To be, or not to be,--that is the question:-- Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune Or to take arms against a sea of troubles, And by opposing end them?--To die,--to sleep,-- No more; and by a sleep to say we end The heartache, and the thousand natural shocks That flesh is heir to,--'tis a consummation Devoutly to be wish'd. To die,--to sleep;-- To sleep! perchance to dream:--ay, there's the rub; For in that sleep of death what dreams may come, When we have shuffled off this mortal coil, Must give us pause: there's the respect That makes calamity of so long life; For who would bear the whips and scorns of time, The oppressor's wrong, the proud man's contumely, The pangs of despis'd love, the law's delay, The insolence of office, and the spurns That patient merit of the unworthy takes, When he himself might his quietus make With a bare bodkin? who would these fardels bear, To grunt and sweat under a weary life, But that the dread of something after death,-- The undiscover'd country, from whose bourn No traveller returns,--puzzles the will, And makes us rather bear those ills we have Than fly to others that we know not of? Thus conscience does make cowards of us all; And thus the native hue of resolution Is sicklied o'er with the pale cast of thought; And enterprises of great pith and moment, With this regard, their currents turn awry, And lose the name of action.--Soft you now! The fair Ophelia!--Nymph, in thy orisons Be all my sins remember'd."

 

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:: 2003 6 July :: 7.40 pm

Guess who's back...
Back to die...
Scott is back...
Let's all cry...
Eat some pie, eat some pie
Eat some pie, eat some pie.

Our Lady Peace kicked last night, although Lizzy was a little tipsy, due to the imbibation of depressant liquids sold freely there...











and stuff...

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:: 2003 1 July :: 3.22 pm

Scott got his pictures back from Europe, except for one roll that was ruined, and an unfinished roll of the day at Capri. I got the Chicago soundtrack yesterday, it's pretty cool. I think I'm gonna go down to the grill later today, and stuff...

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:: 2003 26 June :: 8.56 am

fatman
Magic Number10
JobConservationist
PersonalityMultiple
TemperamentAs High As A Very High Kite
SexualWhatever, Whenever, Whoever
Likely To WinThe Booker Prize
Me - In A WordUnique
Colour
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:: 2003 14 June :: 9.36 am

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:: 2003 11 June :: 12.41 pm

Guess who's back...
Back again...
Fatman's back...
Tell a friend...
Make Scott pie, make Scott pie, make Scott pie, make Scott pie...

I'm back!

I guess I just wanted to post before I went to Europe. I'm lonely. I want some Code Red. I want someone to pack for me. Dammit, I wanna go to the grill!

Waitaminute...

the grill is two blocks away...

We can do this...

I need $1.09!

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:: 2003 29 May :: 8.05 am

columbia
Columbia
You've worn all black since you were nine and knew,
even as a nine year old living in nowheresville
that you were a New Yorker at heart. Well, you
wont make it in the big city. I'm sorry tike.
Still, have fun while it lasts, because the
rumor is, most Columbia students don't.


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:: 2003 27 May :: 9.34 am

I'm tired. Sleep would be a definate good thing right now. Went to a bonfire with Justin and Nikki, and others. We stayed there until the cops came and told us that the park closed at 11 and we had to leave. I did notice that he didn't questions those entwined in more passionate acts on their loitering. After we left the beach, we went to Meijers, and Nikki and I lost the rest of the group for a while. We found them right before they paged us. Then Nikki got cherry bites, and we left because we were tired. And it was good.

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:: 2003 21 May :: 10.26 pm

Woah...
I just read that again, and I realized how friggin psycho that really is. It kinda makes you wonder, though, doesn't it?

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:: 2003 20 May :: 12.08 pm

Welcome to the show, the travelling ghetto. Years of breathing the souls of rotted minds has created a bad case of "Ghetto Insanity." As you walk the streets, stared at as if you were a freak show, less than human, an ogre walking the streets paved with gold, you'll begin to understand. If those of the ghetto are nothing more than carnival exhibits to the upper class, then let's give them the show they deserve! No more hearing of this show because it can now be witnessed in your own front yard. A travelling mass of carnage. The same carnage witnessed on a daily basis in the ghetto can be yours to witness, feel, and suffer through. No longer killing one another, but killing those who heartlessly ignored our relentless pleas for help.

Like a hurricane leaving a trail of destruction....the Carnival Of Carnage may be visiting you...


The day has come...the time of reckoning. Who will perish in dreaded hell and who's soul will be content within the pleasures of heaven? Looking past the words spoken with a wicked tongue and the evil deeds done within one's life..looking into the consciousness of man. What is the real evil that seems to plague mankind? Who are the real demons that walk this earth? Is it those whose minds have become devious because of a lifetime spent trapped in a caged hell, or is it those who invented this caged hell years ago and have done nothing to help destroy it? Who's guilty? Frankenstein, or the doctor who created it? The sword, or the man who has slain with it? Which is the real evil -- the man who kills another for food, or the man who does not share his food to prevent the killing? While you sit in judgment of a criminal, you may very well be the one who's guilty of greed, deception, and hatred. Those who are rejected at the gates of heaven shall be dragged off into the pits of hell -- viciously torn from this life by the non-living, the phantoms of the dead. These beasts take the form of a demented carnival, that of a wicked, dark circus, led by one. One who was created by your own evil ways..one who will judge your very fate..one known only as...

the Ringmaster!



Time flows like a dark horde, consuming all in its path. Man lives his life in the blink of an eye. Just as day becomes night, all life fades into death. In death, each person will be judged for his deeds performed while alive. There are the few who walk the path of greed, their souls host to demons. Time slows near each person's end, as those whose deeds were evil grasp onto life as long as they can. Though they don't know what awaits them in the afterlife, they do know for them it is a horror beyond words. Time stops in this world, as the heart becomes still and the soul leaves the body. Time is eternal and even in death it is but a new beginning. For you see, when you step into death, your soul steps upon the floor of a dark chamber and you look to see it empty, except for a strange looking box on an old wooden table. On the front of the box, you will see a question mark faded with time and a twisted crank handle on its side. As you turn the handle, a sharp melodic tune will fill the air with a deafening noise of terror. The surprise comes when the music stops and the top of the box pops open and its contents are revealed. For the few, they will see a vision of God granting them eternal peace, with a wash of golden light warming their soul. The rest will see an image of hell, spawned and formed from their own evil; a reflection of their soul with fog seeping from the box, stripping their sanity. What will be in store for you is the mystery, but if you take a look within yourself, you will find the answer. For now, you still have time to change the outcome of the mighty Riddle Box.



From deep within the Netherworld of shadow walkers comes yet another exhibit of the Dark Carnival. He is the master of the art of using magic without magic... He is a Necromancer... the craft of using magic through the dead. Dead meaning both physically and mentally. This spectacle shall be witnessed only by those who are meant to see it. Look deep inside of your soul and ask yourself... Do you hold a ticket to witness the show? The answer lies within yourself. He is the fourth to rise. He feeds upon one's own greed. He is powered by one's own jealousy, lust, and temptation. To envision yourself with something that rightfully does not belong to you... that is the illusion cast by him. To act upon this vision and seek it out at the expense of another... that is the magic cast by him. Continuos dreamers of profit at the cost of another are pledfed and haunted by his wizardry. Others are content and satisfied with what they can achieve by themselves and have not the urge to tamper with another's well being for quick gain. They see him only as a hoax and see no illusions or magic by he. It is simple... He is you. His illusions are your evil thoughts. Your evil acts are his magic - yesterday, now, and forever. You are he and the fourth to rise... You and he are the master of Necromancy... You are the dead and him the magic.

Together, you and he are The Great Milenko.



His evil influence flows from the city streets like red molten ooze, filling every alley and gutter. There are those who are burnt by it, like the charred remains of a napalm strike. He moves in silence, yet with his heat comes ear-shattering screams as the masses are scorched in his choking smoke of corruption. His fire consumes like a lethal injection flowing through the veins of a dying convict. Hosts of small red ants crawl in the wake of his presence, biting and stinging flesh. His holocaust fills the woods of hope and prosperity like a wave of hungry piranhas on a newborn lamb. He goes by many names, but for now let it be spoken like the force of a fireball bursting into a crowd. He's Jack, pure and simple... Jack Jeckel.
His glow of compassion kindles the heart, like a campfire on a cold winter?s eve. His embers burn eternally, spreading the flame of mercy like a warm blanket over the shoulders of a vagabond. His kindness is fueled by sympathy for human suffering, but his inferno of righteous cause, incinerates creatures of sin to ash. The torch of his salvation guides wanderers in the dark abyss to freedom. Its flaring sparks float on the winds of change, like soaring birds recently freed from a dreary cage. Laughter explodes forth from the essence of his being, radiating the land with childish joy. He has many names, but for now let it be spoken like melodic music drifting through the air. He's Jake, true indeed... Jake Jeckel.
Emerging from the Dark Carnival like phantom smoke drifting into the minds of men, they are the Amazing Jeckel Brothers. A chaotic duo of juggling masters, Jack "the sinister" and Jake "the just" juggle the sins of mortal men. The price of admission to their show is a mere human soul. When death creeps round and life decays, the departed spirit will begin its journey. A vision of a candle will begin to form like a distant dream with billowing smoke rising from its eternal flame. In this thick haze the deceased will begin to see an image of Jake and Jack Jeckel juggling red balls between themselves. Each ball soaked in fresh blood and pulsating like an erratic living heart. For every sin committed in a mortal's life another ball is added to their unearthly performance and the harder it becomes. The deceased will witness sinister Jack throwing Jake curves in a vile attempt to see a ball drop. For if they should fumble in their act, a pit of infinite evil shall open beneath the feet of the viewer and cast the soul into an eternity of pain and suffering. Success on the other hand, opens the gates of Shangri-La and grants one ascension into pure enlightenment and peace. Jack and Jake Jeckel rest in all of us for they are they very fabric of our being conscience and soul. There is no escape from their Juggling act because there is no way to escape from ourselves. Only in death will we realize this as we twist and spin to the other side?

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:: 2003 19 May :: 8.10 am

"But where life is more terrible than death, it is then the truest valour to dare to live."
- Sir Thomas Brown

"To see a World in a Grain of Sand And a Heaven in a Wild Flower, Hold Infinity in the palm of your hand And Eternity in an hour."
- William Blake

"Love is a passion which kindles honor into noble acts. "
- John Dryden

"The man that hath no music in himself, Nor is not moved with concord of sweet sounds, Is fit for treasons, stratagems and spoils. "
- William Shakespeare

"You say that love is nonsense....I tell you it is no such thing. For weeks and months it is a steady physical pain, an ache about the heart, never leaving one, by night or by day; a long strain on one's nerves like toothache or rheumatism, not intolerable at any one instant, but exhausting by its steady drain on the strength."
- Henry Adams

"Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind; And therefore is winged Cupid painted blind."
- William Sakespeare

"Love is a smoke made with the fume of sighs, Being purged, a fire sparkling in lovers' eyes, Being vexed, a sea nourished with lovers' tears. What is it else? A madness most discreet, A choking gall and a preserving sweet."
- William Shakespeare

"Pale death, with impartial step, knocks at the hut of the poor and the towers of kings."
- Horace

"Deadly poisons are concealed under sweet honey."
- Ovid

"I am lord of myself, accountable to none."
- Benjamin Franklin

"Society exists only as a mental concept; in the real world there are only individuals."
- Charley Reese

"The union of the Word and the Mind produces that mystery which is called Life...Learn deeply of the Mind and its mystery, for therein lies the secret of immortality."
- The Divine Pymander

"It is our duty to proceed as though the limits of our abilities do not exist."
- Pierre Teilhard de Chardin

"The man who has accomplished all that he thinks worthwhile has begun to die."
- E.T. Trigg

"Vision without action is merely a dream. Action without vision just passes the time. Vision with action can change the world."
- Joel Barker

"The highest reward for a person's toil is not what they get for it, but what they become by it."
- John Ruskin

"Adversities do not make a man frail. They show what sort of man he is."
- Thomas Kempris

"Beware the fury of a patient man."
- John Dryden

"As long as people believe in absurdities they will continue to commit atrocities."
- Voltaire

"Do not stand there at my grave and weep;
I am not there, I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn's rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush,
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand there at my grave and cry;
I am not there. I did not die."
- Gwydion

"If society fits you comfortably enough, you call it freedom."
- Robert Frost

"It is better to die on your feet than to live on your knees!"
- Emiliano Zapata

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:: 2003 7 May :: 1.43 pm
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: System of a Down - Chop Suey

"A citizen of America will cross the ocean to fight for democracy, but won't cross the street to vote in a national election."
- Bill Vaughan

"If you pick up a starving dog and make him prosperous, he will not bite you. This is the principle difference between a dog and a man." - Mark Twain

"A man thinks that by mouthing hard words he understands hard things." - Herman Melville

"A judge is a law student who marks his own examination papers." H. L. - Mencken

In adversity there is always opportunity. You can let problems get you down, or you can let them get you thinking. Which is more fun?

"Moral indignation is jealousy with a halo."
- H. G. Wells

"Glory is fleeting, but obscurity is forever."
- Napoleon Bonaparte

"Victory goes to the player who makes the next-to-last mistake."
- Chessmaster Savielly Grigorievitch Tartakower

"If a man does his best, what else is there?"
- General George S. Patton

"Not everything that can be counted counts, and not everything that counts can be counted."
- Albert Einstein

"The artist is nothing without the gift, but the gift is nothing without work."
- Emile Zola

"In the End, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends."
- Martin Luther King Jr.

"The power of accurate observation is frequently called cynicism by those who don't have it."
- George Bernard Shaw

"If you are going through hell, keep going."
- Sir Winston Churchill

"God is a comedian playing to an audience too afraid to laugh."
- Voltaire

"Facts are the enemy of truth."
- Don Quixote

"Once you eliminate the impossible, whatever remains, no matter how improbable, must be the truth."
- Sherlock Holmes

"All are lunatics, but he who can analyze his delusion is called a philosopher."
- Ambrose Bierce

"I have come to believe that the whole world is an enigma, a harmless enigma that is made terrible by our own mad attempt to interpret it as though it had an underlying truth."
- Umberto Eco

"A witty saying proves nothing."
- Voltaire

"I have often regretted my speech, never my silence."
- Xenocrates

"Fill what's empty, empty what's full, and scratch where it itches."
- the Duchess of Windsor, when asked what is the secret of a long and happy life

"In any contest between power and patience, bet on patience."
- W.B. Prescott

"Reality is merely an illusion, albeit a very persistent one."
- Albert Einstein

"A doctor can bury his mistakes but an architect can only advise his clients to plant vines."
- Frank Lloyd Wright

"The object of war is not to die for your country but to make the other bastard die for his."
- General George Patton

"I am become death, shatterer of worlds."
- Robert J. Oppenheimer

"Nothing is wrong with California that a rise in the ocean level wouldn't cure."
- Ross MacDonald

"I don't want to achieve immortality through my work; I want to achieve immortality through not dying."
- Woody Allen

"Who the hell wants to hear actors talk?"
- H. M. Warner

"The difference between fiction and reality? Fiction has to make sense."
- Tom Clancy

"It is better to be feared than loved, if you cannot be both."
- Niccolo Machiavelli

"Love is friendship set on fire."
- Jeremy Taylor

"Every normal man must be tempted at times to spit upon his hands, hoist the black flag, and begin slitting throats."
- Henry Louis Mencken

I think that's how Chicago got started. A bunch of people in New York said, 'Gee, I'm enjoying the crime and the poverty, but it just isn't cold enough, let's go west.'
- Richard Jeni

It is easy when we are in prosperity to give advice to the afflicted.
- Aeschylus

"The length of a film should be directly related to the endurance of the human bladder."
- Alfred Hitchcock.

"Build a man a fire, and he'll be warm for a day. Set a man on fire, and he'll be warm for the rest of his life."
- Terry Pratchett.

"This is not a novel to be tossed aside lightly. It should be thrown with great force."
- Dorothy Parker.

"Assassination is the extreme form of censorship."
- George Bernard Shaw

"Not only is life a bitch, it has puppies."
- Adrienne Gusoff

"Life is a sexually transmitted disease and the mortality rate is one hundred percent."
- R.D. Laing

"Don't knock masturbation, it's sex with someone I love."
- Woody Allen

"A fast word about oral contraception. I asked a girl to go to bed with me, she said 'no'."
- Woody Allen

"I believe that sex is a beautiful thing between two people. Between five, it's fantastic."
- Woody Allen

"So my choice is 'Or Death?'."
- Eddie Izzard

He's not stupid; he's possessed by a retarded ghost.

Keep talking, someday you'll say something intelligent.

The Laziest man I ever met put popcorn in his pancakes so they would turn over by themselves.

I am free of all prejudices. I hate everyone equally.
- W.C. Fields

Remember, today is the tomorrow you worried about yesterday.
- Dale Carnegie

The hippies wanted peace and love. We wanted Ferraris, blondes and switchblades.
- Alice Cooper

Imprisoned in every thin man a fat one is wildly signalling to be let out.
- Cyril Connolly

Thin people are beautiful, but fat people are adorable.
- Jackie Gleason

All the world's a stage, And all the men and women merely players. They have their exits and entrances, And one man in his time plays many parts.
- William Shakespeare

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:: 2003 24 April :: 10.11 am
:: Music: Savage Garden - Two Beds and a Coffee Machine

You know, I have a very strange feeling...I DON'T WANT ANY PIE!!! I don't know why, either...I'm kinda disappointed...

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:: 2003 23 March :: 6.45 pm

EVERYBODY CLICK IT!!!
Donate Weapons of Mass Destruction

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:: 2003 21 March :: 2.00 pm

Jessica's goddamn rock solid ghetto shiznit name is Tempestuous Shizzlemah.
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Justin's goddamn rock solid ghetto shiznit name is Stim-U-L8 Boo-T.
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:: 2003 21 March :: 1.57 pm

Wally's goddamn rock solid ghetto shiznit name is Fallopian Teapot, Yo.
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Jill's goddamn rock solid ghetto shiznit name is Fellatio Ice.
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