To be, or not to be,--that is the question:-- Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune Or to take arms against a sea of troubles, And by opposing end them?--To die,--to sleep,-- No more; and by a sleep to say we end The heartache, and the thousand natural shocks That flesh is heir to,--'tis a consummation Devoutly to be wish'd. To die,--to sleep;-- To sleep! perchance to dream:--ay, there's the rub; For in that sleep of death what dreams may come, When we have shuffled off this mortal coil, Must give us pause: there's the respect That makes calamity of so long life; For who would bear the whips and scorns of time, The oppressor's wrong, the proud man's contumely, The pangs of despis'd love, the law's delay, The insolence of office, and the spurns That patient merit of the unworthy takes, When he himself might his quietus make With a bare bodkin? who would these fardels bear, To grunt and sweat under a weary life, But that the dread of something after death,-- The undiscover'd country, from whose bourn No traveller returns,--puzzles the will, And makes us rather bear those ills we have Than fly to others that we know not of? Thus conscience does make cowards of us all; And thus the native hue of resolution Is sicklied o'er with the pale cast of thought; And enterprises of great pith and moment, With this regard, their currents turn awry, And lose the name of action.--Soft you now! The fair Ophelia!--Nymph, in thy orisons Be all my sins remember'd."

 

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:: 2004 21 December :: 9.33 pm

I was right. T-minus 192 hours and counting...

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:: 2004 21 December :: 1.39 am

I might have just been jipped out of 85 dollars...

fuck...

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:: 2004 19 December :: 10.36 am

The great thing about her is when you look in her eyes, and she's looking back in yours, everything feels not quite normal, because you feel stronger, and weaker at the same time. You feel excited, and at the same time, terrified. The truth is you don't know what you feel, except you know what kind of man you want to be. It's as if you've reached the unreachable, and you weren't ready for it.

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:: 2004 16 December :: 8.48 am

Cyric unsheathed one of his daggers, angled to his left, and doubled up in a crouch, ready to spring at the man and silence him before he could raise an alarm.

1. Grab the nearest book.
2. Open the book to page 36.
3. Find the fifth sentence.
4. Post the text of the sentence in your journal along with these instructions

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:: 2004 16 December :: 8.40 am

College Exams suck monkeys. GO! Fly, my Flying ninja-pirate hamster-pandas from space!

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:: 2004 15 December :: 12.28 pm

Long Survey About Yourself

Created by bleedwithoutreason and taken 11951 times on bzoink!

What time are you starting this?11:44
Name?Scott Lee Smith
Nicknames?Scoot, Tech, Fatman
Date of birth?7/22/86
Sex?Male
Height?5'11"
Eye color?They change
Where were you born?Mishiwaka Indiana
Number of candles on your last birthday cake?one
Pets?Kitty and Flying Ninja-Pirate Hamster-Pandas from Outer Space
Hair color?Blonde-ish
Piercings?only when I slip with the screw gun at work
Town you live in?Muskegon
Favorite foods?The good kind
Ever been to Africa?nope
Been toilet papering?yup yup
Love someone so much it made you cry?yup
Been in a car accident?yup
Croutons or bacon bits?both! with ranch dressing!
Favorite day of the week?Poon-day
Favorite resturant?Henry Street Grill
Favorite flower?White Rose
Favorite sport to watch?Midget Wrestling
Favorite drink?Cold Mountian Dew (Coffee)
Favorite ice cream flavor?Cookie Dough
Warner Bros. or Disney?Disney
Favorite fast food restuarant?McDonalds
Carpet color in your bedroom?Wood floor
How many times did you fail your driver's test?once
Whom did you get your last email from?Mommy!
Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?The Olive Garden
What do you do most often when you are bored?sleep
Most annoying thing to say to me?Hold on a minute...my cell is ringing.
Bedtime?When my eyes tell my to stop not sleeping
Favorite TV show?South Park
Last person you went out to dinner with?:Dan
Been out of country?Yup!
Believe in magick?Yes
Ford or Chevy?747
What are you listening to right now?Placebo - Pure Morning
Have you ever failed a grade?nope
If you have, what grade did you fail?none, stupid! I just said that!
Do you have a crush on someone?yup
Do you have a bf/gf?nope
If so, what is their name?*grr*
How long have you been together?*blink*
What are you wearing right now?not pants, if you're interested. Pants are the Devil!
Would you have sex before marriage?Maybe
Have you ever had a crush on any of your teachers?nope
Are you a virgin?yup
Do you smoke?nope
Do you drink?Well, it's kinda necessary for survival...
Are you ghetto?naw, foo.
Are you a player?Yes, and a Groundling too!
What are your favorite colors?Silver
What is your favorite animal?It's a tie between kitties and flying ninja-pirate hamster pandas from space
Do you have any birthmarks?well, does hair count? I've got hair.
Have you ever gotten your ass kicked?no
Who do you talk to most on the phone?Kiel
Have you ever been slapped?yup
Do you get online a lot?yup
Are you shy or outgoing?shy until I know you
Do you shower?occasionally
Do you hate school?not really
Do you have a social life?not really
How easily do you trust people?either too easily or not at all
Do you have a secret people would be surprised knowing?probably
Would you ever sky dive?maybe
Do you like to dance?only when no one's around
Have you ever been out of state?yup
Do you like to travel?sort of
Have you ever been expelled from school?nope
Have you ever been suspended from school?almost
Do you want to get out of your hometown?not really
Are you spoiled?no
Are you a brat?nope
Have you ever been dumped?yup
Have you ever gotten high?nope
Do you like snapple?kinda
Do you drink a lot of water?not really, unless you count the water content of Mountian Dew
What toothpaste do you use?the dentist recommended kind
Do you have a cell phone?no. and you can burn in hell for asking. fair enough?
Do you have a curfew?not really
Who do you look up to?Brian, Chris, Grandma, Mom
Are you a role model?maybe
Have you ever been to Six Flags or Cedar Point?both, actually. They kinda suck
What name brand do you wear the most?Well, I used to wear Doc Martens every day, but then I got a new pair of shit-kickers
What kind of jewelry do you wear?Buddhist Meditation Beads
What do you want pierced?Nothing really
Do you like takin pictures?Only in GTA San Andreas
Do you like gettin your picture taken?I feel cameras suck my soul away one picture at a time
Do you have a tan?nope
Do you get annoyed easily?not really
Have you ever started a rumor?not that I can think of
Do you have your own phone or phone line?no
Do you have your own pool?nope
Do you prefer boxers or briefs?boxers, they're comfy
Do you have any siblings?one sister
Have you ever been played?sort of
Have you ever played anyone?nope
Do you get along with your parents?yup
How do you vent your anger?with a bat
Have you ever ran away?nope
Have you ever been fired from a job?yup
Do you even have a job?I did, then I got fired
Do you daydream a lot?sometimes
Do you have a lot of ex's?nope
Do you run your mouth?not usually
What do you want a tattoo of?Tribal symbols
What do you have a tattoo of?nothing
What does your ex bf/gf look like?Beautifully married
What does your most recent crush look like?Heaven
Whats her/his name?Not tellin'! ;)
Have you ever been bitched out?yup
Are you rude?I try not to be
What was the last compliment you recieved?"Scott's a nice guy." It got me free curly fries at the grill!
Do you like getting dirty?not really; I'm a rather clean person
Are you flexiable?Time-wise? Yup. Yoga-wise? Not in the slightest.
What is your heritage?Fat and sassy.
What is your lucky number?13
What does your hair look like right now?long, soft, and pretty!
Could you ever be a vegetarian?Not while there were still cows.
Describe your looks?Fat and pleasant.
If you had to completely dye your hair it'd be what color?Platinum Silver. Like, burn out the sun with it's own rays reflected upon it! HAHAHAHA..ehrm, ah...A SQUIRREL! *zoom*
Would you ever date someone younger than you?Yup
Would you ever date someone older than you?Yup
When was the last time you were drunk?Never
How many rings until you answer the phone?After the answering machine
Have you ever been skinny dipping?nope
If yes, when was the last time?...
When was the last time you went on a date?When "The Bourne IDENTITY" came out.
Do you look more like your mother or father?My dad
Do you cry a lot?not really
Do you ever cry to get your way?nope
What phrase do you use most when on the phone?peace
Are you the romantic type?yup. Mooshy-Gooshie!
Have you ever been chased by cops?not really
What do you like most about your body?my hair
What do you like least about your body?my feets
When did you have your first crush?Real crush? 7th grade.
When was the last time you threw up?the last time I ate at Wendy's
In the opposite sex, do you prefer blondes or brunettes?doesn't matter
Do you ever wear shirts do show your belly?no
What about cleavage?Well, sometimes I...wait...
Is your best friend a virgin?no
Have you ever fucked someone up?Like, with a knife or something? No.
Have you ever been fucked up?Only once. It was with a sword, and it was an accident. I still have the scar where Kiel stabbed me.
What theme does your room have?clutter
What size show do you wear?13 ish
What is your screen name on AIM?Oddguy101
How are you feeling right now?kinda ache-ey
When was the last time you were at a party?a month ago
Have you ever given a lapdance?no
Have you ever recieved one?not by choice
Has there ever been a rumor spread about you?yup
What is one of your bad qualilties?I am rather hard on myself
What is one of your good qualilties?I am trustworthy and honorable
Would you marry for money?no
What do you drive?The Fatboat. A 1995 Chrysler Imperial.
Are you more of a mommys or daddys child?Mommies-boy
So?-Do-La-Fa-Mi-Do-Re! So-Do-La-Ti-Do-Re-Do!
Well?He should've attended to the sick and left the well alone!
When was the last time you cried in school?never
Would you ever hook up with the same sex?no
What kind of music do you like?Anything, really. I like good music.
Would you ever bungee jump?I don't think so.
What is your worst fear?Being Forgotten
Would you ever join the army?I don't think so
Do you like cows?yes, with mashed potatoes
If you were to die today, what would you do?Spend the day in seclusion, pondering on my past mistakes and choices.
If you had one last word to say to someone before you die, what would it b?Randi
Do you like to party?not really
Hearts or broken hearts?hearts
Moons or stars?Moon
Coke or pepsi?Pepsi
Favorite scent?fresh air
Favorite band?I gots lots of those
Would you ever dye your hair red?maybe
How many languages can you speak?Fluently? One. I know bits and pieces of Italian, German, Russian, French, Mexican, and Canadian
What time are you finishing this?12:27

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:: 2004 11 December :: 11.28 am

A friend in need's a friend indeed
A friend with weed is better
A friend with breasts and all the rest
A friend who's dressed in leather

A friend in need's a friend indeed
A friend who'll tease is better
Our thoughts compressed
Which makes us blessed
And makes for stormy weather

A friend in need's a friend indeed
My Japanese is better
And when she's pressed she will undress
And then she's boxing clever

A friend in need's a friend indeed
A friend who bleeds is better
My friend confessed she passed the test
And we will never sever

Day's dawning, skins crawling
Day's dawning, skins crawling
Day's dawning, skins crawling
Pure morning
Pure morning
Pure morning

A friend in need's a friend indeed
A friend who'll tease is better
Our thoughts compressed
Which makes us blessed
And makes for stormy weather

A friend in need's a friend indeed
A friend who bleeds is better
My friend confessed she passed the test
And we will never sever

Day's dawning, skins crawling
Day's dawning, skins crawling
Day's dawning, skins crawling
Pure morning
Pure morning
Pure morning

A friend in need's a friend indeed
My Japanese is better
And when she's pressed she will undress
And then she's boxing clever

A friend in need's a friend indeed
A friend with weed is better
A friend with breasts and all the rest
A friend who's dressed in leather

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:: 2004 9 December :: 3.33 pm

Call me Spicky - Fight - Wicky

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:: 2004 7 December :: 8.12 am

A is for age: 18
B is for boyfriend: Am not currently one.
C is for Career: Theatrical Technition
D is for dad's name: Scott
E is for essential item to bring on an airplane: MUSIC
F is for favorite song at the moment: This is Your Life - Switchfoot
G is for girlfriend: Nope
H is for hometown: Muskegon
I is for instruments you play(ed): Trumpet
J is for jam or jelly you like: Strawberry
K is for kids: I like them, especially with strwberry jam
L is for living arrangements: parents
M is for mom's name: Gail
N is for nickname: Fatman, Tech
O is for overnight hospital stays: Never
P is for phobia[s]: Failure
Q is for quote you like: "Shadows cannot exist without light..."
R is for relationship that lasted the longest: Well...
S is for sexual position: n/a
T is for time you wake up: between 8A and 11A
U is for unique trait: I are a good driver!
V is for vegetable you love: Brussel Sprouts
W is for worst habit: Procrastination
X is for x-rays you've had: Foot, Kidney
Y is for yummy food you make: Noodle Stuff, aka Beef Stroganoff-ish nummy food.
Z is for zodiac sign: Cancer. The crab.

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:: 2004 2 December :: 9.00 am

******LEAVE A SET OF LYRICS THAT REMIND YOU OF ME AND THE ARTIST WHO THEY ARE BY. THEN COPY AND PASTE THIS INTO YOUR JOURNAL FOR EVERYONE ELSE******

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:: 2004 30 November :: 1.49 pm





You Are the Investigator



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You're independent - and a logical analytical thinker.

You love learning and ideas... and know things no one else does.

Bored by small talk, you refuse to participate in boring conversations.

You are open minded. A visionary. You understand the world and may change it.




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You Are Turkey and Gravy Soda



Gobble. Gobble.




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You Are From Saturn



You're steady, organizes, and determined to achieve your dreams.
You tend to play it conservative, going by the rules (at least the practical ones).
You'll likely reach the top. And when you do, you'll be honorable and responsible.
Focus on happiness. Don't let your goals distract you from fun!
Don't be too set in your ways, and you'll be more of a success than you ever dreamed of.




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You Are Scary

Scary!

You even scare scary people sometimes!




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You Should Be a Mental Patient for Halloween!

You Should Be a Mental Patient for Halloween!






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:: 2004 30 November :: 1.38 pm

Coming out of my cage and I've been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down because I want it all
It started out with a kiss how did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I'm falling asleep and she's calling a cab
But he's having a smoke and she's taking a drag
Now they're going to bed and my stomach is sick
And it's all in my head but...
She's touching his chest now...
He takes off her dress now...
LET ME GO!

I just can't look, it's killing me...
And taking control...
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea...
Swimming with sick lullabies...
Choking on your alibis...
But it's just the price I pay...
Destiny is calling me...
Open up my eager eyes...
I'm Mister Brightside!

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:: 2004 24 November :: 10.07 pm

FIRSTS
First best friend: Katie Strandberg
First time away from home: New York
First job: Janitor
First screen name: SohGin144
First self-purchased album: Dare to be Stupid - Weird Al
First funeral: Grandpa's
First pets: Terry
First piercing/tattoo:
First play/musical/performance: John in "No Greater Love"


LASTS
Last kiss: Forever ago
Last hug: Randi
Last good cry: A while ago
Last phone call: Mom
Last cd played: Rock Mix
Last item bought: gas
Last disappointment: ...
Last word spoken: ok
Last time wanting to die: a while ago
Last chair sat in: couch

CURRENTS
current clothes: shirt and shorts
current mood: thoughtful
current music: The Killers
current hair: pretty
current annoyance: Nose
current smell: turkey stuffing
current thing I should be doing: Writing a paper


[name]: Scott Lee Smith
[people call me]: The Fatman, Tech
[in the morning I am]: sleeping
[i day dream about]: love
[tall or short]: wide
[born]: July 22
[school]: MCC
[sibs]: 1 sister
[right or lefty]: Righty


h a v e y o u e v e r
[been in love]: yes
[lied]: yes
[given someone a bath]: no
[smoked]: once
[bungee jumped]: no
[broken the law]: yupyup
[skinny dipped]: no
[cried to get out of trouble]: no
[fallen for the wrong girl]: yes
[cut your own hair]: no
[been mean]: yup
[been sarcastic]: yes
[fought with parents]: yup
[skipped school ]: yes
[had an imaginary friend]: nope
[hooked up w/ a friend]: no
[cried during a flick]: almost


w i t h t h e o p p o s i t e s e x
[what do u notice first?]: eyes
[turn off-looks]: egotism
[turn off-personality]: ignorance
[hair length]: umm...not bald?
[best height]: taller than 3', shorter than 7'
[best weight]: doesnt matter
[best article of clothing]: pants or hat
[easier to talk to: boys or girls ?]: Girls
[who do you cry with]: only once

w o r d a s s o c i a t i o n

[red]: hot
[cow]: moo
[grass]: comfy
[blue]: calm
[mirror]: reflection
[cracker]: salty
[zine]: comics
[aol]: the devil
[jelly]: peanut butter

t h i s o r t h a t
[day/night]: night
[summer/winter]: winter without snow
[lace/satin]: satin
[tape/cd]: CD's
[lust/love]: love
[on phone/in person]: in person
[gold/silver]: silver
[scary/happy movies]: scary movies are funny

f a v o r i t e

[color]: burgandy or silver
[Holiday]: Thanksgiving
[shampoo]: VO5
[furniture]: Lay-z-boy
[emotion]: happy
[pepsi or coke]: pepsi
[fast food]: Taco Bell, Chedder-Burger
[animal]: kitties
[sport]: Soccer, Pool
[cartoon character]: Garfield
[language]: English
[weekend activity]: Playing Pool
[roller coaster]: none
[store]: Max 10

m o r e
[could you live without the computer?]: maye
[how many peeps are on your buddylist?]: 8 i think
[like watching sunrises or sunsets]: sunsets
[what hurts the most, physical or emotional pain?]: emotional is the worst
[trust others way too easily?]: yes
[is cheerleading a sport?]: possibly
[houses lived in]: 2
[schools gone to]: 3
[bedroom carpet]: wood floor
[last film seen in theatre]: Harold and Kumar go to White Castle

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:: 2004 23 November :: 3.51 pm

It's kind of funny, this feeling inside...

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:: 2004 22 November :: 9.10 pm

I'm sorry.

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