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2004 10 January :: 2.50pm
:: Mood: chipper
:: Music: Papercut - Linkin Park
Ah, it's all over.
The test is all over and I can relax. May I say that I believe I did well on it and I really appreciate all the support I got from everybody. So thanks everyone! COOKIES for people such as Marilyn, Louise, my parents, my tutor, and Alexander aka Little Damion (as if he doesn't have enough cookies already. How far have you gotten on that truck load?)
Anyway, I figured since I'm not so busy I can finally post that poem I wrote a few days ago. I don't have a title for it yet, but if anyone has an idea, I would REALLY appreciate it (especially because coming up with a title for my works is one of my weaknesses when it comes to writing).
Light fades from my eyes
Just as dusk fades to black.
It burns when I inhale,
There's no going back.
I once felt love for you,
Now there's just pain.
My entire body aches
As my last glimmers of joy wane.
I knew all along
It was at me you jeered,
But I chose to ignore it,
Because that's what I feared.
I know now the real you,
You're the one I blame,
Because you're the one who cast this fire,
This burning, searing pain.
And so now I leave you.
You won't be laughing then.
I'll be the one grinning,
Because this time I know I'll win.
And so farewell I say to you
As my own blood gathers on the floor.
You are finally defeated,
Because I'm not afraid anymore.
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And that's my poem *grins sheepishly*. Depressing poems are fun. Especially the ones you write without really knowing the story behind it. Then, once you're finished you look over it and realize that it actually does have a story to it. Tis nice indeed. Well I hope you like, because I enjoyed writing it.
I was drawing on my scratch paper for the test after I had amazingly managed to finish a section early than I did any other, but then they had to collect it in case we took it home and started showing our friends the problems. *sniffle* And it was such a purdy picture too. A chibi version of my character Psyche. Ah, yesh, I love Psyche. He ish my buddy ol' pal.
I was unhealthy today and had McDonald's for lunch. Now I'm full *pats stomach*.
My sister's best friend Justin is over, and right now they're playing video games (my, isn't that a first). I see that Justin has gone from his stage if standing up and jumping while he plays video games to kneeling and wiggling around. An improvement. Oh, wait. He's standing again. And now he's jumping. Forget that thing I said about an improvement.
*waves* BAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!
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2004 10 January :: 9.30pm
:: Mood: tired and nervous
:: Music: Angry White Boy Polka - Weird Al Yankovic
I think I did pretty well on my science test and history tests, so I'm happy! The literature test went pretty well too, but I really don't think I did very well on the quotes for the characters. What Mrs. Saunders (my teacher, aka The Muppet or Miss Piggy) did was she had these quotes taken directly from the book and you had to put down what character said that quote. She gave us choices, but there were too many and some people were used twice. You can't blame me for not doing well; I think it was one of the worst books I've ever read. On the essays I did fair enough - could have done better, but I was the last one to turn it in because they were so long anyway (why do I always have to do that? It really is kind of embarrassing. I'm not saying that to make anyone feel stupid for short essays or anything, but I always take too much time on essays, and it really is beginning to bug me). I think my best section was the vocabulary.
Well enough about that. Tomorrow I'm taking the HSPT (the highscool entrance exam) at 8:30 in the morning, and it's really making me nervous. If I don't get in to this school I'm going to have to go to Live Oak. Not that I have anything against public schools (I'm not a snotty private school kid!) because there are some really nice ones out there that I've seen, but Live Oak isn't one of those nice ones. Their lockers are rusted and covered in graffitti. Not to mention their school mascot is the Acorns, aka "The Nuts."
That's right, they have a big thing painted on their gym floor that says "GO NUTS!" Interesting, really. I found it funny. However, I think they redid their swimming pool, which is good because I like to swim. Other than that though I haven't seen all that much of the school, so I suppose I shouldn't be judgemental. I'm getting off the subject though. Oh well I'm going to start on a new subject anyway.
You know, they keep telling us that there's going to be this huge storm coming, and I see no storm. The past two days in fact have been sunny and relatively warm. GIVE ME A STORM, DAMN YOU!
But no. The storm seems to have gone east, west, north, and south of where we are, but not where we actually are. I think it's doing this on purpose.
"Ooo I think I'll dance around this area just to get Jessica and some of her friends mad."
Alright, I know storms don't talk, but if they did, I bet that's what this one would say. I want rain! It makes the hills all purdy and green and nice, I say!
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I wanna go to Ireland in spring where it rains almost every day and the hills are always purdy. And then I get to hear the coolio bagpipes! That's right, I like bagpipes, got a problem with that? HUH? HUUUUUUUH? well too bad.
^_^
Today Marilyn, Louise and I got together to study for the highschool tests, even though they are taking theirs on the 24th onstead of the 10th. After Louise consumed most all of the candy containing chocolate in my house we began to study. We started out with math problems but got frusterated with that and moved on to English. At one point Marilyn got distracted by the only two Gundam models I have (one is a SD Gundam and the other is Deathsycthe Hell) and started making them battle eachother.
Deathscythe: "Curse you! I'll stab you with my fork!"
SD Gundam thing: "I'll kill you with my rope!"
Of course I had to explain to her that Deathscythe didn't have a fork, but a scythe. It was amusing though.
Then we got into the topic of the two boys that ride through our school parking lot every day. One rides on a motorized scooter and the other rides on a bike. Every morning they cross through our parking lot, and it was beginning to bug us. So we made a plan. First of all, there is the janitor lady at our school who has a large yellow cleaning cart that squeaks. The squeaking is so high pitched that it hurts your ears, but sometimes it seems that I am the only one it bothers. Anyway, we decided we were going to gather a bunch of rabid squirrels together and put them in the cart. We would be supplied with mops, of course, and boom boxes would be strapped around our necks so we could play heroic theme music at the right moment.
On Monday morning, when they ride through the parking lot, we will burst out of the gym (one with the yellow cleaning cart and the other with the sports equipment cart), yelling war cries that instill terror into the boys hearts, all the while our heroic theme music plays from around our necks as we run with our carts full of cleaning materials, sports equipment, and rabid squirrels *squeakitsqueakitsqueakitsqueakitsqueakitsqueakitsqueak*. With a mighty cry we shall release our faithful squirrel minions and prepare ourselves with our oh-so-handy-dandy weapons of mops and footballs. While the rabid squirrels catch up to the boys (who are now pedalling and... motoring for their lives), we run at full speed towards our victims. With our mops we shall swat them in the face: "WAAAWAAWOOOOOAHWA WAWAWAWOOOO YAHAHAAA!" and with our footballs, baseballs, basketballs, etc., we shall knock them off their vehicles: "CHICHICHICHICHICHICHICYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!".
Then our terrified victims shall pick themselves up off the ground and, half-running half-stumbling with rabid squirrels attatched to their clothing, they shall retreat off the premesis and never go through our parking lot ever again. *nods* And that is our master plot.
We did actually study, of course. I ran off some copies of a language practice test from my book and we worked on that a bit. Louise was sitting on the bed, staring at Marilyn and me in a scary way. It was kind of like crazy psychopathic glaring. Creepy I say. Finally she stopped and instead started making weird faces. Louise left around 6:00, but Marilyn stayed and had pizza. I like the kind of pizza we get. It's yummy! (Yummy is a fonny word).
I'm really tired, which isn't normal for me, especially at 10:00 at night on a Friday. I guess this week wore me out. Well I'll conclude this entry now, so bye bye!
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2004 9 January :: 12.33am
:: Mood: frustrated
:: Music: Papercut - Linkin Park
too.. many.. tests...
I have three big tests tomorrow - history, Language Arts, and the dreaded one *gasp* science! Generally I do pretty well in school. Last report card I had about a 3.7 GPA and was able to get 97th percentile on my IOWA tests, but since then I've been having trouble with science. I have a C+, but my teacher says it's really close to a B-. It makes me wonder, if it's so close, why doesn't she round it like they always do? *sigh* So tomorrow is my last chance to get better than a C in science test before progress reports. If we were studying anything else besides chemistry and chemical equation crap I would have probably done much better, but NOOOOO, we have to learn how to solve a chemical equation, or what a double replacement chemical reaction is or whatever.
Yup. Tis evil. I noticed that I've been complaining about school a lot. Sorry.
Why am I apologizing? This is my journal.
...
But still, I feel like a "complainer".
SOMEONE TELL ME TO SHUT UP!
*ahem* I'm done.
I'm happy that I did pretty well in math! Last year, in 7th grade, I had a C+ throughout the whole year in math (a lot of stuff was going on - believe me. It was a sad year. If anyone cares to know why, maybe I'll tell you. I guess it might be nice to talk about it again.). Now though, I believe I've brought it up to a B or B+ (yay!).
That doesn't mean I've stopped hating math, mind you. I still dislike numbers *hugs her words*. I is liking words better than numbers *nods*.
Hmmm. Oh yes! We got a new gym floor. At first I thought it was going to be stupid, but from what I have seen of the finished work, it looks pretty nice. Coach got a bunch of people together to put it down, but all it really was was like fitting puzzle peices together. Kinda weird yes? Well, it's late, and I still need to type up my history study guide.
Bai! Sayonara! Ja ne! Aloha! Alveterzein(sp?)! Si senor! . . . . . wait . . . .
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2004 7 January :: 3.07pm
:: Music: Silence O_O
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!! :D.............yesterday >.>
Kick butt, :) Yesterday was my birtday. And as of now, i am legal to have sex! lol, not that im going to, or anthing, I just thought that was pretty damn cool >.>
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What the hell???......Well...isnt that.....interesting? >.>
My boyfriend is weird :S I just got off the phone with him and he was standing in his bathroom naked looking at his belly button :S He was naked cuz he was getting ready to get in the shower but still >.> ........wierdo....
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2004 6 January :: 11.35pm
:: Mood: groggy
religious zealots
Okay, going to a Catholic school you're going to read some pretty strange and sometimes annoying stuff while forced to read the religion book, right? Well today we had a lot of religion homework - I mean heap o' key terms - and I was searching through the book for the answers and came upon that one section - you know, the one that tells you sex is bad and you're gonna go to hell if you do it.
And I realized that it seriously pissed me off. I mean, I'm not saying I think casual sex is good or anything, but for some reason it really bugged me how it acted like you were such a bad person if you did something like that. Then it had a little section where it tells a short story and you have to discuss it or answer questions about it afterwords. It said something like "Peter gave his friend Joe an adult magazine. Joe was reading the magazine in his room and found that the contents gave him pleasurable sensations. Joe threw the magazine away."
Think about this for a moment and tell me truthfully: how many teenage boys are going to throw a dirty magazine away, especially if they like the feeling of it? NOT TOO MANY, I'LL TELL YA THAT.
"Oh this magazine makes me feel weird in a good way, I think I'll throw it away."
-_-
I'm sorry. I know that was a really weird subject, but the story was so unrealistic it made me mad. And people have sex before they get married, and I don't think they're ALL going to Hell. Hell must be pretty full by now if everyone who did that became eternally damned.
I'd like to type more on a different subject (I apologize for my rantings) but I need to do the dishes and get ready for bed.
May I say that I am a catholic and, sure, I believe in God, but beware of the religious zealots! They are dangerous I say!
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2004 5 January :: 9.45pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: Droppin' Plates - Dosturbed (I'm NOT obsessed, I swear!)
just... stuff
Hello, I'm back (oh aren't you so happy and joyful? I know now that you shall forever live in peace knowing that I am here. ^_^.... -_-). Today was the first day after vacation that we went back to school. I think since I got home I've been asked "how was school?" about three times already. School is school - it is hardly ever really exciting, and right now the stress everyone is feeling is not putting people in good moods. I hope I do well on my high school test. I know I keep bringing that up, but I am pretty worried about it. Especially the math part. I have never really been good in math before - now I've gotten better; A B or B+ I believe - but some of these problems are hard. Or at least they seem hard to me. I don't think that I will have much trouble with the Language Arts parts because that's always been my strongpoint. Being that I'm taking the actual test this Saturday, I have less then a week to study, and that is obviously not lowering my stress levels.
Hmm now, what else is there to talk about? I really don't want to concentrate too much on school, but that seems to be the only thing vaguely interesting.
Wait. I looked for info on the Neon Genesis Evangelion live action movie and so far there isn't anything other that what I've heard along with some rumors.
The Queen of England's dog was eaten by Princess Anne's dog. That's rather disturbing, isn't it? In a sick twisted way, however, I find it funny.
What if you named your dog Weenie? "Come here Weenie, come here boy!" If you were having hot dogs for dinner or luch you could say "you wanna hot weenie?" Heee hahaha.
I like laughing at my own jokes every once in a while though. Tis nice.
DOOOOOOOOOPIDOOOOPERS SAY I!
I'm done for now. Tootle pip.
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2004 4 January :: 10.38pm
:: Mood: weird
:: Music: The Game - Disturbed
words
My new word is noobles. yes, noobles. NOT noodles - noobles. *nods*
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2004 3 January :: 8.20pm
:: Mood: angry
dumb high school entrance exams
My mom made me go take a practice test thingy for the high school entrance exams today. Math makes me mad. As expected, I did the worst on the math sections. I wonder whether the actual exam will be that difficult and whether I will even be able to get into the school I want to. I know my grades are good, but it's the damn test that's making me mad. Sometimes I can't tell if I really care that I get into a private high school. I guess deep down, I know that I do care, but I can be pretty good at fooling myself sometimes.
Right now if anyone starts talking about school I'll kick them. One more day of vacation then it's back to that hell hole. I wasted a whole afternoon taking the practice test. I know I'm just being ignorant, because supposedly it's gonna help me, but I just -I don't know what the hell I'm talking about, so I'll just shut up and sit here.
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2003 29 December :: 4.31pm
ARGH!! SOME PEOPLE PISS ME OFF!! ><
GAH!!! Have you ever been in a situation where, you dont like someone, but they dont know it, and your trying not to be mean but everything they do or say annoys the hell out of you?!?!? Well thats how i spent my last nearly 2 days >< My old friend from like 6th or 7th grade calls me and asks if she could come over. I didnt want her to, but me being the nice person that i usually am, say yeah sure why not? >< and so she comes over, at first everything is goin just fine, but its like every other sentence that she says is something about Legolas. I mean, holy shit! and i thought i was bad >< im starting to think that she only likes him cuz i do, cuz in first hour some time ago he was on my book, and shes like.."oh, isnt that that guy from the LOTR? hes hott" and that was it. Ever since then its been, Legolas this, Legolas that >.> and just all of a sudden shes got like 20 pages of pictures printed out of him. Anyway, then, we go to bed, and I wake up this morning to her playing my PS2 and eating nearly all of my damn skittles without fucking asking! >< i mean, i dont mind the game thing so much, but nobody touches my fucking skittles without asking!!! >< Is it just me??? Wouldnt anyone else get a little peeved by this??? Anyway, on top of all that, she smells :S and shes constantly clearing her throat, and its this really nasty sound that makes you just wanna throw up or something. Its disgusting >< and shes always saying extremely dumb comments that she thinks is really funny and it just make me want to slap her >.> After all that, she goes through all my stuff, i mean all of it! and she doesnt even put it back when shes done looking at it! ARRRRGH!!!!!!! Some of you may think im just overreacting, and maybe i am, but as of right now. Shes pissing me off and annoying the hell out of me >< I sure hope she leaves soon. She wants to stay another day. Fuck that i say.
On a happier note, I finished playing Dynasty Warrirors: Xtreme Legends, today. It was funny cuz i was on my last character, and after you beat each characters story thing, theres a song at the end with one of the girl characters singing a song and dancing and whatnot. And theres this guy on the game who i think is really gay, he looks gay, and he talks gay. Zhang He, for those of you who would know him by that name. Anyway, I finish the game with my last character, Yuan Shao, and it goes to the song, and they got Zhang He singing the song and dancing :D its funny cuz the song is in a girls voice. Heh, yeah, i just thought that was funny..........*eh hem*....yeah... >.>
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2003 29 December :: 4.29pm
How I would Murder (Quiz)
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2003 27 December :: 4.27pm
YEAH BUDDY!!! :D:D:D (Orlando Quizes!)
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2003 23 December :: 6.57pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: Remember - Disturbed
It's my birthday
Hey! Today I am fourteen. Not much else to say really. I'm going to a japanese restaraunt tonight called Kyoto Palace though, which I am looking forward to, and I may even get to watch the first Inu-Yasha movie (it hasn't been shown in America yet. In fact I don't think it even has English dubs yet), which is cool.
I was going to delete a poem from my profile, but I decided why don't I put it in my journal? So here it is - nothing super special:
Scratching at the door of your soul a deamon awaits.
Don't let it in or it'll be too late.
Pray it won't get in
Don't let it by
push it away from the walls
and let it die.
You can't fight long
You're going to give in.
It claws at your soul and your heart within.
There's nothing to do
let it come, let it stay
because you know now that you can't run away.
There you go.
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2003 20 December :: 11.10pm
Just pasting a quiz result.
Your soul is bound to the Yellow Rose: The
Gentle.
"I've travelled through the land of
surrender and seen it all. I throw my heart
out and keep my head up, and now I travel
through the land of peace."
The Yellow Rose is associated with friendship,
intuition, and fun. It is governed by the
goddess Hestia and its sign is The Intertwined
Rings, or True Friendship.
As a Yellow Rose, you always look out for your
friends. You would much rather have strong
ties with friends than a single tie with a
lover and your devotion to your friends is
clear. You may have great intuition and be
able to read emotions clearly, but sometimes
you can seem distant yourself.
What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To? brought to you by Quizilla
Gimme something good!
Find out what anime character cliche you are.
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2003 20 December :: 5.54pm
:: Mood: guilty
:: Music: Jewel-Foolish Games
I think I've come to realize that those times when I need God most in my life I turn off my Christian radio station or refuse to pray. I get scared. It hurts too bad because I know that I've done something wrong or I feel hopeless. But its so hard to tell myself that God is still going to listen to me. and if I talk to Him about it he will still understand although we will both know its wrong.
I know I shouldn't feel helpless or hopeless. It can change soon. It will be ok.
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