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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2005 21 December :: 2.06pm

my baby!
I love you babe. Oh boy do I....

This is an old picture. I love it. What a beautiful smile.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2005 20 December :: 10.03pm

Roman

Man, what an addiction huh? How can you love someone so much. You can't get enough of them. Fights or arguements will never change your love. You can't express it enough and it never fades or changes. It only grows. It honestly only grows. I can't describe or explain it in any words. Happiness and completion. Strong and comfortable and right and good. Everything.

What a blessing. You mean the world to me. Thank You, Lord.


I can't believe I take it for granted sometimes. And i'm so sorry for that . I can't believe there have been some days I didn't cherish it. That's going to change. I realize what I have and I'm never giving it up.


In other news, It's nice to hang out with old friends. Thanks Beansy and Dani. I love you gals.

Please don't think any of this is corny and I hope and know all of you will find it sooner or later. And you'll be so happy and feel so blessed just like me.

Oh and on a lighter note JESS: "I am sooooo drunk hahahahaha I found the number to Burger King"

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2005 20 December :: 7.09pm

i'm so tired and i'm so sorry.

well, come on already.

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 20 December :: 2.46pm
:: Music: Rise Against

The minute hand is too slow

I just bought Amanda's gift. I cannot disclose what it is because someone could tell her, and that wouldn't be fun.

I really think she'll like it. She said she wanted one a long time ago, but hasn't said anything about it recently. I hope the desire hasn't faded. Either way, it'll still be a surprise.

Oh, and, I got a sweet coat. I saw it and tried it on, and it was the only one left. So, my mom was like, "well, I guess you know one of your Christmas presents now." So I wore it to the other stores we went to.

On the way to Meijer on Plainfield today, there was this guy lying in the street with two cops over him, and at first we thought the guy had gotten hit by a car, so we were all like, sad for the guy. Then I noticed the cop putting handcuffs on him and pulling him up by them. I wasn't as sad after that.

I'm updating too much lately. I've got to stop.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2005 20 December :: 10.36am

muhaha

well thaat was funny and sweet all at the same time. aww.

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 20 December :: 12.34am
:: Mood: relaxed
:: Music: Funeral for a Friend - Hours

12:34

I just beat Devil May Cry on Normal Mode for the first time. I got it about 3 years ago. I cannot express the feeling of ecstacy that I recieved when I saw Dante and Trish flying away from the island. Ahhh...

And within that feeling, I started thinking about the rest of my life. Everything is going amazingly well. I have the best grades I've ever had during high school, an awesome girlfriend, and Christmas is in less than a week.

What more could a guy ask for?


It took a video game to put it all in perspective.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2005 19 December :: 5.24pm

tired in a new way

ugh

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shannonw55

:: 2005 19 December :: 1.40pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: The Fray - How To Save a Life

Blocked

It makes me feel weak.

Walking away vs. running away

I still feel like I'm running.

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bleedingsun

:: 2005 19 December :: 8.58am
:: Music: the Arcade Fire

an alternative route

Today is our first official day of vacation, since you can't technically count the weekend, or Friday because that was just a snow day.

Hopefully I can go to Josh's house. I just need a ride. My mom hates driving during the winter, (even if it isn't snowing and the roads are clear) so I doubt she'll take me.

Though Christmas is approaching fast, I don't find myself getting very excited. I'm sort of dreading Christmas day actually, because I have to go to a party at my Aunt's house, which I think is stupid. Christmas should be spent with your immediate family, not all of your relatives. Save that for another day, there is no reason to ruin Christmas.

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 18 December :: 9.13pm

yesterday was the battle in detroit.

i must say it started out rough.. very rough. rough as in i said maybe 10 words the entire way there... thats 3 hours of 10 words people. no no no.. 3 hours of 10 words approximately 20 thousand break dance beats and lingo between 3 dance junkys that would be enough to drive any sane person to stab 3 forks and a spoon into their eye.

we got there 2 hours early. 6 to be exact.

the bboying was sposed to start at 8, NOTHING started (except for the cyphers) until 9:30 and 61syx didnt battle until 11:30. now tell me, how much fun would a breakdancers GIRLFRIEND have for 5 hours surrounded by a zillion talented dancers in a hispanic youth center? tons actually....! once we got there and started driving around detroit it was just really exciting (i had never been there before) we went to this burger king and all the workers were black and they were just so funny. just like the ann arbor battle.. im amazed at the way people can move their bodies. i had no idea how INSANE breakdancing can be. i've seen clips on keegans computer of other crews.. but when you actually SEE them... hooooolly wow.

61syx took prolly 8th out of 16 which is pretty good for a crew thats only been together for a year.. versus Chicago Tribe whos been together for 6. (they won by the way)

it was just incredible... very cool INDEED. but yeah.. so we didnt leave until about 1.. got lost trying to find the CORRECT high way, seems how there's 80 of them (ish).



but above all i love curling up and falling asleep after a long day with the person who just 'gets' me most.....and then waking up and eating chilli... lol. gotta love keegans mom.



yesterday before the battle we went to a distribution center in grand rapids for toys for tots (we being me, my beloved red flannel girls, emily secor, shannon potter, and keegan) and helped familys pick out toys for their children. we did this last year for red flannel, and loved it so much that we just HAD to go back this year. its the absolute best experience we had last year, and now we have another incredible memory. its such an eye opening experience. you meet all these people who are just so blessed to have an organization to help them out. all day i was waiting for that ONE person that would teach me the biggest lesson, that i would remember most. and finally i found her. she was middle age woman, very well kept and so incredibly nice. and when i greeted her she told me that this was her first time so she would be so happy if i walked her through it and helped her out (which we do for all the people anyway) when i told her that she could pick 3 toys per child and a stocking stuffer she was in disbelief and kept saying how wonderful it was. immediatly i noticed this incredible energy to her. when we got to the teenage table i told her that she could pick one toy because we had a shortage when it got to that agegroup and told her that that's one thing we want to change next year. she replied with "oh its fine. and SOO greatfully received, truely it is. this is such a blessing" a little bit later she told me that her girls (4 of them) lost everything in a housefire. all their christmas gifts, possesions.. everything.. and then proceeded to tell me that it was their father who set the house on fire. with everything that this woman had been through, she still found the courage to be strong and ask for help when her family needed it the most. i didnt want her to leave.. i just wanted to continue talking to her and feed off her high energy. it was so wonderful.

it just makes a person realize that you never know when you're going to need help from your community. thats what we're here for. to help eachother out. this woman made the comment that "god willing, next year it will ME thats helping other people in situations like mine out" and i couldnt have said it better myself. as community members we all need to step it up to help others in need.. and no im not just trying to be corny or whatever else you might call me... but if you dont believe how much you can truely do for your community even by donating an hour of your time to talk to people who just need someone to listen.. then please contact a distribution center for next year and see for yourself how great a need even just OUR community and surrounding communitys are for added help. you never know when it could be YOU thats asking for help.

above all, toys for tots finally got me locked into the christmas spirit. i just feel like making christmas cookies and going caroling! lol.. and ACTUALLY.. i was talking to linds a bit ago and we'd really like to go with a nice sized group. so if anyone is interested leave me a comment and perhaps we can set something up for this week.

i hope everyone has a great break and a great christmas.

STAY SAFE on the roads!

*winks... later kids.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2005 18 December :: 4.31pm

please please pleas please please erika stacey and jess can we hang out tonight?

PLEASE!

231-580-9564 or 696-2269

please :0(

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2005 18 December :: 4.30pm

ughghhghghghghghghg when i'm not with roman all i feel is ugly and fat.

i can't wait to be in p.e. and lose some fucking wait. well off to go eat some cupcakes bye.........not really ..................................................ugh.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2005 18 December :: 4.24pm

Ugh. this is so dumb. How did i get here? Honestly. How?



I want it all to be right and the only way that will happen is with you and I learned that quite a while ago. You are for me and you're the way everything will happen and I'll be irreversably happy.



I miss Roman and I wish he was with me right now. I love you baby.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2005 18 December :: 12.01am

lol hahahah *COUGH COUGH COUGH COUGH COUGH*

right jess? lol hahahahhaa oh my goodness pappy you are the best!

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shannonw55

:: 2005 17 December :: 7.58pm
:: Mood: crazy

"I like to talk to her... Ya know... On the phone.. or on the face..."

tehe

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