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2003 20 November :: 3.34pm
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Not Much
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I wonder if these quizes could possibly be true??.....if they are, heh, i guess im a pretty good person.......im not sure how many people are aware of that though....At least i like to think that im a good person.
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2003 19 November :: 3.51pm
:: Music: Adam Sandler and Jack Nicholson - I Feel Pretty
Quiz
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Heh, funny how true that is.....the last part I mean.
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2003 17 November :: 5.11pm
:: Mood: Moo......
:: Music: All America Rejects - My Paper Heart
And now....the gnomes have stolen my last pair of underwear......the've gone too far this time!!!
Heh, not much has happened since the party. Just boring days really.
*sigh* I feel so unloved. I read your guy's journals and im always seein stuff like, "Yeah, so-and-so called and wanted to go to wherever so we went and it was so much fun." or "Whoever stopped by today just to say hi and hang out, then we went somewhere else and hung out there too." I may be acting dumb or whatever but i feel so left out. No one ever comes over just to say hi, or come over and say "Hey! lets go to the mall!" or what not. Oh well, what can you do?
Man, can't wait till i can drive. I sure wont have to ask for rides anymore at least. That would be cool.
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2003 15 November :: 4.40pm
:: Music: Jessica's Trumpet Practice =S
Today......The gnomes have finally suceeded....let us mourn.....
Yep, I went to Justin's(perry) B-day party yesterday. It was a lot of fun. It was quite strange too, a lot of things happended. It was fun though. Who knew you could have so much fun with Garbage cans?? lol. There was a live band too, only they left after about 15 mins or so into the party. They wanted to go hunting. Stupid deer killers. geesh. yeah, anyway, then it was just basically bradley and tony and a few others just playin around with their intstruments. Mostly Bradley though. So yeah, not much else to say really. Umm....I guess ill just go now then :) See y'all when i do.
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2003 13 November :: 7.53pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Book of Days - Enya
Dream
I just wanted to type in a dream I had last night. The thing that i guess surprised me was that it was a lot more consistant than my other dreams usually are. Usually I'll be walking into a room with a person and then all of a sudden that person will be Martin Short or something. Okay, on with the adventure!!! (Dun dun DUUUUUNnn)
The first thing I remember was that I was in a library. I suppose I was on a lower floor of it, so it was pretty large. The walls were a clean white and tall mahogany shelves leaned against them, filled with all different books. These books looked more like those photography books, or at least those ones that are much larger in length then novels are.
A classmate, named Erin Young, was with me, looking at one of those large books. I was just sitting there when a tall man dressed in black robes and a back turban walked towards us. He had dark skin and a beard,and his dark eyes were stern yet interesting in a way. He offered to show us around a bit, and Erin and I took up the offer. We followed him around through the whitewashed corridors, where the bookshelves where growing a bit more scarce then they had been on the lower floor.
He started speaking about different kinds of religions. All I remember is that one began with "R", and sounded very Arabic or Islamic.
We came upon an elevator, where we had to wait for people to get out. Erin was gone by this time, gone to the place where disappearing people in dreams go, I suppose. There was a large black woman behind a wooden desk next to the elevator. The rest of the room was completely made of polished granite, with a few of those bright green fake decor plants in the corners.
I got in the large elevator, where black man and a few other people joined me. Apparently the elevator was capable of taking you to different countries. The man I was in the elevator with said a high number, but the lady at the desk who was controlling it laughed as the doors closed and said "Kenya here they come."
"No!" the man shouted. Then he started muttering complaints about how he didn't like Kenya's police station or something. Kenya was apparently located in the "basement" of the building. We arrived and walked through a departure-and-drop-off station place. I guessed this was the police station thing the man was talking about, because there were police roaming around, and it fit what an older-looking police station might look like.
The walls were painted a tannish-orange color, and judging by the lighting the inside was getting, it looked like it was dark outside.
Then I was sitting under a window, my back against the wall - it seemed I was behind a desk or chair or something, and was seeing from the point of view of the black man I had met in the elevator. I was telling someone how you would be sitting somewhere and then all of a sudden people would throw things like paper balls at you. Just then I heard a rustling in the blinds above me and looked up. A hand was sticking through, holding a paper ball. It dropped the crumpled peice of paper on me, hitting my forhead. Quite a few other paper balls followed after that, until I grew quite annoyed. I don't remember doing anything to whoever was dropping the paper, it was just annoying.
Outside of the building and throughout the country there was a war going on. I remember there was an older man and his daughter who's house had been taken over by a few drunken enemy soldiers. The daughter offered bravely to go and distract the soldiers or something while her father, who was a veteran, gathered a small militia to ambush the soldiers and take back what was rightfully theirs. The father didn't want his daughter to go, but in the end he decided it was best, and let her.
I then saw from the point of view of the daughter, who was hurrying through a foresty swamp-like place. Daybreak was coming because there was a dim bluish light about. I remember as I seemed to float through this area, there were these two old wooden swings that hung from a tree branch. People were running all around the area, and I suppose they were running from enemies or evacuating the area. Whenever you got close to the swings though, these two eerie transparent children would appear, their eyes wide and staring, their mouth set sternly. They were dressed in older clothes, and I remember one was a boy. However I do not remember what the other one was. Right away it was obvious they were ghosts of some sort, though their story goes no further than that.
Once again my point of view changed. I was back to being the black man, and I was running through a field of enemy soldiers. I suppose they didn't really consider me a threat, or maybe they were distracted, because none of them actually shot at me. However they did chase me. The weird thing was, I would spit on them, and the body part I would spit on would literally cave in. Then, from that same area, bullets would fire. I remember one soldier who was chasing me. His face was dirty and his uniform was a dark brownish green, and he had a heavy London accent, I think. I spit and it landed in his mouth. He stopped in his tracks and a sickened expression came over his face as he accidentally swallowed. Eyes widening, he screamed and writhed on the floor until, with an utterly sickening bubbly gurgling noise, his throat completely caved in, also creating a bloody mess. A second or two later, bullets came flying out of his open mouth. One hit a fellow soldier's gun, which exploded, seeming to create a chain reaction with the other soldiers, killing quite a few.
My point of view once again switched, though I was now seeing through the old veteran father's eyes. The sky was darker, and it seemed to be sunset, thought the it was more of a reddish black than anything else. I was peering upon a small little run down cabin. It appeared to be one room and had a tiny porch and overhang outside the front door. The lights were on, though you could see no movement. I remember cringing at the thought that those soldiers were living comfortably in my home, probably making a mess and even destroying it. I was dressed in my old uniform with a machine gun on the mound of dirt in front of me. My men I knew were posted around the area, hidden behind trees and boulders incase anyone came out of the cabin for any reason. I began contemplating how I was to raid my own home. I didn't want to destroy my own home, and it was a tough decision because I didn't want any of my men to die either. I was about to say "ready..." to go, but then I woke up.
An odd dream it was, though quite interesting in my opinion.
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2003 12 November :: 8.12am
:: Mood: depressed
Corbin,
I Really Miss You
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2003 11 November :: 3.42pm
Look at me,
My depth perception must be off again,
Cuz this hurts much deeper than i thought it did.
It has not healed with time,
It just shot down my spine.
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2003 10 November :: 10.41pm
:: Mood: slightly stressed
:: Music: Sugar - system of a down (that's right. I listen to the same music over and over)
just yakking
I went to the party. At first it was boring, but after a long while it was okay. though I swear they were trying to kill me. All they played was rap. I swear that they knew my weakness and were out to get me for some unforgivable thing I had done to them in the past. I have no idea what that unforgiveable deed would be, however, so maybe that wasn't the reason. Maybe they just like to torture me. Anyway, it got a bit better after a while (not necessarily the music, just in general I suppose), maybe simply because it was fun yelling at all the people who were "freaking", especially since they couldn't hear us. Louise went after all, which was good, but not like anyone reading really cares. ^_^ just kidding. I love you all. Or those that bother to read this anyway.
The thing I found amazing was that these people could find a way to freak to any song that was played. In case you don't know what "freaking" is, I shall be a kind citizen and explain. Freaking is not really a dance of any kind, but more like a violent jerking. In fact it looks quite similar to having convulsions or a seisure, except it is in a "sexier" way, according to those who do it. They seem to think that looking like they are having severe mental problems is attractive. Not to mention it may be insulting to a person who really *does* have mental problems.
*sigh* I truly do not know what this world is coming to. Oh well. I suppose that's how some people are and I can't change that. I should be more respectful right? Uh huh, okay then. I'll pretend to be as respectful as possible and shall hide all my opinions. Okay, now I am confusing myself.
It is actually quite impossible for me to keep strong opinions to myself, and in fact I often get in trouble with my parents because I tend to state my opinions too freely at times. Therefore, being that I will not try to change these other people, I shall not change myself by trying to keep all of my opinons to myself. So there.
Wow. If this is confusing me I can't imagine how confusing this must be to you (if anybody is even reading this). Maybe I should move on to a different subject.
Actually, I can't move on to a different subject, as my sister is about to kick me off of the computer in maybe... oh..... 45 seconds? Wait and see we must. In the mean while, I shall bid you farewell, faithful people of the - okay, so I don't have any regular or faithful readers, but it is my goal I say!
Ja!
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2003 10 November :: 9.08pm
:: Mood: depressed
To Corbin
Alone as I sit and watch the trees
Won't you tell me if I scream will they bend down and listen to me
And it makes me wonder if I know the words will you come
Or will you laugh at me
Or will I run
Little boy says to me,
"Where you goin' now son"
I said, "I don't know where I'm goin' boy
I only know where I'm from"
And it makes me wonder
If the stars shine when my eyes close
Or does my brothers heart cry
I don't know
I'm a stranger in my home
Now that everybody's gone
Someone please talk to me
Cause I feel you cry
And you're sitting with him
And I know I'll never see you again
Lying down in Charleston under the Carolina sky
You see I'm tired of feeling this pain
I'm tired of living my own little lie
And it makes me wonder
When I see you in my dreams
Does it mean anything
Are you trying to talk to me
I'm a stranger in my home
Tell me are you feeling alone
Someone tell me what to do
'Cause I'm feeling strong
And I wonder how you feel
Do you realize my pain is for real
I see you in my dreams
And I wonder if you're looking down at me
And smiling right now
I wanna know if it's true
When he looks at me
Won't you tell me
Does he realize he came down here
And he took you too soon
And now my days are short an my nights are long
I lay down with memories of you keep that keep me going on, going on
It makes me wonder as I sit and stare
Will I see your face again
Tell me, do you care
I'm a stranger in my home
Living life on my own
Right now I just can't see
'Cause i'm feeling weak
And my sould begins to bleed
And no one is listening to me, not even the trees
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Yeah... this right here (tell me why)
Goes out, to everyone, that has lost someone
That they truly loved (c'mon, check it out)
Verse One: Puff Daddy
Seems like yesterday we used to rock the show
I laced the track, you locked the flow
So far from hangin on the block for dough
Notorious, they got to know that
Life ain't always what it seem to be (uh-uh)
Words can't express what you mean to me
Even though you're gone, we still a team
Through your family, I'll fulfill your dream (that's right)
In the future, can't wait to see
If you open up the gates for me
Reminisce some time, the night they took my friend (uh-huh)
Try to black it out, but it plays again
When it's real, feelings hard to conceal
Can't imagine all the pain I feel
Give anything to hear half your breath (half your breath)
I know you still living your life, after death
Chorus: Faith Evans
Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
I'll be missing you
Thinkin of the day, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
I'll be missing you
[Puff] I miss you Big
Verse Two: Puff Daddy
It's kinda hard with you not around (yeah)
Know you in heaven smilin down (eheh)
Watchin us while we pray for you
Every day we pray for you
Til the day we meet again
In my heart is where I'll keep you friend
Memories give me the strength I need (uh-huh) to proceed
Strength I need to believe
My thoughts Big I just can't define (can't define)
Wish I could turn back the hands of time
Us in the 6, shop for new clothes and kicks
You and me taking flicks
Makin hits, stages they receive you on
I still can't believe you're gone (can't believe you're gone)
Give anything to hear half your breath (half your breath)
I know you still living you're life, after death
Chorus
[Faith Evans] Somebody tell me why
Interlude: Faith Evans
On that morning
When this life is over
I know
I'll see your face
Outro: 112
Every night I pray, every step I take
Every move I make, every single day
Every night I pray, every step I take
[Puff] Every day that passes
Every move I make, every single day
[Puff] Is a day that I get closer
[Puff] To seeing you again
Every night I pray, every step I take
[Puff] We miss you Big... and we won't stop
Every move I make, every single day
[Puff] Cause we can't stop... that's right
Every night I pray, every step I take
Every move I make, every single day
[Puff] We miss you Big
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Oh where, oh where, can my baby be?
The Lord took her away from me
She's gone to heaven so I've got to be good
So I can see my baby when I leave this world
We were out on a date in my daddy's car
We hadn't driven very far
There in the road, straight ahead
A car was stalled, the engine was dead
I couldn't stop, so I swerved to the right
I'll never forget, the sound that night
The screamin' tires, the bustin' glass
The painful scream that I heard last
Oh where, oh where, can my baby be?
The Lord took her away from me
She's gone to heaven so I've got to be good
So I can see my baby when I leave this world
When I woke up the rain was pouring down
There were people standing all around
Something warm, flowing through my eyes
But somehow I found, my baby that night
I lifted her head she looked at me and said
"Hold me darling just a little while"
I held her close I kissed her our last kiss
I found the love that I knew I had missed
Well now she's gone even though I hold her tight
I lost my love, my life, that night
Oh where, oh where, can my baby be?
The Lord took her away from me
She's gone to heaven so I've got to be good
So I can see my baby when I leave this world
Woh woh woh woh
Woh woh woh woh
Woh woh woh woh
Woh woh woh woh
Ohh Ohh Ohh Ohh
Ohh Ohh Ohh Ohh
Ohh Ohh Ohh Ohh
Ohh Ohh Ohh Ohh
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Time passes by so quickly
But I guess I thought you'd be here forever
I never even had the chance
To say goodbye
There's so many things to tell you
Left unsaid until now
Can you hear me when I talk to you
Do the words I say ever make it through
Can you hear me when I talk to you
'Cause I'd give anything if I just knew
Every night I have the same dream
The one where you get to hold me
We laugh and talk until the morning
And then you vanish, yeah
It always leaves me feeling helpless
When I wake up and you're not there
Can you hear me when I talk to you
Do you know how much I'd love to be with you
Can you hear me when I talk to you
'Cause I'd give anything if I just knew
[Instrumental break]
Living in this world without you
I constantly search through my memories
Hoping that I find some treasures
That I passed over, yeah
All that I took for granted
Means so much now and I won't let it go
Can you hear me when I talk to you
'Cause I never said some things that I meant to
Can you hear me when I talk to you
'Cause I'd give anything if I just knew
You know I never said some things that I meant to
Can you hear me when I talk to you
'Cause I'd give anything if I just knew
I miss you Corbin.
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2003 9 November :: 9.32pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: U2-Stuck In The Moment
I'm listening to all my sister's music.... hmmmmm bored.......I have to go to school tomorrow. My mom hasn't replied to my email yet. She's off in Hawaii. Hm.. I'm going to go to bed soon..... its almost 10.. and I get up at 5.. Im gonna be tired... today I slept in until 11. Ok.. right now all I have for my journal is stupid thoughts like.. Hmm I wonder when the choir tryouts are.. and gees I look like a scrub right now... I haven't really done anything today... i woke up, took a shower and that was it... no make up, no drying of the hair, curling of the hair, straighting of the hair..... Yeah.. this is the most boring journal entry ever.... I have a lot of other problems that woohu just can't know about... er.. wouldn't care about... sooo..... ahh which reminds me of something else! ok getting off the computer.......
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2003 8 November :: 6.41pm
:: Mood: inbetween
:: Music: My Last Breath - Evanescence
gray skies
The sky is cloudy today. I like it cloudy a lot better than when it is sunny. I like the feeling it gives me for some reason. It isn't really a describable feeling, so i won't bother trying to explain it. These kind of days put the world in a whole different perpective, you could say.
I'm mad because Louise says she'll go to this party with me, and then I talk to her and ask her the plans and she says "Oops I didn't tell my parents I was going." She said she forgot to RSVP too. If she doesn't go, I don't know who I will hang out with. The place will be full of preps, which might be a problem for me, but I still kind of want to go.
But maybe I shouldn't.
This whole thing is stupid.
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2003 8 November :: 4.27pm
:: Mood: Tired, Hungry, and...well...depressed.
:: Music: The music from the random stores surrounding me
The Mall
I am also at Rivertown. (reference to mindy's post) And my legs hurt like a monkey. Im really hungry too, i didnt eat breakfast this morning and still havent eating anything and its like 4:30. Heh, im kinda depressed. Someone told me something and now im depressed. They do that a lot. They try to make me feel better and it usually ends up making me depressed. Heh, oh well. What can you do? but yeah. I think were leaving soon so im gonna go now. Buhbye all see you when I do. Hopefully were gonna go get some food. I am starving. *GASP* so....weak......can't......*hack wheeze*.....go on! *cough cough* Tell tiny Tim i loved him!!! *dies* O.o riiiight......
Hehe, Mindy's lookin at a piece of paper and she says its making her hungry. what a dork.
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2003 6 November :: 4.09pm
:: Mood: amused
All that is gold does not glitter,
Not all who wander are lost;
The old that is strong does not wither;
Deep roots are not reached by the frost;
From the ashes a fire shall be woken,
A light from the shadows shall spring;
Renewed shall be blade that was broken,
The crownless again shall be king.
Heh, im reading The Fellowship Of The Ring right now and i didnt really have anything else to say so i thought id write that. I thought it sounded cool. Most likely i will be posting others in the next few weeks or so, depending on how long it takes for me to read the trilogy.
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2003 2 November :: 12.22am
O_O
Heh, Halloween was fun, we all went around trick or treating and well, it was fun lol. Afterwards me mindy and jessica all went to Justins house till about 9:15 or so and then me and jessica headed home and Justin dropped mindy off shortly after. Jessica's microwave made me so angry. I was tryin to make ramen noodles and it was in there for like a half hour i swear! and they still wouldnt cook! i mean, come on! lol. so i ended up eating only half cooked ramen noodles, thats ok though, i was hungrey enough, i didnt really care all that much.
Then this morning we got up and again, went to Justin's house around 9 or so and stayed till almost 4:30, it was pretty cool, we had fun.
:D Me and Nate are good again. Thats good, im glad. I like bein friends with him, i dont care what all you out there who dont like him right now say. He was my friend to begin with and he hadnt done anything to me so im still goin to be his friend. And im not picking sides or anything, im not gonna do that. Im just not gonna stop bein friends with him just cuz a lot of other people dont like him. You guys are all my friends still too. Im not gonna get into this thing between you guys. But yeah, just thought you all should know that.
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2003 1 November :: 5.12pm
:: Mood: pained
:: Music: You don't remember me but I remember yoooooouuuu! I lie awake and try so hard not to think of yoooo
Yo se mite
Back in all my glory from the sacred place of Yosemite National Park! Twas fun and interesting, though my feet hurt like hell, as well as many other muscles that I am now just realizing I had. My friend Ashleigh had no one to trick-or-treat with, so I decided to get together with her. She was a Dark Angel. The costume was awesome. She wore all black: black shirt, black pants, dark-colored trench coat, large black angel wings, and black boots that made her look ridiculously taller than me.
You may have noticed that I said "dark-colored" while listing. Ah yes, very observant my compadre! That is because the trench coat was more of a very very dark blackish-green. Oh well. Twas still cool, I say, though feeling that short is not a largely familiar feeling I have. Usually she is an inch taller but nooooooo she has to add a few inches! yahaha! Oh well, i lived and I should not complain, that I should not.
My aching feet bid you farewell!
PS I would like to once again thank Adrian for putting me in his top 5 list, tis truly an honor!
k, I'm done.
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