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shannonw55

:: 2005 7 July :: 9.22pm
:: Mood: sad

Ohhh.... Moochy... :(

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 7 July :: 12.37am

i went to blues tonight after my modeling consultation... it was pretty cool. they guys from 61syx are pretty awesome.. i still get nervous when keegan does flips.. esp when its on concrete and he's tryin some for the first time... but dammnn is it so cool!

i just got home... im grounded right now... so i guess my moms definition of grounded must be "be home by midnight" we'll have to slowly work back up to 2-3 in the next few days... laughs* being grounded isnt half bad.... i think i can spare a couple of hours for a few days... no longer then that though... hmph.

my cell's been dead for like a week..i just havent gotten around to charging it... and damn.. i should charge my camera cuz we're going to the beach tomorrow.... mmmmm... looks at complicated bateries and such..... nawww not complicated, more like "takes effort" and im tired so NO... hmph.... .im such a baby.

keegan had his interview at Logans today.... we're in there at LEAST 2-3 times a week, so since he's looking for a waitor job... figured HEY why not work at our resturant?! i say OURS because im sure if it wasnt for our frequent visits.. they would be out of business.. FER sure.

mmmm keegans dad made us steak today.... i hadnt had steak in a LONG time... then me, emma, and his dad played trivial pursuit... it was fun. keegan wouldnt play.... jerk.

i can see emma and me becomming really close... we're already pretty close and i KNOW she likes me alot.. his whole family does... sounds cliche, but his house is really like my second home. his mom even labled a part of his room "Erika Dawns" lol.... and then grouped all my stuff there... it was cute. i had kind of a dissapointment today, so right after i called my mom, i called keegans mom.... i just think thats so coooooool! ugrahh! i love them all... except keegan *winks....

i love how everyone is always like... you're so in love, or something like that... and we're like nooooo we're not.. not yet anyways. because its true. we arent... why rush something thats already so beautifull? but i sure am loving every second of falling in love with that boy.

night angels....

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2005 5 July :: 9.52pm

wow i am a loser. This is all i can do to occupy myself.
finish the sentance survey...

I'm always... thinking
I love saying.. roman's my baby and only mine!
I think flowers are...beautiful
My fav Beatles song is...here come sthe sun
I was born...March 8th 88
I hate to say it but I’m not too keen on...roman being so far away from me at college
I work well on things...when I'm alone.
I’m going to college but...I probably will have a lot of trouble.
I have this thing about wearing... lots of matching accessories
I love to read books about.. dirty stuff. but only if its funny
I say... what i think if i'm mad
I’m addicted to...love man.
I drink too much...pop when i'm at work.
Class is...stupid
My earliest memory is...the three legged race at that one place with stef..
The last place I went on vacation was...florida
I think living far away from...roman sucks a lot.
Right now, I should be calling... no one really
The last candle I lit was...who knows.
The glass is... see through..
I don’t believe in...war solving anything
Kids can be...the best thing in the world
I think Napster Is.. a great invention
The best M&Ms are... .. whatever
If I could go anywhere it would be...to Japan
I despise it when...I feel ugly or when people are mean
I love to shop at.. meijers and rite aid. i buy so much shit i dont need though
Malls are a really fun place to...shop..... or something?
I thought it was hilarious when...roman sung or danced funny in front of me for the first time.
I love my friends even though they...smell bad. lol
A kick ass place to have a party would be...duno
I think it’s all about...being happy
I love the TV show...reno 911
I never get enough time to spend with...my friends i guess
One of the nicest things someone has ever done for me is...let me cry to them , or come pick me up when i needed him or let me into their house at 7 in the morning
Whenever I eat lunch, I have to...feel bad about being a fatty
If you want to see me go crazy, you should talk to me about... how i should not move out when i' m 18
When no one’s around, I really like to...dance dance dance..
My favorite computer font is...whatever
My all time favorite movie is...moulan rouge probably i duno.
If I had a million dollars...be really excited.
People refer to me as...Jess......
I want to kill...no one.



Do I:
Smoke? no
Do drugs? No
Have a dream that keeps coming back? Yeah
Play an instrument? yeah piano, mallets, clarinet
Believe there is life on another planet? dont think so.
Remember your first love? yeah
Still love him or her? definetely, its roman hello.
Read the newspaper? once in a while
Have any gay or lesbian friends? no
Believe in miracles? Somewhat
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever? Yes.
Consider yourself tolerant of others? usually
Consider love a mistake? No, not at all.
Like the taste of alcohol? no only wine
Have a favorite candy? eh whatever
Believe in magic? not really
Believe in God? yeah
Have any pets? elvis kelsa toby and mooch
Do well in school? bleh.
Go to or plan to go to college? yeah
Wear hats? only my arby's hat!
Have any piercings? My ears and cartilage
Have any tattoos? No.
Hate yourself? not really no
Have you been trashed or extremely intoxicated? no
Have a secret crush? no
Do they know yet? um no?
Collect anything? money.
Have a best friend? yeah
Wish on stars? Sometimes.
Like your handwriting? Not usually.
Care about looks? yeah
Love life:wonderful
First crush? geez.. um... i gues tyler bauer
First kiss? kevin
Single or attatched? Attached.
Ever been in love? Yes.
Do you believe in love at first sight? no
Do you believe in 'the one'? Yes.
Describe your ideal significant other: nice to everyone, funny as heck, can make you laugh even when you're crying, can cheer you up in an instant, listens, outgoing, sweet, beautiful smile, beautiful eyes, strong, great looking, nice body, long dark eyelashes, kind hearted, likes kids, treats me great, curly hair, caring, smart, never yells... or in one word.. Roman!
Have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing? no.
Are you a tease? I duno
Wuss: Sometimes.
Druggy: No.
Daydreamer: Yes.
Freak: yeah
Dork: Yeah
Bitch: often.
Brat: yeah
Sarcastic: very
Goody-goody: meh
Angel: no
Devil: no
Shy: in certain situations
Talkative: Sometimes.
Adventurous: kinda sometimes
Joker: kinda
Flirty: not really.


Well... sorry. i'm bored.

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 5 July :: 7.38pm
:: Music: A Pefect Circle - Vanishing

Looks like the streak has come to an end

Does anyone like crazy screaming and/or god? If so, I have the perfect CD for you. Bought on impulse, I perchased Still Remains - Of Love and Lunacy, because I was handed 20 dollars and had nothing else to spend it on. I'll never buy a CD I've never heard of again. Don't get me wrong, it's a good CD, I just can't stand the screaming. It has really good lyrics, they're just sort of hard to understand at some points. So if anyone wants it, 5 dollars should do the trick.


Oh, and by the way, I'm sorry. I had no idea.

Try this game. It's hard.
http://www.bbc.co.uk/radio4/hitchhikers/game_nolan.shtml

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2005 5 July :: 6.47pm

Have you ever? Survey.....


Have you ever seen true beauty? Yeah.
Have you ever felt that someone was more beautiful because of their flaws? sure
Have you ever cried because you felt good? yeah.
Have you ever had somebody care? yeah
Have you ever wanted something but then when you got it found out it wasn't what you needed? yeah
Have you ever tried to make things right, only to realize they work out if you let them be? Yes..
Have you ever seen a grown man cry? not that i can remember actually
Have you ever seen an amazing lightning and thunder storm like they have in the midwest? No.
Have you ever needed to be held? Yes..
Have you ever needed to cuddle? Yes.
Have you ever made something you thought was great but no one else liked? no.
Have you ever been really sick? no
Have you ever made a snowman in your front yard? no, backyard./..
Have you ever known what it was like to love and be loved in return? Yes.
Have you ever had a crush? Yes.
Have you ever had a kiss? Yes.
Have you ever known how good something was? Yes.
Have you ever not know how good it was until it's gone? yeah
Have you ever tried to write poetry but ended up throwing it away? heh yeah
Have you ever found it later and laughed at yourself? Yes.
Have you ever felt like you knew something was right?um yes
Have you ever seen something terribly sad happen right before your eyes? yeah
Have you ever experienced true happiness? Yes.
Have you ever given a love letter? Yep.
Have you ever tried to make someone feel better, just because you saw they were down? Yeah, all the time.
Have you ever wanted a kiss? Yes.
Have you ever needed a hug? Yes.
Have you ever wanted to just do things on impulse? Yeah all the time
Have you ever wanted to just run? Yeah.
Have you ever needed to get away? Yeah.
Have you ever tried? yeah
Have you ever wanted to be a kid again? sometimes but not really
Have you ever blew big bubbles with pink gum? Yeah.
Have you ever lost a love? no
Have you ever experienced puppy love? sure.
Have you ever experienced love at first sight? No.
Have you ever tried to tell someone something but the words wouldn't come out? duh
Have you ever wanted to die? yeah.
Have you ever written a letter to someone you lost touch with? Yes.
Have you ever walked down a country road with your friends? Yes.
Have you ever gotten ice cream on a hot day? Yes.
Have you ever had a really good time with your best friends? Yep.
Have you ever told them how much they mean to you? Yes.
Have you ever shown then that you love them? Yes.
have you ever told your parents you love them? Yes.
Have you ever told someone else you love them? Yes.
Have you ever played with your old toys? Yes.



Long-ish survey.
001) What time did you start this?: 6:55pm.
002) Name?: jess
003) Date of birth?: March 8th, 1988.
004) Sex?: Female.
005) Height?: 5' ish
006) Eye color?: blue.
007) Weight?: 113 ish pounds.
008) Location? Michigan.
009) Do you currently love anyone? Yes.
010) Do you have crush on someone? no
011) Do you have a bf/gf?: Yes.
012) what are you wearing right now? looney tunes boxers and v-ball shirt...
013) Would you have sex before marriage?: Yeah.
014) Have you ever had a crush on any of your teachers?: Just a little crush
015) Do you smoke? no.
016) Do you drink?no
017) are you a player? No.
018) What are your favorite colors?: pink, blue..whatever.
019) what is your favorite animal? swans and kitties
020) Do you have any birthmarks? No
021) Have you ever gotten your ass kicked? hmm no.
022) have you ever beat someone up? yeah all the effin time... not
023) Have you ever been slapped? Yeah
024) Do you get online a lot? Yes.
025) are you shy or outgoing? Depends on my mood.
026) Do you shower? no never
027) Do you hate school? yeah pretty much.
028) Do you have a social life? not especially but oh well.
029) how easily do you trust people? eh not so much anymore
030) Have you ever lied to your best friends? yeah but not in a long long long time
031) Do you have a secret people don't know? i dont think so.
032) would you ever Sky Dive? probalby not
033) Do you like to dance? sometimes
034) Have you ever been out of state?: Yes.
035) do you like to travel? Depends.
036) Do you want to get out of your hometown? yeah.
037) are you a brat? pretty much yeah
038) Have you ever been dumped? Yes.
039) what’s your favorite soda? Diet Coke.
040) do you like Snapple? never had it actually
041) Do you drink a lot of water? yeah
042) what toothpaste do you use? um i duno . minty shit.
043) Do you have a cell phone or pager? No.
044) Do you have a curfew? no just whatever my parents say
045) Who do you look up to? hmm i think tammy at work and roman.. i think thats it.
046) are you a role model? Probably not.
047) what kind of jewelry do you wear? ring from roman, earings, and usually a necklace
048) what do you have pierced? Ears and cartilage.
049) do you like taking pictures? yeah so you have memories of things
050) do you like getting your picture taken? not really
051) Do you have a tan? ugjh no i wish
052) Do you get annoyed easily?: heck yeah
053) Have you ever started a rumor? No
054) Do you have any siblings? Yeah.
055) Do you prefer boxers or briefs? whatever.
056) Do you get along with your parents? pretty much no.
057) how do you vent your anger? cry, scream/sing really loud in my car, drive really fast, hit something, talk to roman, type in woohu or play piano
058) have you ever run away? For short periods of time, yes.
059) Have you ever been fired from a job?: No.
060) Do you daydream a lot? Yeah.
061) Do you have a lot of ex’s? no.
062) what do you want a tattoo of? dont really want one
063) what do you have a tattoo of? Nothing.
064) what are your favorite flowers? those pretty ones roman got me those exotic looking ones.. i duno what their called
065) are you rude? I can be.
066) what was the last compliment you received? that roman liked his picture thing i made
067) is your bellybutton an innie or outie? Innie.
068) are you flexible? kinda.
069) what is your heritage? whatever.
070) what does your hair look like right now? messy ponytail
071) could you ever be a vegetarian? Yeah.
072) if you had to completely dye your hair it'd be what color? normal color.
073) would you ever date someone younger than you? no thanks
074) would you ever date someone older than you? Yes.
075) when was the last time you were drunk? never
076) when was the last time you went on a date? sunday night yay!
077) Have you ever had an eating disorder? no
078) How many rings until you answer the phone? Depends on where I'm at.
079) Do you look more like your mother or father? my mom i guess
080) Do you cry a lot? yeah
081) do you ever cry to get your way? no
082) if you had to amputate one limb, what would it be? a leg i guess.
083) what phrase do you use most on the phone? duno
084) are you the romantic type? Yeah.
085) Have you ever been chased by cops? um.. i duno
086) What do you like most about your body? eh i duno
087) what do you like least about your body? my lower half i 'd say
088) when was the last time you threw up? like 2 weeks ago
089) in the opposite sex, do you prefer blondes or brunettes?Brunettes.
090) what do the shoes you last wore look like? flip flops black and polka dots
091) do you ever wear shirts to show your belly? psh no.
092) what about cleavage? pshhhh no
093) is your best friend a virgin? um well ..
094) what color are your underwear right now? Blue.
095) what size shoe do you wear? 7 or 7.5
096) would you pick a wedgie in public? if ii announce it first lol no.
097) how are you feeling right now? ,my eyes hurt and i feel fat.
098) when was the last time you were at a party? um like never or something
099) have you ever given a lap dance? no.
100) what do you sleep in? depends
101) has there ever been a rumor spread about you? Yes.
102) what is one of your bad qualities? wow lets see. i'm a freak and i overreact and freak out and cry and bitch and yell and get mad. and yeah
103) what is one of your good qualities? im compassionate
104) would you marry for money? no.
106) what do you drive? 2000 red grand am yay my baby.
107) for two million dollars, would you pose for Playboy? doubt it
108) what time is it now? 7:10

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2005 4 July :: 10.36pm

okay so i was supposed to have a totally different day but everything got messed up so this is what i ended up doing. everyone look
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maybe you dont think it looks good but i do and i did a good job if i do say so myself. which i do. it is a present for roman and i am so excited to give it to him. yay and hooray. it took me like 4 hours. take that bitches.


what
a
boring
day.

but i do love the picture collage very much and yay. can't wait to show roman!

i wanna just leaveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

and oh. people are so stupid i swear ughghghgh i hate people. ugh what a stupid day. stupid bitches.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2005 4 July :: 12.40am

roman baby i'm so fricken in love with you.

we went to the whitecaps game tonight and it was so much fun. this guy came up to us and asked us if we wanted to be 'upgraded' and he gave us 'the best seats in the house' and they were two leather recliners just put right there by the field lol it was so funny. and so we got to sit in leather recliners the whole game it was very comfy. and they put the camera on us and we were on that screen and the anouncer guy was talking about us lol it was embarrassing i dont think i've ever been on that screen. not that it's a huge deal but anyway, it was fun! and roman did one of the games and won beacuse of course he is awesome and he gave his prize to this cute cute cute cute cute little girl. she was so adorable and kept dancing ahh she was so cute.

it was so much fun and then after the game were fireworks and they were so pretty. i just had such a good night. i love you buddy!!!

and jess and jess i miss seeing you both al lthe time and il ove you a ton.

goodnight everyone.

oh and i talked to my friend bryan from camp and he's so nice i miss him!! he's a good guy. i miss amanda and bryan and andy from camp. hmmmmmmmmmmmm

okay goodnight everyone.

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 4 July :: 12.26am

oh goodness...

boys and their need to "fix" everything..
bobby, bobby, bobby

im so fortunate to know him. both him and vince, its crazy... because if i had never met keegan, i wouldnt have met these two amazing people.... and even though i've only known them for about as long as i've known keegan.... i feel a need to protect them because i love them and they love me and its like they're my big brothers. this big wonderful protective circle... its beautifull.

we're gong to watch fireworks in grand rapids tomorrow... getting away from sandlake... blahhhh. im excited, i've never seen grand rapids fireworks, AND this is my first fourth of july with someone... i've seen fireworks with ex-boyfriends, not on the fourth though cuz i was in Disney World... and keegan doesnt remember ever spending the fourth with anyone... so this counts as his first too... the way we look at things... if you look back and either dont remember or realize an experience was nothing like the ones we share together... then they dont really count.. because they lack in comparison.. so much that they dont exist. we both have pasts, we both have fairly long relationships under our belts, and we can BOTH happily say that THIS is our first relationship.... because nothing else compares. its just an amazing feeling.... i thought i felt this way once..... but the way i feel when we're together is mind blowing.... it totally replaces everything i ever felt. i mean yeah.. i thought i was in love once.... but the way i feel when im with keegan is so much stronger then i EVER felt... and we're not even in love yet! its a beautiful beautiful thing.....

*sighs......

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 3 July :: 2.20am

me and keegan saw bewitched tonight... it was pretty good. i love magic. then after that me, emma and keegan went into sandlake.. this is at about 10:30 im guessing... we had more fun on the carride there then we did at the carnival.. the way we see it... the trashy people hang out at the carnival.. the COOL people make a few appearences and then leave.... laughs* you can only walk by so many girls in belly shirts, bleached blonde hair, and nose rings before you've had enough to vomit. ughhh.. laughs.

we were jammin though... DMX.. ohhh yeahhh.... i'd say when it comes to dancin.. i give keegan a run for his money... its true. *giggles.

we listened to this chris rock comedy thing on keegans ipod yesterday, it was like an hour and a half long.. .sooooo funny.

yeah... keegan keegan keegan... i know.
but hey, i didnt see him for 6 days, he's my best friend, and part of me just wants to brag about how amazing my boyfriend is.

*sighs.....

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 2 July :: 11.50pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Sparta - Travel By Bloodline

The best

I've been to Taco Bell three times in the past 24 hours. I've eaten it for my last four meals. I could never get sick of that stuff. Oh, it's so delicious. I've been to Best Buy two times today, and gotten a total of seven CDs (between both Amanda and I).

I bought:

Sparta - Porcelain
Armor for Sleep - What To Do When You Are Dead
At the Drive-In - Relationship of Command

This has been the best day I've had in quite awhile. And it's not even for these materialistic things, it actually has nothing to do with the CDs or the great mexican (almost) food.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2005 2 July :: 4.20pm
:: Music: britney spears-someday


i had a wonderful day with my boyfriend who i love so much. we went to the lake and it was fun and warm and nice and i love him.

baby you're the best boy a girl could have.

i'm glad it was a good day today. i'm extremely tired though and i think i might go take a nap. i like this song and i know it's kind of bad in a way but i felt a tiny bit disapointed in a little way.

i bought this new scrapbook and scrapbooking stuff and it is all so awesome and i made a page last night and it's cute and yay.

love<3

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 30 June :: 10.56pm
:: Music: A Perfect Circle

A mind is wasting away

Challenge me.

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 29 June :: 5.36pm
:: Music: Gatsbys American Dream - Pompeii

Come on rain,

-----drown this city.

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 28 June :: 8.35pm

keegans mom is picking me up at 10 so we can go get keegan from the airport... he was supposed to be home by 4 today but his flight got delayed... so now he should be in by 11:30..... mmmmmm, darn this weather makin me wait.

yayyyy... i have a consultation with studio 630 about being one of their models... my friend alyssa was their top model last year and her pictures just turned out amazing.. im crossing my fingers..

i should probably put some clothes on.
yeah.. thats generally a good idea..........

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2005 28 June :: 3.13pm
:: Music: rascal flatts- fast cars and freedom.

i'm really bored and waiting to hang out with roman and i was looking at pictures and here you can see too..

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