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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 28 July :: 11.32pm
:: Music: brand new girlfriend.

i got a brand new girlfriend, think i'm really onto something
Okay.

so i'm feeling a bit better about the money thing. it looks like (if i calculated correctly) i will end up with more money after move-in than expected. so i'm happy.
i never really had anything to worry about i was just spending more than i should i guess.

I got all but one books online with my mom the other day and to know that i only have to pay for half them and with that i'll use my burger king scholarship and to know that i'll be going to school for free should put my mind at ease. so i cannot complain.

i have fourteen days, that's two weeks, until Roman and I move into the apartment. this next week (hopefully tuesday) i will get to see it painted. and i'm so excited.

and the wedding this next weekend, i can't believe it's already here. it seems like stef and paul hardly have been engaged long at all and i still remember when stef was asking "do you think a winter wedding would be okay?" hahah

i babysitted starting at 7:45 today and then went to menards and worked till close. I was in SUCH A BAD MOOD on my way there. i vented so much to roman it was really bad. i did not want to be there at all. but besides this stupid ass crotechy old dumb ass man, it wasn't that bad. because i got to be on service and there weren't many returns. i'm gonna miss most of those people from menards. i'm transfering to the wyoming one so yeah. hopefully they are nice.

DON'T FORGET TO CALL ABOUT STARTING HOURS AT WYOMING

so that's it.
And with that, I conclude this entry with one question:

Do your chain hang low?!

peace out homies.

PS: stacy- if there's anyway you could fix my icon from being all distortedyyyyish... that'd be cool. but i dont know if you are even around or not lately or anything so it's fine either way. thanks homey.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 26 July :: 11.02pm

JESSICA MICHELE WILDE:

You have like fifteen days until you move into your new home.

DO NOT spend any money (except for gasoline to fuel your vehicle) (and perhaps gifts) for two weeks.

Please.

Thank you.
Love,
Jessica.

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shannonw55

:: 2006 26 July :: 6.35pm
:: Mood: angry

Still here...

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 26 July :: 10.52am

omg like almost justtwo weeks until we move innnnnnnnnnnn

i'm so fucking excited. ugh i still have a lot to pack i'm realizing.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 25 July :: 6.33pm

omg. band camp is next week. it makes me want to CRY. i miss band so much.

justine, who is instructing pit and how is it going? If you are instructing, GO YOU! and good job. but either way go you and good job because i'm sure you're as awesome as you've always been.

and ps. what music are you guys doing?

god i'm so sad!!!! i might stop in to see you guys sometime

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 25 July :: 4.24pm

so i'm feeling slightly good. no work today... bought all but one of my books online for discounted prices. seventeen days until we move in.

stef's wedding on the 5th. got the rehersal dinner off by trading hours. still dont get out until 7:30 on the bacholorette party day because menards is dumb.

only one thing really bugging me because of a person who bugs me more than anyone on the planet i think.

now if only i could lose this weight.

oh well, one thing at a time right. g'day

stef i got your signs done and i think they look pretty good so let me know what you think, i'm gonna try to email them to you

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 24 July :: 11.58pm

okay so i went to "bed" at 6:30 because i had nothing better to do and i had to get up at 6 today and i was tired and then it's so hot in my room because i'm still used to sleeping in the cold basement and i just felt crappy and then i wake up at 11 something and i feel horrible... really really sick and so i go downstairs in the basement to sleep where it's cold and i can't sleep because i still feel like crap so i go into the bathrroom and then start puking my brains out. UGHGHGHG i HATE THROWING UP. it is the worst feeling ever. ughghghghgh. and i was just throwing up like 2 weeks ago too. ugh i just hate it and then i want to call my boyfriend and talk to him and his phone is dead woohoo.....

well whatever. that's my story and i still feel like shit.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 23 July :: 9.13pm

la la la. i work at menards and have no life and wooooo hoooooooo

blah blah blha and my feet hurt.

18 days till i move. woohoo.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 19 July :: 11.05pm

OH MY GOD I FUCKING HATE MENARDS.

I AM NEVER WORKING 2 WEEKS WITHOUT A DAY OFF EVER EVER EVER EVER AGAIN! EVER~!@@!%!#$%^!#$^#$^$%&@$

I FUCKING HATE IT.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 17 July :: 11.15pm

in your eyes. in your eyes. in your eyes. in your eyes.
i wanna cry. but only if i'm with you.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 16 July :: 10.56pm

Wouldnt it be nice if we were older
Then we wouldnt have to wait so long
And wouldnt it be nice to live together
In the kind of world where we belong

You know its gonna make it that much better
When we can say goodnight and stay together

Wouldnt it be nice if we could wake up
In the morning when the day is new
And after having spent the day together
Hold each other close the whole night through

Happy times together weve been spending
I wish that every kiss was neverending
Wouldnt it be nice

Maybe if we think and wish and hope and pray it might come true
Baby then there wouldnt be a single thing we couldnt do
We could be married
And then wed be happy

Wouldnt it be nice

You know it seems the more we talk about it
It only makes it worse to live without it
But lets talk about it
Wouldnt it be nice

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 15 July :: 10.12pm

sooooo dude.

yeah.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 13 July :: 9.00pm

Tomorrow I'm going to see the apartment we'll be moving into. Today I picked out all the colors and I love them. I wasn't sure on all the colors I had but I had a lady in wallcoverings help me so now I'm sure.

I'm listening to this scarily pansyish song that reminds me so much of being little. I remember it. It reminds me of when Stef and I shared that room with little heart wall paper and had that little black tape player. She had to tape symbols on the buttons because I didn't know which one was play and stop and pause and all that. I was so little and I still remember this song. I'm not telling what it is. I dont want anyone to steal it. haaaaaaa.

I really feel like I am done with high school and all that but you can never erase the memories. So I guess that means you can never let things from high school stop affecting you.

It's not that I dont appreciate everything you've done for me. Everything you've given me. it's not that, because I do appreciate it and I see more and more that I'm lucky to have that maybe other people don't. but there's something definetely missing. something that even though it's great, doesn't make it add up to more, because the something that's missing is a huge something. so that's why i dont just ugh nevermind

you know, i just downloaded msn live or whatever, and i dont think i like it. not so far anyway. it's too hard to read stuff.

we're down to the last weeks before the apartment. i'm stressed out, working all the time, and his hours keep getting cut.

wonderful.

fuck this shit.

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bleedingsun

:: 2006 13 July :: 10.50am
:: Music: the mars volta

They will walk among us.

This seems too crazy to be true.

Read more..

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2006 12 July :: 11.27pm

i just wrote something but then deemed it too mean to say. but what i was going to say, was something about how I am pissed. I feel like you really should'nt be a jerk to me. It's not fair and I am doing so much for us on my own right now that I really don't think it's nice. I feel like I've done so much and not been appreciated enough for it.

whatever.

UGHH jerk.

i am still working every day until next friday. i really dont want to. really really dont want to. i am pissed. and i kind of really really hate menards. ugh and i can't get into my bank account online right now for some reason and i hate not knowing exactly my balance every day whenever i want to.

so right basically i am pissed and tired and dreading the fact that i have to work 10-6:30 tomorrow. fuckers.

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