*

Buddy, you're a boy, make a big noise, playin' in the street
Gonna be a big man someday, you got mud on your face,
You big disgrace,
Kickin' your can all over the place
Singin'

WE WILL, WE WILL ROCK YOU! WE WILL, WE WILL ROCK YOU!

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