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Ok i just thought I would write and tell every one hello so HELLO!!!! life sucks men suck but hey! I'm finally off restriction go me!!!! love to all Kat
MIKE IS GETTING ME A PLANE TICKET TO FLY OUT AND SEE HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
YAY!!! and he told kerry that i am the perfect girl *eeek! i get giggley inside when i think about that moment!*
so, that is about all of it, but i thought you guys would be interested. I think it is very possible that in four years i will be getting married maybe not to him but then again, maybe to him....
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2005 25 July :: 2.49pm
:: Music: Lou Reed- Romeo had Juliette
Caught between the twisted stars the plotted lines the faulty map
that brought Columbus to New York
Betwixt between the East and West he calls on her wearing a leather vest
the earth squeals and shudders to a halt
A diamond crucifix in his ear is used to help ward off the Fear
that he has left his soul in someone's rented car
Inside his pants he hides a mop to clean the mess that he has dropped
into the life of lithesome Juliette Bell
And Romeo wanted Juliette and Juliette wanted Romeo
And Romeo wanted Juliette and Juliette wanted Romeo
Romeo Rodriguez squares his shoulders and curses Jesus
runs a comb through his black pony-tail
He's thinking of his lonely room
the sink that by his bed gives off a stink
Then smells her perfume in his eyes and her voice was like a bell
Outside the street were steaming the crack dealers were dreaming
of an Uzi someone had just scored
I betcha I could hit that light with my one good arm behind my back
says little Joey Diaz
Brother give me another tote those downtown hoods are no damn good
those Italians need a lesson to be taught
This cop who died in Harlem you think they'd get the warnin'
I was dancing when his brains run out on the street
And Romeo had Juliette and Juliette had her Romeo
And Romeo had Juliette and Juliette had her Romeo
I'll take Manhattan in a garbage bag with Latin written on it that says
"It's hard to give a shit these days"
Manhattan's sinking like a rock, into the filthy Hudson what a shock
they wrote a book about it, they said it was like ancient Rome
The perfume burned his eyes, holding tightly to her thighs
and something flickered for a minute and then it vanished and was gone
Your humor's mostly innocent and off-the-cuff, but somehow there's something slightly menacing about you. Part of your humor is making people a little uncomfortable, even if the things you say aren't in and of themselves confrontational. You probably have a very dry delivery, or are seriously over-the-top. Your type is the most likely to appreciate a good insult and/or broken bone and/or very very fat person dancing.
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so i have been replaced by my old pre-graduation self. i am depressed for no fucking reason. i want to injure myself just to feel pain somewhere other than my heart. i called and woke mike up, which made me feel even shittier, but i found out that he will be home for both christmas and thanksgiving, not that it really makes a difference.
i officially have no fucking life now because all i am allowed to do is work and sit at home, waiting for college to start. i can only go downtown to work out and then i can only stay downtown once a week to hang out with my "friends".
mike says welcome to his world, but at least he gets paid decent money for being alone, i barely make the bills, and it just makes me want to smoke even more, but today was my last pack, so there goes the comfort in that. make it all go away... i need to be in a fucking strait jacket, because all i want to do is pull out the knife in my purse and stab my leg. god dammit.
oh, but on the good side, i got my student loan and i am going to see bowling for soup- my first non-parent forced concert. so yay, i guess...
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2005 19 July :: 6.33pm
:: Music: Rilo Kiley- Bad news
i am having a hard time coping right now. i don't want to live at home, and i miss mike, but i can't call him because i don't want to be clingy and i need to know if he is the one that i really want, but i don't know how to just go out and fool around even though i have plenty of guys around me all the time now.
i love how it always turns out the way lizzy said it would, sex was so great for me, but it complicated it all so much. i just hope she is right about him loving me... i am just scared because we never see each other and everything is so damn uncertain. And i have this damn migrane that is not helping at all. grrrr.
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2005 19 July :: 2.03pm
:: Mood: somewhat perplexed
welcome to yet another complication in my life
i am rh-negative. this means that my body lacks a certain protein on the surface of my red blood cells. if my baby's father is rh-negative as well, the baby is fine. if my baby's father is rh-positive, then my baby is in danger. my immune system will recognize my baby's rh-positive red blood cells as foreign to my rh-negative blood and will begin producing antibodies intended to destroy my baby's blood cells. chances are, the first pregnancy will not be affected. by the second pregnancy, however, the antibodies will have had time to grow in strength and number. Once the antibodies begin attacking, they can lower a baby's red blood cell count, which can lead to jaundice, anemia, mental retardation, and heart failure, among other problems. it can also be fatal in utero or shortly after delivery. which is where the rhogam shot comes in. the rhogam shot helps neutralize these antibodies, and thus saves the baby.
the downfalls of the rhogam shot...
1.) the shot neutralizes the antibodies...by doing so it also seriously handicaps the immune system.
2.) the shot is made from human plasma and carries a high risk of transmitting undetectable infectious diseases.
3.) the shot also contains a high amount of mercury. the mercury from the shot, combined with the immunizations that a child is required to receive, yields a gut-wrenchingly high risk of autism.
so...its either i have only one child, stand risk for my kids to have severe problems, or simply screen potential fathers. so to avoid all this crap...im jus gunna haveta screen everyone before i sleep with them. another annoying aspect of my life.
i'm back in the game, sorry to mike but i can't wait for you to call and i won't see you until december. i have to see if i really want you anyways. that's my instruction from kerry, experiment, and if you still think of mikey, well then, that's what you want. but at least i know what else is out there...
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2005 18 July :: 10.28pm
:: Music: the good that won't come out of me
lyrics
sometimes i'd like to embarass myself by getting drunk and falling down in the street.... you said i chose sadness, that it never once has chosen me( maybe you're right)
Boo
Yeah, just thought I would right to tell every one I'm alive!!! not a lot is going on here just a lot of stress..... To much to do not enough time or money, or time off of work for that matter. Kyra's getting big talks a lot though! any way gotta go .
Later
K
